katlin09
11-23-2008, 12:05 AM
I don't know why I can't keep it together....I'm so tired of the depression taking over, I can't get more that a week or two' repreive at the most and then I start my fall back into the pit. And now that I'm alone with my son, it seems like the weekends when he's with his dad it's just so easy to not get out of bed and let it take over. My pdoc and I are not agreeing on which med to put me on and it gets so frustrating sometimes I just want to give up and say whatever, it doesn't matter. But I go back again this week, and I guess I just have to be not nice and say I'm not taking anything else until he lets me try Cymbalta, no telling how that will go. It just seems like with this disease/disorder theirs always a fight to get things under control and then you can't keep them that way very long...and I'm to tired to fight it these days. Not sleeping, not eating, battling the SH, and trying to keep up the "everything's fine act" for my son after working all day is wearing me out.
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lmb1964
11-23-2008, 03:51 PM
Hey Kaitlin,
I'm not trying to scare you or anything, but I have very drug resistant depression like you seem to, I have tried most of the SSRi's including Cymbalta. I would not beg your doctor like i did for the cymbalta....because if you don't have the best results and want to come off of it the withdrawal symptoms are HORRIBLE at least for me and if you look at some of the other posts here you will see that others here have had the same problem.
However I am not all doom and gloom either, there is good news! I don't know if you know but there are other classes of Antideppresants, one group is called I think TCA's and MAOI. I would suggest you talk to your doc about these first, they are the oldest drugs out there and work just as well as the SSRI's. I took Imiprimine after getting off the cymbalta and it works so well. The reason they are not prescribed so much is that when Prozac came out the drug world thought that the side effects were so much minimal. But now they are changing their minds because there are so many side effects with the SSRI and cymbalta type drugs.)
There is also a antideppresant patch out there also. (I think if i was to come off the Imiprimine the patch would be my next choice).
I went thru withdrawals from Cymbalta and I thought I was going to DIE! I was so sick I could barely make it thru the day!
Anyway, I know I probally sound like I am rambling....but I don't want you to go thru the same things i did, why make the depression even worse with the withdrawals!
I am going to be thinking and praying about you, if you have any questions or want to chat feel to reply back, there are times when I have been falling apart also, and I could have used someone to talk to who understands!
I'm not trying to scare you or anything, but I have very drug resistant depression like you seem to, I have tried most of the SSRi's including Cymbalta. I would not beg your doctor like i did for the cymbalta....because if you don't have the best results and want to come off of it the withdrawal symptoms are HORRIBLE at least for me and if you look at some of the other posts here you will see that others here have had the same problem.
However I am not all doom and gloom either, there is good news! I don't know if you know but there are other classes of Antideppresants, one group is called I think TCA's and MAOI. I would suggest you talk to your doc about these first, they are the oldest drugs out there and work just as well as the SSRI's. I took Imiprimine after getting off the cymbalta and it works so well. The reason they are not prescribed so much is that when Prozac came out the drug world thought that the side effects were so much minimal. But now they are changing their minds because there are so many side effects with the SSRI and cymbalta type drugs.)
There is also a antideppresant patch out there also. (I think if i was to come off the Imiprimine the patch would be my next choice).
I went thru withdrawals from Cymbalta and I thought I was going to DIE! I was so sick I could barely make it thru the day!
Anyway, I know I probally sound like I am rambling....but I don't want you to go thru the same things i did, why make the depression even worse with the withdrawals!
I am going to be thinking and praying about you, if you have any questions or want to chat feel to reply back, there are times when I have been falling apart also, and I could have used someone to talk to who understands!
seaturtle
11-23-2008, 07:03 PM
Katlin -
Sorry you're still having such a rough time. The Cymbalta might be a godsend. I wrote about it already in a post to kat. I've seen it work when nothing else did, so I have my fingers crossed that will be the case for you, too.
