I have been diagnosed with bipolar 2 last october when i was admitted into hospital. I thought it was depression only. I am on wellebutrin, lithium and a small dose of seroquil at night to sleep. I often cry still. Some days are fine and others i feel like i dont have a life and i couldnt care less if i didnt. what is going on with me?. I wish i could control the tears when i feel sad. I stay up at night so I can have time just for me to cry without anyone asking questions which i couldnt answer anyway.

I am looking forward to having a reply as i am really unsure of myself at this time and this bipolar diagnosis. thanks

Sue1963,
Welcome to the wonderful world of Bi-Polar, what a trip, your great one moment and the next you can't control the tears
Sometimes I feel like what am I doing in this crazy world and the next I can't figure out why I felt that way!
I've been in and out of the hospital for this one med. after another, "YUCK"
My place of choice for crying is the shower, or like you say when know ones around, because there is no way to explain why your crying
Oh well, I,d love to chat with you,
Please take care and know you aren't alone on this hellish trip were on
Gentle Hugz, Debora E.:confused:

so i take it the drugs you're on aren't doing anything for you? i will share my experience with you and hopefully something i have to say helps.

i tried wellbutrin when i was first diagnosed and WOW did that do a number on me. made me manic or i had a mixed episode, i don't know what...all i know is i had never had that intense of a mood EVER. worst i've felt in my whole life. then my doc switched me to abilify, which has done wonders for my irritability as well as my grandiose opinions of myself (didn't understand that they were grandiose until i got put in my place by the meds and had "normal" opinions of myself. i still find myself wondering if those grandiose ideas were right, though...BAD! stop thinking that!! i think that's the behavioral side of bp). the depression still remained, though, and increasing the abilify wasn't helping with that, so my doc put me on lamictal as well and let me tell you i have had the best four weeks of my life while taking this drug...wanting to crawl in a hole and hide for no reason at all (and actually following through on that) and worse, those feelings have all disappeared. additionally, the anxiety about EVERYTHING that i have felt all my life is gone. the past three weeks i have been able to accomplish more than i have in the past YEAR, no kidding. and not because i'm manic either...i had no idea i could feel this good.

so...anyway. there is hope. stick around on this board and ask lots of questions...this board is awesome for that. i would also suggest that if you don't see the meds working for you and it has been since october, see if you can try some other things (abilify and lamictal get my vote, though they work differently for everyone...luckily they were the first drugs i tried, too, and they have worked surprisingly fast).

please keep seeking help. there is hope!

I am so sorry you are down. I can relate. I go in my room and cry sometimes and my kids or husband ask why and I really have no idea. Some times the simplest thing overwhelms me and it makes me cry. My tdoc told me to try positive affirmations to boost my mind into a state where I can handle things without tears more often.

Hi,

Just wanted to chime in here with a little of my own experience. Today has been Hell Day for me, and the coming week is one I don't think I can possibly handle. I am manic and hysterical inside, exhauted, but can't rest...and I just go into tears, too.

ia tell myself that it will pass, and it does, and maybe you could think that, too, as unbelievable as it may seem. Meds, for me, are crucial, just crucial, and I think if you get on the right ones, they will help a ton.

Antidepressants never did anything for me. I"m on Lamictal, too, which has helped more than I can say. That and the positive, caring support on this board and from a couple of groups I attend.

Crying is okay, except that we cry when there's no obvious reason to. That is the illness. And it can be treated, so don't give up, get the right meds, and post here frequently. We will support you.

Wishing you all the best,

Seaturtle

Sue, unfortunately as the others have posted in the wonderful world of BP you are perfectly normal. I know it sucks! Somedays I cry so much I wonder how their can possibly be any tears left? My choice locations for bursting into tears for no apparant reasons are usual the bathtub, or while I'm driving down the road. I

'm BPII, BP Depression to the point of being suicidal on various occasions. I take Seroquel 450mg, Zoloft 50mg, Topomax 75 mg, and just started Lamictal yesterday. I also take Ambien CR and Sonata as I'm severe insomniac. Plus a handfull of other meds for chronic pain, blah, blah, enough of my sob story.

The people on this board are great, the hold you when you're down, they don't require explanations, and they understand where you're coming from. This is the only support group I use as i'm very introverted and not really into people.

