janalee
01-23-2009, 06:08 PM
hey there,
My Mom had a stroke back in August. Since that time her life and mine have change significantly. We had to place her in a nursing home a few weeks ago. I am finding that now all my Mom wants to do is sleep. I am starting to get concerned and am wondering if this is normal. Part of me wants to believe it is part of the healing process. If anyone out there has any advice or stories to share I would greatly appreciate it. I am not dealing with things all that well right now. If you would have asked me six months ago if this was the life my Mom would be leading I would have said "no way".
My Mom had a stroke back in August. Since that time her life and mine have change significantly. We had to place her in a nursing home a few weeks ago. I am finding that now all my Mom wants to do is sleep. I am starting to get concerned and am wondering if this is normal. Part of me wants to believe it is part of the healing process. If anyone out there has any advice or stories to share I would greatly appreciate it. I am not dealing with things all that well right now. If you would have asked me six months ago if this was the life my Mom would be leading I would have said "no way".
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writeleft
01-23-2009, 06:21 PM
I am so sorry about your mom's stroke, but I hope I can help you. I do not know the nature of your mother's stroke, or what other health issues she might have, but I am a 48 year old woman who survived 4 strokes (five years ago, due to malignant hypertension).
The sleeping is very common following a stroke. It is a time of healing. The brain is an amazing thing that will try and heal itself immediatly, thus the sleep. Be very patient with your mother, let her take her time.
The sleeping is very common following a stroke. It is a time of healing. The brain is an amazing thing that will try and heal itself immediatly, thus the sleep. Be very patient with your mother, let her take her time.
sumptersam
01-24-2009, 10:51 AM
I am so sorry about your mom's stroke, but I hope I can help you. I do not know the nature of your mother's stroke, or what other health issues she might have, but I am a 48 year old woman who survived 4 strokes (five years ago, due to malignant hypertension).
The sleeping is very common following a stroke. It is a time of healing. The brain is an amazing thing that will try and heal itself immediatly, thus the sleep. Be very patient with your mother, let her take her time.
after my stroke, nurses just let me sleep...I don't think I have ever felt so sleepy but now (a few months later) I keep to a schedule, don't sleep too much and my wife wakes me up...but I still have to sneak a nap in sometimes.....of course, depends on meds too...I take meds for my seizures which make me sleepy......
The sleeping is very common following a stroke. It is a time of healing. The brain is an amazing thing that will try and heal itself immediatly, thus the sleep. Be very patient with your mother, let her take her time.
after my stroke, nurses just let me sleep...I don't think I have ever felt so sleepy but now (a few months later) I keep to a schedule, don't sleep too much and my wife wakes me up...but I still have to sneak a nap in sometimes.....of course, depends on meds too...I take meds for my seizures which make me sleepy......
writeleft
01-24-2009, 07:38 PM
My sleeping pattern following my strokes has been very differant than before.
I actually spent the whole first year basically asleep. The second year I began to walk around again, but never alone. The third year, my speech got better. The fourth year, I began to drive again. Now, in the fifth year, I am back to riding my motorcycle in the desert, restoring my 48 year old truck, and feeling more and more like myself everyday.
Now, I'm not suggesting your moms case is anything like mine, but time does heal. I had some other signifigant health issues with the strokes, kidney failure, strokes on the retina's, heart attack, etc.
Now days, I still need 10-12 hours of sleep, mostly due to medications, as sumptersam mentioned. I've just adjusted to sleeping much more, and that's ok. My recovery is still in progress, and thank god for my understanding husband and kids.
I hope your mother continues to heal, and she is very lucky to have such a caring, loving daughter.
I actually spent the whole first year basically asleep. The second year I began to walk around again, but never alone. The third year, my speech got better. The fourth year, I began to drive again. Now, in the fifth year, I am back to riding my motorcycle in the desert, restoring my 48 year old truck, and feeling more and more like myself everyday.
Now, I'm not suggesting your moms case is anything like mine, but time does heal. I had some other signifigant health issues with the strokes, kidney failure, strokes on the retina's, heart attack, etc.
Now days, I still need 10-12 hours of sleep, mostly due to medications, as sumptersam mentioned. I've just adjusted to sleeping much more, and that's ok. My recovery is still in progress, and thank god for my understanding husband and kids.
I hope your mother continues to heal, and she is very lucky to have such a caring, loving daughter.
janalee
01-25-2009, 12:07 PM
Thanks to the both of you for your comments on my post. It gives me hope for my Mom. I have been having a bit of a hard time myself with the whole experience. We have placed my Mom in a nursing home and that has been a challenge for me. It is a struggle to trust anyone enough with the care of my little Mom.
My Mom has done well physically but cognitively she has some issues. She has alot of confused thoughts and sometimes sees or hears things that are not there. I wish for her that her mind will clear and she can have peace......and live a good life.
Thank you again for taking the time to reply to my....it really means alot.
My Mom has done well physically but cognitively she has some issues. She has alot of confused thoughts and sometimes sees or hears things that are not there. I wish for her that her mind will clear and she can have peace......and live a good life.
Thank you again for taking the time to reply to my....it really means alot.
writeleft
01-25-2009, 08:26 PM
Of course...She will be confused for a while, just try to assure her she will get much better. I follow these boards just for the purpose of sharing some positive light on this very difficult time.
sumptersam
01-26-2009, 10:40 AM
Of course...She will be confused for a while, just try to assure her she will get much better. I follow these boards just for the purpose of sharing some positive light on this very difficult time.
It's comforting just to know someone else understands what life is like....I understand the confused state....but of course, my wife says I was always like that it's just that now I have an excuse! I will think of your mother and others when I pray.....:angel::
It's comforting just to know someone else understands what life is like....I understand the confused state....but of course, my wife says I was always like that it's just that now I have an excuse! I will think of your mother and others when I pray.....:angel::
writeleft
01-26-2009, 11:31 PM
Contributing on the boards is "just what the doctor ordered" for me. I had my strokes young (43), and was spared the worst, somehow. I feel lucky to connect with other survivors, and support one another.
sumptersam
01-27-2009, 10:47 AM
Contributing on the boards is "just what the doctor ordered" for me. I had my strokes young (43), and was spared the worst, somehow. I feel lucky to connect with other survivors, and support one another.
Me too.....I am 48 and I think the young age is important as I am lucky to be getting most everything back.....some of the guys in thereapy with me weren't so lucky.....and even the therapists have told me how speaking out, finding these boards, etc. is good therapy! :wave:
Me too.....I am 48 and I think the young age is important as I am lucky to be getting most everything back.....some of the guys in thereapy with me weren't so lucky.....and even the therapists have told me how speaking out, finding these boards, etc. is good therapy! :wave:
janalee
01-27-2009, 11:21 AM
I feel very fortunate to have found this board. This is what I needed.....I am grateful to those of you who have taken the time to respond to my post. It is good to know there are people out there who understand. My Mom is 77, much older than you but I still believe that she will continue to recover. I am hoping a year from now she will not be living in such a confused world and that perhaps she can be in a assisted living situation as opposed to a nursing home.
writeleft
01-27-2009, 04:28 PM
Janalee, and Sumptersam,
I spend a little time each day on the boards, and every once in a while I find a good connection, as with you two. I like to focus on the positive aspects of things, but I certainly never forget the tough road that got me this far.
Janalee, I hope for your mother's recovery to be positive, and speedy. I cannot tell you how comforting it was for me to have my husband's voice and his touch, during the worst times for me. No matter how confused I was, I knew he was there, just like your mother does.
Sumptersam, May I ask what led to your stroke?
Hugs to both of you, and of course your mother too...
I spend a little time each day on the boards, and every once in a while I find a good connection, as with you two. I like to focus on the positive aspects of things, but I certainly never forget the tough road that got me this far.
Janalee, I hope for your mother's recovery to be positive, and speedy. I cannot tell you how comforting it was for me to have my husband's voice and his touch, during the worst times for me. No matter how confused I was, I knew he was there, just like your mother does.
Sumptersam, May I ask what led to your stroke?
Hugs to both of you, and of course your mother too...
janalee
01-28-2009, 11:47 AM
Janalee, and Sumptersam,
I spend a little time each day on the boards, and every once in a while I find a good connection, as with you two. I like to focus on the positive aspects of things, but I certainly never forget the tough road that got me this far.
Janalee, I hope for your mother's recovery to be positive, and speedy. I cannot tell you how comforting it was for me to have my husband's voice and his touch, during the worst times for me. No matter how confused I was, I knew he was there, just like your mother does.
Sumptersam, May I ask what led to your stroke?
Hugs to both of you, and of course your mother too...
Hi there,
My Mom had her stroke just before her 77th birthday. My Mom was very active and you certainly would never guess her age. She was in a relationship for 8 years prior to having her stroke. A month or so before her stroke her and her partner broke up. I am not to sure if the stress of that added to her situation or not. There was more to it but I guess I felt it was the stress of that particular situation that increased her chances of the stroke. I also think, at the time, I wanted someone to blame. She did have high blood pressure and cholesteral which always surprised me. My Mom was always so aware of everything she ate and led a very healthy lifestyle.
It is good to have connections with people that can understand or to help you understand what is happening. I know my Mom is comforted by my being there as much as I am. Sometimes it is so hard to leave her.....and I can see it in her eyes. That breaks my heart.......
I am lucky to have the partner I have in my life who does not begrudge the amount of time I spend away from home. He is so supportive and helpful. It is him as well that helps me make it through everyday.
I do have a question for you both. Did eithr of you have any councelling/or otherwise to deal with all the emotional/confusing stuff when you had your stroke?
Thanks again for your kindness
I spend a little time each day on the boards, and every once in a while I find a good connection, as with you two. I like to focus on the positive aspects of things, but I certainly never forget the tough road that got me this far.
Janalee, I hope for your mother's recovery to be positive, and speedy. I cannot tell you how comforting it was for me to have my husband's voice and his touch, during the worst times for me. No matter how confused I was, I knew he was there, just like your mother does.
Sumptersam, May I ask what led to your stroke?
Hugs to both of you, and of course your mother too...
Hi there,
My Mom had her stroke just before her 77th birthday. My Mom was very active and you certainly would never guess her age. She was in a relationship for 8 years prior to having her stroke. A month or so before her stroke her and her partner broke up. I am not to sure if the stress of that added to her situation or not. There was more to it but I guess I felt it was the stress of that particular situation that increased her chances of the stroke. I also think, at the time, I wanted someone to blame. She did have high blood pressure and cholesteral which always surprised me. My Mom was always so aware of everything she ate and led a very healthy lifestyle.
It is good to have connections with people that can understand or to help you understand what is happening. I know my Mom is comforted by my being there as much as I am. Sometimes it is so hard to leave her.....and I can see it in her eyes. That breaks my heart.......
I am lucky to have the partner I have in my life who does not begrudge the amount of time I spend away from home. He is so supportive and helpful. It is him as well that helps me make it through everyday.
I do have a question for you both. Did eithr of you have any councelling/or otherwise to deal with all the emotional/confusing stuff when you had your stroke?
Thanks again for your kindness
writeleft
01-28-2009, 12:25 PM
Hi Janalee,
I don't know if the stress of your mother's relationship had anything to do with her stroke, but it couldn't have helped! I can certainly feel the pain in your words, and it is just heatbreaking.
As far as emotional counseling...I had quite a bit of therapy and rehabilitation following my strokes, speech, physical, etc., but I don't remember much counseling. I did end up with depression and anxiety issues, that I needed medication for, but I did not go to a therapist...my doctor prescribed the meds for me, and assured me that it was a normal situation following stroke. I had so many doctor appointments for so long, that I couldn't throw in a therapist too. It probably would have served me well, but I already felt like a huge burden to my family, who would have had to drive me, and sit and wait, etc.
Now that some time has passed, I have found my own things that help me. Number one, is definately the support of family and friends. It just kills me to think of you having to leave your mother after your visits, that hurts! One thing I remember when I was hospitalized, were the visits. Seeing my family come in the door was such a relief, but I understood they had to leave, and I imagine I slept most of the time they were not there.
In my case, most of that first year has been forgotten, probably for the best.
The fact that your mother was so vibrant, and young at heart will certainly serve her well in her recovery.
I have no idea if my words offer you any kind of support, but I hope they do. I'll be watching for your next post...
I don't know if the stress of your mother's relationship had anything to do with her stroke, but it couldn't have helped! I can certainly feel the pain in your words, and it is just heatbreaking.
As far as emotional counseling...I had quite a bit of therapy and rehabilitation following my strokes, speech, physical, etc., but I don't remember much counseling. I did end up with depression and anxiety issues, that I needed medication for, but I did not go to a therapist...my doctor prescribed the meds for me, and assured me that it was a normal situation following stroke. I had so many doctor appointments for so long, that I couldn't throw in a therapist too. It probably would have served me well, but I already felt like a huge burden to my family, who would have had to drive me, and sit and wait, etc.
Now that some time has passed, I have found my own things that help me. Number one, is definately the support of family and friends. It just kills me to think of you having to leave your mother after your visits, that hurts! One thing I remember when I was hospitalized, were the visits. Seeing my family come in the door was such a relief, but I understood they had to leave, and I imagine I slept most of the time they were not there.
In my case, most of that first year has been forgotten, probably for the best.
The fact that your mother was so vibrant, and young at heart will certainly serve her well in her recovery.
I have no idea if my words offer you any kind of support, but I hope they do. I'll be watching for your next post...
sumptersam
01-28-2009, 12:58 PM
Hi there,
My Mom had her stroke just before her 77th birthday. My Mom was very active and you certainly would never guess her age. She was in a relationship for 8 years prior to having her stroke. A month or so before her stroke her and her partner broke up. I am not to sure if the stress of that added to her situation or not. There was more to it but I guess I felt it was the stress of that particular situation that increased her chances of the stroke. I also think, at the time, I wanted someone to blame. She did have high blood pressure and cholesteral which always surprised me. My Mom was always so aware of everything she ate and led a very healthy lifestyle.
It is good to have connections with people that can understand or to help you understand what is happening. I know my Mom is comforted by my being there as much as I am. Sometimes it is so hard to leave her.....and I can see it in her eyes. That breaks my heart.......
I am lucky to have the partner I have in my life who does not begrudge the amount of time I spend away from home. He is so supportive and helpful. It is him as well that helps me make it through everyday.
I do have a question for you both. Did eithr of you have any councelling/or otherwise to deal with all the emotional/confusing stuff when you had your stroke?
Thanks again for your kindness
Thanks for sharing your mother's story.....no, the stress wasn't good I'm sure and that is one my lessons is to reduce stress in my life...thanks again for sharing and I like making good connections too! ;)
My Mom had her stroke just before her 77th birthday. My Mom was very active and you certainly would never guess her age. She was in a relationship for 8 years prior to having her stroke. A month or so before her stroke her and her partner broke up. I am not to sure if the stress of that added to her situation or not. There was more to it but I guess I felt it was the stress of that particular situation that increased her chances of the stroke. I also think, at the time, I wanted someone to blame. She did have high blood pressure and cholesteral which always surprised me. My Mom was always so aware of everything she ate and led a very healthy lifestyle.
It is good to have connections with people that can understand or to help you understand what is happening. I know my Mom is comforted by my being there as much as I am. Sometimes it is so hard to leave her.....and I can see it in her eyes. That breaks my heart.......
