NVD
05-19-2008, 11:24 PM
Hi Beka, I'm not sure if you're even visiting the boards anymore...but if you are, I just wanted to say hello. Been thinking of you a lot lately...hoping you're doing okay. I know things were hard last time we talked.
((hugs))
Amber
((hugs))
Amber
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beka6
06-13-2008, 03:08 PM
Amber,
How are you? I have been reading a few old posts today and I came across this one. I also read about your baby girl. I am completely shocked to hear about Arianna's passing. I am so sorry, Amber. How are you coping these days? I just cannot believe how much you have had to endure.
I'm sorry for not being here when you needed support. Things have just been overwhelming the past few months.
If you can, please let me know how you are doing these days.
Beka
How are you? I have been reading a few old posts today and I came across this one. I also read about your baby girl. I am completely shocked to hear about Arianna's passing. I am so sorry, Amber. How are you coping these days? I just cannot believe how much you have had to endure.
I'm sorry for not being here when you needed support. Things have just been overwhelming the past few months.
If you can, please let me know how you are doing these days.
Beka
NVD
06-13-2008, 04:06 PM
Hi Beka, It is so good to hear from you. I thought you had just left the boards. How are you? You say things have been too overwhelming...how are you now? I hope you're doing okay.
The last couple of months have been hell on Earth here...very hard. But we're here, trying to deal with everything.
Arianna's passing really has changed our lives. I'm going through more therapy than I'd like to admit to try and get through this, and am struggling horribly with the flashbacks from finding her that morning. I just started EMDR for what I thought was going to be for those flashbacks, but the therapist wants to work on the issues of the past first. Not sure I'll go back, as I need immediate relief for the now...
Anyway, I'm glad to hear that you're at least okay. It's good to hear from you Beka, I've missed talking with you. (((Hugs)))
Amber
The last couple of months have been hell on Earth here...very hard. But we're here, trying to deal with everything.
Arianna's passing really has changed our lives. I'm going through more therapy than I'd like to admit to try and get through this, and am struggling horribly with the flashbacks from finding her that morning. I just started EMDR for what I thought was going to be for those flashbacks, but the therapist wants to work on the issues of the past first. Not sure I'll go back, as I need immediate relief for the now...
Anyway, I'm glad to hear that you're at least okay. It's good to hear from you Beka, I've missed talking with you. (((Hugs)))
Amber
NVD
07-16-2008, 04:04 AM
Hi Beka, was just thinking of you, and hoping you're doing okay. ((hugs))
beka6
07-29-2008, 11:17 AM
Hi Amber,
You are always so kind to ask how I'm doing. Things right now are pretty bad. We just went through a move to a different state and the stress of it all has taken it's toll. There is a lot going on with my daughter right now as well. But, I can feel that it all has the potential to get better, so I just need to hang on for a while.
How are you? Are you still doing EMDR? I was surprised to hear that your therapist wanted to start EMDR on the past issues before dealing with the flashbacks from finding your sweet daughter. I know every therapist has their own technique, but whatever is causing you the most distress should be the first target of EMDR - or at least that is what my EMDR therapist told me. How are things progressing?
Thanks, again, Amber for caring. I have been a complete mess for months and I know I need to pull myself together... Please let me know how you are doing.
Beka
You are always so kind to ask how I'm doing. Things right now are pretty bad. We just went through a move to a different state and the stress of it all has taken it's toll. There is a lot going on with my daughter right now as well. But, I can feel that it all has the potential to get better, so I just need to hang on for a while.
How are you? Are you still doing EMDR? I was surprised to hear that your therapist wanted to start EMDR on the past issues before dealing with the flashbacks from finding your sweet daughter. I know every therapist has their own technique, but whatever is causing you the most distress should be the first target of EMDR - or at least that is what my EMDR therapist told me. How are things progressing?
Thanks, again, Amber for caring. I have been a complete mess for months and I know I need to pull myself together... Please let me know how you are doing.
Beka
NVD
07-30-2008, 05:57 PM
Hi Beka, I'm sorry to hear things are hard right now. I know how stressful a move is...it's hard enough to move if you were just moving next door. Moving to another state is very difficult. We've done it twice in the last ten months...no fun at all.
Where did you move to? And what's going on with your daughter? Are you going to get back into therapy? This seems like a sudden move?
I haven't gone back for the EMDR. I think you have to be ready for it, and I'm so not there. I wonder sometimes, if I've just gotten comfortable here. God I hope not. The days are harder and harder to get through. This stuff with Ari, has done something to me. I've always been able to stand back up after something happens. I struggled, but I eventually got up. This time, well, not so much. It's been so hard, Beka. I'm trying to be strong, and be there for my family, but I would really like to just crawl under a rock. Of course, that mask goes up almost all the time saying that I'm coping okay...but underneath, I'm just a mess. I don't know. Everyone says that time will make the pain a little less intense...I'm holding hope for those days.
Please keep in touch Beka. I think of you often...so many people are gone from the boards these days.
Hang in there, and I'm here to listen if you need to talk. Try and be gentle with yourself...(((hugs)))
Amber
Where did you move to? And what's going on with your daughter? Are you going to get back into therapy? This seems like a sudden move?
I haven't gone back for the EMDR. I think you have to be ready for it, and I'm so not there. I wonder sometimes, if I've just gotten comfortable here. God I hope not. The days are harder and harder to get through. This stuff with Ari, has done something to me. I've always been able to stand back up after something happens. I struggled, but I eventually got up. This time, well, not so much. It's been so hard, Beka. I'm trying to be strong, and be there for my family, but I would really like to just crawl under a rock. Of course, that mask goes up almost all the time saying that I'm coping okay...but underneath, I'm just a mess. I don't know. Everyone says that time will make the pain a little less intense...I'm holding hope for those days.
Please keep in touch Beka. I think of you often...so many people are gone from the boards these days.
Hang in there, and I'm here to listen if you need to talk. Try and be gentle with yourself...(((hugs)))
Amber
NVD
07-30-2008, 05:57 PM
oops, it posted twice.
Amber
Amber