Hello everyone,like it says in my title. i dont know if i want to talk about it but i have a feeling the PTSD and depression is slowley creeping back so please bear with me,been on meds for a while mow (prozak) and it has helped,i took myself off them because i thought i didnt need them anymore,just got into a new relationship six months ago and he has made me so happy,im not gonna lie or hide it because im not ashamed or embarrased-he is 28 years older than me. i seem to have hit a wall at the moment, he is messed up,going through a divorce which i understand and respect, he had a vesectomy 4 years ago and has told me that he dosn't know whether he wants me to have his children.i had a misscariage 2 weeks before christmas so naturally all i can think about is having children,i help look after his 6 and 4 year old and just wish they were mine.it messed me up and he thinks i wont be happy with him if he decides he dosn't want kids again,which in away i can understand but i need him to give me a chance,im sure its all coming back to me ive spent the last two nights simple crying,i hug him and cry,i kiss him and cry.i know i need patience with him and i am willing to give it. i may be 18 but i cant leave him,he stopped me taking drugs,drinking and self harming-he saved my life,
i dont need an answer to this post,im venting but i do think i may need to see a therapist if he says no to having childrenn,,,,,cassie x