prplelove
11-28-2008, 05:44 PM
Hello everyone, I have been reading alot of the posts on here and I think I have finally found a place to meet people who are like me and can understand me. I am 32 and I have suffered from extremely high anxiety and depression most my life. I just got out of a very poor relationship where I was cheated on etc. That is a really really long story in itself. I have always thought that there was something really wrong with me cause I go through these moods and feelings that I don't see alot of other people go through. I feel emotions 100% stronger than a normal person feels them.
I just lost my job due to the actions and decisions I made to find out if my exboyfriend was cheating on me. I lost my daughter to my mom about 9 months ago because of my exboyfriend and more bad decisions I made. I know I am bipolar, I have all the symptoms, the mania is horrible, I drive all over the place when I feel that way. My brain will never shut up, I can't sleep, I can't eat. Its like i feel like whats the point in life? I seem to attract people who like to lie, cheat, steal from me, and take my life down a long bad road. All I want is someone to love me and pay attention to me. Is that so much to ask? I really need a network of friends and people to talk to. I live in Columbus Ohio and I don't have health insurance right now. Does anyone know of where or who I could contact to find free mental health help so that I can get diagnosed with something and get medication? Any help would be gratefully appreciated.
I just lost my job due to the actions and decisions I made to find out if my exboyfriend was cheating on me. I lost my daughter to my mom about 9 months ago because of my exboyfriend and more bad decisions I made. I know I am bipolar, I have all the symptoms, the mania is horrible, I drive all over the place when I feel that way. My brain will never shut up, I can't sleep, I can't eat. Its like i feel like whats the point in life? I seem to attract people who like to lie, cheat, steal from me, and take my life down a long bad road. All I want is someone to love me and pay attention to me. Is that so much to ask? I really need a network of friends and people to talk to. I live in Columbus Ohio and I don't have health insurance right now. Does anyone know of where or who I could contact to find free mental health help so that I can get diagnosed with something and get medication? Any help would be gratefully appreciated.
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cool9
11-28-2008, 07:23 PM
Some Community Health Centers have free help but in my experience those Doctors are not good at prescribing medication, offering psychotherapy and have weak bedside manners. Some Universities have Resident Psychiatrists that see people for a very small fee usually. And most Psychiatrists will work out a smaller fee for you if you can't afford it. Hope you feel better.
dreams in neon
11-28-2008, 08:13 PM
I would contact a local hospital and ask them for the nearest free mental health clinic. A 24 hour hotline number may also have this information.
The poster below me said that the help offered by free clinics isn't as good as it would be for "standard" clinics. The way I see it, you're better off getting *some* help and a diagnosis instead of none. It sounds like you need to be on meds ASAP and a little weekly therapy might not hurt, either.
In addition to a free clinic and university psychology department, you might want to look into a research/teaching or psychiatric hospital in your area. They may be able to refer you to low-income mental health facilities that offer services for free or at a reduced cost.
Good luck.
The poster below me said that the help offered by free clinics isn't as good as it would be for "standard" clinics. The way I see it, you're better off getting *some* help and a diagnosis instead of none. It sounds like you need to be on meds ASAP and a little weekly therapy might not hurt, either.
In addition to a free clinic and university psychology department, you might want to look into a research/teaching or psychiatric hospital in your area. They may be able to refer you to low-income mental health facilities that offer services for free or at a reduced cost.
Good luck.
katlin09
11-28-2008, 11:57 PM
I totally agree with Dreams, at this point something for you would be better than nothing. You could also try calling your local health department and they could most likely give you a list of numbers in your area. Good Luck and let us know how you are doing.
dragonprincess
12-05-2008, 05:20 PM
HI i'm DragonPrincess nice to meet you.you sound alot like me it will get better you'll see if you need to talk just let me know .I am 32 with 4 kids and have been through alot with this condtion.yes my brain won't shut up either just keeps going and going.hope i hare back from you soon.:)
mummykiss
12-07-2008, 09:16 PM
Hi prplelove, sorry your'e having a bad time. I just became a newbie too. I so understand what you are going through. My brain could also do with some shut up juice! Actually so could my bipolar 12 yr old, who is still running around the house! The book im reading at the moment, has refered to this brain waffling as "Your Internal Life" Imagine that...two Bipolar lives to deal with. I was only just getting my head around the "External" one. Well im off to bed, not to sleep I suppose, but to enter into my third world of disturbing dreams! Peace, love and healing to you all. xxx
seaturtle
12-07-2008, 11:17 PM
Hello,
Welcome here. Have you State-run Community Mental Health Centers in your state? I have to say that my experience has been excellent at mine. I have Medicaid, though, and can use that to go for help.
Are you on SSI or SSDI? If so, you can certainly get treatment, if not, are you considering filing?
Even a GP will often prescribe meds for bipolar, so you might try your regular doctor.
I hope you find help, and keep posting here, too.
Welcome here. Have you State-run Community Mental Health Centers in your state? I have to say that my experience has been excellent at mine. I have Medicaid, though, and can use that to go for help.
Are you on SSI or SSDI? If so, you can certainly get treatment, if not, are you considering filing?
Even a GP will often prescribe meds for bipolar, so you might try your regular doctor.
I hope you find help, and keep posting here, too.
ange 72
12-09-2008, 07:14 PM
hi there. ive been on the message boards since around sept, but havent been on for a while, recently started uni course, enjoying it, nice to have another focus,in my life, hope coping will be ok when studying gets heavy, anyway gr8 to be back and hi to the newbies, im determined to try and cope, alot gone on in my life lately, and its been tough, my son who's 15 also has bipolar, and there has been alot of ups and downs but more downs lately, im tending to feel paranoid about everybody mates,fellow students, family, feel isolated at times, obsessed when low if people like me or not,and whether i annoy people, certain people tend to effect me more than others, feel let down by my mates, if they dont want to go out, havent been on a night out for a couple of months, fine, but feel i need that release especially when manic moods begin. does anyone else feel that they have to be out there, noticed and important to people. when feeling good coudnt care less what people think....
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FinallyHere
12-11-2008, 10:13 PM
You can meet me, I just joined too. I was diagnosed finally with Bipolar II a few weeks ago, and I've been terrified about it. I always pretty much knew, but now it seems so final. My psychiatrist today wouldn't agree to a switch to an anti-depressant that had worked well for me ages ago and wants to treat his DX by putting me on Lamictal. I'm TERRIFIED, not sure why, just afraid that I'll stop being me. I kind of like riding the waves, never get suicidal, just a really rapid cycling person (I've now learned).
Please help me not be so scared.......
Please help me not be so scared.......