Robinatlanta
07-04-2008, 07:55 PM
Someone help diagnose me. I get these periods in my life that are usually triggered by an event. Like loosing my job or financial troubles etc. I am going through that now. So along with this I feel very depressed and hopeless. I also suffer with anxiety and panic attacks that seem to come with this depression. I have been off antidepressents and Klonopin for 2 yeARS AND ALL WAS FINE. Last month I lost my job and now I am back in this tailspin I know all too ofton. The dr just yesterday put me back on Klonopin and Lexapro. I havent begun it yet. Now here is the kicker. Along with the depression and anxiety I feel paranoid to a degree, well I dont know if its paranoia or just obsesive thoughts. I start to worry that I am going to get arrested for something (I havent done anyting illegal, its just a fear) and be put in jail and my wife and 3 kids will be left homeless with no money because I am in jail and they will not even have the money to visit me in jail and then she will divorce me and my kids will wind up in foster home.........So i know its all irrational thinking, but its like these thoughts get in my head and wont leave. If I see the news and see a story about some on going to jail, it will trigger this roller coaster ride of obsessive thoughts. Its like I become THAT person on the news. Or here is one even better. I am in business for myself, and I have a website. I have gotton obsessed with seeing who is looking at my website. I check sometimes 4 times a day, and if I get any .gov hits I start to immagine its some sort of investigation and I am being watched. Last week I got a hit from the IRS and that put me deep into my roller-coaster thinking that I am going to go to jail for tax evasion. I start to think that the $39.00 I forgot to declare on my 1977 taxes has finally caught up to me.......when in reality, I get tons of web traffic from consumers, and more then likely some of them work in government offices and if an IRS employee happens to be shopping for eyeglasses online on her lunch hour, and doing it on a government computer, it will show up as a hit from irs.gov............So I ask you people WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!
By the way, all these symptoms of depression, anxiety, and paranoia come together and are triggered by a stressful event. Right now its lack of money and loss of my job. I need some advice please
By the way, all these symptoms of depression, anxiety, and paranoia come together and are triggered by a stressful event. Right now its lack of money and loss of my job. I need some advice please
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injured betty
07-05-2008, 02:45 AM
If you beat benzos once, don't test fate. They can be hell to get off of.
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Robinatlanta
07-05-2008, 01:01 PM
Well, I wouldnt use the term "beat them" really. I took them wen I needed them, and then stopped when I felt I didnt, IT wasnt hell to stop, in fact it was quite easy.
injured betty
07-05-2008, 07:19 PM
I am sorry if I misunderstood your situation.
Robinatlanta
07-05-2008, 07:45 PM
Nope, I was taking them every day for 2 years. No problem at all stopping. I know plenty of people who took them and stopped also with no problems
Also you shouldnt compare a medication that is prescribed by a Doctor to an illegal narcotic like crack.
Also you shouldnt compare a medication that is prescribed by a Doctor to an illegal narcotic like crack.
song4persephone
07-06-2008, 12:04 AM
It could be a symptom of PTSD. I know when I lost my home i would panic every time the phone rang or someone was at the door. My mind would go back to when the sheriff's brought the papers. My heart would just go nuts and the paranoia would go nutty. Just a thought what do you think?
Robinatlanta
07-06-2008, 01:54 AM
It could be a symptom of PTSD. I know when I lost my home i would panic every time the phone rang or someone was at the door. My mind would go back to when the sheriff's brought the papers. My heart would just go nuts and the paranoia would go nutty. Just a thought what do you think?
Well, it might be a little ptsd, I went through forclosure also and know those feelings too. But I think there is something underlieing. I mean, all through my life I have had these paranoia feeling with depression and anxiety. It usually is brought on by an "incident" like foreclosure, death of a loved one, loosing my job, a big one was an IRS audit 6 years ago. Sometimes something stoupid like seeing a strange car parked outside my house will bring on the paranoia that will last for weeks. But the one thing that they all have in common is depression, anxiety and paranoia all seem to go together
Well, it might be a little ptsd, I went through forclosure also and know those feelings too. But I think there is something underlieing. I mean, all through my life I have had these paranoia feeling with depression and anxiety. It usually is brought on by an "incident" like foreclosure, death of a loved one, loosing my job, a big one was an IRS audit 6 years ago. Sometimes something stoupid like seeing a strange car parked outside my house will bring on the paranoia that will last for weeks. But the one thing that they all have in common is depression, anxiety and paranoia all seem to go together