I am lucky to have the partner I have in my life who does not begrudge the amount of time I spend away from home. He is so supportive and helpful. It is him as well that helps me make it through everyday.
I do have a question for you both. Did eithr of you have any councelling/or otherwise to deal with all the emotional/confusing stuff when you had your stroke?
Thanks again for your kindness
Thanks for sharing your mother's story.....no, the stress wasn't good I'm sure and that is one my lessons is to reduce stress in my life...thanks again for sharing and I like making good connections too! ;)
writeleft
01-28-2009, 04:55 PM
Hello again friends...
Sumptersam, I am interested to hear your story, if you don't mind. Everyone's situation is so differant. People have always told me I was way too young to have strokes, but apparantly not. By the way, sumptersam is a cool name!
Sumptersam, I am interested to hear your story, if you don't mind. Everyone's situation is so differant. People have always told me I was way too young to have strokes, but apparantly not. By the way, sumptersam is a cool name!
janalee
01-29-2009, 12:00 PM
Hi there,
Your words so offer support to me. I am very close to my Mom so I guess that is why it is so hard. I do have to say that it is getting easier as each day passess. I went everyday for the for the first 5 months but now I can take days off and feel "okay" about it. My Mom has an anxiety disorder and has managed it her whole life. Since the stroke it has increased dramatically. I am looking into having someone work with her and just wondered if anyone had that experience. I do believe it would help her alot.
I don't know if the stress of your mother's relationship had anything to do with her stroke, but it couldn't have helped! I can certainly feel the pain in your words, and it is just heatbreaking.
As far as emotional counseling...I had quite a bit of therapy and rehabilitation following my strokes, speech, physical, etc., but I don't remember much counseling. I did end up with depression and anxiety issues, that I needed medication for, but I did not go to a therapist...my doctor prescribed the meds for me, and assured me that it was a normal situation following stroke. I had so many doctor appointments for so long, that I couldn't throw in a therapist too. It probably would have served me well, but I already felt like a huge burden to my family, who would have had to drive me, and sit and wait, etc.
Now that some time has passed, I have found my own things that help me. Number one, is definately the support of family and friends. It just kills me to think of you having to leave your mother after your visits, that hurts! One thing I remember when I was hospitalized, were the visits. Seeing my family come in the door was such a relief, but I understood they had to leave, and I imagine I slept most of the time they were not there.
In my case, most of that first year has been forgotten, probably for the best.
The fact that your mother was so vibrant, and young at heart will certainly serve her well in her recovery.
I have no idea if my words offer you any kind of support, but I hope they do. I'll be watching for your next post...[/QUOTE]
Your words so offer support to me. I am very close to my Mom so I guess that is why it is so hard. I do have to say that it is getting easier as each day passess. I went everyday for the for the first 5 months but now I can take days off and feel "okay" about it. My Mom has an anxiety disorder and has managed it her whole life. Since the stroke it has increased dramatically. I am looking into having someone work with her and just wondered if anyone had that experience. I do believe it would help her alot.
I don't know if the stress of your mother's relationship had anything to do with her stroke, but it couldn't have helped! I can certainly feel the pain in your words, and it is just heatbreaking.
As far as emotional counseling...I had quite a bit of therapy and rehabilitation following my strokes, speech, physical, etc., but I don't remember much counseling. I did end up with depression and anxiety issues, that I needed medication for, but I did not go to a therapist...my doctor prescribed the meds for me, and assured me that it was a normal situation following stroke. I had so many doctor appointments for so long, that I couldn't throw in a therapist too. It probably would have served me well, but I already felt like a huge burden to my family, who would have had to drive me, and sit and wait, etc.
Now that some time has passed, I have found my own things that help me. Number one, is definately the support of family and friends. It just kills me to think of you having to leave your mother after your visits, that hurts! One thing I remember when I was hospitalized, were the visits. Seeing my family come in the door was such a relief, but I understood they had to leave, and I imagine I slept most of the time they were not there.
In my case, most of that first year has been forgotten, probably for the best.
The fact that your mother was so vibrant, and young at heart will certainly serve her well in her recovery.
I have no idea if my words offer you any kind of support, but I hope they do. I'll be watching for your next post...[/QUOTE]
sumptersam
01-29-2009, 04:19 PM
Hi there,
Your words so offer support to me. I am very close to my Mom so I guess that is why it is so hard. I do have to say that it is getting easier as each day passess. I went everyday for the for the first 5 months but now I can take days off and feel "okay" about it. My Mom has an anxiety disorder and has managed it her whole life. Since the stroke it has increased dramatically. I am looking into having someone work with her and just wondered if anyone had that experience. I do believe it would help her alot.
I don't know if the stress of your mother's relationship had anything to do with her stroke, but it couldn't have helped! I can certainly feel the pain in your words, and it is just heatbreaking.
As far as emotional counseling...I had quite a bit of therapy and rehabilitation following my strokes, speech, physical, etc., but I don't remember much counseling. I did end up with depression and anxiety issues, that I needed medication for, but I did not go to a therapist...my doctor prescribed the meds for me, and assured me that it was a normal situation following stroke. I had so many doctor appointments for so long, that I couldn't throw in a therapist too. It probably would have served me well, but I already felt like a huge burden to my family, who would have had to drive me, and sit and wait, etc.
Now that some time has passed, I have found my own things that help me. Number one, is definately the support of family and friends. It just kills me to think of you having to leave your mother after your visits, that hurts! One thing I remember when I was hospitalized, were the visits. Seeing my family come in the door was such a relief, but I understood they had to leave, and I imagine I slept most of the time they were not there.
In my case, most of that first year has been forgotten, probably for the best.
The fact that your mother was so vibrant, and young at heart will certainly serve her well in her recovery.
I have no idea if my words offer you any kind of support, but I hope they do. I'll be watching for your next post...[/QUOTE]
Thank you...in fact, we have decided that I will seek out some counseling at the VA. My doctor was quick to throw pills at me that I don't want....(adding meds to my seizure meds is not inviting) but, we have realized that I have issures to deal that have been making it difficult for my wife. I am not the same person I was and I have been having a hard time with that and being "babysat" so much....not used to that. I need my independance no matter what. I know what you mean about the family thing....while I was in the hospital, I looked forward to when my wife would be there every morning, and while it was hard to see her go, I was usually tired enough from thereapy and the day that I was already falling asleep anyway. I was always looking forward to seeing my mother and brother and his family.....it was good for me. And my wife sat in on a lot of my thereapy sessions...I think that helped to because she learned what they were showing me and now she uses it here at home.....
I don't think we should forget our experiences, even while we don't want to dwell on them either.....just keep in mind that we can be better now than we were before.....:wave:
Your words so offer support to me. I am very close to my Mom so I guess that is why it is so hard. I do have to say that it is getting easier as each day passess. I went everyday for the for the first 5 months but now I can take days off and feel "okay" about it. My Mom has an anxiety disorder and has managed it her whole life. Since the stroke it has increased dramatically. I am looking into having someone work with her and just wondered if anyone had that experience. I do believe it would help her alot.
I don't know if the stress of your mother's relationship had anything to do with her stroke, but it couldn't have helped! I can certainly feel the pain in your words, and it is just heatbreaking.
As far as emotional counseling...I had quite a bit of therapy and rehabilitation following my strokes, speech, physical, etc., but I don't remember much counseling. I did end up with depression and anxiety issues, that I needed medication for, but I did not go to a therapist...my doctor prescribed the meds for me, and assured me that it was a normal situation following stroke. I had so many doctor appointments for so long, that I couldn't throw in a therapist too. It probably would have served me well, but I already felt like a huge burden to my family, who would have had to drive me, and sit and wait, etc.
Now that some time has passed, I have found my own things that help me. Number one, is definately the support of family and friends. It just kills me to think of you having to leave your mother after your visits, that hurts! One thing I remember when I was hospitalized, were the visits. Seeing my family come in the door was such a relief, but I understood they had to leave, and I imagine I slept most of the time they were not there.
In my case, most of that first year has been forgotten, probably for the best.
The fact that your mother was so vibrant, and young at heart will certainly serve her well in her recovery.
I have no idea if my words offer you any kind of support, but I hope they do. I'll be watching for your next post...[/QUOTE]
Thank you...in fact, we have decided that I will seek out some counseling at the VA. My doctor was quick to throw pills at me that I don't want....(adding meds to my seizure meds is not inviting) but, we have realized that I have issures to deal that have been making it difficult for my wife. I am not the same person I was and I have been having a hard time with that and being "babysat" so much....not used to that. I need my independance no matter what. I know what you mean about the family thing....while I was in the hospital, I looked forward to when my wife would be there every morning, and while it was hard to see her go, I was usually tired enough from thereapy and the day that I was already falling asleep anyway. I was always looking forward to seeing my mother and brother and his family.....it was good for me. And my wife sat in on a lot of my thereapy sessions...I think that helped to because she learned what they were showing me and now she uses it here at home.....
I don't think we should forget our experiences, even while we don't want to dwell on them either.....just keep in mind that we can be better now than we were before.....:wave:
writeleft
01-30-2009, 12:10 AM
Wow, Seeing the word "anxiety" rings a bell for me now. Honestly, I do have continuing anxiety, that hasn't left me yet. I have been trying to forget, so it will not be true...I steer clear of the anxiety boards because "they don't apply to me", and I just wont go there in my head. I was prescribed three medications for anxiety for a long time, but have chosen to cut them back. Yikes!
Better think about this one for awhile...:confused:
It turns out we have more in common than I thought. Thanks for the insight.
Better think about this one for awhile...:confused:
It turns out we have more in common than I thought. Thanks for the insight.
janalee
01-30-2009, 12:23 PM
Thank you...in fact, we have decided that I will seek out some counseling at the VA. My doctor was quick to throw pills at me that I don't want....(adding meds to my seizure meds is not inviting) but, we have realized that I have issures to deal that have been making it difficult for my wife. I am not the same person I was and I have been having a hard time with that and being "babysat" so much....not used to that. I need my independance no matter what. I know what you mean about the family thing....while I was in the hospital, I looked forward to when my wife would be there every morning, and while it was hard to see her go, I was usually tired enough from thereapy and the day that I was already falling asleep anyway. I was always looking forward to seeing my mother and brother and his family.....it was good for me. And my wife sat in on a lot of my thereapy sessions...I think that helped to because she learned what they were showing me and now she uses it here at home.....
I don't think we should forget our experiences, even while we don't want to dwell on them either.....just keep in mind that we can be better now than we were before.....:wave:[/QUOTE]
I don't think we should forget our experiences, even while we don't want to dwell on them either.....just keep in mind that we can be better now than we were before.....:wave:[/QUOTE]
janalee
01-30-2009, 12:26 PM
I do hope you are able to work through the issues. You do need your independence.....as much as possible. I will thing positive thoughts for you.....
janalee
01-30-2009, 12:31 PM
I never realized how much anxiety I had until my Mom's stroke. Aside from being very close to my Mom....I am very much like my Mother. Which to some degree scares me a bit. She is an amazing women, very caring, sweet, loving and for 4'11 and 100lbs, very strong. I hope I am all those wonderful qualities but the anxiety part I recognize as something I need to get under control. I do not want it to rule my life.
I am still, gently, trying to convince my Mom that perhaps she should talk with someone in regards to her anxiety. I think the docs are way to quick to prescribe drugs these days and there are plenty of alternatives out there to help to deal with the issues.
I am still, gently, trying to convince my Mom that perhaps she should talk with someone in regards to her anxiety. I think the docs are way to quick to prescribe drugs these days and there are plenty of alternatives out there to help to deal with the issues.
writeleft
01-30-2009, 01:35 PM
Yes, this a time of high anxiety for both of you. I makes a lot of sense that you both address this together, and that may be what helps your mother accept some guidance.
I must say, my strokes were major learning tools for the rest of my life. I forgot a LOT, but I learned more. I'm learning more right now!
Have a peaceful day...
I must say, my strokes were major learning tools for the rest of my life. I forgot a LOT, but I learned more. I'm learning more right now!
Have a peaceful day...
sumptersam
01-30-2009, 02:41 PM
I never realized how much anxiety I had until my Mom's stroke. Aside from being very close to my Mom....I am very much like my Mother. Which to some degree scares me a bit. She is an amazing women, very caring, sweet, loving and for 4'11 and 100lbs, very strong. I hope I am all those wonderful qualities but the anxiety part I recognize as something I need to get under control. I do not want it to rule my life.
I am still, gently, trying to convince my Mom that perhaps she should talk with someone in regards to her anxiety. I think the docs are way to quick to prescribe drugs these days and there are plenty of alternatives out there to help to deal with the issues.
I was reminded while in the hospital of how we often are afraid of what we don't know, or don't understand.....then I realized that if I just take one day at a time and learn just to give up the rest, it would reduce the anxiety.....I decided that I will not let fear get in the way of living the rest of my life-however longer that may be.....
Have a great day! :wave:
I am still, gently, trying to convince my Mom that perhaps she should talk with someone in regards to her anxiety. I think the docs are way to quick to prescribe drugs these days and there are plenty of alternatives out there to help to deal with the issues.
I was reminded while in the hospital of how we often are afraid of what we don't know, or don't understand.....then I realized that if I just take one day at a time and learn just to give up the rest, it would reduce the anxiety.....I decided that I will not let fear get in the way of living the rest of my life-however longer that may be.....
Have a great day! :wave:
writeleft
01-30-2009, 03:14 PM
Yes, when we have trying times, the big picture is just overwhelming. Breaking it down into small manageable bits does really help.
sumptersam
01-31-2009, 04:17 PM
Yes, when we have trying times, the big picture is just overwhelming. Breaking it down into small manageable bits does really help.
It seems to work too! :wave:
It seems to work too! :wave:
wilnan287
01-31-2009, 06:10 PM
Hi Janalee
I had a stroke 10-13-06 and I still poop out too easily. Always needing to lay down. I'm hoping stamina returns soon.
I had a stroke 10-13-06 and I still poop out too easily. Always needing to lay down. I'm hoping stamina returns soon.
writeleft
01-31-2009, 06:56 PM
El Sobrante! I spent the most wonderful times of my childhood in El Sobrante.
I think the fatigue following stroke is something we are just starting to recognize here. I myself, haven't had the brain function (until now) to address anything, except a weird low powered effort to get through the day.
I can build up enough energy for a pre-planned event, but will look for ways to rest in between at all costs. My family and long time friends have always been off-roaders, in the desert east of San Diego. I (and my family, by proxy) missed 4 years of trips, but a year ago I started riding again. Not very fast, very far, but a little. It's certainly not how I used to do it, but I am there with my true family, and true friends.
Oh yeah, it takes a few days to get over it too, but that's ok. I got to go.
I think the fatigue following stroke is something we are just starting to recognize here. I myself, haven't had the brain function (until now) to address anything, except a weird low powered effort to get through the day.
I can build up enough energy for a pre-planned event, but will look for ways to rest in between at all costs. My family and long time friends have always been off-roaders, in the desert east of San Diego. I (and my family, by proxy) missed 4 years of trips, but a year ago I started riding again. Not very fast, very far, but a little. It's certainly not how I used to do it, but I am there with my true family, and true friends.