Do you have a pdoc? I'm a big believer in the proper combination of the right doctors, and the right meds. It sounds like maybe the meds you're on aren't necesarily the right ones for you, getting the right "cocktail" and dosage can be tiresome and aggrivating but you have to hang in there and work it through.

Keep talking to us, let us know how it's going.

well, at least now i really am not alone and i am not going crazy. You know it is really hard to talk about this even you a family member because if you are not going through it yourself, you dont understand. I will keep you posted and will keep reading other people's suggestions.

Sue,
Just thought I'd check in and see how you were doing today? I like you don't really talk much about my BP to my family, they are for the most part very judgemental, so I use this board as my outlet. Let us know how you're doing, kay?

That's what I noticed about crying - am I crying because I'm sad, upset about something or manic? I'm BP1 I guess but I don't have many manic episodes but I sure have been "teary" lately. Have developed panic attacks which I think are worse than the BP. Just my own opinion but the panic attacks are brutal. The pdoc gave me Ativan for them but I prefer Xanax for them and hope and pray she will make the change. Ativan isn't for PA anyway, she should know that. It's for general anxiety but not outright panic attacks. How do I tactfully approach the doctor about this without crying? I'm assuming I'll still be in a crying jag next week when I see her. Thanks. I wish I was on Lamictal instead of Seroquel. I only take 50 mg of Seroquel but I think it's inhibiting my attempts at weight loss. I'm pretty depressed today - at least I'm typing depressed - sorry all. :(

Omni,
Why worry about whether you cry in front of your pdoc, it might do good for her to see you in your "true" state at the current time. Maybe you should talk to her about your desire to change medications, you never know what they'll say until you ask, don't be scared to be proactive in your own recovery. Personally my pdoc gets irritated with me if I'm not proactive in my recovery, he encourages me to ask for what I want, now that's not to say that he automatically does it or gives it, but he treats me like an active "player" in this game called BiPolar, and not just a bystander.

kmit 524
I am feeling not too bad today but yesterday was rotten. I have already talked to the doctor about changing meds but she doesnt listen to me , its all about controll and she is the one that has it. I am so sick of this like you cant even imagine. Last week I had an appt with her and because she got three faxes from the pharmacie the same week she gave me shit and said I should be finishing all my meds at the same time and she would not ok any more faxes from the pharmacie in my name again, if I run out she said she didnt care that whe would rather see me feel bad for a few days before my appt. than have me take too much. I dont get it , it they dont all finish on the same day , its because she has decreased on one and the other i had left over from before i was admitted. She acually thinks I take less of some and more of another and if I am not, maybe I am selling them...........I am so pissed I dont even want to go back to see her but you know what , i have had time to think about this all week and i am going to go back and let her know how i felt about her accusations and she will get a piece of my mind.

I dont go see her for the pleasure of going to the hospital, I see her for her to listen to me. Well, that never happens, its always her trying to control. Anyway enought said, dont want to bore you with my problems but who else do I have to vent to, my husband doesnt really understand and my family, well they might as well not exist. Ok, well got to go now and i will write back. sue

Sue,

It really sounds like you and your pdoc might not be the right "fit" for each other. Have you considered finding a new one? You don't need to be in a relationship with your pdoc where she's making you feel worse about yourself, this is so counterproductive. I would start checking around for a new one ASAP, someone that specializes in BP and BP Depression. I just took about 5 minutes and surfed around google and used specific Docfinder search engines and found many Psychitrists in many of the man Canadian Regions. I'm not sure how limited you insurance is, but it seems like it be worth checking out, You sound like a very nice woman who would probably be very receptive to the propper therapist and propper drug combo. Keep posting us and let us know how you are feeling. And we'll keep sending good thought your way. Hang in there hon, you're not alone!

oh my gosh sue! It is time for a new pdoc and I'm glad that you see that too. What the heck is her problem? Of course it is logical that all of your meds will probably not run out on the exact same day due to a lot of reasons. I finally got mine to pretty much be that way but still I always have a lot more lamictal left than the provigil or abilify. She is being unreasonable. But I am proud of you for going back to her and giving her a piece of your mind. She needs to know that her behavior is unnacceptable!