I met the "man of my dreams" and married him in a fairy tale manner. Today, an accumulation of 8 years of domestic abuse and violence has led to a pattern of anxiety attacks and developed into an intense feeling of generalized anxiety with a severe fear of dying, and post traumatic stress disorder since the violence escalated.

I just received a custody order and divorce notice.

Now I feel completely hopeless.

Every day I just expect to die, get a horrible disease and old age. I feel ugly, old, tired, debilitated, terrified.