Oh yeah, it takes a few days to get over it too, but that's ok. I got to go.
writeleft
02-01-2009, 06:31 PM
Janalee,
How are you and your mother today?
How are you and your mother today?
janalee
02-02-2009, 11:46 AM
Good Morning,
Well I have started to take a day off here and there from seeing my Mom. for the first 5 months I was there everyday. I still have a hard time with not seeing her. I guess I don't really trust anyone completely.
We had her placed in a nursing home about a month ago. I noticed fairly quickly that it really wasn't the type of place we believed it was going to be. I know my Mom is not happy there. My Mom is a young 77 and she is considerably younger than most who are there. She does not have alot in common with anyone of the folks there, her life was very different.
My Mom was widowed when she was 37 (1968). Because she was so young a year or so later she started to go out with some ladies she knew who were also single. Growing up in the late 60's and into the 70's our household was very different because we were not a "traditional" family. I have amazing memories of that time.....so much fun. My poor Mom had her hands full with 3 teenagers all at once.....good lord.
Anyhow I guess I am rambling but in terms of the whole exhaustion thing. Even if she is having a good day and is not to tired there is nothing for her to do at this home and no one to really talk with. In the evenings there are only 2 aids and 1 nurse working so they don't have any time to spend with the folks residing there. At this point we are considering looking into other facilities for her.
I am wondering if any of you carried on with therapies after you returned home. My Mom's challenges are on the left side of her body. She can walk with a walker and has use of her left arm and hand but they are very weak. There are not therapies in this home (physio or occupational therapy). I feel she still needs some activity to build up her left side.
Well I have started to take a day off here and there from seeing my Mom. for the first 5 months I was there everyday. I still have a hard time with not seeing her. I guess I don't really trust anyone completely.
We had her placed in a nursing home about a month ago. I noticed fairly quickly that it really wasn't the type of place we believed it was going to be. I know my Mom is not happy there. My Mom is a young 77 and she is considerably younger than most who are there. She does not have alot in common with anyone of the folks there, her life was very different.
My Mom was widowed when she was 37 (1968). Because she was so young a year or so later she started to go out with some ladies she knew who were also single. Growing up in the late 60's and into the 70's our household was very different because we were not a "traditional" family. I have amazing memories of that time.....so much fun. My poor Mom had her hands full with 3 teenagers all at once.....good lord.
Anyhow I guess I am rambling but in terms of the whole exhaustion thing. Even if she is having a good day and is not to tired there is nothing for her to do at this home and no one to really talk with. In the evenings there are only 2 aids and 1 nurse working so they don't have any time to spend with the folks residing there. At this point we are considering looking into other facilities for her.
I am wondering if any of you carried on with therapies after you returned home. My Mom's challenges are on the left side of her body. She can walk with a walker and has use of her left arm and hand but they are very weak. There are not therapies in this home (physio or occupational therapy). I feel she still needs some activity to build up her left side.
sumptersam
02-02-2009, 12:30 PM
Good Morning,
Well I have started to take a day off here and there from seeing my Mom. for the first 5 months I was there everyday. I still have a hard time with not seeing her. I guess I don't really trust anyone completely.
We had her placed in a nursing home about a month ago. I noticed fairly quickly that it really wasn't the type of place we believed it was going to be. I know my Mom is not happy there. My Mom is a young 77 and she is considerably younger than most who are there. She does not have alot in common with anyone of the folks there, her life was very different.
My Mom was widowed when she was 37 (1968). Because she was so young a year or so later she started to go out with some ladies she knew who were also single. Growing up in the late 60's and into the 70's our household was very different because we were not a "traditional" family. I have amazing memories of that time.....so much fun. My poor Mom had her hands full with 3 teenagers all at once.....good lord.
Anyhow I guess I am rambling but in terms of the whole exhaustion thing. Even if she is having a good day and is not to tired there is nothing for her to do at this home and no one to really talk with. In the evenings there are only 2 aids and 1 nurse working so they don't have any time to spend with the folks residing there. At this point we are considering looking into other facilities for her.
I am wondering if any of you carried on with therapies after you returned home. My Mom's challenges are on the left side of her body. She can walk with a walker and has use of her left arm and hand but they are very weak. There are not therapies in this home (physio or occupational therapy). I feel she still needs some activity to build up her left side.
I feel for you.....my wife sat in on my thereapies at the VA and we continued on with them when I got home....but I a lucky one, i'm getting most everything back.....call your insurance and see what they will pay for, then shop around....lots of folks that specialize in coming to the home to do therapy!
Don't worry, none of this was your fault! Don't stress out about it....just do the best you can and move on.....thats a good excuse to get your mom involved-just ask her what she wants....nonone in their right mind would like a nursing home....but thats not your fault! :wave:
Well I have started to take a day off here and there from seeing my Mom. for the first 5 months I was there everyday. I still have a hard time with not seeing her. I guess I don't really trust anyone completely.
We had her placed in a nursing home about a month ago. I noticed fairly quickly that it really wasn't the type of place we believed it was going to be. I know my Mom is not happy there. My Mom is a young 77 and she is considerably younger than most who are there. She does not have alot in common with anyone of the folks there, her life was very different.
My Mom was widowed when she was 37 (1968). Because she was so young a year or so later she started to go out with some ladies she knew who were also single. Growing up in the late 60's and into the 70's our household was very different because we were not a "traditional" family. I have amazing memories of that time.....so much fun. My poor Mom had her hands full with 3 teenagers all at once.....good lord.
Anyhow I guess I am rambling but in terms of the whole exhaustion thing. Even if she is having a good day and is not to tired there is nothing for her to do at this home and no one to really talk with. In the evenings there are only 2 aids and 1 nurse working so they don't have any time to spend with the folks residing there. At this point we are considering looking into other facilities for her.
I am wondering if any of you carried on with therapies after you returned home. My Mom's challenges are on the left side of her body. She can walk with a walker and has use of her left arm and hand but they are very weak. There are not therapies in this home (physio or occupational therapy). I feel she still needs some activity to build up her left side.
I feel for you.....my wife sat in on my thereapies at the VA and we continued on with them when I got home....but I a lucky one, i'm getting most everything back.....call your insurance and see what they will pay for, then shop around....lots of folks that specialize in coming to the home to do therapy!
Don't worry, none of this was your fault! Don't stress out about it....just do the best you can and move on.....thats a good excuse to get your mom involved-just ask her what she wants....nonone in their right mind would like a nursing home....but thats not your fault! :wave:
janalee
02-03-2009, 11:27 AM
I feel for you.....my wife sat in on my thereapies at the VA and we continued on with them when I got home....but I a lucky one, i'm getting most everything back.....call your insurance and see what they will pay for, then shop around....lots of folks that specialize in coming to the home to do therapy!
Don't worry, none of this was your fault! Don't stress out about it....just do the best you can and move on.....thats a good excuse to get your mom involved-just ask her what she wants....nonone in their right mind would like a nursing home....but thats not your fault! :wave:
Thanks for that.....I guess I know it isn't my fault. I can't help but feel frantic about making sure everything is "okay" for her. What I find to be so heartbreaking is the confusion she is living in. I just would like to make it all go away.
I have some contacts from the hospital she was in and I am looking into getting some help for her.
Thanks again for you kindness and support it does help a great deal....
Don't worry, none of this was your fault! Don't stress out about it....just do the best you can and move on.....thats a good excuse to get your mom involved-just ask her what she wants....nonone in their right mind would like a nursing home....but thats not your fault! :wave:
Thanks for that.....I guess I know it isn't my fault. I can't help but feel frantic about making sure everything is "okay" for her. What I find to be so heartbreaking is the confusion she is living in. I just would like to make it all go away.
I have some contacts from the hospital she was in and I am looking into getting some help for her.
Thanks again for you kindness and support it does help a great deal....
writeleft
02-03-2009, 08:38 PM
Janalee,
Of course you feel frantic, and in a whirlwind! Stroke comes down hard and fast. To be faced with all the new terminology, the questions, the decisions, the 24 hour care of your mother...It's got to be horrifying for you, and because of you, I realize how much my family went through too. Bless your heart! Your mother can feel this from you, even if the words, or actions don't come through yet.
Of course you feel frantic, and in a whirlwind! Stroke comes down hard and fast. To be faced with all the new terminology, the questions, the decisions, the 24 hour care of your mother...It's got to be horrifying for you, and because of you, I realize how much my family went through too. Bless your heart! Your mother can feel this from you, even if the words, or actions don't come through yet.
janalee
02-04-2009, 11:19 AM
Janalee,
Of course you feel frantic, and in a whirlwind! Stroke comes down hard and fast. To be faced with all the new terminology, the questions, the decisions, the 24 hour care of your mother...It's got to be horrifying for you, and because of you, I realize how much my family went through too. Bless your heart! Your mother can feel this from you, even if the words, or actions don't come through yet.
I know she is appreciates everthing...she does tell me. It sounds like you have a pretty amazing family as well. As hard as it is I think it also brings the family together as well.....even through all the turmoil.
Of course you feel frantic, and in a whirlwind! Stroke comes down hard and fast. To be faced with all the new terminology, the questions, the decisions, the 24 hour care of your mother...It's got to be horrifying for you, and because of you, I realize how much my family went through too. Bless your heart! Your mother can feel this from you, even if the words, or actions don't come through yet.
I know she is appreciates everthing...she does tell me. It sounds like you have a pretty amazing family as well. As hard as it is I think it also brings the family together as well.....even through all the turmoil.
writeleft
02-04-2009, 05:36 PM
Janalee,
I think the old saying "what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger" is true. When faced with really hard times, we learn what we are really made of. I hope everyday is a little better than the one before...for both you, and your dear mother.
I think the old saying "what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger" is true. When faced with really hard times, we learn what we are really made of. I hope everyday is a little better than the one before...for both you, and your dear mother.
janalee
02-05-2009, 11:39 AM
Once again...thanks so much for all of the support. It really does make a difference to be able to connect with people and to hear stories from others. You are inspirational....
writeleft
02-05-2009, 07:42 PM
Janalee,
You too, being on the caregiving end of a stroke survivor. I emphasize the word survivor, because to survive is huge. It's the support of others, that gives the survivor the most opportunity to overcome a strokes injury to the brain.
I truly believe that my husband was the singlemost important element of my recovery. He was there in true spirit, and having such a partner has made for a much richer realtionship...which you obviously are experiencing with your mother, and she, you.
I am so glad to have this chance to articulate these feelings with you - it helps me very much!
You too, being on the caregiving end of a stroke survivor. I emphasize the word survivor, because to survive is huge. It's the support of others, that gives the survivor the most opportunity to overcome a strokes injury to the brain.
I truly believe that my husband was the singlemost important element of my recovery. He was there in true spirit, and having such a partner has made for a much richer realtionship...which you obviously are experiencing with your mother, and she, you.
I am so glad to have this chance to articulate these feelings with you - it helps me very much!
sumptersam
02-06-2009, 12:37 PM
Janalee,
You too, being on the caregiving end of a stroke survivor. I emphasize the word survivor, because to survive is huge. It's the support of others, that gives the survivor the most opportunity to overcome a strokes injury to the brain.
I truly believe that my husband was the singlemost important element of my recovery. He was there in true spirit, and having such a partner has made for a much richer realtionship...which you obviously are experiencing with your mother, and she, you.
I am so glad to have this chance to articulate these feelings with you - it helps me very much!
My wife made things so much easier for me and has been there fore me like noone else would have....caregivers don't get enough credit most of the time...:wave:
You too, being on the caregiving end of a stroke survivor. I emphasize the word survivor, because to survive is huge. It's the support of others, that gives the survivor the most opportunity to overcome a strokes injury to the brain.
I truly believe that my husband was the singlemost important element of my recovery. He was there in true spirit, and having such a partner has made for a much richer realtionship...which you obviously are experiencing with your mother, and she, you.
I am so glad to have this chance to articulate these feelings with you - it helps me very much!
My wife made things so much easier for me and has been there fore me like noone else would have....caregivers don't get enough credit most of the time...:wave:
writeleft
02-06-2009, 04:20 PM
Sumptersam is right! With so much focus on the patient, it's the caregivers that are the unsung heroes. Having a spouse/child take on that huge job, creates an unbreakable bond of love and trust for both.
Now that I am much stronger, my big strong hubby is facing degenerative bone disease, and has gone to a cane to walk. Guess who is at his side ? You bet, me.
Janalee, you are teaching me a lot about myself right here. Thank you. I hope you all have a wonderful day...
:cool:
Now that I am much stronger, my big strong hubby is facing degenerative bone disease, and has gone to a cane to walk. Guess who is at his side ? You bet, me.
Janalee, you are teaching me a lot about myself right here. Thank you. I hope you all have a wonderful day...
:cool:
janalee
02-08-2009, 01:09 AM
Sumptersam is right! With so much focus on the patient, it's the caregivers that are the unsung heroes. Having a spouse/child take on that huge job, creates an unbreakable bond of love and trust for both.
Now that I am much stronger, my big strong hubby is facing degenerative bone disease, and has gone to a cane to walk. Guess who is at his side ? You bet, me.
Janalee, you are teaching me a lot about myself right here. Thank you. I hope you all have a wonderful day...
:cool:
Wow.....You are an amazing, and sumpersam your pretty special as well. I feel very blessed to have found this site and to have had the good fortune to have made contact with the both of you. Honestly you give me hope because there have been days that I just didn't have much.
I have a pretty special relationship with my Mom and would never trade these days for anything.....guess that sounds kinda strange. It has been so tough but at the same time I can't tell you how much I am grateful to still have my Mom here. It could have been a very different story. Please keep me posted on how the both of you are doing.....I look forward to seeing my posts......Hope your weekend has been wonderful....
:angel:
Now that I am much stronger, my big strong hubby is facing degenerative bone disease, and has gone to a cane to walk. Guess who is at his side ? You bet, me.
Janalee, you are teaching me a lot about myself right here. Thank you. I hope you all have a wonderful day...
:cool:
Wow.....You are an amazing, and sumpersam your pretty special as well. I feel very blessed to have found this site and to have had the good fortune to have made contact with the both of you. Honestly you give me hope because there have been days that I just didn't have much.
I have a pretty special relationship with my Mom and would never trade these days for anything.....guess that sounds kinda strange. It has been so tough but at the same time I can't tell you how much I am grateful to still have my Mom here. It could have been a very different story. Please keep me posted on how the both of you are doing.....I look forward to seeing my posts......Hope your weekend has been wonderful....
:angel:
janalee
02-08-2009, 01:10 AM
Sumptersam is right! With so much focus on the patient, it's the caregivers that are the unsung heroes. Having a spouse/child take on that huge job, creates an unbreakable bond of love and trust for both.
Now that I am much stronger, my big strong hubby is facing degenerative bone disease, and has gone to a cane to walk. Guess who is at his side ? You bet, me.
Janalee, you are teaching me a lot about myself right here. Thank you. I hope you all have a wonderful day...
:cool:
Wow.....You are amazing, and sumpersam your pretty special as well. I feel very blessed to have found this site and to have had the good fortune to have made contact with the both of you. Honestly you give me hope because there have been days that I just didn't have much.