The weekends are really tough. I live alone, and am rather isolated because I don't drive in this Vermont town, and weekends are the pits. I've been in a, well, lousy depression all weekend. Mondays, I usually pick up again. And it's cooold here, too.
Sometimes I make a plan for weekend days. It can help to actually sit down and plan your activities hour by hour, even if they're just mundane things like clean the bathroom or do the laundry, take a walk, whatever. Do you have anyone you can plan to see, or at least call, on the weekends?
Have you lived alone before (excepting your son now, but that is more responsibility than a companion). If you're used to being in a relationship, it can be incredibly tough during the transition. I ended a relationship several years ago, a long one, because I was getting abused, but I remember the loneliness after it ended. Missing someone, a lot of anger, depression, sense of loss...it all comes in waves. So I think a lot of what you're going through is the process of mourning, too.
I had to go through it and slowly find resources in myself to deal with being alone.
You will, too, in time. Meanwhile, try to make plans for very small goals and treats for yourself, take it easy, expect to feel lousy for a while and don't fight it or try to make it go away.
Wish I had more helpful things to say. If only all of us here dealing with loneliness could get together. At least we have this board to use, though.
Hang in there. It will get easier with time. And perhaps you will find new friends, a new close one.
Hugs,
Seaturtle
Sorry you're still having such a rough time. The Cymbalta might be a godsend. I wrote about it already in a post to kat. I've seen it work when nothing else did, so I have my fingers crossed that will be the case for you, too.
The weekends are really tough. I live alone, and am rather isolated because I don't drive in this Vermont town, and weekends are the pits. I've been in a, well, lousy depression all weekend. Mondays, I usually pick up again. And it's cooold here, too.
Sometimes I make a plan for weekend days. It can help to actually sit down and plan your activities hour by hour, even if they're just mundane things like clean the bathroom or do the laundry, take a walk, whatever. Do you have anyone you can plan to see, or at least call, on the weekends?
Have you lived alone before (excepting your son now, but that is more responsibility than a companion). If you're used to being in a relationship, it can be incredibly tough during the transition. I ended a relationship several years ago, a long one, because I was getting abused, but I remember the loneliness after it ended. Missing someone, a lot of anger, depression, sense of loss...it all comes in waves. So I think a lot of what you're going through is the process of mourning, too.
I had to go through it and slowly find resources in myself to deal with being alone.
You will, too, in time. Meanwhile, try to make plans for very small goals and treats for yourself, take it easy, expect to feel lousy for a while and don't fight it or try to make it go away.
Wish I had more helpful things to say. If only all of us here dealing with loneliness could get together. At least we have this board to use, though.
Hang in there. It will get easier with time. And perhaps you will find new friends, a new close one.
Hugs,
Seaturtle
tigger5150
11-23-2008, 07:03 PM
Katlin, I'm so sorry to here that you are struggling. Keep in mind that you do have a lot on your plate at the moment and that could be not helping things. I defnitely understand depression side of things which is why I'm going IP.
Do you have an option to try a different pdoc? or are you stuck with what you have? Had I stayed in the USA, I would have had to find a new pdoc as the one I ended up with after my fabulous one decided to retire just wouldn't have worked for me full time.
I'm on cymbalta and love it.... even though it fully hasn't got me complete out of depression, which is why we are going to try increasing the dose with ECT treatment... I will let everyone know what happens when I get out of hospital just before christmas.
Do you have an option to try a different pdoc? or are you stuck with what you have? Had I stayed in the USA, I would have had to find a new pdoc as the one I ended up with after my fabulous one decided to retire just wouldn't have worked for me full time.
I'm on cymbalta and love it.... even though it fully hasn't got me complete out of depression, which is why we are going to try increasing the dose with ECT treatment... I will let everyone know what happens when I get out of hospital just before christmas.
dreams in neon
11-23-2008, 11:37 PM
Hi Kat,
Just wanted to say that I'm sorry you're struggling right now. :(
It might not be a bad idea to find a new pdoc who would be willing to allow you to try Cymbalta. If that's the route you plan to take, let us know how it turns out.
