i'm wondering if anyone can help me out here...

i'm 21 years old, and have been trying to get pregnant for 3 years. it's mainly been the same guy. when i was 20, i was diagnosed with mild endometriosis, and they found i have a bicornuate shaped uterus. and today i was diagnosed with vaginismus i think it's called.

anyway, i just recently read something saying that if you have endo but it's not on your fallopian tubes or ovaries, you shouldn't have fertility problems (if it's mild or minimal). i had 2 spots, one on my bladder, and one on the pouch of douglas. nowhere near my tubes. in fact they put fluid through them during my lap, and found that the tubes are open and perfectly fine.

so what i'm curious about is if it's my uterus shape that's making it so hard to become pregnant. i'm getting an HSG next month to find out if there's a septum or not, so i really don't know how bad it is right now.

is there anyone that can help me with this? i'm nearly suicidal because i'm so depressed about not being able to have kids. i've wanted kids since the day i found out i had the organs to carry them, and if i find out i can't, i will be crushed.

thanks

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anyone...? i swear nothing i've ever posted gets answered on any of these boards http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif

Hi,
I really don’t know the answer to all of your questions. I can tell you that even mild endometriosis can cause fertility problems. Have you looked into seeing a reproductive endroconologist? They can check your hormone levels which could cause fertility problems if they are out of whack. Good luck.

i actually just talked to my mom today - she was there for my surgery - and she said that she was told i didn't even have it on my uterus so therefore that shouldn't effect it. i had a spot on my bladder, and then one on the cul de sac, which made sex excrutiatingly painful. i think the endo is back, tho, so i'm afraid it's spread. i've been on triphasil (birth control), but i don't now how good it is for this. i've been having that discharge again http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif i'm getting an HCG (or is it HSG?) soon to see what the shape of my uterus is. the lap showed a bicornuate, but the dr says it may be a septum. this really sucks http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif

Sorry to hear about your problems, Mousie. I often don't answer on the board, because my situation is not the same and I don't fee like I have useful information for the writer.
Have you sought out someone to help you deal with your depression? This place is a great one to blow off steam, and know people understand your pain, but I'm sure we are not all trained to assist with situational depression. Things can really bog your emotions down, especially when they are long term like infertility. Please reach out to someone who can help. In the meantime, keep posting, and answering other's posts. (And praying!) I get the feeling everyone really cares what happens to the people who post here. We are all in this together!
God Bless!

i'm actually bipolar and being treated for that. the thing is tho, i'm really sick and i'm fed up with it. i have all sorts of reproductive problems, digestive problems, bone problems, then the bipolar disorder, i have bpd, ocd, and my dad always has said all these disorders are my fault. i take care of myself. i don't smoke, i don't do drugs, i don't drink caffeine, and i don't eat meat, plus i walk everywhere when i'm not in pain... yet he blames me for the chronic illnesses that i got from his side of the family. so that all just depresses me. last night i really lost it and was writing in my journal... i counted out 22 "chronic" problems, and that's just not right for someone of my age. i'm in the hospital once a week because i'm so sick. a friend of mine is the same way. i've got autoimmune disease or whatever, so my immune system fights against itself and i'm always sick. i read that anyone with endometriosis got it due to autoimmune disease, but i'm not sure how accurate that is. i just wish it was 100 years later so science was more advanced :P

i'm actually bipolar and being treated for that. the thing is tho, i'm really sick and i'm fed up with it. i have all sorts of reproductive problems, digestive problems, bone problems, then the bipolar disorder, i have bpd, ocd, and my dad always has said all these disorders are my fault. i take care of myself. i don't smoke, i don't do drugs, i don't drink caffeine, and i don't eat meat, plus i walk everywhere when i'm not in pain... yet he blames me for the chronic illnesses that i got from his side of the family. so that all just depresses me. last night i really lost it and was writing in my journal... i counted out 22 "chronic" problems, and that's just not right for someone of my age. i'm in the hospital once a week because i'm so sick. a friend of mine is the same way. i've got autoimmune disease or whatever, so my immune system fights against itself and i'm always sick. i read that anyone with endometriosis got it due to autoimmune disease, but i'm not sure how accurate that is. i just wish it was 100 years later so science was more advanced :P

It does seem that many of the people that I've worked with in mental health have similar problems as yours--not just one thing to deal with, but multiple. Not fair, but just a fact.

Anyway, I'm glad you are getting treatment. Obviously your dad doesn't understand, and perhaps you could stand to be around some more positive people. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

well my dad is extremely abusive as well. my friends never came to the house because he's got such a temper we were all afraid he'd even hit one of them

Hi,
I hope this isn’t out of line or offensive because I don’t mean it to be. I just wonder if maybe you shouldn’t concentrate on getting well at 21 before trying to have a baby. It seems as though you have a lot of issues to deal with at the moment. Trying to raise a baby on top of it all sounds complicated. The healthier you are before you become pregnant the better off your baby will be. It’s just a thought. Take care.

i don't live at home, so my dad isn't a problem anymore. the only problem i have is this stupid bicornuate shaped uterus and endometriosis. the bipolar thing is being treated and when i'm on the medication you wouldn't even know i'm sick. and i do take it every day so i can sleep. i'm mosly manic so without the meds i don' sleep.