I have a pretty special relationship with my Mom and would never trade these days for anything.....guess that sounds kinda strange. It has been so tough but at the same time I can't tell you how much I am grateful to still have my Mom here. It could have been a very different story. Please keep me posted on how the both of you are doing.....I look forward to seeing my posts......Hope your weekend has been wonderful....
:angel:
Now that I am much stronger, my big strong hubby is facing degenerative bone disease, and has gone to a cane to walk. Guess who is at his side ? You bet, me.
Janalee, you are teaching me a lot about myself right here. Thank you. I hope you all have a wonderful day...
:cool:
Wow.....You are amazing, and sumpersam your pretty special as well. I feel very blessed to have found this site and to have had the good fortune to have made contact with the both of you. Honestly you give me hope because there have been days that I just didn't have much.
I have a pretty special relationship with my Mom and would never trade these days for anything.....guess that sounds kinda strange. It has been so tough but at the same time I can't tell you how much I am grateful to still have my Mom here. It could have been a very different story. Please keep me posted on how the both of you are doing.....I look forward to seeing my posts......Hope your weekend has been wonderful....
:angel:
sumptersam
02-08-2009, 01:56 PM
Wow.....You are an amazing, and sumpersam your pretty special as well. I feel very blessed to have found this site and to have had the good fortune to have made contact with the both of you. Honestly you give me hope because there have been days that I just didn't have much.
I have a pretty special relationship with my Mom and would never trade these days for anything.....guess that sounds kinda strange. It has been so tough but at the same time I can't tell you how much I am grateful to still have my Mom here. It could have been a very different story. Please keep me posted on how the both of you are doing.....I look forward to seeing my posts......Hope your weekend has been wonderful....
:angel:
I'm glad you have a special relationship with your Mother-thats important! This service to your mother is great and I'm sure she appreciates it too! They take such good care of us, then....it's our turn you know? May be old fashioned, but there it is.....thats why I am thankful for what happened to me as it is allowing people to see me differently and is allowing me to be better than I was before....especially to my mother! :wave:
I have a pretty special relationship with my Mom and would never trade these days for anything.....guess that sounds kinda strange. It has been so tough but at the same time I can't tell you how much I am grateful to still have my Mom here. It could have been a very different story. Please keep me posted on how the both of you are doing.....I look forward to seeing my posts......Hope your weekend has been wonderful....
:angel:
I'm glad you have a special relationship with your Mother-thats important! This service to your mother is great and I'm sure she appreciates it too! They take such good care of us, then....it's our turn you know? May be old fashioned, but there it is.....thats why I am thankful for what happened to me as it is allowing people to see me differently and is allowing me to be better than I was before....especially to my mother! :wave:
writeleft
02-08-2009, 04:06 PM
This has turned into a truely inspirational thread, and I am learning so much with every post...about each of you, and myself and my family. I appreciate it very much, and look forward to it everyday.
Thank you both...
Thank you both...
writeleft
02-08-2009, 06:19 PM
I simply could not write (and certainly not type) at all, for four years.
If you were to hear me speak in person today, you would think I was speaking jibberish. My friends and family all undertand everything I say, and it can be hilarious! I switch parts of consecutive words, like "Hello puppy", becomes "Heppo luppy"...stuff like that, but throughout most sentences I speak.
I bet you didn't know that...because I am just realizing it myself!!
I can write again, even though my speech is wacked. That just dawned on me. I am learning so much about myself from digging these things up, and tryng to express them to you, as positive re-enforcement for you to share with your mother... in your own sweet way.
Isn't that neat, this is all new to me, too. I need this outlet to practice my words, my typing, organizing my thoughts, and it takes me over an hour to type my posts.
I use to be a talented artist, and public speaker. I found this forum about 6 months ago, and look how far I have come! I can't speak (yet), I can't really drive (yet), I can't see well enough to work...but I can TYPE!!! This is certainly well beyond any personal revelations I have shared here before.
Janalee, you really started something here...no, your dear mother started this. Imagine that! It is your mother herself, that is behind this great lesson for all of us. She is the teacher. We are the students. You are the catalyst.
This has been such a nice Sunday afternoon...I hope the same for you.
If you were to hear me speak in person today, you would think I was speaking jibberish. My friends and family all undertand everything I say, and it can be hilarious! I switch parts of consecutive words, like "Hello puppy", becomes "Heppo luppy"...stuff like that, but throughout most sentences I speak.
I bet you didn't know that...because I am just realizing it myself!!
I can write again, even though my speech is wacked. That just dawned on me. I am learning so much about myself from digging these things up, and tryng to express them to you, as positive re-enforcement for you to share with your mother... in your own sweet way.
Isn't that neat, this is all new to me, too. I need this outlet to practice my words, my typing, organizing my thoughts, and it takes me over an hour to type my posts.
I use to be a talented artist, and public speaker. I found this forum about 6 months ago, and look how far I have come! I can't speak (yet), I can't really drive (yet), I can't see well enough to work...but I can TYPE!!! This is certainly well beyond any personal revelations I have shared here before.
Janalee, you really started something here...no, your dear mother started this. Imagine that! It is your mother herself, that is behind this great lesson for all of us. She is the teacher. We are the students. You are the catalyst.
This has been such a nice Sunday afternoon...I hope the same for you.
janalee
02-09-2009, 11:49 AM
I simply could not write (and certainly not type) at all, for four years.
If you were to hear me speak in person today, you would think I was speaking jibberish. My friends and family all undertand everything I say, and it can be hilarious! I switch parts of consecutive words, like "Hello puppy", becomes "Heppo luppy"...stuff like that, but throughout most sentences I speak.
I bet you didn't know that...because I am just realizing it myself!!
I can write again, even though my speech is wacked. That just dawned on me. I am learning so much about myself from digging these things up, and tryng to express them to you, as positive re-enforcement for you to share with your mother... in your own sweet way.
Isn't that neat, this is all new to me, too. I need this outlet to practice my words, my typing, organizing my thoughts, and it takes me over an hour to type my posts.
I use to be a talented artist, and public speaker. I found this forum about 6 months ago, and look how far I have come! I can't speak (yet), I can't really drive (yet), I can't see well enough to work...but I can TYPE!!! This is certainly well beyond any personal revelations I have shared here before.
Janalee, you really started something here...no, your dear mother started this. Imagine that! It is your mother herself, that is behind this great lesson for all of us. She is the teacher. We are the students. You are the catalyst.
This has been such a nice Sunday afternoon...I hope the same for you.
I am truly honored by your words.....this has really become an important part of my day. You and sumpertersam sharing your stories and thoughts with me is very special.
I guess my Mom really did start something here.......this is how I feel about my Mom so if you can bear with my writing, which is not the best. My Mom was widowed when she was 37yrs old. It was 1968 and we were by no means a family that was well off. My Dad was an apprentice and also a volunteer fireman. He lost his life building a ballpark with the other volunteer fireman. He had no life insurance and we did not recieve much in terms of a settlement at the time. So my Mom was left with 3 children 10, 8 and 6 years old.
Sorry for being so long winded.....;)anyhow my Mom had a heck of a time with all of us and she did not work. She managed to keep a roof over our heads, the tradition of a Sunday dinner going for many years after and she raised 3 kids, who I might add, aren't so bad.
I love my Mom with all my heart and would do anything for her. She has been through so much and always been so supportive.
I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all go away but I can't. I can only keep pushing and fighting for my Mom. She taught us to be strong and to stand tall and not let the pressures of life knock us down. This is truly the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life. But as the old saying goes..."what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger". I do believe that.....
You have an amazing attitude and strength....very much like my Mom. I look forward to reading your next post. I hope you are having a great day.
If you were to hear me speak in person today, you would think I was speaking jibberish. My friends and family all undertand everything I say, and it can be hilarious! I switch parts of consecutive words, like "Hello puppy", becomes "Heppo luppy"...stuff like that, but throughout most sentences I speak.
I bet you didn't know that...because I am just realizing it myself!!
I can write again, even though my speech is wacked. That just dawned on me. I am learning so much about myself from digging these things up, and tryng to express them to you, as positive re-enforcement for you to share with your mother... in your own sweet way.
Isn't that neat, this is all new to me, too. I need this outlet to practice my words, my typing, organizing my thoughts, and it takes me over an hour to type my posts.
I use to be a talented artist, and public speaker. I found this forum about 6 months ago, and look how far I have come! I can't speak (yet), I can't really drive (yet), I can't see well enough to work...but I can TYPE!!! This is certainly well beyond any personal revelations I have shared here before.
Janalee, you really started something here...no, your dear mother started this. Imagine that! It is your mother herself, that is behind this great lesson for all of us. She is the teacher. We are the students. You are the catalyst.
This has been such a nice Sunday afternoon...I hope the same for you.
I am truly honored by your words.....this has really become an important part of my day. You and sumpertersam sharing your stories and thoughts with me is very special.
I guess my Mom really did start something here.......this is how I feel about my Mom so if you can bear with my writing, which is not the best. My Mom was widowed when she was 37yrs old. It was 1968 and we were by no means a family that was well off. My Dad was an apprentice and also a volunteer fireman. He lost his life building a ballpark with the other volunteer fireman. He had no life insurance and we did not recieve much in terms of a settlement at the time. So my Mom was left with 3 children 10, 8 and 6 years old.
Sorry for being so long winded.....;)anyhow my Mom had a heck of a time with all of us and she did not work. She managed to keep a roof over our heads, the tradition of a Sunday dinner going for many years after and she raised 3 kids, who I might add, aren't so bad.
I love my Mom with all my heart and would do anything for her. She has been through so much and always been so supportive.
I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all go away but I can't. I can only keep pushing and fighting for my Mom. She taught us to be strong and to stand tall and not let the pressures of life knock us down. This is truly the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life. But as the old saying goes..."what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger". I do believe that.....
You have an amazing attitude and strength....very much like my Mom. I look forward to reading your next post. I hope you are having a great day.
writeleft
02-09-2009, 03:22 PM
Janalee,
Wow, what a story about your parents, and the strength you have witnessed. I must admit, I have yet to be in your shoes.
Both of my parents are still living, and very much in my daily life. My father is almost 84, mom 80. They are just beginning to show signs of wear. My turn is coming, and I just hope I have what it takes to care for them when they need it. They are very military, and very hard to be very cuddly with. I wonder if that will ever break, so I can get close enough to them. They have not released one bit of control, or allowed me to do a thing for them..even though I certainly want to (they live right down the street). I write to them too, because I can't always get the words out, and they don't understand me.
I have always yearned for a close relationship with my mother, so I admire you and your mother's bond. I certainly respect you for your care and concern, and I promise you...
I get so much out of our "chats" everyday, and they make me very happy. Thanks again for the time you spend here, Love to all...
Wow, what a story about your parents, and the strength you have witnessed. I must admit, I have yet to be in your shoes.
Both of my parents are still living, and very much in my daily life. My father is almost 84, mom 80. They are just beginning to show signs of wear. My turn is coming, and I just hope I have what it takes to care for them when they need it. They are very military, and very hard to be very cuddly with. I wonder if that will ever break, so I can get close enough to them. They have not released one bit of control, or allowed me to do a thing for them..even though I certainly want to (they live right down the street). I write to them too, because I can't always get the words out, and they don't understand me.
I have always yearned for a close relationship with my mother, so I admire you and your mother's bond. I certainly respect you for your care and concern, and I promise you...
I get so much out of our "chats" everyday, and they make me very happy. Thanks again for the time you spend here, Love to all...
janalee
02-10-2009, 11:29 AM
Janalee,
Wow, what a story about your parents, and the strength you have witnessed. I must admit, I have yet to be in your shoes.
Both of my parents are still living, and very much in my daily life. My father is almost 84, mom 80. They are just beginning to show signs of wear. My turn is coming, and I just hope I have what it takes to care for them when they need it. They are very military, and very hard to be very cuddly with. I wonder if that will ever break, so I can get close enough to them. They have not released one bit of control, or allowed me to do a thing for them..even though I certainly want to (they live right down the street). I write to them too, because I can't always get the words out, and they don't understand me.
I have always yearned for a close relationship with my mother, so I admire you and your mother's bond. I certainly respect you for your care and concern, and I promise you...
I get so much out of our "chats" everyday, and they make me very happy. Thanks again for the time you spend here, Love to all...
I have to say I get alot of our chats as well. Sometimes, believe it or not, it is hard to talk about all of this stuff. Most times I just want to vent and the people around me think they need to either give me a lecture or add their own spin on things. There are times I really just want to be able to talk to someone with an open ear.....that's it.
I have found that this experience has brought out alot of uglyness with my brother and sister. My sister sounds like she is like your Mom and Dad. Very stern and she is all business. My brother is a bit of both......he can be like a huricane and really knock you down.....when you are already down.
I try my best to stay out of their way and not to call them.....unless absolutely necessary and even then it is a problem.
Of course that is my side of the story and I am sure they have their own. I hope that one day you can have the closeness that you wish for with your parents.
I wish you a beautiful day.......
Wow, what a story about your parents, and the strength you have witnessed. I must admit, I have yet to be in your shoes.
Both of my parents are still living, and very much in my daily life. My father is almost 84, mom 80. They are just beginning to show signs of wear. My turn is coming, and I just hope I have what it takes to care for them when they need it. They are very military, and very hard to be very cuddly with. I wonder if that will ever break, so I can get close enough to them. They have not released one bit of control, or allowed me to do a thing for them..even though I certainly want to (they live right down the street). I write to them too, because I can't always get the words out, and they don't understand me.
I have always yearned for a close relationship with my mother, so I admire you and your mother's bond. I certainly respect you for your care and concern, and I promise you...
I get so much out of our "chats" everyday, and they make me very happy. Thanks again for the time you spend here, Love to all...
I have to say I get alot of our chats as well. Sometimes, believe it or not, it is hard to talk about all of this stuff. Most times I just want to vent and the people around me think they need to either give me a lecture or add their own spin on things. There are times I really just want to be able to talk to someone with an open ear.....that's it.
I have found that this experience has brought out alot of uglyness with my brother and sister. My sister sounds like she is like your Mom and Dad. Very stern and she is all business. My brother is a bit of both......he can be like a huricane and really knock you down.....when you are already down.
I try my best to stay out of their way and not to call them.....unless absolutely necessary and even then it is a problem.
Of course that is my side of the story and I am sure they have their own. I hope that one day you can have the closeness that you wish for with your parents.
I wish you a beautiful day.......
sumptersam
02-10-2009, 11:44 AM
I have to say I get alot of our chats as well. Sometimes, believe it or not, it is hard to talk about all of this stuff. Most times I just want to vent and the people around me think they need to either give me a lecture or add their own spin on things. There are times I really just want to be able to talk to someone with an open ear.....that's it.
I have found that this experience has brought out alot of uglyness with my brother and sister. My sister sounds like she is like your Mom and Dad. Very stern and she is all business. My brother is a bit of both......he can be like a huricane and really knock you down.....when you are already down.
I try my best to stay out of their way and not to call them.....unless absolutely necessary and even then it is a problem.
Of course that is my side of the story and I am sure they have their own. I hope that one day you can have the closeness that you wish for with your parents.
I wish you a beautiful day.......
