Struggling from day to day to cope with my grief. Have seen someone about my grief but as other people have said I feel worst after I come out.

Keep listening to Jozef's favourite music that we played at his funeral by Jonathan Coulton and it's called "Still Alive". It keeps talking about science which Jozef was very much into.

Am I wrong I wrong listening to this? As this music seems to help me get my grief open but also in a private room.

To everyone who has lost someone my thoughts and prayers are with you.

I am sorry to hear that your son has passed and my prayers are with you. You need to do whatever is necessary to help you with your grief. Listening to the music which he enjoyed, and seems to help you, is absolutely the right thing to do. I lost my husband suddenly 3 years ago and know the depth of the pain you are in. I went to grief support groups and yes, you might seem to feel worse afterwards,but it helped me tremendously. To be with other people whom were experiencing the very same emotions and sorrows as I was, helped me. It also gave me the opportunity to talk about Ben, which was so important. Talk about your son, let your emotions out, it is all part of the grieving process. I thought that I would never be able to enjoy life again, as I'm sure you are feeling. Although I think of my late husband every single day, I can now think of good memories and appreciate the time we had together. Please know that the pain will lessen with time. You need to live on, as your son would want. Reach out to family, hospice and to the people on this board who truly can feel your pain. It will take time, but you will eventually have days without this horrible pain. You will never forget your wonderful son, but you will live on and have happiness again. Bless you and my prayers and thoughts are with you.