Good luck and try to hang in there, okay? (I know it's easier said than done.)
We're all rooting for you. :)
Just wanted to say that I'm sorry you're struggling right now. :(
It might not be a bad idea to find a new pdoc who would be willing to allow you to try Cymbalta. If that's the route you plan to take, let us know how it turns out.
Good luck and try to hang in there, okay? (I know it's easier said than done.)
We're all rooting for you. :)
katlin09
11-24-2008, 02:51 AM
Guys,
Thanks for all of your replys.
Seaturtle, friend, thanks for your kind and caring words as usual. I'm off to the pdoc agan tomorrow, he called me about 3:00 today and asked me to come in, so we'll see.
LMB, I have this disease for the past 19 years so I've tried all of those older drugs and they don't work. But I have friends on here who hve used Cymbalta that have symptoms very close to mine and it's worke very well for them so I'm willing to try anything.
Tigger, I don't want to change my pdoc, I love him really I do. Sometimes we just hit a spot where we don't get along and usually because of me and some wierd hang up of mine. So he called me today to set up a time for me to come in tomorrow and I'm going to explain how I felt at the last appt., so we'll see. I'm hoping that I can get some results frm the Cymbalta like you did, since our symptoms are so similar.
I really appreciate all of you guys and your support.
Kat
Thanks for all of your replys.
Seaturtle, friend, thanks for your kind and caring words as usual. I'm off to the pdoc agan tomorrow, he called me about 3:00 today and asked me to come in, so we'll see.
LMB, I have this disease for the past 19 years so I've tried all of those older drugs and they don't work. But I have friends on here who hve used Cymbalta that have symptoms very close to mine and it's worke very well for them so I'm willing to try anything.
Tigger, I don't want to change my pdoc, I love him really I do. Sometimes we just hit a spot where we don't get along and usually because of me and some wierd hang up of mine. So he called me today to set up a time for me to come in tomorrow and I'm going to explain how I felt at the last appt., so we'll see. I'm hoping that I can get some results frm the Cymbalta like you did, since our symptoms are so similar.
I really appreciate all of you guys and your support.
Kat
katlin09
11-24-2008, 07:26 PM
Well my pdoc called my yesterday on Sunday to come in today for an emergent appointment, because I was in crisis mode. He was very helpful, and caring, compassionate, and let me go for a trial of cymbalta. He is still very concerned about the activation/hypomania issues, but he says we'll take it a week at a time. So I started it today and I'll have to see him every week for 3 weeks until we make sure the side effect arne't too severe. His other concerns are that the anxiety,which i'm having tons of right now, can be worsened at first, and that my OCD, which also is bad right now, can be worsened with this drug, due to the Norephennephrine. But the Depression is getting to the dangerous levels of suicidal thoughts and the SH is getting to the point of being totally out of control, so we have to do something. If this doesn't work, then he said the next one will be effexor. So, that's where I'm at a total freaking mess! The amount of Narcotics that I take daily for the Chronic Pain just exascerbates all of this...so my case is very complicated.
I hope you all will send me some good thoughts, Lord knows that I use them right now.
I hope you all will send me some good thoughts, Lord knows that I use them right now.
seaturtle
11-25-2008, 12:51 AM
Kat,
I'll be looking for your post to see how things went with the doctor.
I agree with you on the meds. I finally was put on Lamictal about 2 years ago, and it has changed my life after 45 or so years of being ill. I know I can't come off it without going through absolute hell: if I miss one dose, I am a real mess. But it helps, and I don't care about coming off it ever. It took a lot of trial and error and yes, withdrawals, too.
We always take the risk/benefit chance with meds. I am hoping for you that this one is just the right one.
I'll be looking for your post to see how things went with the doctor.
