pinkmada
07-31-2008, 04:44 PM
well i am very happy today, saw my oncologist who told me i am just now one year in remission and i won't see her again for another three months. all my bloods are fine and i have no lumps or bumps and i definatly dont need a scan! and my fertility tests came back and everything is fine! i am so relieved. my oestrogen levels are a bit high but she said that they will balance out over time and this is whats causing the spots and greasy hair and (most recently) dark hairs on my tummy (eugh) but she said it will settle. i will speak to my gp and ask maybe i should go on the pill? not sure but we'll see.
so really i just wanted to say thank you to everyone thats been there for me throughout all of this and calmed me down when i was getting upset and reassured me everything was going to be okay. i honestly wouldn't have coped with it as well as i (think) i did.
love
Amanda
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so really i just wanted to say thank you to everyone thats been there for me throughout all of this and calmed me down when i was getting upset and reassured me everything was going to be okay. i honestly wouldn't have coped with it as well as i (think) i did.
love
Amanda
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singer78
08-01-2008, 01:12 AM
I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Life is out there waiting for you.....
And by the way, you've helped me a lot, too, Amanda. We all need one another.
OK---Time to do the "Happy Dance." :bouncing:
Love, S.
Life is out there waiting for you.....
And by the way, you've helped me a lot, too, Amanda. We all need one another.
OK---Time to do the "Happy Dance." :bouncing:
Love, S.
lymphpre
08-01-2008, 01:32 PM
I'm very pleased for you as well Amanda. Therapists have their place, but there's nothing quite like being told "actually, everything's OK". Good news is good news.
Best wishes
Simon
Best wishes
Simon
pinkmada
08-02-2008, 01:48 PM
i just read my very first thread. it is so strange. i read it not that long ago but i still forgot most of what i had written. my first treatment i got the flu a few days later but my second treatment i had no side effects except the nausea. i forgot that i had the excrutiating hand pain and i thought the leg pain was towards the end of my treatment but it was near the beginning. but to read how i was coping is so strange to think that i dealt with it so well then but now i am having such trouble with it. and i know it really happened but it still doesnt feel real.
i can still have babies! it's really all i'm happy about at the moment!
xxx
i can still have babies! it's really all i'm happy about at the moment!
xxx
maxietoonses
08-28-2008, 11:50 PM
Congratulations Pink, I have been in remission since 1990/ I believe after 5 years you are considered cured. You should now have a long, healthy and fulfilling life and having battled this disease and won you be a stronger person and as a result you will always be mindful of the things in our lives that we take for granted. You are a strong, tough young lady you are a SURVIVOR, never forgett that when life gets a little tough at times. I am so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
singer78
08-29-2008, 12:36 AM
Amanda,
Just popping in to say, "hi."
I've been following your other posts, too.
Hang in there. All of this is just making you stronger.
xxxx,
S.
Just popping in to say, "hi."
I've been following your other posts, too.
Hang in there. All of this is just making you stronger.
xxxx,
S.
pinkmada
08-30-2008, 06:50 AM
Thanks Singer.
I only have a couple more sessions with my psychologist and while I have noticed an improvement in my mood it is still very up and down a lot of the time. I guess I'm feeling a bit anxious about ending my sessions but i guess that is normal. uni is going really well, i passed my first placement with 100% so i am really excited about that.
how are things with you? are you feeling any better? i hope you are.
speak soon
amanda
xxx
I only have a couple more sessions with my psychologist and while I have noticed an improvement in my mood it is still very up and down a lot of the time. I guess I'm feeling a bit anxious about ending my sessions but i guess that is normal. uni is going really well, i passed my first placement with 100% so i am really excited about that.
how are things with you? are you feeling any better? i hope you are.
speak soon
amanda
xxx
singer78
08-30-2008, 03:57 PM
Hi,
I know how you feel. It's "up & down....up & down" almost daily.
I feel bipolar...lol....which of course, I'm not. It's just that when one symptoms leaves, another one seems to pop up.
