i have been depressed it seems like forever, i resently left a jerk that was making me feel worse, we lived together for 2 years, for the last year i was treated like i was only here to raise the kids and cook, well i thought id be better if i go him out of the house, well hes been gone for over 2 weeks and now i have no one to talk to and when i try to talk to his mom and brother they act like im crazy, all i want is some one to talk to, when i decided i was going to go out to relax i was told that i wasnt supposed to stay home and be a mom and it was stupid to go out when i should just be home, i know i need to be here for my kids, but how do i do that when im so uncomfortable with myself? i get so lonely at night, and i cry all day, wont someone talk to me

Don't think like that. A lot of people want to talk but I guess maybe people are a little fraustrated these days because, you know, times are a little hard for everyone now. You're not a burden, don't think that you are a burden. I know how you feel. I was always with someone before and he was the only person I was comfortable enough to share my thoughts with, now he have some stuff he have to take care of so he don't have time to talk to me either. I became very quiet now. Anytime I feel like taking to someone, I write a diary. You probably think that is so silly, but at least in a way, I let it out.
Your kids needs you, they love you a lot.


You can always talk to us here on the board. :)

Take care and best wishes

well things are worse, my cat was just hit by a truck.... i did used to write in a diary, but he got into it and made fun of me every time, i know he is gone now, but i still hurt, and not ma beautiful cat lays on the road outside:( life truly sucks

Aw, Honey, I am so sorry for what you are going through now. While you may miss your guy, it sounds like you are going to be so much better off without him. HE made you feel like a burden. It sounds like he belittled you at every opportunity. All Mom's need and deserve a break - a little time out to have fun without little kids hanging on you. Don't listen to any of the baloney him or his family may say to you. You are as much entitled to a "life" as anyone.

Now it is time to start being pro-active for yourself. Your kids need a Mom that is not mourning a loser. Please see a doctor. Maybe an anti-depressant will help or just some talk therapy. How about your own family? Your Mom, any siblings...

Also, I bet a job - even part time - would make you feel so much better about yourself.

I am so sorry about your kitty. I have 5 cats and love them. I understand the grief you must be feeling. Cry for the kitty, not for the jerk. And while it's hard to loose a pet, remember, you gave that kitty a good life it would not have had if not for you. You are a beautiful person, not a burden...

Feel better soon,

JB