On past Mother's days, I would honor my mother and tell her how much I love her but I also yearned for the day I would hold my own child. Last Mother's day, I finally got my chance. My daughter just turned one. She was my IVF miracle that I thought would never happen. But today, a day that is so emotionally hard on some of us for so many reasons, I am also sad. I mourn my own mother today. She died during my last IVF cycle, about a month before I found out I was pregnant. I named my daughter after her and when I look into her eyes today and everyday, I know her grandmother shines through her. She is the light of my life and my angel from heaven.:angel:

Happy Mother's Day to all!
Some of you may be mothers already. Some may be mommies to be; already caring and nurturing the little one inside you. Some may play a "mother's role" in your daily jobs as a nurse or teacher or nanny or loving aunt or simply through guidance of others like here on this board. And some, may be feeling so much love and joy from your thoughts on how you'll be a mother and you may be going through so much just to have your own miracle babies. With all that patience, heartache, and love, you know deep down you'll be some of the best mothers out there.;) You'll make a difference some day in the heart of your own child, but you already make a difference today and everyday.

I am a bit late here though just wanted to let you know that your post touched me so much.
I am sure that your mom is looking over you and your family.

Amy

Hi Krissi!

Your post made me cry!!!! How is little Ella doing? Elliana is growing like a weed I can't believe that she is 13 months and walking, talking. They are so fun! Anyway, I am back here too. I haven't officially went back to the RE yet but we have definately been trying on our own. My RE told us last time that we were to try again before any treatments due to our unexplained infertility. My cycles are much more regular since having Elliana last year but no signs of a BFP yet. I think I am going to make a phone call within the next week for an appointment. It has almost been one year for unprotected sex and we have been trying for some time now and really actively trying since January. I am going to do the OPK this month and go from there. The only downer about doing fertility this time is that we are changing doctors. I loved my RE last time but through the hospital I am now employed with I get fertility benefits 50% but I have to use their doctors. So we will give them a chance I just hope I don't have to go through all the testing again, HSG, semen analysis, etc. I just want to do what we did the month we got pregnant. I really dread starting all over again. I hated the drugs in the beginning, I didn't mind the injections but the oral meds were awful...I gained weight and they made me nuts!!!!!!

Im also thinking about accupuncture. Do you find it beneficial? There is a place by my house that offers it and one of the treatments listed was for infertility. Is there anything I should look for or ask about that you found helpful with your sessions???


Anyway, I hope you get a BFP! Its fun going through this again with someone familiar. I am happy to see that there are a lot of new names on the infertility board which hopefully means all the wonderful ladies got their BFP and little miracles like we did. Its a journey but it is definately worth it. I honestly believe that this experience has made me appreciate Elliana so much more and I am a better mother and person for that!

Good luck! Talk to you soon.
Koukla:)

Hi koukla!!:wave:
I'm so glad Elliana is doing well! Ella is also such a sweety.:D She's taking some steps and saying "tankyou" and "jus." I love her to pieces!

I love how we went through IF together and how we were pregnant together and how our daughters have similar names even! And how we are now going through this AGAIN together! It's comforting to know that you are out there somewhere, reading this and going through this with me. We've been there for each other for a long while!

I also have to change REs. I loved my RE but she wasn't really "there" during my last cycle. She went on vacation and I was passed around from one RE to another in the clinic, which I didn't mind that much because they are all very good, but one really ticked me off during my ET, swaying my decision to put more than 2 back (nastily giving me her opinion). And then, it was like my RE took all the credit after I was pg when it was really a collective thing among the doctors. That's actually not the reason I'm leaving. The incompetency of the financial department has left such a sour distaste and we don't want to go through that again. The money part of it should not have even been stressful since we had mostly everything paid for. So, now we are on a hunt for a new place.

I think if you get 50% fertility benefits through another RE, that would sincerely be a blessing!! Even if there's not another doctor you absolutely love like the last, financially, it will be alot less stressful! I think that's great!! I don't know how much more stress it would have been for me, knowing how much money I was laying out especially when my first IVF and FET didn't work out!

I DEFINITELY recommend acupuncture. I think it absolutely got me pregnant! I love my acupuncturist!:D She is so knowledgeable. She has been helping me try naturally for baby #2 since January. That has also helped my cycles be more regular. So far, no BFP yet, which is frustrating but we will still go to her until we get one! I say "we" because my DH is also going to help his situation. I would look for someone who specializes in infertility. Mine was recommended through my RE. I would also ask if you can get a session the day of your transfer. Mine actually came to my clinic and did a session minutes before my transfer across the hall! She said it would put all the proper "chi" in all the right places.

Talk to you soon! Good luck!!:angel: