hayleysamantha
01-04-2009, 11:04 PM
I just dont know what to do anymore! 2 weeks ago a stomach flu hit my kids and even though its been 3 days since the last one i have done nothing for 2 weeks other than panic and my ocd has returned full blown!! i feel like i am losing it and no one understands! not that i have shared it with many because i know its not understandable unless one suffers from this. I have a huge phobia of vomiting and although i use to ocd about this years back i somewhat got over it meaning i never obssessed about it because it was never in my face like it is right now...i have lost 15 lbs in 2 weeks because i refuse to eat in case i do get it and all i do is think about vomiting 24/7...i think i am going to go to my Dr tomorrow...
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cuts84
01-05-2009, 12:10 AM
I just dont know what to do anymore! 2 weeks ago a stomach flu hit my kids and even though its been 3 days since the last one i have done nothing for 2 weeks other than panic and my ocd has returned full blown!! i feel like i am losing it and no one understands! not that i have shared it with many because i know its not understandable unless one suffers from this. I have a huge phobia of vomiting and although i use to ocd about this years back i somewhat got over it meaning i never obssessed about it because it was never in my face like it is right now...i have lost 15 lbs in 2 weeks because i refuse to eat in case i do get it and all i do is think about vomiting 24/7...i think i am going to go to my Dr tomorrow...
I used to always OCD that I would get a stomach virus in the middle of something important or just at a time when it was really inconvenient (ex: I would start to get sick in the middle of a long plane flight). Anyway, you just have to treat it like anything else with OCD...don't let it control your life. Live life as best you can and if you get sick, you get sick. I just got the stomach flu last week, and it was miserable. However, it is still probably better than wasting weeks OCDing about it!
I used to always OCD that I would get a stomach virus in the middle of something important or just at a time when it was really inconvenient (ex: I would start to get sick in the middle of a long plane flight). Anyway, you just have to treat it like anything else with OCD...don't let it control your life. Live life as best you can and if you get sick, you get sick. I just got the stomach flu last week, and it was miserable. However, it is still probably better than wasting weeks OCDing about it!
hayleysamantha
01-05-2009, 01:13 AM
thanks for your reply but easier said than done...it is starting to effect my health and i feel like i am living a nightmare!!! i just want this to be done and know when the "safe" time is...
TrueEssence
01-06-2009, 02:25 PM
I also suffer from the fear of vomiting. I definitely feel your pain and am extremely sorry that you are going through this. When anyone gets sick around me I go nuts with cleaning and lycoling ect.. I also get so worked up with anxiety that sometimes it in itself makes me sick... what helps me is that I remind myself over and over again that If I do happen to get sick :( that I can go to my ER and they have meds that help with nausea... at least they have for me in the past....I really hope that this helps some..from past experience I have found that knowing i'm not alone helps (misery loves company and I'm there with you)
Captain OCD
01-06-2009, 04:53 PM
Awww... I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time! You are DEFINITELY not alone. We OCD-ers are definitely out there, and we all struggle. Isn't it great to be able to find others like you? Makes me feel a little less certifiable at least. :)
I used to worry about vomiting too, and then when I finally did vomit once my worry was just obliterated completely because it really wasn't half as bad as I thought it would be. It was on a date, and I had to run to the bathroom and I just lost it. Afterward I was like, "That was what I was so worried about?" :) It's like "What's the worst that could happen with this?" But OCD does not always follow such logic I know.
Have you done any cognitive-behavioral therapy or anything? Have you ever considered taking a vacation from your OCD? That's my favorite strategy for coping. :) Sometimes when I am just mentally out of control I am able to recognize that "Hey, if life were REALLY as bad as I feel I would expect molten lava to be flowing into my apartment. Since it's not, MAYBE it's OCD and my body's anxiety response is just WAY too loud and it will go down if I 'take a vacation.'" So I recognize the OCD episode for what it is, and I give myself permission to step away from it and say "Okay, I will come back to this later. Tomorrow at 3, maybe." And sometimes the anxiety subsides enough that I don't have to come back to it. Sometimes I find myself calling my therapist. :) Ha!
Anyway, you're not alone. At all! And if you can, rest and relax and give yourself permission to go on a mental vacation! :)
- Captain OCD
I used to worry about vomiting too, and then when I finally did vomit once my worry was just obliterated completely because it really wasn't half as bad as I thought it would be. It was on a date, and I had to run to the bathroom and I just lost it. Afterward I was like, "That was what I was so worried about?" :) It's like "What's the worst that could happen with this?" But OCD does not always follow such logic I know.
Have you done any cognitive-behavioral therapy or anything? Have you ever considered taking a vacation from your OCD? That's my favorite strategy for coping. :) Sometimes when I am just mentally out of control I am able to recognize that "Hey, if life were REALLY as bad as I feel I would expect molten lava to be flowing into my apartment. Since it's not, MAYBE it's OCD and my body's anxiety response is just WAY too loud and it will go down if I 'take a vacation.'" So I recognize the OCD episode for what it is, and I give myself permission to step away from it and say "Okay, I will come back to this later. Tomorrow at 3, maybe." And sometimes the anxiety subsides enough that I don't have to come back to it. Sometimes I find myself calling my therapist. :) Ha!
Anyway, you're not alone. At all! And if you can, rest and relax and give yourself permission to go on a mental vacation! :)
- Captain OCD
hayleysamantha
01-08-2009, 02:24 AM
i feel so much better thank God!!!! the Dr gave me clonazopan and wow its amazing!!! it doesnt make me high it allows he to think rationally like i use to!!! i use to always get attacks just at the thought of vomiting until 8 years ago when i went on celexa and then when i would think about it i would shrug it off and when the first kid puked i didnt like it but i was ok then the second one did and i went full blown mental!!! then the 3rd and it was all over for me! i list 15 lbs and didnt eat for 2 weeks i layed in bed and honestly wanted to die! i had no other brain function other than ocding about vomitinn...i have thrown up in the past as everyone does and its not really the actual coming up part its right before that makes me panic and the chills and shaking that came with it but like i said no panic attacks for 8 years and i finally realized this time what had made me panic all those years my attacks made me want to throw up but what i thought was that i was going to throw up and that brought on the attack but it was the opposiite, hope thats makes sense! in my mind vomiting to me signals death, it means something is really wrong with someone but i know it isnt just my brain reacts that way to it! anyways i am soooooo glad i went to the dr this is a temp med until my upped celexa kicks in, i know this was just a trigger thing and once this bug was done in the house i would be better but i couldnt live in the meantime i mean i was killing myself really! over nothing! in my mind if i didnt eat i wouldnt have much to throw up!! anyways now i am eating, going out in public again and able to function normally although its been comng up 6 days since anyone vomited i am still bleaching everything and still will for a while! who can it hurt right?? i am so thrilled to finally be able to wake up and feel life again although i am sure during my life it will happen again!