Right now, I'm dealing with acid reflux. Isn't that just peachy? I went ONE day without my Prilosec, and the heartburn started and hasn't gone away. I have to watch everything I'm eating. Right now, I need to go take some Mylanta. I feel it starting.
It's so good to hear you're feeling better. I think we're on the same anti-d (Celexa?)..
It really has helped me, although, with everything, there's side effects.
I think I'm much better "on" it, than "off." I was obsessing to no end, until I started it. I think I've been an "obsessor" most of my life, so it's great to have something to ease it some.
Congratulations on your placement. You must be a very smart cookie!
All of this you're going through, is going to make you a fab nurse!
This is Labor Day Weekend here. I can't believe the summer is almost through.
It's been a nice one for us, weather-wise. I love Fall, though....
Talk later...
love, S.
I know how you feel. It's "up & down....up & down" almost daily.
I feel bipolar...lol....which of course, I'm not. It's just that when one symptoms leaves, another one seems to pop up.
Right now, I'm dealing with acid reflux. Isn't that just peachy? I went ONE day without my Prilosec, and the heartburn started and hasn't gone away. I have to watch everything I'm eating. Right now, I need to go take some Mylanta. I feel it starting.
It's so good to hear you're feeling better. I think we're on the same anti-d (Celexa?)..
It really has helped me, although, with everything, there's side effects.
I think I'm much better "on" it, than "off." I was obsessing to no end, until I started it. I think I've been an "obsessor" most of my life, so it's great to have something to ease it some.
Congratulations on your placement. You must be a very smart cookie!
All of this you're going through, is going to make you a fab nurse!
This is Labor Day Weekend here. I can't believe the summer is almost through.
It's been a nice one for us, weather-wise. I love Fall, though....
Talk later...
love, S.
pinkmada
09-03-2008, 07:14 AM
hey singer.
yep, same antiD we are both on. it definatly seems better than the prozac.
i loved my placement (except for the travelling) and i was really enthusiastic and i think that is wat a student nurse needs to be. i am very pleased i got such a good mark. but i have a scary exam next week and don't think i'll do too well.
we havent really had a summer here. apparently its been the wettest august in 150yrs. so i cant wait for it to end. i love autumn time too. when its warm and dark and you start your xmas shopping!
yeah, thanks to my hernia, i'm always getting acid reflux. and the pills they gave me make me sick but i found that just over the counter pills help much more. i feel like i rattle when i walk down the street again with the amount of pills i have at the moment.
speak soon
amanda
xxx
yep, same antiD we are both on. it definatly seems better than the prozac.
i loved my placement (except for the travelling) and i was really enthusiastic and i think that is wat a student nurse needs to be. i am very pleased i got such a good mark. but i have a scary exam next week and don't think i'll do too well.
we havent really had a summer here. apparently its been the wettest august in 150yrs. so i cant wait for it to end. i love autumn time too. when its warm and dark and you start your xmas shopping!
yeah, thanks to my hernia, i'm always getting acid reflux. and the pills they gave me make me sick but i found that just over the counter pills help much more. i feel like i rattle when i walk down the street again with the amount of pills i have at the moment.
speak soon
amanda
xxx
britt0285
09-03-2008, 12:49 PM
Congratulations Amanda! Thanks for the suggestions for my brother.
pinkmada
09-05-2008, 03:05 PM
Thanks Britt,
It was no problem, i hope everything works out well for him
xxx
It was no problem, i hope everything works out well for him
xxx
pinkmada
09-24-2008, 11:19 AM
Sorry, i know i've not been on here for a while, been scary busy with placement. I'm finally getting to inject people with needles and do meds and stuff it's very cool!
anyways, feeling a bit down just now. i had my last session with my psychologist last week. she told me that her boss said it was my last one cause i was only supposed to have 12-15 sesions and ive ended up having about 30. so at the end of the session i started crying and then when i left i kind of half ran to the nearest toilet and properly burst into tears. i guess i didnt realise how much ive depended on her. she was like a safety net or something, i always felt fine knowing that i would see her in a week or so and i stopped freaking out so much cause i knew i could tell her. now i dont have that.