I hope you don't mind my comment here but....forgive your brother and sister, which I bet you have already done, because, my guess is that they are afraid! From my own experience I have learned that fear of change and uncertainty is mighty powerful.....my father has passed and my mother, well....we went several years without even talking so we are learning just to accept her and move on with our lives...I wish to give her respect and that is what I strive to do.....you see, my family is Mormon...and while in the military, I left the Mormom Church....did not go over big with the family but I had to follow my heart...they haven't forgiven me for that....I thought the stroke would change things but it really hasn't.....and thats okay.....at least I can accept them and not try to force their acceptance of me.....I leaned with my stroke that acceptance is important.....I try to treat my own daughter the way I would want my mother and family could treat me...
have a great day! :wave:
I have found that this experience has brought out alot of uglyness with my brother and sister. My sister sounds like she is like your Mom and Dad. Very stern and she is all business. My brother is a bit of both......he can be like a huricane and really knock you down.....when you are already down.
I try my best to stay out of their way and not to call them.....unless absolutely necessary and even then it is a problem.
Of course that is my side of the story and I am sure they have their own. I hope that one day you can have the closeness that you wish for with your parents.
I wish you a beautiful day.......
I hope you don't mind my comment here but....forgive your brother and sister, which I bet you have already done, because, my guess is that they are afraid! From my own experience I have learned that fear of change and uncertainty is mighty powerful.....my father has passed and my mother, well....we went several years without even talking so we are learning just to accept her and move on with our lives...I wish to give her respect and that is what I strive to do.....you see, my family is Mormon...and while in the military, I left the Mormom Church....did not go over big with the family but I had to follow my heart...they haven't forgiven me for that....I thought the stroke would change things but it really hasn't.....and thats okay.....at least I can accept them and not try to force their acceptance of me.....I leaned with my stroke that acceptance is important.....I try to treat my own daughter the way I would want my mother and family could treat me...
have a great day! :wave:
janalee
02-10-2009, 05:29 PM
I hope you don't mind my comment here but....forgive your brother and sister, which I bet you have already done, because, my guess is that they are afraid! From my own experience I have learned that fear of change and uncertainty is mighty powerful.....my father has passed and my mother, well....we went several years without even talking so we are learning just to accept her and move on with our lives...I wish to give her respect and that is what I strive to do.....you see, my family is Mormon...and while in the military, I left the Mormom Church....did not go over big with the family but I had to follow my heart...they haven't forgiven me for that....I thought the stroke would change things but it really hasn't.....and thats okay.....at least I can accept them and not try to force their acceptance of me.....I leaned with my stroke that acceptance is important.....I try to treat my own daughter the way I would want my mother and family could treat me...
have a great day! :wave:
Yes I believe you are right. There are days I am able to not take what my brother and sister say as "personal". I would agree that they are scared for sure. I am scared as well.....I am sorry that your family was not able to get past your choice in life. You have an amazing attitude though despite it all. I guess that is the lesson "You can't change other people you can only change yourself" For what ever reason it seems to be a hard thing to do.
have a great day! :wave:
Yes I believe you are right. There are days I am able to not take what my brother and sister say as "personal". I would agree that they are scared for sure. I am scared as well.....I am sorry that your family was not able to get past your choice in life. You have an amazing attitude though despite it all. I guess that is the lesson "You can't change other people you can only change yourself" For what ever reason it seems to be a hard thing to do.
writeleft
02-10-2009, 11:29 PM
Dearest Sumptersam,
You are a dear member of this conversation, from day one. Remember, I was writer before...I am simply practicing my thinking/typing (ha ha). Your words are so pure, they do not have to be many. Your words are rich. It is hard to reckon with the idea that service to our country was trumped by (in your case), religion. Im sorry. Jump in here, whenever you want.
Janalee,
Like we all agreed on before, what doesn't kill (anger, destroy, reject, bankrupt, etc.) you, (and that incudes the relatives) makes you stronger. :dizzy:
This seems like one of those paths we are meant to travel alone. That's when we meet up with others on the same stretch of the path we are on.
goodnight.
You are a dear member of this conversation, from day one. Remember, I was writer before...I am simply practicing my thinking/typing (ha ha). Your words are so pure, they do not have to be many. Your words are rich. It is hard to reckon with the idea that service to our country was trumped by (in your case), religion. Im sorry. Jump in here, whenever you want.
Janalee,
Like we all agreed on before, what doesn't kill (anger, destroy, reject, bankrupt, etc.) you, (and that incudes the relatives) makes you stronger. :dizzy:
This seems like one of those paths we are meant to travel alone. That's when we meet up with others on the same stretch of the path we are on.
goodnight.
wilnan287
02-11-2009, 04:03 AM
yeah, El Sobrante is not too bad. We;ve lived here 23 yrs - from Ohio originally.
Thanks for sharing you fatigue with me. Maybe there is still hope!
Nannette
Thanks for sharing you fatigue with me. Maybe there is still hope!
Nannette
sumptersam
02-11-2009, 11:29 AM
Dearest Sumptersam,
You are a dear member of this conversation, from day one. Remember, I was writer before...I am simply practicing my thinking/typing (ha ha). Your words are so pure, they do not have to be many. Your words are rich. It is hard to reckon with the idea that service to our country was trumped by (in your case), religion. Im sorry. Jump in here, whenever you want.
Janalee,
Like we all agreed on before, what doesn't kill (anger, destroy, reject, bankrupt, etc.) you, (and that incudes the relatives) makes you stronger. :dizzy:
This seems like one of those paths we are meant to travel alone. That's when we meet up with others on the same stretch of the path we are on.
goodnight.
Thanks....I am going for my 6 month evaluation today.....will be 6 months next month
you're right, what doesn't kill us does make us stronger....i had root canal on monday, my 6 month eval today....i'm thinking "bring it on."
You are a dear member of this conversation, from day one. Remember, I was writer before...I am simply practicing my thinking/typing (ha ha). Your words are so pure, they do not have to be many. Your words are rich. It is hard to reckon with the idea that service to our country was trumped by (in your case), religion. Im sorry. Jump in here, whenever you want.
Janalee,
Like we all agreed on before, what doesn't kill (anger, destroy, reject, bankrupt, etc.) you, (and that incudes the relatives) makes you stronger. :dizzy:
This seems like one of those paths we are meant to travel alone. That's when we meet up with others on the same stretch of the path we are on.
goodnight.
Thanks....I am going for my 6 month evaluation today.....will be 6 months next month
you're right, what doesn't kill us does make us stronger....i had root canal on monday, my 6 month eval today....i'm thinking "bring it on."
writeleft
02-11-2009, 05:32 PM
I hope your evaluation goes well, let us know what happened. Have a great "hump" day!
janalee
02-12-2009, 01:14 AM
Dearest Sumptersam,
Once again am grateful to have found this outlet. It is good to share.....I am sick these past couple of days and have not gone to see my Mom. But I have talked to her on the phone and she seems pretty good. I wish you both a goodnight.:angel:
You are a dear member of this conversation, from day one. Remember, I was writer before...I am simply practicing my thinking/typing (ha ha). Your words are so pure, they do not have to be many. Your words are rich. It is hard to reckon with the idea that service to our country was trumped by (in your case), religion. Im sorry. Jump in here, whenever you want.
Janalee,
Like we all agreed on before, what doesn't kill (anger, destroy, reject, bankrupt, etc.) you, (and that incudes the relatives) makes you stronger. :dizzy:
This seems like one of those paths we are meant to travel alone. That's when we meet up with others on the same stretch of the path we are on.
goodnight.
Once again am grateful to have found this outlet. It is good to share.....I am sick these past couple of days and have not gone to see my Mom. But I have talked to her on the phone and she seems pretty good. I wish you both a goodnight.:angel:
You are a dear member of this conversation, from day one. Remember, I was writer before...I am simply practicing my thinking/typing (ha ha). Your words are so pure, they do not have to be many. Your words are rich. It is hard to reckon with the idea that service to our country was trumped by (in your case), religion. Im sorry. Jump in here, whenever you want.
Janalee,
Like we all agreed on before, what doesn't kill (anger, destroy, reject, bankrupt, etc.) you, (and that incudes the relatives) makes you stronger. :dizzy:
This seems like one of those paths we are meant to travel alone. That's when we meet up with others on the same stretch of the path we are on.
goodnight.
writeleft
02-12-2009, 01:33 AM
I am sorry to hear you are sick janlee. I hope you were able to rest, eat well, and feel better soon.
I spent the day caring for my son, who started a fever, vomiting, headache etc., yesterday afternoon. I hate to admit it, but I love him the most when he's sick! He lets me baby him, and take care of him...so sweet. Being almost 15, that is a treat for me.
I am expecting my eldest son (24) to come into town sometime late tonight. That is a whole other story.
One thing about life, it keeps marching right along...ready or not!
For Valentines day, I'm going to pack up the family, the dogs and our quads...head out to the desert and make a giant heart on the side of a sand hill, with my tire tracks. I'm going to take a picture, and turn it into a poster for my hubby.
I agree with Sumptersam, when he said "bring it on"!
I spent the day caring for my son, who started a fever, vomiting, headache etc., yesterday afternoon. I hate to admit it, but I love him the most when he's sick! He lets me baby him, and take care of him...so sweet. Being almost 15, that is a treat for me.
I am expecting my eldest son (24) to come into town sometime late tonight. That is a whole other story.
One thing about life, it keeps marching right along...ready or not!
For Valentines day, I'm going to pack up the family, the dogs and our quads...head out to the desert and make a giant heart on the side of a sand hill, with my tire tracks. I'm going to take a picture, and turn it into a poster for my hubby.
I agree with Sumptersam, when he said "bring it on"!
janalee
02-13-2009, 11:37 AM
Wow that sounds like it will be an amazing Valentines Day for you and your family. My hubby bought me a gift certificate for a pair of earings. When we got engaged he took me to a Celtic shop to pick out my ring. We are both of Scottish heritage and it is important to both of us. So for my birthday in November he purchased a gift certificate. I am excited.....he is a pretty thoughtful guy. I am also hoping that I am able to spend some time with my Mom as well. I haven't seen in 4 days......seems like forever. I ususally see her everday.
Happy Valentine to you and you as well Sumpersam:wave::wave:
I hope your son is feeling better
I am sorry to hear you are sick janlee. I hope you were able to rest, eat well, and feel better soon.
I spent the day caring for my son, who started a fever, vomiting, headache etc., yesterday afternoon. I hate to admit it, but I love him the most when he's sick! He lets me baby him, and take care of him...so sweet. Being almost 15, that is a treat for me.
I am expecting my eldest son (24) to come into town sometime late tonight. That is a whole other story.
One thing about life, it keeps marching right along...ready or not!
For Valentines day, I'm going to pack up the family, the dogs and our quads...head out to the desert and make a giant heart on the side of a sand hill, with my tire tracks. I'm going to take a picture, and turn it into a poster for my hubby.
I agree with Sumptersam, when he said "bring it on"!
Happy Valentine to you and you as well Sumpersam:wave::wave:
I hope your son is feeling better
I am sorry to hear you are sick janlee. I hope you were able to rest, eat well, and feel better soon.
I spent the day caring for my son, who started a fever, vomiting, headache etc., yesterday afternoon. I hate to admit it, but I love him the most when he's sick! He lets me baby him, and take care of him...so sweet. Being almost 15, that is a treat for me.
I am expecting my eldest son (24) to come into town sometime late tonight. That is a whole other story.
One thing about life, it keeps marching right along...ready or not!
For Valentines day, I'm going to pack up the family, the dogs and our quads...head out to the desert and make a giant heart on the side of a sand hill, with my tire tracks. I'm going to take a picture, and turn it into a poster for my hubby.
I agree with Sumptersam, when he said "bring it on"!
writeleft
02-13-2009, 12:37 PM
All plans are off...The flu hit the men in my family. Everybody is sick, except me, and the dogs. I'll be serving chicken noodle soup in heart shaped bowls, I imagine :yawn:
Enjoy yourself Janalee, and Sumptersam...love to you, and your families
Enjoy yourself Janalee, and Sumptersam...love to you, and your families
writeleft
02-15-2009, 06:27 PM
Last night, at about 4:00 a.m. I woke up to a thrashing fit in the living room. It sounded like our dogs were flipping out about something. We have hardwood floors, so the thumping and scratching was very clear.
I jumped up and found our beautiful sweet pup, named Jack...obviously having a seizure! We all got up, and comforted Jack until he was over it, and eventually got back to bed.
In the morning my husband mentioned that my son told him that Jack had a seizure in Decemeber. When my son got up this morning, I asked him about the seizure he had witnessed Jack having in December...and his answer has been haunting me all day- He told me I was there when it happened before!
I am sick with the thought of completely forgetting such a medical issue with my dog, that happened less than 60 days ago!
I am second guessing my memory. I am wondering what other major things I have completely forgotten?
I jumped up and found our beautiful sweet pup, named Jack...obviously having a seizure! We all got up, and comforted Jack until he was over it, and eventually got back to bed.
In the morning my husband mentioned that my son told him that Jack had a seizure in Decemeber. When my son got up this morning, I asked him about the seizure he had witnessed Jack having in December...and his answer has been haunting me all day- He told me I was there when it happened before!
I am sick with the thought of completely forgetting such a medical issue with my dog, that happened less than 60 days ago!
I am second guessing my memory. I am wondering what other major things I have completely forgotten?
janalee
02-15-2009, 08:20 PM
All plans are off...The flu hit the men in my family. Everybody is sick, except me, and the dogs. I'll be serving chicken noodle soup in heart shaped bowls, I imagine :yawn:
Enjoy yourself Janalee, and Sumptersam...love to you, and your families
Hope the men in your family are feeling better ......it is a beautiful day here in Vancouver. ;)
Enjoy yourself Janalee, and Sumptersam...love to you, and your families
Hope the men in your family are feeling better ......it is a beautiful day here in Vancouver. ;)
janalee
02-15-2009, 08:23 PM
Last night, at about 4:00 a.m. I woke up to a thrashing fit in the living room. It sounded like our dogs were flipping out about something. We have hardwood floors, so the thumping and scratching was very clear.
I jumped up and found our beautiful sweet pup, named Jack...obviously having a seizure! We all got up, and comforted Jack until he was over it, and eventually got back to bed.
In the morning my husband mentioned that my son told him that Jack had a seizure in Decemeber. When my son got up this morning, I asked him about the seizure he had witnessed Jack having in December...and his answer has been haunting me all day- He told me I was there when it happened before!
I am sick with the thought of completely forgetting such a medical issue with my dog, that happened less than 60 days ago!
I am second guessing my memory. I am wondering what other major things I have completely forgotten?
Oh my goodness....I am so sorry about your dog.
I too have some issues with my memory these days as well. I have forgotten some pretty major stuff. Are you planning to visit your doc?
I jumped up and found our beautiful sweet pup, named Jack...obviously having a seizure! We all got up, and comforted Jack until he was over it, and eventually got back to bed.
In the morning my husband mentioned that my son told him that Jack had a seizure in Decemeber. When my son got up this morning, I asked him about the seizure he had witnessed Jack having in December...and his answer has been haunting me all day- He told me I was there when it happened before!
I am sick with the thought of completely forgetting such a medical issue with my dog, that happened less than 60 days ago!
I am second guessing my memory. I am wondering what other major things I have completely forgotten?
Oh my goodness....I am so sorry about your dog.
