My husband commited suicide while I was in the garage watching a basketball game. I'm so depressed and I hate myself for not picking up on clues. He didn't leave a note and left me with so many questions. I miss him so much somedays I want to commit suicide too but I can't. He left me wondering why. He was 28 and we didn't have children. I had known him for 13 years and our 10th wedding anniversary would have been aug 4. Its been over 2 months but the pain is more profound. I miss him sometimes I wish that when I found him hanging I should have done the same instead of trying to revive him. I love him and it feels so horrible to wake up each day and face reality. I'm so empty inside and I feel there is no point to mylife. I'm currently on zoloft and ambien but it doesn't seem to work. Somebody help me.