Gioparis
04-30-2008, 03:18 AM
I never thought i might have OCD- but now i do
ive always been afriad of someone i love leaving me..going away or dying...ever since i was a child, im 25 now. my parents divorced when i was 2- i never thought it affected me but i think it did...i always worried my mother would leave me and would always be soo anxious and worried if shes even one minute late from coming back from work..id get stomach aches and diherrea from the fear that something had happened to her. if she went out at night i would call whoever's house she was in and ask if shes still there..and if she leaves id call over and over to make sure shes ok.
Im married now and im also afraid my husband will leave me. I have bad thoughts of him cheating, or even, god forbid, him dying or getting into an accident.. these thoughts are always in my head and its driving me crazy.
Now i have a baby whos 2 months and my thoughts are moving on to her aswell.....is this OCD? i do have little habbits like not being able to sleep if i know the closet door is open and id have to check it a few times, working out up to the minute- say if i did 29 min and 59 seconds id go back and do one second because i must do exactly 30min..and stuff like that..
ive always been afriad of someone i love leaving me..going away or dying...ever since i was a child, im 25 now. my parents divorced when i was 2- i never thought it affected me but i think it did...i always worried my mother would leave me and would always be soo anxious and worried if shes even one minute late from coming back from work..id get stomach aches and diherrea from the fear that something had happened to her. if she went out at night i would call whoever's house she was in and ask if shes still there..and if she leaves id call over and over to make sure shes ok.
Im married now and im also afraid my husband will leave me. I have bad thoughts of him cheating, or even, god forbid, him dying or getting into an accident.. these thoughts are always in my head and its driving me crazy.
Now i have a baby whos 2 months and my thoughts are moving on to her aswell.....is this OCD? i do have little habbits like not being able to sleep if i know the closet door is open and id have to check it a few times, working out up to the minute- say if i did 29 min and 59 seconds id go back and do one second because i must do exactly 30min..and stuff like that..
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OCDwontgetme
05-05-2008, 12:25 PM
it seems that you have a common type of OCD.
i know you are worried about your husband, but YOU know he will not cheat on you and YOU know that he is ok, so when you begin to have a thought like that, try saying, "Its not me, its the OCD" and try your absolute HARDEST not to call or think about him dying. I know its hard, it will NOT be easy, i am going through the SAME thing with my fiance. but all i do is i tell him, i told him about how i have OCD and how other people do to, how all i need is to be helped and tell him that im constantly worried about him dying or getting hurt and that its normal for people to think like this and you can over come it, but i just need some help. he took the time and tried to understand everything that i was going through and still to this day he helps me. i really think you need to just tell yourself "Its not me, its the OCD" confide in your husband and don't let this control you. Prozac works the best, dont be embarrassed. Go to your doctor, say i think i have OCD, im constantly worrying, i want something to help me and he/she will give you some kind of prozac or pill to help. and they DO help more than i can tell you. you feel a LOT of relief but you CANNOT just hope the pills help, you need to learn to help yourself! Trust me. you can do this
Good luck :)
Kellie
i know you are worried about your husband, but YOU know he will not cheat on you and YOU know that he is ok, so when you begin to have a thought like that, try saying, "Its not me, its the OCD" and try your absolute HARDEST not to call or think about him dying. I know its hard, it will NOT be easy, i am going through the SAME thing with my fiance. but all i do is i tell him, i told him about how i have OCD and how other people do to, how all i need is to be helped and tell him that im constantly worried about him dying or getting hurt and that its normal for people to think like this and you can over come it, but i just need some help. he took the time and tried to understand everything that i was going through and still to this day he helps me. i really think you need to just tell yourself "Its not me, its the OCD" confide in your husband and don't let this control you. Prozac works the best, dont be embarrassed. Go to your doctor, say i think i have OCD, im constantly worrying, i want something to help me and he/she will give you some kind of prozac or pill to help. and they DO help more than i can tell you. you feel a LOT of relief but you CANNOT just hope the pills help, you need to learn to help yourself! Trust me. you can do this
Good luck :)
Kellie
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05-07-2008, 02:50 PM
oh my goodness! I'm sorry you're going through this, but it provided me with some relief. I also had a huge fear of abandonment when I was little. When my mom started leaving us at home alone to run errands, I would sit and cry and become extremely afraid that she would die and never come back. Even now, when someone is late or something, I get worried. Sometimes I have these weird thoughts like, what if my DH left to go get the mail and never came back? I often have thoughts pop up in my mind about never throwing stuff away because what if my loved one dies and that's all I have to remember them by?
So strange. I also have the cheating fear - going through it BAD right now. I'm afraid he will leave me for someone else. It's really sad. He has always been faithful and committed to me, and so, so not the type to cheat. But I find myself feeling absolutely crazy - like he goes to play golf. Is he really playing golf? Drives me nuts!
I do have OCD (have many other obsessions too), and have been diagnosed, and this definitely sounds like OCD to me. I hope you get some help soon!
So strange. I also have the cheating fear - going through it BAD right now. I'm afraid he will leave me for someone else. It's really sad. He has always been faithful and committed to me, and so, so not the type to cheat. But I find myself feeling absolutely crazy - like he goes to play golf. Is he really playing golf? Drives me nuts!
I do have OCD (have many other obsessions too), and have been diagnosed, and this definitely sounds like OCD to me. I hope you get some help soon!
fastfwd
05-24-2008, 02:21 AM
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