I too have some issues with my memory these days as well. I have forgotten some pretty major stuff. Are you planning to visit your doc?
writeleft
02-15-2009, 09:53 PM
Thank you Janalee,
I will mention it on my next visit. if I remember! No, I keep a little note book in my medication bag, just for this type of thing.
Did you get to visit your mother this weekend? I am so happy for you and your engagement (the rings sound beautiful). Do you have a date set?
I will mention it on my next visit. if I remember! No, I keep a little note book in my medication bag, just for this type of thing.
Did you get to visit your mother this weekend? I am so happy for you and your engagement (the rings sound beautiful). Do you have a date set?
sumptersam
02-16-2009, 10:54 AM
All plans are off...The flu hit the men in my family. Everybody is sick, except me, and the dogs. I'll be serving chicken noodle soup in heart shaped bowls, I imagine :yawn:
Enjoy yourself Janalee, and Sumptersam...love to you, and your families
good news.....my 6 month eval went well....I'm off all restrictions and the brain surgeon even told me I could fly...I told him that was odd because I couldn't fly before..of course he was speaking about airplanes....he said he doesn't need to see me for a year now...just have to see my regular doctor at the VA! Now if I could just get over this cold!
I'm sorry to hear about the dog having a seizure! I've seen that before..they usually prescribe Dilantin and then they'll be fine..don't worry!
As for memory, I know the feeling....my short term memory is horrible! And when I got home from the hosptial, we went to a game night at the church and I was dumbfounded to discover I could not remember how to play cribbage...a game I have played since I was a kid! Then I was talking with my daughter at Christmas and was horrified when I couldn't remember her name....I covered it up so I don't think she knew.....but not remembering her name does not mean I love her any less! I am learning to cope with less short term memory and learning how to write everything down! It's just a new way of living is all....losing memory does not define who we are! :wave:
Enjoy yourself Janalee, and Sumptersam...love to you, and your families
good news.....my 6 month eval went well....I'm off all restrictions and the brain surgeon even told me I could fly...I told him that was odd because I couldn't fly before..of course he was speaking about airplanes....he said he doesn't need to see me for a year now...just have to see my regular doctor at the VA! Now if I could just get over this cold!
I'm sorry to hear about the dog having a seizure! I've seen that before..they usually prescribe Dilantin and then they'll be fine..don't worry!
As for memory, I know the feeling....my short term memory is horrible! And when I got home from the hosptial, we went to a game night at the church and I was dumbfounded to discover I could not remember how to play cribbage...a game I have played since I was a kid! Then I was talking with my daughter at Christmas and was horrified when I couldn't remember her name....I covered it up so I don't think she knew.....but not remembering her name does not mean I love her any less! I am learning to cope with less short term memory and learning how to write everything down! It's just a new way of living is all....losing memory does not define who we are! :wave:
janalee
02-16-2009, 11:23 AM
good news.....my 6 month eval went well....I'm off all restrictions and the brain surgeon even told me I could fly...I told him that was odd because I couldn't fly before..of course he was speaking about airplanes....he said he doesn't need to see me for a year now...just have to see my regular doctor at the VA! Now if I could just get over this cold!
I'm sorry to hear about the dog having a seizure! I've seen that before..they usually prescribe Dilantin and then they'll be fine..don't worry!
As for memory, I know the feeling....my short term memory is horrible! And when I got home from the hosptial, we went to a game night at the church and I was dumbfounded to discover I could not remember how to play cribbage...a game I have played since I was a kid! Then I was talking with my daughter at Christmas and was horrified when I couldn't remember her name....I covered it up so I don't think she knew.....but not remembering her name does not mean I love her any less! I am learning to cope with less short term memory and learning how to write everything down! It's just a new way of living is all....losing memory does not define who we are! :wave:
Congrats on your eval.....good news. That for sure is something to celebrate.
I'm sorry to hear about the dog having a seizure! I've seen that before..they usually prescribe Dilantin and then they'll be fine..don't worry!
As for memory, I know the feeling....my short term memory is horrible! And when I got home from the hosptial, we went to a game night at the church and I was dumbfounded to discover I could not remember how to play cribbage...a game I have played since I was a kid! Then I was talking with my daughter at Christmas and was horrified when I couldn't remember her name....I covered it up so I don't think she knew.....but not remembering her name does not mean I love her any less! I am learning to cope with less short term memory and learning how to write everything down! It's just a new way of living is all....losing memory does not define who we are! :wave:
Congrats on your eval.....good news. That for sure is something to celebrate.
janalee
02-16-2009, 11:28 AM
Thank you Janalee,
I will mention it on my next visit. if I remember! No, I keep a little note book in my medication bag, just for this type of thing.
Did you get to visit your mother this weekend? I am so happy for you and your engagement (the rings sound beautiful). Do you have a date set?
Good morning,
Well we don't have a date set....who knows when we will get it together;). I did see my Mom on the weekend....I took her a big boquet of flowers....It was good to see her. I really miss her when I don't see her and it was four days since my last visit. Since her stroke that is the longest period of time I have had away from her.
I do understand the memory thing. I have not seen my doctor but I guess in my case it could be menopause. I do get a little concerned from time to time with it. It seems that I have forgotten some pretty important stuff, especially in regards to work.
I am hoping the sun is going to sun it's pretty face today....I hope you have a great day!
I will mention it on my next visit. if I remember! No, I keep a little note book in my medication bag, just for this type of thing.
Did you get to visit your mother this weekend? I am so happy for you and your engagement (the rings sound beautiful). Do you have a date set?
Good morning,
Well we don't have a date set....who knows when we will get it together;). I did see my Mom on the weekend....I took her a big boquet of flowers....It was good to see her. I really miss her when I don't see her and it was four days since my last visit. Since her stroke that is the longest period of time I have had away from her.
I do understand the memory thing. I have not seen my doctor but I guess in my case it could be menopause. I do get a little concerned from time to time with it. It seems that I have forgotten some pretty important stuff, especially in regards to work.
I am hoping the sun is going to sun it's pretty face today....I hope you have a great day!
writeleft
02-16-2009, 04:15 PM
Janalee,
I'm sure things will come together for the wedding when the time is just right. I know having your mother's care in your hands consumes your mind and your heart. It is wonderful that you have such a caring man behind you, and your time will come!
I bet your mother was thrilled to see you this last weekend, with the flowers and everything...I can just picture it! Bless both your hearts.
I haven't explored the whole menopause thing yet. If menopause makes me more forgetful than I already am, I'll have to leave a trail of crumbs everytime I leave the house!
Today is a rainy day in San Diego...quite unusual. Our systems aren't made for heavy rain, so we get flooded easily (the streets, not in the house). Do I remember correctly...you are in Vancouver, Canada? Shoot, I don't remember! Forgive me, janalee :dizzy:
I'm sure things will come together for the wedding when the time is just right. I know having your mother's care in your hands consumes your mind and your heart. It is wonderful that you have such a caring man behind you, and your time will come!
I bet your mother was thrilled to see you this last weekend, with the flowers and everything...I can just picture it! Bless both your hearts.
I haven't explored the whole menopause thing yet. If menopause makes me more forgetful than I already am, I'll have to leave a trail of crumbs everytime I leave the house!
Today is a rainy day in San Diego...quite unusual. Our systems aren't made for heavy rain, so we get flooded easily (the streets, not in the house). Do I remember correctly...you are in Vancouver, Canada? Shoot, I don't remember! Forgive me, janalee :dizzy:
janalee
02-17-2009, 11:24 AM
Hi there,
You did remember I am in Vancouver Canada.
I guess in terms of getting married, neither one of us is too concerned as to when that will happen. Maybe it's because we are older. It will happen for sure but as you said my Mom is first and foremost on the list of importance.
She was happy to see me this weekend and I to see her. I hope everyone in your house in on the mend. Have yourself a great day!!
You did remember I am in Vancouver Canada.
I guess in terms of getting married, neither one of us is too concerned as to when that will happen. Maybe it's because we are older. It will happen for sure but as you said my Mom is first and foremost on the list of importance.
She was happy to see me this weekend and I to see her. I hope everyone in your house in on the mend. Have yourself a great day!!
sumptersam
02-17-2009, 02:02 PM
Janalee,
I'm sure things will come together for the wedding when the time is just right. I know having your mother's care in your hands consumes your mind and your heart. It is wonderful that you have such a caring man behind you, and your time will come!
I bet your mother was thrilled to see you this last weekend, with the flowers and everything...I can just picture it! Bless both your hearts.
I haven't explored the whole menopause thing yet. If menopause makes me more forgetful than I already am, I'll have to leave a trail of crumbs everytime I leave the house!
Today is a rainy day in San Diego...quite unusual. Our systems aren't made for heavy rain, so we get flooded easily (the streets, not in the house). Do I remember correctly...you are in Vancouver, Canada? Shoot, I don't remember! Forgive me, janalee :dizzy:
congrats on getting hitched! no rush, whats meant to be will last!
San Diego? I guess I just noticed that....we were living in Oceanside and I was at the La Jolla VA for a long time.....I used to roam all over San Diego! My wife loved TJ since she is from Germany.....we used to hang out at Seaport Village! I loved Cabrillo Point myself......:wave:
I'm sure things will come together for the wedding when the time is just right. I know having your mother's care in your hands consumes your mind and your heart. It is wonderful that you have such a caring man behind you, and your time will come!
I bet your mother was thrilled to see you this last weekend, with the flowers and everything...I can just picture it! Bless both your hearts.
I haven't explored the whole menopause thing yet. If menopause makes me more forgetful than I already am, I'll have to leave a trail of crumbs everytime I leave the house!
Today is a rainy day in San Diego...quite unusual. Our systems aren't made for heavy rain, so we get flooded easily (the streets, not in the house). Do I remember correctly...you are in Vancouver, Canada? Shoot, I don't remember! Forgive me, janalee :dizzy:
congrats on getting hitched! no rush, whats meant to be will last!
San Diego? I guess I just noticed that....we were living in Oceanside and I was at the La Jolla VA for a long time.....I used to roam all over San Diego! My wife loved TJ since she is from Germany.....we used to hang out at Seaport Village! I loved Cabrillo Point myself......:wave:
writeleft
02-17-2009, 05:20 PM
Sumptersam, It's a small world isn't it? I was born and raised in San Diego, and always loved this place. I couldn't pick my favorite places...it's the weather that ceases to amaze me after almost 50 years of it.
Didn't you just have an eval. last week? Any news?
Take care
Didn't you just have an eval. last week? Any news?
Take care
sumptersam
02-18-2009, 12:41 PM
Sumptersam, It's a small world isn't it? I was born and raised in San Diego, and always loved this place. I couldn't pick my favorite places...it's the weather that ceases to amaze me after almost 50 years of it.
Didn't you just have an eval. last week? Any news?
Take care
yes it is a small world.....my favorite place was the La Jolla cliffs where I would have a coffee and listen the sea lions only a few feet from me....I always wanted to rent a kayak and go into the caves....we walked down into a cave and it was awesome! The weather was good too!
yes, had my 6 month eval last week....:wave:
Didn't you just have an eval. last week? Any news?
Take care
yes it is a small world.....my favorite place was the La Jolla cliffs where I would have a coffee and listen the sea lions only a few feet from me....I always wanted to rent a kayak and go into the caves....we walked down into a cave and it was awesome! The weather was good too!
yes, had my 6 month eval last week....:wave:
janalee
02-20-2009, 11:31 AM
Sumptersam, It's a small world isn't it? I was born and raised in San Diego, and always loved this place. I couldn't pick my favorite places...it's the weather that ceases to amaze me after almost 50 years of it.
Didn't you just have an eval. last week? Any news?
Take care
Just wanted to pop by and wish you a great weekend. Yesterday my sister and I visited another facility. We are considering having our Mom moved from where she is. There are some issues there that have left us feeling like we perhaps made a mistake with her placement. Anyhow, have a great weekend with your family.
cheers
Janalee
Didn't you just have an eval. last week? Any news?
Take care
Just wanted to pop by and wish you a great weekend. Yesterday my sister and I visited another facility. We are considering having our Mom moved from where she is. There are some issues there that have left us feeling like we perhaps made a mistake with her placement. Anyhow, have a great weekend with your family.
cheers
Janalee
writeleft
02-20-2009, 07:50 PM
Janalee,
Great to hear that you and your sister have possibly found another facility for your mother. I know your original choice of placement was made under great duress, as your mother's stoke came as such a shock. I think that it would be quite normal to have a much better idea about the proper placement, after the original one has a little time to show it's true colors. How could anyone know all the proper questions to ask, when never being confronted with such a decision before. How would anyone know, before it happens to them?
When a friend's father suffered a stroke, it took 3 differant placements until they found the best one for him. As time passes, his needs changed, and the family gained much more insight as to what facility offered the best combination of services to best help him recover. You are doing the right thing by continuing to search for the best fit for your mother.
Bless your heart!
Great to hear that you and your sister have possibly found another facility for your mother. I know your original choice of placement was made under great duress, as your mother's stoke came as such a shock. I think that it would be quite normal to have a much better idea about the proper placement, after the original one has a little time to show it's true colors. How could anyone know all the proper questions to ask, when never being confronted with such a decision before. How would anyone know, before it happens to them?
When a friend's father suffered a stroke, it took 3 differant placements until they found the best one for him. As time passes, his needs changed, and the family gained much more insight as to what facility offered the best combination of services to best help him recover. You are doing the right thing by continuing to search for the best fit for your mother.
Bless your heart!
janalee
02-23-2009, 11:30 AM
Janalee,
Great to hear that you and your sister have possibly found another facility for your mother. I know your original choice of placement was made under great duress, as your mother's stoke came as such a shock. I think that it would be quite normal to have a much better idea about the proper placement, after the original one has a little time to show it's true colors. How could anyone know all the proper questions to ask, when never being confronted with such a decision before. How would anyone know, before it happens to them?
When a friend's father suffered a stroke, it took 3 differant placements until they found the best one for him. As time passes, his needs changed, and the family gained much more insight as to what facility offered the best combination of services to best help him recover. You are doing the right thing by continuing to search for the best fit for your mother.
Bless your heart!
Good morning,
It is Monday morning here.....well I did go and look at a place on the weekend for my Mom. It is not so easy to find a place for a variety of reasons. But we will continue to do our best to make sure she is getting the best of care. I am wondering....when you had your stroke did you have an Occupational therapist working with you? And if you did, was it beneficial?.
I hope you don't mind me asking.
Hope you have a great day!
Great to hear that you and your sister have possibly found another facility for your mother. I know your original choice of placement was made under great duress, as your mother's stoke came as such a shock. I think that it would be quite normal to have a much better idea about the proper placement, after the original one has a little time to show it's true colors. How could anyone know all the proper questions to ask, when never being confronted with such a decision before. How would anyone know, before it happens to them?
When a friend's father suffered a stroke, it took 3 differant placements until they found the best one for him. As time passes, his needs changed, and the family gained much more insight as to what facility offered the best combination of services to best help him recover. You are doing the right thing by continuing to search for the best fit for your mother.
Bless your heart!
Good morning,
It is Monday morning here.....well I did go and look at a place on the weekend for my Mom. It is not so easy to find a place for a variety of reasons. But we will continue to do our best to make sure she is getting the best of care. I am wondering....when you had your stroke did you have an Occupational therapist working with you? And if you did, was it beneficial?.