I agree with you on the meds. I finally was put on Lamictal about 2 years ago, and it has changed my life after 45 or so years of being ill. I know I can't come off it without going through absolute hell: if I miss one dose, I am a real mess. But it helps, and I don't care about coming off it ever. It took a lot of trial and error and yes, withdrawals, too.
We always take the risk/benefit chance with meds. I am hoping for you that this one is just the right one.
katlin09
11-25-2008, 01:33 PM
Seaturtle,
I'm still on the Lamictal and the Zoloft, the plan is as I go up on the Cymbalta, I'll come down on the Zoloft, and then get off of it completely, because I've been on it for so many years it just doesn't do anything. So then I'd be on the Lamictal and the Cymbalta. My pdoc has always known that I'd have to be on a mood stabilizer and an anti-depressant, my depression is just to severe, then with the SH and anxiety issues, etc. I was on Seroquel 450mg, if you remember, a few months ago, but then started gaining weight, and I just can't deal with that, it makes the SH worse when I look in the mirror and see this fat person, although everyone is like, "you're not fat, you look good." All I see is FAT.
So, we'll see, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this one, will work for me. It has no weight gain issues, and can help with sleep, which it sure did last night.
You doing okay?
Kat
I'm still on the Lamictal and the Zoloft, the plan is as I go up on the Cymbalta, I'll come down on the Zoloft, and then get off of it completely, because I've been on it for so many years it just doesn't do anything. So then I'd be on the Lamictal and the Cymbalta. My pdoc has always known that I'd have to be on a mood stabilizer and an anti-depressant, my depression is just to severe, then with the SH and anxiety issues, etc. I was on Seroquel 450mg, if you remember, a few months ago, but then started gaining weight, and I just can't deal with that, it makes the SH worse when I look in the mirror and see this fat person, although everyone is like, "you're not fat, you look good." All I see is FAT.
So, we'll see, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this one, will work for me. It has no weight gain issues, and can help with sleep, which it sure did last night.
You doing okay?
Kat
seaturtle
11-26-2008, 12:00 AM
Hiya, Kat,
I was on Prozac and it made me worse, actually. I think the combo of the Lamictal and Cymbalta sounds like a good one, I'm glad you're coming off the Zoloft, too.
Kat, will you have this much pain forever, or can something be done to make it better?
Me - well, I've been in a major down, migraine territory (final went away today, thank god). Unplugged the phone, didn't open email or even smail, spoke to no one for a week...the usual. But I did go to one of my groups today and forced myself to call a couple of people, am starting to feel better. A lot of it is the isolation I live in and the cursed weather, cold and rainy, grey.
Some of it's my fault, though. I decided (once again, lol) that I needed no help and was fine. Kept up w/my meds, but decided I didn't want any more help from anyone, therapist or not. So of course I just sank deeper.
But I'm on my way to okay now. At least I hope so.
You're much in my thoughts,
Seaturtle
I was on Prozac and it made me worse, actually. I think the combo of the Lamictal and Cymbalta sounds like a good one, I'm glad you're coming off the Zoloft, too.
Kat, will you have this much pain forever, or can something be done to make it better?
Me - well, I've been in a major down, migraine territory (final went away today, thank god). Unplugged the phone, didn't open email or even smail, spoke to no one for a week...the usual. But I did go to one of my groups today and forced myself to call a couple of people, am starting to feel better. A lot of it is the isolation I live in and the cursed weather, cold and rainy, grey.
Some of it's my fault, though. I decided (once again, lol) that I needed no help and was fine. Kept up w/my meds, but decided I didn't want any more help from anyone, therapist or not. So of course I just sank deeper.
But I'm on my way to okay now. At least I hope so.
You're much in my thoughts,
Seaturtle
tigger5150
11-26-2008, 08:57 PM
Hey Kat,
Hope things are going good. I really like the cymbalta even though it looks like we may have to increase mine again. I also have to be on a mood stabiliser and antideprssant as my depression is really bad and I also am a SH'er and get suicidal ideation (although not as much as I just SH). I'm wishing you success on this. I took effexor at one point, but the side effects were just too much for me.
