fullofwin
12-30-2008, 11:30 PM
Not sure if I have OCD, here goes.
Well I'm 17, I like things to be stacked, arranged or placed evenly, symmetrically or parallel. I always want to start again or start fresh, I can't work in a busy surrounding and I can't work when I'm unclean. I constantly get stuck with useless thoughts, like if something is wrong on an image or poster outside that I can't change or get rid of, stuff very stupid like that. I Need objects to be straight on (labels on deoderant and spray top hole MUST face most viewed angle) I threat about small things. Even with my own life I feel so much like I'd like to start again and do everything again clean this time. I'm 17 so I play games and I always end up starting again when there is any type of customisable features (character customisation) I always have to do something to its absolute fullest or scrap it all together I hardly do art anymore even thought its the only thing I'm good at and that's because I know if I begin a painting It will never look or feel complete or perfect so why bother if I could not do it and feel good. I always feel like destroying or leaving any type of VERY messy or VERY hard to fix problems or surroundings. I often get very annoyed if an artist has done something wrong that I feel I'll never get to make perfect. Very silly I know, I actually enjoy most of it. It keeps me clean and my surroundings tidy, its also good for when I do, do some art and such. Also it makes me have a very acquired taste in furnicings and housing items and decorations (if you know what I mean) But sometimes I get very volitile if enough is wrong.
Just wondering.
Maybe someone else who has the same could share what they do...
Well I'm 17, I like things to be stacked, arranged or placed evenly, symmetrically or parallel. I always want to start again or start fresh, I can't work in a busy surrounding and I can't work when I'm unclean. I constantly get stuck with useless thoughts, like if something is wrong on an image or poster outside that I can't change or get rid of, stuff very stupid like that. I Need objects to be straight on (labels on deoderant and spray top hole MUST face most viewed angle) I threat about small things. Even with my own life I feel so much like I'd like to start again and do everything again clean this time. I'm 17 so I play games and I always end up starting again when there is any type of customisable features (character customisation) I always have to do something to its absolute fullest or scrap it all together I hardly do art anymore even thought its the only thing I'm good at and that's because I know if I begin a painting It will never look or feel complete or perfect so why bother if I could not do it and feel good. I always feel like destroying or leaving any type of VERY messy or VERY hard to fix problems or surroundings. I often get very annoyed if an artist has done something wrong that I feel I'll never get to make perfect. Very silly I know, I actually enjoy most of it. It keeps me clean and my surroundings tidy, its also good for when I do, do some art and such. Also it makes me have a very acquired taste in furnicings and housing items and decorations (if you know what I mean) But sometimes I get very volitile if enough is wrong.
Just wondering.
Maybe someone else who has the same could share what they do...
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fullofwin
12-30-2008, 11:39 PM
Also, Im EXTREAMLY short tempered and very aggressive. I have complete hate for sertain things without any reason, and I can't ever know why. I have weird manorisms towards sertain people and I hate sertain "normal" situations. I have obsessive thoughts about practically anything and if I end up liking anything I usually obsess about it then eventually do it or use it or see it or hear it or interact with it enough to eventually hate it. It happens with girls too, if I like a girl then chances are I'll always try to be around her. Then I eventually begin to hate her for small things, very annoying. I also pretty much hate myself and I feel like im rubbish at absolutely everything. mainly because I am...
Thats the bad side of my OCD pretty much, the stuff I'd rather be without...
Thats the bad side of my OCD pretty much, the stuff I'd rather be without...