I hope you don't mind me asking.
Hope you have a great day!
writeleft
02-24-2009, 01:39 AM
Hi Janalee,
I personally did not have an occupational therapist, so I have no experience to share with you on that..sorry.
You might want to start a thread on the "caregivers" board looking for people who have been in your shoes. I'll bet you could get a lot of experienced folks ideas.
I only had a minute to check in, so I'll catch up later. Take care
I personally did not have an occupational therapist, so I have no experience to share with you on that..sorry.
You might want to start a thread on the "caregivers" board looking for people who have been in your shoes. I'll bet you could get a lot of experienced folks ideas.
I only had a minute to check in, so I'll catch up later. Take care
writeleft
02-24-2009, 10:37 PM
I just found out I have pnuemonia, after having that horrible flu for the last 10 days, so I am going to be laying low for a few days...I just don't have enough energy to think :confused:
I wish you well.
I wish you well.
sumptersam
02-25-2009, 11:19 AM
I just found out I have pnuemonia, after having that horrible flu for the last 10 days, so I am going to be laying low for a few days...I just don't have enough energy to think :confused:
I wish you well.
I am sorry to hear you are sick....we will keep you in our prayers for a speedy recovery!:angel:
I wish you well.
I am sorry to hear you are sick....we will keep you in our prayers for a speedy recovery!:angel:
writeleft
02-25-2009, 06:14 PM
Thank you so much Sam...That really means a lot to me. I'll be checking in, my friends here mean so much to me, and I don't have to worry about spreading this sickness like I do in real life. I have put myself under quarantine, which is very lonely. I am typically a very social person, with lots of friends to "play" with everyday...Even my dogs are looking at me, and wondering what the heck is going on. What about the beach? What about the park?
Thanks again for your kind words...
Thanks again for your kind words...
janalee
02-25-2009, 11:51 PM
I am sorry to hear you are sick....we will keep you in our prayers for a speedy recovery!:angel:
OOOOhhhh sorry to hear you are not feeling well. If I could send you some chicken soup over the computer I would do so. Please take good care of yourself and I will think positive thoughts towards a speedy recovery for you.
Take the best care:)
OOOOhhhh sorry to hear you are not feeling well. If I could send you some chicken soup over the computer I would do so. Please take good care of yourself and I will think positive thoughts towards a speedy recovery for you.
Take the best care:)
writeleft
02-26-2009, 01:09 AM
Thank you sweetheart...Ummm, that soup is good for the soul!
sumptersam
02-26-2009, 11:04 AM
OOOOhhhh sorry to hear you are not feeling well. If I could send you some chicken soup over the computer I would do so. Please take good care of yourself and I will think positive thoughts towards a speedy recovery for you.
Take the best care:)
oh! I want some chicken soup! :wave:
Take the best care:)
oh! I want some chicken soup! :wave:
janalee
02-27-2009, 12:18 PM
oh! I want some chicken soup! :wave:
okay.......I will use my telepathic skills and send you a lovely bowl of chicken soup too........careful it's hot!!:angel:
okay.......I will use my telepathic skills and send you a lovely bowl of chicken soup too........careful it's hot!!:angel:
sumptersam
02-28-2009, 01:09 PM
okay.......I will use my telepathic skills and send you a lovely bowl of chicken soup too........careful it's hot!!:angel:
Okay, wow, it tastes real good! Thanks!:wave:
Okay, wow, it tastes real good! Thanks!:wave:
writeleft
02-28-2009, 05:19 PM
I'm sorry to report that I am still terribly sick. I've been in the hospital because there was a fear of blood clots in my legs, and the pneumonia is still very strong. I will be back, just sitting up wears me out. Thank you my friends... I miss all my sweet friends on the boards:angel:
sumptersam
03-01-2009, 11:39 AM
I'm sorry to report that I am still terribly sick. I've been in the hospital because there was a fear of blood clots in my legs, and the pneumonia is still very strong. I will be back, just sitting up wears me out. Thank you my friends... I miss all my sweet friends on the boards:angel:
sorry to hear about that....will keep you in our prayers!
sorry to hear about that....will keep you in our prayers!
writeleft
03-02-2009, 05:29 PM
Thank you...Sumptersam,
Thank goodness I have some very fine doctors who are treating me. I've survived much worse than this, so I'm going to fight my way through this thing too!:wave:
Thank goodness I have some very fine doctors who are treating me. I've survived much worse than this, so I'm going to fight my way through this thing too!:wave:
sumptersam
03-03-2009, 10:33 AM
Thank you...Sumptersam,
Thank goodness I have some very fine doctors who are treating me. I've survived much worse than this, so I'm going to fight my way through this thing too!:wave:
I have dr appt at VA tomorrow and I know it will be good, just as I know you will survive this as you have survived worse remember what Jesus told his disciples: "this too shall pass"
Don't worry! But when worry creeps in read Matthew 6:19-34 serious! I'm not a bible thumper, but this has helped me since the stroke! :angel:
Thank goodness I have some very fine doctors who are treating me. I've survived much worse than this, so I'm going to fight my way through this thing too!:wave:
I have dr appt at VA tomorrow and I know it will be good, just as I know you will survive this as you have survived worse remember what Jesus told his disciples: "this too shall pass"
Don't worry! But when worry creeps in read Matthew 6:19-34 serious! I'm not a bible thumper, but this has helped me since the stroke! :angel:
janalee
03-03-2009, 03:59 PM
I'm sorry to report that I am still terribly sick. I've been in the hospital because there was a fear of blood clots in my legs, and the pneumonia is still very strong. I will be back, just sitting up wears me out. Thank you my friends... I miss all my sweet friends on the boards:angel:
I hope you get some relief very soon....please take the best care:wave:
I hope you get some relief very soon....please take the best care:wave:
writeleft
03-04-2009, 08:03 PM
Thank you friends... I was back in the ER yesterday, after experiencing horrible drug interactions from the antibiotics and the albuterol inhaler. My pulse rate went up to 130 bpm, and my BP was erratic. I had violent tremors that required 30 mg of Valium to calm them. I was scared to death!
But, today is a new day...I am feeling much better, just quite sore from all that shaking, and woozy from the Valium, which I have to continue for 4 days @ 10mg every 4 hours. In fact last night I got up to go to the bathroom and keeled right over. Thank goodness I fell into the laundry basket (which was full, as I am so behind in my housekeeping), and I wasn't injured. At least my sense of humor is still intact!
Thanks again for your support, it means so much to me...
But, today is a new day...I am feeling much better, just quite sore from all that shaking, and woozy from the Valium, which I have to continue for 4 days @ 10mg every 4 hours. In fact last night I got up to go to the bathroom and keeled right over. Thank goodness I fell into the laundry basket (which was full, as I am so behind in my housekeeping), and I wasn't injured. At least my sense of humor is still intact!
Thanks again for your support, it means so much to me...
janalee
03-05-2009, 04:38 PM
Thank you friends... I was back in the ER yesterday, after experiencing horrible drug interactions from the antibiotics and the albuterol inhaler. My pulse rate went up to 130 bpm, and my BP was erratic. I had violent tremors that required 30 mg of Valium to calm them. I was scared to death!
But, today is a new day...I am feeling much better, just quite sore from all that shaking, and woozy from the Valium, which I have to continue for 4 days @ 10mg every 4 hours. In fact last night I got up to go to the bathroom and keeled right over. Thank goodness I fell into the laundry basket (which was full, as I am so behind in my housekeeping), and I wasn't injured. At least my sense of humor is still intact!
Thanks again for your support, it means so much to me...
My thoughts continue to be with you.
But, today is a new day...I am feeling much better, just quite sore from all that shaking, and woozy from the Valium, which I have to continue for 4 days @ 10mg every 4 hours. In fact last night I got up to go to the bathroom and keeled right over. Thank goodness I fell into the laundry basket (which was full, as I am so behind in my housekeeping), and I wasn't injured. At least my sense of humor is still intact!
Thanks again for your support, it means so much to me...
My thoughts continue to be with you.
writeleft
03-07-2009, 03:46 AM
OK, enough about me...I am feeling much better today. Sorry for the distraction :confused:
Janalee, tell us about your mother... any news? I imagine you will be visiting her this weekend. Have you had any luck with getting her some occupational therapy? I spent the day with my mother today, and I thought of you...it must be just devastating to go through all this with your mom. I must say, it reminded me of how fragile each moment is, and how important it is to cherish every minute. I make sure to hug and kiss both my parents every time I see them, and always end every phone call with "I love you".
They are going to be celebrating their 62nd anniversary on the 16th. I am in a quandary over what to do for them, and the gift! They have everything, literally. Maybe I'll start a thread about it, and get some ideas...
Have a wonderful weekend!
Janalee, tell us about your mother... any news? I imagine you will be visiting her this weekend. Have you had any luck with getting her some occupational therapy? I spent the day with my mother today, and I thought of you...it must be just devastating to go through all this with your mom. I must say, it reminded me of how fragile each moment is, and how important it is to cherish every minute. I make sure to hug and kiss both my parents every time I see them, and always end every phone call with "I love you".
They are going to be celebrating their 62nd anniversary on the 16th. I am in a quandary over what to do for them, and the gift! They have everything, literally. Maybe I'll start a thread about it, and get some ideas...
Have a wonderful weekend!
janalee
03-08-2009, 11:45 AM
OK, enough about me...I am feeling much better today. Sorry for the distraction :confused:
Janalee, tell us about your mother... any news? I imagine you will be visiting her this weekend. Have you had any luck with getting her some occupational therapy? I spent the day with my mother today, and I thought of you...it must be just devastating to go through all this with your mom. I must say, it reminded me of how fragile each moment is, and how important it is to cherish every minute. I make sure to hug and kiss both my parents every time I see them, and always end every phone call with "I love you".
They are going to be celebrating their 62nd anniversary on the 16th. I am in a quandary over what to do for them, and the gift! They have everything, literally. Maybe I'll start a thread about it, and get some ideas...
Have a wonderful weekend!
I am so relieved that you are feeling better.
Well things continue to be a struggle for my Mom. My Mom has a anxiety disorder that she has managed her whole life. Since her stroke she is unable to manage it and her anxiety is through the roof. The part of the brain that was damaged was the part the processing information. My poor little Mom is now parinod all the time. It is so hard to describe, I feel sorry for her and hope that, in time, her mind clears.
My sister and I have had our difficuties through this time as well. We do not deal with things in the same way and unfortunately we have had some uncomfortable exchanges.
I am taking my Mom to my sisters for dinner tonight so we shall see how that goes.
That is amazing that two people could be married for that many years. You could send them out for a amazing dinner somewhere. If that is something they would enjoy. If you are feeling up to it you could have a dinner party for them as well.
I hope you continue to feel good and look forward to hearing from you.
Janalee, tell us about your mother... any news? I imagine you will be visiting her this weekend. Have you had any luck with getting her some occupational therapy? I spent the day with my mother today, and I thought of you...it must be just devastating to go through all this with your mom. I must say, it reminded me of how fragile each moment is, and how important it is to cherish every minute. I make sure to hug and kiss both my parents every time I see them, and always end every phone call with "I love you".
They are going to be celebrating their 62nd anniversary on the 16th. I am in a quandary over what to do for them, and the gift! They have everything, literally. Maybe I'll start a thread about it, and get some ideas...
Have a wonderful weekend!
I am so relieved that you are feeling better.
Well things continue to be a struggle for my Mom. My Mom has a anxiety disorder that she has managed her whole life. Since her stroke she is unable to manage it and her anxiety is through the roof. The part of the brain that was damaged was the part the processing information. My poor little Mom is now parinod all the time. It is so hard to describe, I feel sorry for her and hope that, in time, her mind clears.
My sister and I have had our difficuties through this time as well. We do not deal with things in the same way and unfortunately we have had some uncomfortable exchanges.
I am taking my Mom to my sisters for dinner tonight so we shall see how that goes.
That is amazing that two people could be married for that many years. You could send them out for a amazing dinner somewhere. If that is something they would enjoy. If you are feeling up to it you could have a dinner party for them as well.
I hope you continue to feel good and look forward to hearing from you.
writeleft
03-08-2009, 05:29 PM
Oh Janalee, I am so sorry that your dear mother is having to deal with such anxiety.
I know that my strokes brought on anxiety that I had never experienced previous to the strokes. I remember feeling so out of control, and so vulnerable. When your whole life changes in one instant, it left me questioning what could happen next? When all of your previous skills are suddenly impaired, you wonder who you really are anymore.
I understand the way family dynamics can really make an impossible situation even worse. I dread the day when my parents need help, as my sister and I can't get along under the best of circumstances. We can't even get together for holidays, birthdays, or any family events. It's ridiculous! I hope your family dinner is a treat for your mother, and is full of love.
I did post a thread about the anniversary gift...and got some great suggestions...I love these boards! Thank you for your thoughts...Enjoy tonight!
I know that my strokes brought on anxiety that I had never experienced previous to the strokes. I remember feeling so out of control, and so vulnerable. When your whole life changes in one instant, it left me questioning what could happen next? When all of your previous skills are suddenly impaired, you wonder who you really are anymore.
I understand the way family dynamics can really make an impossible situation even worse. I dread the day when my parents need help, as my sister and I can't get along under the best of circumstances. We can't even get together for holidays, birthdays, or any family events. It's ridiculous! I hope your family dinner is a treat for your mother, and is full of love.
I did post a thread about the anniversary gift...and got some great suggestions...I love these boards! Thank you for your thoughts...Enjoy tonight!
sumptersam
03-09-2009, 12:52 PM
Oh Janalee, I am so sorry that your dear mother is having to deal with such anxiety.
I know that my strokes brought on anxiety that I had never experienced previous to the strokes. I remember feeling so out of control, and so vulnerable. When your whole life changes in one instant, it left me questioning what could happen next? When all of your previous skills are suddenly impaired, you wonder who you really are anymore.
I understand the way family dynamics can really make an impossible situation even worse. I dread the day when my parents need help, as my sister and I can't get along under the best of circumstances. We can't even get together for holidays, birthdays, or any family events. It's ridiculous! I hope your family dinner is a treat for your mother, and is full of love.
I did post a thread about the anniversary gift...and got some great suggestions...I love these boards! Thank you for your thoughts...Enjoy tonight!
I am sorry about the anxiety your mother has been experiencing....I know what that is like....one of my biggest lessons I am having to learn is to give up control and that has been helping me with anxiety...I remember an exercise I learned in high shool drama where one person stands behind you and you have to trust that when you fall backwards, that person will catch you....and now I really know what that what was about.
Congrats for the anniversary too! :wave:
I know that my strokes brought on anxiety that I had never experienced previous to the strokes. I remember feeling so out of control, and so vulnerable. When your whole life changes in one instant, it left me questioning what could happen next? When all of your previous skills are suddenly impaired, you wonder who you really are anymore.
I understand the way family dynamics can really make an impossible situation even worse. I dread the day when my parents need help, as my sister and I can't get along under the best of circumstances. We can't even get together for holidays, birthdays, or any family events. It's ridiculous! I hope your family dinner is a treat for your mother, and is full of love.
I did post a thread about the anniversary gift...and got some great suggestions...I love these boards! Thank you for your thoughts...Enjoy tonight!