Hope things are going good. I really like the cymbalta even though it looks like we may have to increase mine again. I also have to be on a mood stabiliser and antideprssant as my depression is really bad and I also am a SH'er and get suicidal ideation (although not as much as I just SH). I'm wishing you success on this. I took effexor at one point, but the side effects were just too much for me.
katlin09
11-27-2008, 01:29 AM
Tigger,
You are the reason that I wanted to try Cymbalta. We have almost identical problems/symptoms. I also am a Suicidial Depression Bi Polar. I also am an SH'er and have been for 34 years off and on. I'm also on a mood stablizer and an additional anti-depressant, but as I increase the Cymbalta I'll decrease the Zoloft. My pdoc is watching very closely for hypomanic episodes, intensified anxiety, and increased OCD symptoms. Those are his main concerns, and why he didn't want me to go on Cymbalta,but you had told me you had such great success and I researched it for weeks, and it just felt right. So after this weekend when the SH was really bad, and the suicidal thoughts were back, on Monday he finally gave in and put me on it. I'll let you know how it goes.
Kat
You are the reason that I wanted to try Cymbalta. We have almost identical problems/symptoms. I also am a Suicidial Depression Bi Polar. I also am an SH'er and have been for 34 years off and on. I'm also on a mood stablizer and an additional anti-depressant, but as I increase the Cymbalta I'll decrease the Zoloft. My pdoc is watching very closely for hypomanic episodes, intensified anxiety, and increased OCD symptoms. Those are his main concerns, and why he didn't want me to go on Cymbalta,but you had told me you had such great success and I researched it for weeks, and it just felt right. So after this weekend when the SH was really bad, and the suicidal thoughts were back, on Monday he finally gave in and put me on it. I'll let you know how it goes.
Kat
tigger5150
11-27-2008, 06:32 PM
Kat,
I'll be interested to see if you have the success I have had. I have tried zoloft, prozac, you name the oldies and I have probably tried them without much success (at least sustained) success. Since we are both so similiar I understand the important of getting meds that balance things out. I forgot about the "effects" of a recent SH incident and wore a short sleeve shirt to work.... and had to try to dodge all the questions of "oohh what happened".... with "it's a long story" and hoping they didn't press for more information! After today I will be away for 3 weeks in hospital doing ECT so I hope to see good news for you when I'm back. Good luck! Trish
I'll be interested to see if you have the success I have had. I have tried zoloft, prozac, you name the oldies and I have probably tried them without much success (at least sustained) success. Since we are both so similiar I understand the important of getting meds that balance things out. I forgot about the "effects" of a recent SH incident and wore a short sleeve shirt to work.... and had to try to dodge all the questions of "oohh what happened".... with "it's a long story" and hoping they didn't press for more information! After today I will be away for 3 weeks in hospital doing ECT so I hope to see good news for you when I'm back. Good luck! Trish
katlin09
11-27-2008, 09:27 PM
Trish,
I'll be thinking of you and hoping that all goes well for you while you're in the hospital.
Kat
I'll be thinking of you and hoping that all goes well for you while you're in the hospital.
Kat
seaturtle
11-27-2008, 09:30 PM
Hi, Kat,
I'm so glad to hear your doc has decided to give a try to the Cymbalta. I think the chances of it working for you are so good. Keep me posted as to how it goes, okay?
With your depression lifted, I think the SH and suicidal depressions might well be relieved, at last they were with the person I've referred to before, now a totally different woman since the Cymbalta.
I am really keeping fingers and toes crosse for you, kat. You are such a good person, and deserve a decent life, inside and outside.
