I'm sitting here at work on the 12th day of my 2ww following my first IVF treatment cycle. I've just been to the loo and my CM is getting darker (browny-pink). That, coupled with AF cramps is a sure sign that AF is on it's bloody way.

I feel like running home and crying but can't as a couple of my colleagues are on holiday and there's only me to answer the phones. There three other people in the office right now and I'm having to try and hold it together so they don't suspect anything's wrong.

This is so hard.

Sorry, just had to speak to some people who know and care.

xx

Don't get upset just yet! Lets hope and pray that that is caused by implantation!

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Oh my! I know just how you feel. I hate being forced to stay strong until I can go home and cry. Maybe it isn't AF- stay hopeful. I send you a hug from Texas....
Pam

I know this is easier said than done......

Stay positive.....You try and stay strong and I promise to pray for you and hope that this IS implantation spotting!!!

((hug)) sorry that you are feeling so down right now! Hope it is implantation spotting and not AF ~ It sucks when you are stuck at work and want to have a total melt down!

Taz

Keep in mind it could be implantation, you never know. You are in my prayers! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/heart.gif

((((Hugs)))) Clare, hang in there. I know how you feel. It has been along journey, and I pray that it has a positive outcome for you. I know it isn't easy to hold yourself together, but try not to get down until AF is here in full force. I will be thinking of you.

Clare,

do you think that you might want to do a hpt just for peace of mind?? I know you just went through hell and back and the last thing you want to see is some blood. Just have hope that it is implantation bleeding. The fact that it is not bright red is a good sign. Let us know how you feel tomorrow.

Hallo Ladies!

Still felt a bit tearful this morning but at least the situation hasn't worsened. The CM is still pinky brown and I have to say, there really hasn't been much of it, but I just know that this is how my AF usually starts and it might be the progesterone delaying it. I also think that it's just to late for implantation. Still, I might to an HPT tonight or tomorrow, as Tmer suggests.

Sorry gals, I'm the biggest pessamist in the world when it comes to myself! I'm very positive for other people and especially for all of you!

Sending you all reciprocal hugs!
xxxxx

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Clare-

Just thinking of you. It is hard to tell what is going on with your body after everything you just put it through. Take care and let us know how the hpt goes. Has it been at least 10days from trigger?

Clare ~ it never hurts to take a test. I hope you get a BFP and I am sending lots of baby dust your way! We need a positive on here! We all have been gettn the dayum AF.

Taz

Remember the wild and crazy days when you prayed for AF and promised to do good deeds for the rest of your life if it did come!!! Now we cry! Don't be sad though - you are not alone. Go have a good cry and you will feel better (Everyone at work thinks I have "bad allergies"). Hugs to you across the ocean blue!

I love that ~ allergies. I really do have them so no one would ever no the difference.

YES ~ I remember those days! It was horrible for me in HS b/c I was always so irregular (I would get AF like twice a year) and as soon as I had sex I thought I was pg...noother reason than just plain FEAR! I bought a lot of Hpt's back then too http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif see that is why they are still in business, because of ME!

Hope you are feelng better.

TAZ