I Am New On This Board. The Love Of My Life Passed Away On June 17. He Went On His Bike To Go To The Store To Get Cigarettes And Less Than A Mile Down The Road A Person In A Hurry To Get Into Their Mobile Home Made A Left Turn Right In Front Of Him. He Never Got To The Store.

My Heart Aches So Much. I Hate Going To Sleep And I Hate Waking Up. I Am All Alone With Four Children Our Youngest Just Turned Four Months Old On The 29th. It Hurts Like Hell She Will Never Know Her Daddy. He Wont Be Here On Her First Birthday. He Adored Her So Much. My Last Memory Of Him Is Actually With Her. He Got Home From Work And I Told Him I Was Going To The Gym. He Said To Leave All The Kids And I Was Like No Just The Baby. It Was His First Time Actually Staying All Alone With Her And He Did A Great Job. When I Got Back He Was On The Floor With Her Kissing Her Feet.

My Sweetheart Then Showered Ate A Little And I Went Upstairs To Put The Kids To Bed. His Last Words To Me Was That He Was Going To The Store To Get Cigarrettes Did I Need Anything. Usually I Say Yes But That Day I Had Everything. So I Yelled From The Room No Dont Need Anything. I Heard The Bike Turn On And He Left. The Kids Fell Asleep Shortly After And I Threw His Clothes In The Wash Jumped In The Shower And Went To The Garage To Wait For Him So We Can Hang Out For A Little While.

Two Hours Went By I Thought Since He Had Just Repaired The Bike On The 16th Maybe He Went For A Ride. The Love Of My Life Never Came Back. He Was Suppose To Grow Old With Me See The Kids Grow Up Be In My Life Forever.

I Am So Empty I Wish I Could Leave With Him But Then I See The Kids. I Am So Lost. The Only Family He Had Was Me And The Only Family I Had Was Him.

I Still Cant Believe This Has Happened And I Feel Like Its Just A Nightmare I Cant Wake Up From. I Need Him So Much. He Was My Best Friend My Love I Am So Lost.

I am so sorry for you :(. I can't imagine the pain you must be in. Your children need you more than ever and you need them too. Your husband is still there with you in spirit, talk with him. He will help you be strong. Do you have access to grief counseling? There are agencies that provide these services free of charge. Check under your city/county mental health resources. ((((((HUGS)))))

I am truly sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you must be going through. I don't think there is anything anyone can say that would make things even a little better. There are so many people who have lost their loved ones, I'm sure they will tell you the pain lessens slowly, over time.
Join a support group if possible, you could use their strength in times when you feel you have none.

Focus on your children, they need you. Remember that he lives in them, they are a part of him as much as a part of you. They represent the best of the both of you.

I wish you all the strength and courage in the world.

I'm sure you will find the inner strength to help you through this difficult time the love you had andyour children you had with him will be a sourse of joy, when you look at them rejoyce in the beautiful times you both had 2gether. time will heal join 2gether with others who understand and who have had simular experiences. take time to greve accept help from those arround you. Time will heal.

I am so sorry that you have lost the love of your life. Your pain and grief must be deep. I just know that during times like this you just need to let the Lord carry you. Just know you have alot of people who love and care for you and your children and you will make it through., Hang on to the memories!Hugs and prayers to you and your children!!:angel:

I know how you're feeling. I too lost my husband June 24th. He was on his motorcycle on his way to work and someone pulled out in front of him. They said he died on impact. We were packed and ready to fly to Cancun on the 28th. Instead we had his funeral on that day. We have 2 children. A 17 year old and an 11 year old. They miss their dad terribly. I miss him more. At least in my own way. He was my best friend and soulmate. We completed each other. We had our 13th year anniversary May 19th. We vowed to give each other at least 30 more years together. I feel that my life came to a halt. I am only 38. Sometimes I don't feel like I can breathe. I don't want to do this thing called "life" without him. I miss talking to him. I reach for my phone often to call him or text him to tell him how much I love him or just to hear his voice. I have messages that I saved. (voicemail). Sometimes I play them just to hear his voice. Feels like he's speaking to me from heaven. I know I'm not alone but I sure am lonely alot. I think of him all the time. I look at pictures. Some of them are so current, it's hard to believe that any of this is true. I go to the cemetery and just sit and cry. I wish I could have him back. Just for a little while. I know your pain and your aching heart. I share that with you. I will be prayng for you and your children.