I don't have the exact problems you describe, but I do know the utter frustration and despair that comes from fighting and fighting and not getting anywhere. I feel that way about my ED and agoraphobia, and so far, no meds work for those. But life is worth living (if, that is, we are in good enough shape to appreciate some of it).
Thinking of you as always,
Seaturtle
I'm so glad to hear your doc has decided to give a try to the Cymbalta. I think the chances of it working for you are so good. Keep me posted as to how it goes, okay?
With your depression lifted, I think the SH and suicidal depressions might well be relieved, at last they were with the person I've referred to before, now a totally different woman since the Cymbalta.
I am really keeping fingers and toes crosse for you, kat. You are such a good person, and deserve a decent life, inside and outside.
I don't have the exact problems you describe, but I do know the utter frustration and despair that comes from fighting and fighting and not getting anywhere. I feel that way about my ED and agoraphobia, and so far, no meds work for those. But life is worth living (if, that is, we are in good enough shape to appreciate some of it).
Thinking of you as always,
Seaturtle
katlin09
11-27-2008, 10:12 PM
Seaturtle,
What would I do without you and your friendship on this board? You've always been here for me from the first time I posted here and that means so much to me.
The Cymbalta does seem to be helping, the depression is lifting, I've noticed it a little each day since yesterday. It's helping me sleep at night, which is a godsend, as I usually only get about 3 hours. The anxiety is pretty bad, but my pdoc warned me that it would probably be increased for a bit until I got used to the med, he gave me extra klonopin for that, the OCD has been a bit worse too, but I'll just have to deal with that, I guess. It's the usual, trade off one thing for another, prioritize and decide what you want the most help with first.
The Cymbalta does kill my appetite, whice my doc won't be happy about, he's already on my ass about not eating...so I'll have to work out a meal plan and weigh in every time I see him, and turn in food intake sheets, blah, blah, blah.
The SH is a whole different story, once it gets going, it's harder to get under control, especially with the increased anxiety, but my tdoc and I are working on that, so hopefully I'll get a handle on it very soon.
Did you have a good Thanksgiving? Mine was pretty crappy, my husband was supposed to come, to make it "normal" for the boys, as it was our first holiday since the seperation, and he never showed, so the boys were dissapointed and sad. The 4th chair at the table was very obviously empty and it was kind of depressing, so we all kind of ate in a hurry, and got into other things pretty quick. I don't even want to think about what a nightmare Christmas is going to be.
I am really hoping that I'll have the same great success with the Cymbalta that Tigger did, since she and I are practically twins when it comes to symptoms/BP/SH/med problems, etc. I appreciate all of your good thoughts and am sending mine to you, that you will stay well, and continue to do so.
Kat
What would I do without you and your friendship on this board? You've always been here for me from the first time I posted here and that means so much to me.
The Cymbalta does seem to be helping, the depression is lifting, I've noticed it a little each day since yesterday. It's helping me sleep at night, which is a godsend, as I usually only get about 3 hours. The anxiety is pretty bad, but my pdoc warned me that it would probably be increased for a bit until I got used to the med, he gave me extra klonopin for that, the OCD has been a bit worse too, but I'll just have to deal with that, I guess. It's the usual, trade off one thing for another, prioritize and decide what you want the most help with first.
The Cymbalta does kill my appetite, whice my doc won't be happy about, he's already on my ass about not eating...so I'll have to work out a meal plan and weigh in every time I see him, and turn in food intake sheets, blah, blah, blah.
The SH is a whole different story, once it gets going, it's harder to get under control, especially with the increased anxiety, but my tdoc and I are working on that, so hopefully I'll get a handle on it very soon.
Did you have a good Thanksgiving? Mine was pretty crappy, my husband was supposed to come, to make it "normal" for the boys, as it was our first holiday since the seperation, and he never showed, so the boys were dissapointed and sad. The 4th chair at the table was very obviously empty and it was kind of depressing, so we all kind of ate in a hurry, and got into other things pretty quick. I don't even want to think about what a nightmare Christmas is going to be.
