piinkbabii711
09-11-2008, 04:31 PM
i am new to this board. but i thought it might help my anxiety to talk with people who have the same problem. i have it so bad i feel like i get up to 5 panic attacks daily. it has gotten to the point where leaving my house brings on a feeling of panic. i get this feelign that i am going to pass out. i feel lightheaded. even if i don't feel lightheaded i just have this intense fear and feeling that i WILL pass out and fall unconscious. i don't know why i get this. it really gets in the way of me doing anything. going to work is a struggle. i work at a food place, and i cant even stand on front counters and take orders because if the line gets long at all i will freak out and just want to walk into the back becuase i am afraid i will pass out. sometimes i feel like my eyes can't focus on one spot. sometimes i get red/hot. it is controlling my life. i hate living in the constant fear that i am going to pass out randomly out of the blue or die. i will be perfectly fine before these feelings happen. also i get extreme feelings of unreality. like i am not really there and living in a dream. or that everything around me is just fake. when i get this it feels liek i am looking in tunnel vision and everything around me is really really dim. i can't stand it. soemtimes this can last up to a half hour. then it will go away for an hour just to come back again. can anyone else relate to any of this? oh and i also get this feeling when i start to feel scared that my mind is racing. it is really hard to describe but like i feel like i can hear a million people talkig at once or like a million thoughts going through my mind at once.. i know its not skitzophrenia or anytihng because like i really don't believe there is someone talking to me...its not like that its really hard to describe. like if for example i get an overwhelming fear that i will pass out i feel like a million thoughts are going through my head with me predicting and anticipatiing what would happen if i really passed out like i picture people standing over me and i can almost hear people saying "are you okay , call 911" and it makes me even nervous that i will. what is wrong with me. ugh.
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Lindaru
09-11-2008, 04:44 PM
I can. I have situational anxiety which meant that I did not have the symptoms except when something came up. For over the last two weeks, I have been seeing a naturopathic physician who has been trying different treatments on me for physical things which have given me almost crippling side effects.
Today (still recovering but thought I could handle it), I went with my husband to the grocery store. Started having trouble breathing the minute we walked in the door. Eyes could not focus. Hard to move my legs (like I was wearing a suit of armor). Kept thinking I was going to pass out and it seemed like the fluorescent lights were really making me dizzy. I also noticed my "alignment" was out of whack as I kept pulling to the right whenever we would turn to go down an aisle.
Very scared that I was not going to make it home but rather end up in the emergency room. When we finally got out of there, I started to feel a little better.
I hate feeling like this, too. This even makes it impossible to do the things I need to do around my own safety net (my home). I wish I knew what to do about it but please know that I understand and I cannot imagine having to deal with it on a daily job basis like you have to. Could you possibly find a back office job where you do not have to deal with the public? I always got anxious when having to deal with the public.
{Hugs} and let us know how you are doing.
Lindaru :(
Today (still recovering but thought I could handle it), I went with my husband to the grocery store. Started having trouble breathing the minute we walked in the door. Eyes could not focus. Hard to move my legs (like I was wearing a suit of armor). Kept thinking I was going to pass out and it seemed like the fluorescent lights were really making me dizzy. I also noticed my "alignment" was out of whack as I kept pulling to the right whenever we would turn to go down an aisle.
Very scared that I was not going to make it home but rather end up in the emergency room. When we finally got out of there, I started to feel a little better.
I hate feeling like this, too. This even makes it impossible to do the things I need to do around my own safety net (my home). I wish I knew what to do about it but please know that I understand and I cannot imagine having to deal with it on a daily job basis like you have to. Could you possibly find a back office job where you do not have to deal with the public? I always got anxious when having to deal with the public.
{Hugs} and let us know how you are doing.
Lindaru :(
Lindaru
09-11-2008, 04:47 PM
Answered you before I could read the rest of the post you added.
Yes, I always play "worse case scenario" in my mind if I think something bad is going to happen. I think the reason I do that is subconsciously I figure if I have played it out in my mind, it will not happen in reality.
Lindaru :)
Yes, I always play "worse case scenario" in my mind if I think something bad is going to happen. I think the reason I do that is subconsciously I figure if I have played it out in my mind, it will not happen in reality.
Lindaru :)
shorebird
09-12-2008, 03:11 PM
This is a classic panic disorder cycle. I used to have horrible panic attacks! What helped me and eliminated my panic attacks was learning to counter the thoughts that started the panic cycle in motion. There are all kinds of treatments you could try including meds but I would recommend trying cbt and joining a cbt group if possible as a first step or even a combination of meds and cbt like I did. Good luck and you can get better:)