I am here with you all. I lost the love of my life, my best friend, my soulmate on July 23rd...three weeks ago today. I also feel like I don't want to go on...but I have to for our children. I also feel like my life has ended. I am waiting for him to come home, but I must know on some level that he never will because the pain is unbearable. I am so sorry to hear that others are feeling this pain as well. I wish I could reach out to you in more ways than this.

I am here with you all. I lost the love of my life, my best friend, my soulmate on July 23rd...three weeks ago today. I also feel like I don't want to go on...but I have to for our children. I also feel like my life has ended. I am waiting for him to come home, but I must know on some level that he never will because the pain is unbearable. I am so sorry to hear that others are feeling this pain as well. I wish I could reach out to you in more ways than this.

I feel your pain. I prayed for you this morning. Know that you may feel lonely sometimes. You are not alone. I still miss my hubby so much. I find myself grasping at anything to feel close to him. I wake up and search my mind to try to remember if he came to me in my dreams. He hasn't. Maybe once or twice earlier on. But not recently. I really wish he would. I don't know if that causes more pain than good. I guess I'm looking for him to fill the void that's missing. I know that God is my source and I am to look to Him in all things, yet I find myself still looking for comfort in my husband. He was my "safety net" here. He made me feel safe and loved and beautiful. I miss that. I miss his voice and his touch. I try hard to put my focus on God and Him only, but I do find myself missing my hubby so much. His physical presence here with me. It's so overwhelmimg most days. I love him so much. He's my best friend. I will be praying for you. Keep talking to me. It helps talking to someone who really understands.

I feel your pain. I prayed for you this morning. Know that you may feel lonely sometimes. You are not alone. I still miss my hubby so much. I find myself grasping at anything to feel close to him. I wake up and search my mind to try to remember if he came to me in my dreams. He hasn't. Maybe once or twice earlier on. But not recently. I really wish he would. I don't know if that causes more pain than good. I guess I'm looking for him to fill the void that's missing. I know that God is my source and I am to look to Him in all things, yet I find myself still looking for comfort in my husband. He was my "safety net" here. He made me feel safe and loved and beautiful. I miss that. I miss his voice and his touch. I try hard to put my focus on God and Him only, but I do find myself missing my hubby so much. His physical presence here with me. It's so overwhelmimg most days. I love him so much. He's my best friend. I will be praying for you. Keep talking to me. It helps talking to someone who really understands.
You have really put into words so many things I am feeling and thinking. My husband was my safety net here too. He was the one who made it ok for me to be in this world in some ways. I don't think I would have thought of it that way when he was still here......soo many things are clear now that weren't when he was here. I would give anything, anything to have any more time with him, knowing what I know now. To be able to have the chance to touch him one more time....to say goodbye and thank you. I know I can say it now, and I think he hears me, but I think I wouldn't be carrying around so much regret if he'd heard it while he was still here. I feel like if him being taken away was part of a plan, I would have let him go....I just wish I'd known....

I'll be praying for you too. Please keep talking with me too.

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How are you Little Yellow? Today was a sane day for me. I stayed busy. Been doing alot of cleaning and reorganizing. It keeps me sane. I've made several memorials for my hubby and placed strategically in the house. I miss him so much some time. At least when I stay busy, I don't feel so depressed. I went by the cemetery today. Rainy day, so I didn't get to sit as I usually do. I slept last night for the first time in a long time without meds. I hate having to take meds to sleep. I dreamt of him last night. That felt good for me. Always happy dreams. My daughter has been having a really tough time. She blames herself for her dad not being here. She will start counseling next week. As well as my son. He's just very angry. Seemingly at me. I hope you are ok and please stay in touch. I continue to pray for you!