I am really hoping that I'll have the same great success with the Cymbalta that Tigger did, since she and I are practically twins when it comes to symptoms/BP/SH/med problems, etc. I appreciate all of your good thoughts and am sending mine to you, that you will stay well, and continue to do so.
Kat
dreams in neon
11-28-2008, 12:13 AM
Kat,
I forgot to mention in the previous thread in which you responded that I'm sorry your husband was a "no show" for Thanksgiving. What a disappointment! I hope you at least had a good time with your children today while enjoying some good food. :)
I forgot to mention in the previous thread in which you responded that I'm sorry your husband was a "no show" for Thanksgiving. What a disappointment! I hope you at least had a good time with your children today while enjoying some good food. :)
katlin09
11-28-2008, 03:14 AM
Dreams,
That was very thoughtful of you, thank you very much. And yes, I enjoyed spending the day with my boys immensley. I've had both of them with me since yesterday and will have them until tomorrow about 5, when their dad picks them up. So, we're having a good time.
Hope you enjoyed your day out.
Kat
That was very thoughtful of you, thank you very much. And yes, I enjoyed spending the day with my boys immensley. I've had both of them with me since yesterday and will have them until tomorrow about 5, when their dad picks them up. So, we're having a good time.
Hope you enjoyed your day out.
Kat
seaturtle
11-29-2008, 06:57 PM
Hiya, kat,
Hurray! I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling some result from the Cymbalta. Let's keep that up!
I'm so glad to hear from you every time, too. It helps me no end to be in touch and hear that I am actually helping someone. But reading your posts helps me, too, so it's reciprocal.
I also have the ED (I'd forgotten about yours, somehow), and I have to get weighed regularly, too. Sometimes I don't do too well at that one, have had it now for 47 years -a little beast, isn't it? Good you have that Klonipin - your doctor sounds pretty good. The first few weeks or so are kinda rough with the anxiety, but that will pass.
How sad for the little ones at Thanksgiving. That man should be ashamed of himself. I never understood how people can do that to little kids. He won't have their trust, I don't think, but you will. Mine was pretty crappy, too. I was alone, usual for me on holidays, so my cats and I celebrated with cans of Fancy Feast for them and chocolate pudding for me (I'm vegetarian, so no turkey). I felt sad, down, but then remembered the family-of-origin Thanksgivings and Christmases and Easters, and considered myself ultra-lucky not to have to attend those any more. Is Christmas a difficult time for you, too?
I am eager to hear how you're doing today. Please do post if you feel like it. You've done such a magnificent job of hanging in there under hard circumstances and feeling terrible. I hand it to you. This Cymbalta just has to work for you.
Keep in touch, friend. I'm thinking of you,
Seaturtle
Hurray! I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling some result from the Cymbalta. Let's keep that up!
I'm so glad to hear from you every time, too. It helps me no end to be in touch and hear that I am actually helping someone. But reading your posts helps me, too, so it's reciprocal.
I also have the ED (I'd forgotten about yours, somehow), and I have to get weighed regularly, too. Sometimes I don't do too well at that one, have had it now for 47 years -a little beast, isn't it? Good you have that Klonipin - your doctor sounds pretty good. The first few weeks or so are kinda rough with the anxiety, but that will pass.
How sad for the little ones at Thanksgiving. That man should be ashamed of himself. I never understood how people can do that to little kids. He won't have their trust, I don't think, but you will. Mine was pretty crappy, too. I was alone, usual for me on holidays, so my cats and I celebrated with cans of Fancy Feast for them and chocolate pudding for me (I'm vegetarian, so no turkey). I felt sad, down, but then remembered the family-of-origin Thanksgivings and Christmases and Easters, and considered myself ultra-lucky not to have to attend those any more. Is Christmas a difficult time for you, too?