im just freaking out. i am going to speak to the uni counsellers and hope i can see them whenever im feeling down. i think my biggest fear at the moment is that if it does come back i really will have to take time off uni and be kept back a year or so. im also sore. like all over. my sides, tummy and back are aching and i still have a headache but its not as bad as it has been and it completely goes away when i close my eyes. and since yesterday my neck has been really stiff and tender to touch and i have a really sore area at the front like almost on top of my windpipe. so of course i am freaking out slightly about all the aches and pains just now. i swear if there was a pill out there that could erase parts of your memory i would take it.
anyways, feeling a bit down just now. i had my last session with my psychologist last week. she told me that her boss said it was my last one cause i was only supposed to have 12-15 sesions and ive ended up having about 30. so at the end of the session i started crying and then when i left i kind of half ran to the nearest toilet and properly burst into tears. i guess i didnt realise how much ive depended on her. she was like a safety net or something, i always felt fine knowing that i would see her in a week or so and i stopped freaking out so much cause i knew i could tell her. now i dont have that.
im just freaking out. i am going to speak to the uni counsellers and hope i can see them whenever im feeling down. i think my biggest fear at the moment is that if it does come back i really will have to take time off uni and be kept back a year or so. im also sore. like all over. my sides, tummy and back are aching and i still have a headache but its not as bad as it has been and it completely goes away when i close my eyes. and since yesterday my neck has been really stiff and tender to touch and i have a really sore area at the front like almost on top of my windpipe. so of course i am freaking out slightly about all the aches and pains just now. i swear if there was a pill out there that could erase parts of your memory i would take it.
lymphpre
09-26-2008, 05:05 AM
Hi Amanda,
How's things?
It can be really difficult to finish working with a particular therapist, but sometimes you need to do that to stop yourself becoming too dependent on them. The university counselling service might also be more appropriate for the kinds of issues that will come up over the next year, which are not going to be quite the same as the ones arising in the first year after treatment.
Sounds like you are feeling a bit run-down again. I would not suggest for a moment that this is all down to stress, but if you are stressed, that will make you feel worse. I have recently started to notice a relationship between a stiff neck and headaches myself, which makes me think at least some of the headaches I get are tension headaches. Maybe this is a contributory factor with your headaches as well? You mention that closing your eyes can make the headache go away - have you done any mindfulness exercises with your psychologist? These are forms of meditation, that are increasingly incorporated with CBT, and have a growing evidence base for effectiveness with stress management and depression. Although the primary aim is not relaxation, these exercises do have a very calming effect, and no nasty side-effects.
I hope you can establish a useful link with the uni service, and let u know how you get on.
Best wishes
Simon
How's things?
It can be really difficult to finish working with a particular therapist, but sometimes you need to do that to stop yourself becoming too dependent on them. The university counselling service might also be more appropriate for the kinds of issues that will come up over the next year, which are not going to be quite the same as the ones arising in the first year after treatment.
Sounds like you are feeling a bit run-down again. I would not suggest for a moment that this is all down to stress, but if you are stressed, that will make you feel worse. I have recently started to notice a relationship between a stiff neck and headaches myself, which makes me think at least some of the headaches I get are tension headaches. Maybe this is a contributory factor with your headaches as well? You mention that closing your eyes can make the headache go away - have you done any mindfulness exercises with your psychologist? These are forms of meditation, that are increasingly incorporated with CBT, and have a growing evidence base for effectiveness with stress management and depression. Although the primary aim is not relaxation, these exercises do have a very calming effect, and no nasty side-effects.
I hope you can establish a useful link with the uni service, and let u know how you get on.
Best wishes
Simon
singer78
09-26-2008, 02:11 PM
Hi Amanda (& Simon),
I think it's totally normal, to be experiencing anxiety like you are, after treatment.
And, like Simon, I believe one can become "dependent" on therapists.
I, myself, started to experience that---and I probably would've continued going, if I could have afforded it.
