I was doing so good... dealing with and gaining weight from anorexia. All of a sudden I have become jumpy and food obsessive again.

I have my thoughts as to what might be setting me off, but I have no idea what to do about them. I don't go to a therapist, but do see a doctor for regular weight checks when I am doing bad. I haven't seen him much because I had been doing so good. I will be making another appointment to see him this week.

My last relationship was totally ruined by my eating disorder and my stresses. I am in a sorta new relationship and fear this one will follow the same path and become ruined... I can't go through this pain again. These thoughts are part of my stress...

I know I need help. Again. I just really wanted to say how much this sucks and I hate it. I have been dealing with this for 17 years. 17 years in circles and I am tired. It is difficult, lonely, and embarrassing.

sweetsourcat

Hello S,

You may benefit from seeing a therapist.

There may be underlying causes to your triggers regarding stress.

Are you opposed to seeing a psychiatrist for the possibility of medicinal therapy?

Your stress reactions unfortunately will not go away by themselves.

Just a thought.

Take care.

Phoenix

I live in a very rural area... and the therapists here are not very helpful. I have seen 2 different ones, and they are not very "qualified" to treat eating disorders. (one was giving me weight loss tips) I do take zoloft, which I can increase - because I have before. I am also going to see my family doctor and see what he says this time around...

This is so tiresome.

Thanks for your help -

sweetsourcat

Hello S,

So the therapists were not qualified to treat stress disorders, which seem to be the driving force of your eating disorder?

There may be self-esteem issues to discuss, which probably can be traced back to childhood and others.

Seeing your prescribing physician is definitely the way to go; maybe you can run a few ideas past him.

Take care.

Phoenix

I understand your pain. May I ask how your ED ruined your past relationship? What was it about the anorexia that so affected the relationship? I ask b/c my ED completely ruins my dating life! It's hard but be strong!

Well, I don't know if it the new relationship energy, the need to be perfect, or just plain being nervous and needing control... but my eating always goes really bad when I start a new relationship. It has been like this ever since I started dating. Sometimes it is worse than others. I had a lot of other stresses during the time of my previous relationship... and my ED got to an all time low. I just got so ill that the relationship needed to end. Somewhere in these boards, there is another post about it. I posted last year when I didn't know where else to go for help.

I understand these patterns now and struggle with changing them... It is hard sometimes. Other times it comes easy... I know that when I start a new relationship - I need to remember to eat and sleep properly. It helps keep my head in check.

sweetsourcat