I am eager to hear how you're doing today. Please do post if you feel like it. You've done such a magnificent job of hanging in there under hard circumstances and feeling terrible. I hand it to you. This Cymbalta just has to work for you.
Keep in touch, friend. I'm thinking of you,
Seaturtle
dreams in neon
11-30-2008, 07:24 AM
Hi Kat,
I'm glad you were able to have the kids for another day.
Based on your post, it sounds like you're feeling better which is great!
As for myself, well, I'm afraid I don't have much good news to share. You can read more about it in the "Update On How I'm Doing" thread.
Hope better days continue for you! :)
I'm glad you were able to have the kids for another day.
Based on your post, it sounds like you're feeling better which is great!
As for myself, well, I'm afraid I don't have much good news to share. You can read more about it in the "Update On How I'm Doing" thread.
Hope better days continue for you! :)
katlin09
11-30-2008, 11:25 PM
Hey Seaturtle,
You sound like you're doing pretty good. Yeah Thanksgiving was a downer but the kids got through it, we just rushed through dinner and then watched movies and played board games and such. I didn't really eat, food just has no appeal to me whatsoever. I guess that's one of the other side effects of Cymbalta no appetite and weight loss, I've lot 3 lbs in the last week, totally forgot to eat yesterday, and only ate today because I went out with my son and his grammy to dinner, managed to get half of it down. So I'll have to work on that, oh well at least I can loose the 12 lbs I put on from the Seroquel and Neurontin, the pdoc can't start griping until then, or that's my logic anyways. *l*
Yeah, I like the decortations and lights part of Christmas, but the whole being around the big family part I could do without, and this year especially, trying to decide where to go and whether the hubby is going to be a grown up or refuse to be around...we'll see.
But other than that I'm doing okay, the anxiety is pretty bad at times, but the depression continues to lift and the SH has been much better over the past 2 days, so I'll just keep on keeping my finger and toes crossed.
Hope you have a good Monday!!
You sound like you're doing pretty good. Yeah Thanksgiving was a downer but the kids got through it, we just rushed through dinner and then watched movies and played board games and such. I didn't really eat, food just has no appeal to me whatsoever. I guess that's one of the other side effects of Cymbalta no appetite and weight loss, I've lot 3 lbs in the last week, totally forgot to eat yesterday, and only ate today because I went out with my son and his grammy to dinner, managed to get half of it down. So I'll have to work on that, oh well at least I can loose the 12 lbs I put on from the Seroquel and Neurontin, the pdoc can't start griping until then, or that's my logic anyways. *l*
Yeah, I like the decortations and lights part of Christmas, but the whole being around the big family part I could do without, and this year especially, trying to decide where to go and whether the hubby is going to be a grown up or refuse to be around...we'll see.
But other than that I'm doing okay, the anxiety is pretty bad at times, but the depression continues to lift and the SH has been much better over the past 2 days, so I'll just keep on keeping my finger and toes crossed.
Hope you have a good Monday!!
katlin09
12-01-2008, 03:44 PM
I read in one of your posts to someone else that you're not doing so good. Still fighting the fatigue and depression? Are you still going to your group meetings? Hopefully getting out of the house that much helps a bit, although I know with the Agoraphobia getting out is probably not your favorite thing. I wish we could swap addy's on here, I saw the cutest kitty puzzle yesterday at the store and I thought of you, I wished I could sent it you. Are you at least getting out on the patio with a nice cup of tea and getting some fresh air, you know that would probably help alot. Keep snuggling those kitties and this too shall pass. Maybe a trip to the pdoc for an adjustment in your anti-depressant might be in order as this round of depression has lasted quite a long while...
Well, keep me posted on how you are doing, because I do worry for you my friend and here are some hugs for you.
((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))
:angel: you are a true angel to all on this board!
Kat
Well, keep me posted on how you are doing, because I do worry for you my friend and here are some hugs for you.
((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))
:angel: you are a true angel to all on this board!
Kat