Hi all,

I've been battling OCD for many years now. Right now I'm going through a pretty crappy spike. I suffer from intrusive thoughts that center around violence. I hate them. I hate the way they make me feel. I KNOW my thoughts are irrational yet I still feel scared. There's this lingering fear in the back of my mind that always says "what if I'm going crazy", "what if I go crazy and act on them". I don't want to, I know the intrusive thoughts are irrational and yet I can't stop feeling terrified. Does anyone else feel this way?

Do these thoughts regarding violence involve violence being commited against you or by you? I was just curious because I often worry about being the victim of violence. Everyone's OCD seems to be a little different and manifests itself in different ways; so even if I can't relate exactly to your symptoms, I can definately relate to the way OCD seems to spike up and control your life at times. Just realize that its your OCD and these thoughts are not rational. All the best to you..Merry Christmas!