The relaxing process that Simon is talking about (a form of meditation) takes practice...and it truly "does" work. It took me a long time to find that "quiet place" in my mind. Maybe take a yoga class, or go online and take notes from an informative site about relaxation of the mind. I've found that focusing on "breathing" helps immensely. I don't know if you believe in a Higher Power, but, getting in touch with something, outside of yourself, has been a wonder-drug for me. I've always believed, but, I just think I didn't connect enough. I know you remember how I was, completely stressed over everything---and believe me, I still do obsess ,almost daily...but, I've learned a few techniques that help so much.
I remember going to my chemo nurse with every little ache and pain...and she said, "Singer...even 'I' have good and bad days. Don't focus on those aches and pains. Take the proper medication and go on with your day."
I know...easier said, than done. BUT...those are words of wisdom.
We just are soooo petrified that "it" will return....I'm right there with you...and Simon is, unfortunately, experiencing it firsthand.
But,...it's taking away your quality of life. A good, positive attitude that you've beaten this--and that life is just out there waiting for you---will help you persevere. You're young, too, which I'm jealous of....(just a tad....) :)
You've got a great career....you're smart....you're helping lots of people on here, too.
It's strange that you 2 are talking about headaches.
I've had the worst "neck" aches I've ever had. I remember a fellow musician once told me to "find the lump" in your neck....(not nodes...but, muscles)..and put pressure on it.
Well, I did. Yesterday, I found kind of a knot on the left side of my neck.
I guess I did my own massage. I found myself doing it often---probably every hour or so. Guess what???????? I'm so much better today. I think I worked out the kink, or whatever was causing it. In my case, I haven't been very active "post treatment," and I've started, finally. I think my whole body is going through a bit of a shock.
Exercise, too, Amanda, ---walking, taking a class, using lightweights at home, dancing...anything physical is going to be good at this point.
And remember to BREATHE>>>>!
Big, deep breaths daily.
I'm starting to sound like your mum....(we call them "mom" here)....So, I'll go.
I just want the best for you.
XXX, S.
I think it's totally normal, to be experiencing anxiety like you are, after treatment.
And, like Simon, I believe one can become "dependent" on therapists.
I, myself, started to experience that---and I probably would've continued going, if I could have afforded it.
The relaxing process that Simon is talking about (a form of meditation) takes practice...and it truly "does" work. It took me a long time to find that "quiet place" in my mind. Maybe take a yoga class, or go online and take notes from an informative site about relaxation of the mind. I've found that focusing on "breathing" helps immensely. I don't know if you believe in a Higher Power, but, getting in touch with something, outside of yourself, has been a wonder-drug for me. I've always believed, but, I just think I didn't connect enough. I know you remember how I was, completely stressed over everything---and believe me, I still do obsess ,almost daily...but, I've learned a few techniques that help so much.
I remember going to my chemo nurse with every little ache and pain...and she said, "Singer...even 'I' have good and bad days. Don't focus on those aches and pains. Take the proper medication and go on with your day."
I know...easier said, than done. BUT...those are words of wisdom.
We just are soooo petrified that "it" will return....I'm right there with you...and Simon is, unfortunately, experiencing it firsthand.
But,...it's taking away your quality of life. A good, positive attitude that you've beaten this--and that life is just out there waiting for you---will help you persevere. You're young, too, which I'm jealous of....(just a tad....) :)
You've got a great career....you're smart....you're helping lots of people on here, too.
It's strange that you 2 are talking about headaches.
I've had the worst "neck" aches I've ever had. I remember a fellow musician once told me to "find the lump" in your neck....(not nodes...but, muscles)..and put pressure on it.
Well, I did. Yesterday, I found kind of a knot on the left side of my neck.
I guess I did my own massage. I found myself doing it often---probably every hour or so. Guess what???????? I'm so much better today. I think I worked out the kink, or whatever was causing it. In my case, I haven't been very active "post treatment," and I've started, finally. I think my whole body is going through a bit of a shock.
Exercise, too, Amanda, ---walking, taking a class, using lightweights at home, dancing...anything physical is going to be good at this point.
And remember to BREATHE>>>>!
Big, deep breaths daily.
I'm starting to sound like your mum....(we call them "mom" here)....So, I'll go.
I just want the best for you.
XXX, S.