sillychilibean
09-28-2008, 02:05 AM
Hi, I'm Silly. I just wanted to say hi and tell you all a bit about myself. I was diagnosed with complex PTSD along with some dissociative disorders 2 years ago when I was 17, and have been working in therapy twice a week ever since. Right now my life is basically dedicated to healing, and I am pulling through pretty good for how difficult it is to treat complex PTSD.
To be quite honest though - I'm a complete mess right now (who isn't though, right?), and I'm having a really hard time trying to start a life up for myself while I'm dealing with all of this. Everyone else my age is into dating, making friends or is going to school, or they live at home with their parents. I don't fit into any of those categories and I don't know anyone my age who has to deal with this stuff. Well, I have met kids my age with problems similar to mine, but they are into drugs or breaking the law in all kinds of ways, and I'm more on the conservative, paranoid side, so I don't cause more problems for myself. Going outside is a challenge for me.
So I am here, hoping to meet others who are having a challenge managing life because of their PTSD. I am here to gain support and offer it, depending on the day and how I'm feeling. I try to be as optimistic as I can, and I guess it works because I'm still here.
I look forward to getting to know all of you here, meet new the new guys and hope we can all be friends.
Silly
To be quite honest though - I'm a complete mess right now (who isn't though, right?), and I'm having a really hard time trying to start a life up for myself while I'm dealing with all of this. Everyone else my age is into dating, making friends or is going to school, or they live at home with their parents. I don't fit into any of those categories and I don't know anyone my age who has to deal with this stuff. Well, I have met kids my age with problems similar to mine, but they are into drugs or breaking the law in all kinds of ways, and I'm more on the conservative, paranoid side, so I don't cause more problems for myself. Going outside is a challenge for me.
So I am here, hoping to meet others who are having a challenge managing life because of their PTSD. I am here to gain support and offer it, depending on the day and how I'm feeling. I try to be as optimistic as I can, and I guess it works because I'm still here.
I look forward to getting to know all of you here, meet new the new guys and hope we can all be friends.
Silly
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maybecrazy
09-28-2008, 02:20 AM
Hi Silly and welcome :)
I am glad that you have joined us - you say that you're life is dedicated to healing at this time and it seems that that is all you can deal with at the moment from what you were saying, maybe once you get to a stage that you are feeling a little better you will find time for all those other things that you see others do.
I know I am gradually introducing things back into my life after shutting them all out for a long time - it's hard but you can do it when the time is right for you - I am glad you are getting help too.
Anyway just wanted to welcome you - you will find a lot of support here and you can tell us what works for you and that may help us - take care
MBC
I am glad that you have joined us - you say that you're life is dedicated to healing at this time and it seems that that is all you can deal with at the moment from what you were saying, maybe once you get to a stage that you are feeling a little better you will find time for all those other things that you see others do.
I know I am gradually introducing things back into my life after shutting them all out for a long time - it's hard but you can do it when the time is right for you - I am glad you are getting help too.
Anyway just wanted to welcome you - you will find a lot of support here and you can tell us what works for you and that may help us - take care
MBC
sillychilibean
09-28-2008, 08:43 PM
Thanks MBC for the welcome... :)
Is this a slower-paced board? I understand if it is though, its public and PTSD is a hard thing. Just curious if it gets more active on certain days or times.
Silly
Is this a slower-paced board? I understand if it is though, its public and PTSD is a hard thing. Just curious if it gets more active on certain days or times.
Silly
maybecrazy
09-29-2008, 07:08 AM
Hi Silly,
It has it's quiet times and it's busy times - I think sometimes we are all off hanging in there and other times we feel we can talk about it - I know I stayed silent for a while then came back - at the moment it seems unusually quiet - dont' think it comes down to days and times - but hey I can't remember what day it is most of the time ha ha ;)
Take care and keep posting - it really helps. (or does for me) and even if sometimes it feels like there is no-one else here sometimes just getting the words out into the open helps.
Take care
MBC
It has it's quiet times and it's busy times - I think sometimes we are all off hanging in there and other times we feel we can talk about it - I know I stayed silent for a while then came back - at the moment it seems unusually quiet - dont' think it comes down to days and times - but hey I can't remember what day it is most of the time ha ha ;)
Take care and keep posting - it really helps. (or does for me) and even if sometimes it feels like there is no-one else here sometimes just getting the words out into the open helps.
Take care
MBC
ylanda
11-06-2008, 04:23 PM
Hi my name is ylanda and I'm a newbie too, just wanted to tell you hang in there because we all need some one to talk to to get us thrugh this disease we have
captnanny
11-08-2008, 06:38 AM
I want to reintroduce myself,
I am a semi-newbie in that I've posted here maybe two times but it is a slow paced board but that doesn't mean it is not a good support system. I am proud of you for doing this at your age. I was diagnosed with chronic ptsd and hospitalized at 17 but continued to live in denial. I am now 39 and just taking care of my self. I have lived in a fantasy world where someone on the outside would just drop in and save me. Well, it's not going to happen so now as I have three or so months off, I am dediating this time to healing and accepting where I am.
