I was diagnosed as being bipolar in November of last year. I ended up in the hospital when I began to have a horrible reaction to the geodon. I tried to commit suicide so they put me in the hospital. I was there for three weeks one of which I still don't remember, but my husband has shared a few things about what happened. I came home and couldn't cope(I have 5 children). I ended back in the hospital for another week. During that time I saw two different docs who kept changing my meds back and forth. Then we moved to Utah and I had to find a new doctor. I've been seing him for three months and it was just this week he decided I would be okay not to see him for a few weeks.

The problem is, I'm still spending money, I have an incredibly high libido, have no desire to meet new people, and I'm fairly reckless--even when I have family members in my car. It's a little scary. Oh, and I think the worst part is that I've gained close to 80 lbs. since all this started.

I think I want to change docs. I think he doesn't really pay attention or really care. Any thoughts?:D