You say your friends are all off in school, dating etc, I don't even have the strength to call mine right now. I need to start anew. I need to recreate myself from the inside out so that I know who I am and why I lived through such horrible things.
You are not alone, hopefully I will stay with this board for a while now it seems pretty supportive.
I am a semi-newbie in that I've posted here maybe two times but it is a slow paced board but that doesn't mean it is not a good support system. I am proud of you for doing this at your age. I was diagnosed with chronic ptsd and hospitalized at 17 but continued to live in denial. I am now 39 and just taking care of my self. I have lived in a fantasy world where someone on the outside would just drop in and save me. Well, it's not going to happen so now as I have three or so months off, I am dediating this time to healing and accepting where I am.
You say your friends are all off in school, dating etc, I don't even have the strength to call mine right now. I need to start anew. I need to recreate myself from the inside out so that I know who I am and why I lived through such horrible things.
You are not alone, hopefully I will stay with this board for a while now it seems pretty supportive.
isitme
11-08-2008, 09:33 PM
Hi and congratulations for having the courage to face your demons at such a young age. There are many helpful people around here. Me, like catnappy, have been in denail also. You are very brave and an inspiration to others:).
captnanny
11-09-2008, 06:15 AM
I like how you renamed me to catnappy. That's perfect for where I am right now. Nappy yet trying to "go through the pain" and not push it away in a fantasy that is no longer working. I go up and down all day long. I want out of this way of life, then it is kind of comfortable/uncomfortable. Catnappy fits me to a tee right now.
I too think that you, sillychillybean are brave and courageous to want to get through this at such a young age and are not going to drugs and distructive things. Keep posting.
I too think that you, sillychillybean are brave and courageous to want to get through this at such a young age and are not going to drugs and distructive things. Keep posting.
isitme
11-09-2008, 08:19 AM
Sorry catnappy. You are not the first person I've renamed either!!! Guess I don't see straight at times.:o
ylanda
11-12-2008, 11:50 AM
Hi captnappy, I'to am a newbie.let me tell a lil something about myself. I went through hurricane katrina, was helicopter airlifted,Had to live at Fort Chaffe military base, had to live in a Baptist seminary camp For a month in 1/2 I did not know whare I was going to live, did'nt get any fema help until almost 2 yrs later, I'm scared to death of the weather , where I live now we have a bunch of tornados I live through this everyday of my lifewas diagnoised in 2006 of having ptds .I'm 44 yrs old and always had alife, now I have non, so hang inthere we will all get through this some how.
travinda
12-26-2008, 08:34 PM
hi and merry xmas to you all,
we all hang in there its a hard battle and sometimes feels like its one step forward and two back, but hang on in there it does get easier the more you learn and understand it. i found there were a few local support groups that help too.
we all hang in there its a hard battle and sometimes feels like its one step forward and two back, but hang on in there it does get easier the more you learn and understand it. i found there were a few local support groups that help too.
maybecrazy
12-26-2008, 09:40 PM
yep we do the best we can when we can - and we support each other when needs be - its hard to keep up the struggle and it is a struggle at times but we have to hope that it will end and we will be healed and be able to get back to our lives - changed though they may be -
and Ylanda I am sorry you had to go through so much grief - I hope things are better for your now :)
take care everyone and happy holidays :)
and Ylanda I am sorry you had to go through so much grief - I hope things are better for your now :)
take care everyone and happy holidays :)
craftygirl3
01-02-2009, 06:43 PM
hey all.
the saying goes, "things move at the speed of pain".
That being said this is a journey, not a destination.
it is hard to have faith when you are afraid, it will take as long as it takes.
I know for me I work on it and take a break, as my life wasn't built in a day but in years and levels of pain. one level at a time, one second at a time, I work to undo it, and to make it in to what *I* want it to be, only I have that right to say. I know that I am doing my best, and it *IS* good enough.
I have to be where I am to get where I am going.
Hang in there and trust the process. I am right where I need to be.
This Zen moment brought to you by the letters P, T, S & D.:dizzy:
love ya all. cg3
the saying goes, "things move at the speed of pain".
That being said this is a journey, not a destination.
it is hard to have faith when you are afraid, it will take as long as it takes.
I know for me I work on it and take a break, as my life wasn't built in a day but in years and levels of pain. one level at a time, one second at a time, I work to undo it, and to make it in to what *I* want it to be, only I have that right to say. I know that I am doing my best, and it *IS* good enough.
I have to be where I am to get where I am going.
Hang in there and trust the process. I am right where I need to be.
This Zen moment brought to you by the letters P, T, S & D.:dizzy:
love ya all. cg3