I am sorry about the anxiety your mother has been experiencing....I know what that is like....one of my biggest lessons I am having to learn is to give up control and that has been helping me with anxiety...I remember an exercise I learned in high shool drama where one person stands behind you and you have to trust that when you fall backwards, that person will catch you....and now I really know what that what was about.
Congrats for the anniversary too! :wave:
janalee
03-09-2009, 02:54 PM
Oh Janalee, I am so sorry that your dear mother is having to deal with such anxiety.
I know that my strokes brought on anxiety that I had never experienced previous to the strokes. I remember feeling so out of control, and so vulnerable. When your whole life changes in one instant, it left me questioning what could happen next? When all of your previous skills are suddenly impaired, you wonder who you really are anymore.
I understand the way family dynamics can really make an impossible situation even worse. I dread the day when my parents need help, as my sister and I can't get along under the best of circumstances. We can't even get together for holidays, birthdays, or any family events. It's ridiculous! I hope your family dinner is a treat for your mother, and is full of love.
I did post a thread about the anniversary gift...and got some great suggestions...I love these boards! Thank you for your thoughts...Enjoy tonight!
Wonderful.....I am pleased that you got such great ideas.....have a great day
I know that my strokes brought on anxiety that I had never experienced previous to the strokes. I remember feeling so out of control, and so vulnerable. When your whole life changes in one instant, it left me questioning what could happen next? When all of your previous skills are suddenly impaired, you wonder who you really are anymore.
I understand the way family dynamics can really make an impossible situation even worse. I dread the day when my parents need help, as my sister and I can't get along under the best of circumstances. We can't even get together for holidays, birthdays, or any family events. It's ridiculous! I hope your family dinner is a treat for your mother, and is full of love.
I did post a thread about the anniversary gift...and got some great suggestions...I love these boards! Thank you for your thoughts...Enjoy tonight!
Wonderful.....I am pleased that you got such great ideas.....have a great day
janalee
03-09-2009, 02:57 PM
I am sorry about the anxiety your mother has been experiencing....I know what that is like....one of my biggest lessons I am having to learn is to give up control and that has been helping me with anxiety...I remember an exercise I learned in high shool drama where one person stands behind you and you have to trust that when you fall backwards, that person will catch you....and now I really know what that what was about.
Congrats for the anniversary too! :wave:
Well unfortunately since this whole thing has started with my Mom.....I have discovered I am definatley my Mother's daughter....I myself am experiencing too much anxiety. It is not good....especially when you have to work every day. I am off to the doctor tomorrow morning and see what she has to say. I am so thankful to have found this site...and even more grateful for you and writerleft for taking the time to respond to my posts....
Thanks to both of you......:angel:
Just for the record..
Congrats for the anniversary too! :wave:
Well unfortunately since this whole thing has started with my Mom.....I have discovered I am definatley my Mother's daughter....I myself am experiencing too much anxiety. It is not good....especially when you have to work every day. I am off to the doctor tomorrow morning and see what she has to say. I am so thankful to have found this site...and even more grateful for you and writerleft for taking the time to respond to my posts....
Thanks to both of you......:angel:
Just for the record..
writeleft
03-10-2009, 03:09 AM
It is as important and comforting being on the support side of things. I never knew about the boards as I was needing support, not to mention I could not think, speak, type or walk back then. If there is one tiny thing that is helpful to you, then it makes my experience worthy. As we have discussed before, there is a certain fragile deep beauty in what we previously thought as a major loss.
As for you, young lady...You have every reason in the world to be anxious, depressed and quite fragile yourself. Trying to maintain your "normal" life, when things are so abnormal, is a clear sign that you need to put the focus on yourself immediately. After all, what can you do to keep these balls in the air, unless you are steady and balanced? Imagine a close friend, or family member suddenly inundated with all the major emotional and practical decisions you have been forced to make...Wouldn't you jump in and give them a hand, a tireless ear, some practical help? That says nothing about the emotional toll, that grinds on you 24/7?
Janalee, Please seek some help for yourself. There are fine people out there just for people like you. I hear pain in your voice, and fear. Let's figure something out for you...because how you process this major event will factor into the rest of your life.
Your mother is such a lucky woman to have such a loving and sensitive child.
I'm there for you, whatever that is worth.
As for you, young lady...You have every reason in the world to be anxious, depressed and quite fragile yourself. Trying to maintain your "normal" life, when things are so abnormal, is a clear sign that you need to put the focus on yourself immediately. After all, what can you do to keep these balls in the air, unless you are steady and balanced? Imagine a close friend, or family member suddenly inundated with all the major emotional and practical decisions you have been forced to make...Wouldn't you jump in and give them a hand, a tireless ear, some practical help? That says nothing about the emotional toll, that grinds on you 24/7?
Janalee, Please seek some help for yourself. There are fine people out there just for people like you. I hear pain in your voice, and fear. Let's figure something out for you...because how you process this major event will factor into the rest of your life.
Your mother is such a lucky woman to have such a loving and sensitive child.
I'm there for you, whatever that is worth.
janalee
03-10-2009, 11:31 AM
And once again I am grateful for the kind words and support. I will definately seek out hlep for myself. I have a wonderful relationship with my partner. He is supportive beyond what I would expect. I will let you know what happens....in the meantime I hope you are still on the mend and feeling much better.
Cheers
Cheers
janalee
03-15-2009, 11:25 PM
Hi there,
Just wanted to let you know I am still around.....I have had some coputer issues and I am unable to check my messages at work. I hope you are doing well.
Just wanted to let you know I am still around.....I have had some coputer issues and I am unable to check my messages at work. I hope you are doing well.
writeleft
03-16-2009, 03:14 AM
Thanks,
No pressure here. We all understand that life goes on, and computer problems-oh my ! :)
I've found the boards a neat part of my day, and I hit them about 5-6 days a week. Being home during the day gives me times where I can check in for while, and usually feel enlightened somehow,every time. There are times where my blood pressure or other health issues control my activities, and I am forced to be quiet, and focusing on others works well for me.
But for you, Janalee...you will always be on my list, and I will never remove from my subscribed threads, whether I hear from you twice a day, or twice a month. Of course, if too long goes by, I will attempt to check up on you, but otherwise...I'll be here!
Things here are pretty good...forcing myself back to life! Spent the day yesterday riding the quad with hubby and friends (yes, I'm sore, and tired),
but finished the weekend strong with a badminton game in the front yard, and getting my sunflowers in the ground.
I have a yearly tradition to plant 50 giant (12-14ft) sunflowers in my front yard. The kids around here used to call me "big mama sunshine" and the older folks call me the "sunflower lady".
Actually, since we have no seasons here in San Diego, I make a point to decorate elaborately for the holidays, San Diego style. I make tumble weed snowmen, surfer Santa's, skeletons on the beach, weird stuff. This will be the first year in five years I will have my beautiful sunflowers again. All the neighbors have chipped in to make the other holiday scenes happen, but not plant the sunflowers. Oh, the simple joys of life... I pushed each seed into the warm ground, with a little wish that I will be called big mama sunshine again.
Janalee, the little (or big) milestones really count. My hubby is constantly reminding me of little things, and I will get slightly annoyed...and ask "why would you remind me of something so obvious"? He sweetly reminds me that last week/month/year/5 years ago...I would not have remembered.
The transition is slow, but the human spirit is resilient, and after stoke...kinda pissed, kinda frustrated, and pretty scared. But you already know that, and because of you.
Good night, and good week ahead!
No pressure here. We all understand that life goes on, and computer problems-oh my ! :)
I've found the boards a neat part of my day, and I hit them about 5-6 days a week. Being home during the day gives me times where I can check in for while, and usually feel enlightened somehow,every time. There are times where my blood pressure or other health issues control my activities, and I am forced to be quiet, and focusing on others works well for me.
But for you, Janalee...you will always be on my list, and I will never remove from my subscribed threads, whether I hear from you twice a day, or twice a month. Of course, if too long goes by, I will attempt to check up on you, but otherwise...I'll be here!
Things here are pretty good...forcing myself back to life! Spent the day yesterday riding the quad with hubby and friends (yes, I'm sore, and tired),
but finished the weekend strong with a badminton game in the front yard, and getting my sunflowers in the ground.
I have a yearly tradition to plant 50 giant (12-14ft) sunflowers in my front yard. The kids around here used to call me "big mama sunshine" and the older folks call me the "sunflower lady".
Actually, since we have no seasons here in San Diego, I make a point to decorate elaborately for the holidays, San Diego style. I make tumble weed snowmen, surfer Santa's, skeletons on the beach, weird stuff. This will be the first year in five years I will have my beautiful sunflowers again. All the neighbors have chipped in to make the other holiday scenes happen, but not plant the sunflowers. Oh, the simple joys of life... I pushed each seed into the warm ground, with a little wish that I will be called big mama sunshine again.
Janalee, the little (or big) milestones really count. My hubby is constantly reminding me of little things, and I will get slightly annoyed...and ask "why would you remind me of something so obvious"? He sweetly reminds me that last week/month/year/5 years ago...I would not have remembered.
The transition is slow, but the human spirit is resilient, and after stoke...kinda pissed, kinda frustrated, and pretty scared. But you already know that, and because of you.
Good night, and good week ahead!
janalee
03-17-2009, 11:36 AM
Thanks,
No pressure here. We all understand that life goes on, and computer problems-oh my ! :)
I've found the boards a neat part of my day, and I hit them about 5-6 days a week. Being home during the day gives me times where I can check in for while, and usually feel enlightened somehow,every time. There are times where my blood pressure or other health issues control my activities, and I am forced to be quiet, and focusing on others works well for me.
But for you, Janalee...you will always be on my list, and I will never remove from my subscribed threads, whether I hear from you twice a day, or twice a month. Of course, if too long goes by, I will attempt to check up on you, but otherwise...I'll be here!
Things here are pretty good...forcing myself back to life! Spent the day yesterday riding the quad with hubby and friends (yes, I'm sore, and tired),
but finished the weekend strong with a badminton game in the front yard, and getting my sunflowers in the ground.
I have a yearly tradition to plant 50 giant (12-14ft) sunflowers in my front yard. The kids around here used to call me "big mama sunshine" and the older folks call me the "sunflower lady".
Actually, since we have no seasons here in San Diego, I make a point to decorate elaborately for the holidays, San Diego style. I make tumble weed snowmen, surfer Santa's, skeletons on the beach, weird stuff. This will be the first year in five years I will have my beautiful sunflowers again. All the neighbors have chipped in to make the other holiday scenes happen, but not plant the sunflowers. Oh, the simple joys of life... I pushed each seed into the warm ground, with a little wish that I will be called big mama sunshine again.
Janalee, the little (or big) milestones really count. My hubby is constantly reminding me of little things, and I will get slightly annoyed...and ask "why would you remind me of something so obvious"? He sweetly reminds me that last week/month/year/5 years ago...I would not have remembered.
The transition is slow, but the human spirit is resilient, and after stoke...kinda pissed, kinda frustrated, and pretty scared. But you already know that, and because of you.
Good night, and good week ahead!
Hi there,
I am happy to hear that you are doing better. That is truly good news.....It sounds like you have a pretty amazing hubby to support you. I do as well and would be lost without him at this point.
Things have really been challenging these days. There is so much going on in terms of dealing with my Mom's stuff. We have to sell her place and take care of her belongings....and she is grieving that process. I wish I could pick her up and make it all go away...but that is not possible.
I really do hope that she continues to heal. She has so much confusion and it is terrible to watch her. My Mom has an anxiety disorder that she has managed her whole life. Since her stroke it has gone through the roof and at times I am so worried that she will stroke again.
We are not happy with where we have had her placed. There are some issues that do not seem to ever get resolved. The task of having her moved seems even more difficult than we had first thought.
I must sound like such doom and gloom....my apoligies....I am frustrated and really tired these days.
Once again thanks for keeping in touch and I hope you get out and enjoy the day and those sunflowers.......;)
No pressure here. We all understand that life goes on, and computer problems-oh my ! :)
I've found the boards a neat part of my day, and I hit them about 5-6 days a week. Being home during the day gives me times where I can check in for while, and usually feel enlightened somehow,every time. There are times where my blood pressure or other health issues control my activities, and I am forced to be quiet, and focusing on others works well for me.
But for you, Janalee...you will always be on my list, and I will never remove from my subscribed threads, whether I hear from you twice a day, or twice a month. Of course, if too long goes by, I will attempt to check up on you, but otherwise...I'll be here!
Things here are pretty good...forcing myself back to life! Spent the day yesterday riding the quad with hubby and friends (yes, I'm sore, and tired),
but finished the weekend strong with a badminton game in the front yard, and getting my sunflowers in the ground.
I have a yearly tradition to plant 50 giant (12-14ft) sunflowers in my front yard. The kids around here used to call me "big mama sunshine" and the older folks call me the "sunflower lady".
Actually, since we have no seasons here in San Diego, I make a point to decorate elaborately for the holidays, San Diego style. I make tumble weed snowmen, surfer Santa's, skeletons on the beach, weird stuff. This will be the first year in five years I will have my beautiful sunflowers again. All the neighbors have chipped in to make the other holiday scenes happen, but not plant the sunflowers. Oh, the simple joys of life... I pushed each seed into the warm ground, with a little wish that I will be called big mama sunshine again.
Janalee, the little (or big) milestones really count. My hubby is constantly reminding me of little things, and I will get slightly annoyed...and ask "why would you remind me of something so obvious"? He sweetly reminds me that last week/month/year/5 years ago...I would not have remembered.
The transition is slow, but the human spirit is resilient, and after stoke...kinda pissed, kinda frustrated, and pretty scared. But you already know that, and because of you.
Good night, and good week ahead!
Hi there,
I am happy to hear that you are doing better. That is truly good news.....It sounds like you have a pretty amazing hubby to support you. I do as well and would be lost without him at this point.
Things have really been challenging these days. There is so much going on in terms of dealing with my Mom's stuff. We have to sell her place and take care of her belongings....and she is grieving that process. I wish I could pick her up and make it all go away...but that is not possible.
I really do hope that she continues to heal. She has so much confusion and it is terrible to watch her. My Mom has an anxiety disorder that she has managed her whole life. Since her stroke it has gone through the roof and at times I am so worried that she will stroke again.
We are not happy with where we have had her placed. There are some issues that do not seem to ever get resolved. The task of having her moved seems even more difficult than we had first thought.
I must sound like such doom and gloom....my apoligies....I am frustrated and really tired these days.
Once again thanks for keeping in touch and I hope you get out and enjoy the day and those sunflowers.......;)
writeleft
03-17-2009, 05:08 PM
Oh Janalee, it really hurts to feel your pain through your words. Are you getting any help with your family members...I remember you said your sister and you had disagreements about earlier issues- have you come together on things yet, or do you think you will?
I wish I could just be there with you to hold your hand and whatever else I could do! I am overwhelmed at the thought of all that is on your shoulders. Is your mother on medication to help with the anxiety, I understand how devastating that can be...
I am so happy you have your loving and understanding man at your side, oh what a blessing!
I am learning things from you that I will be facing myself one day soon. My own father is 85 on the 22nd, and he appears to have luekemia...but insists on driving himself and my mother to Arkansas, to go fishing! I know there is nothing I can do to prepare, but I will remind myself of your strength and love towards your mother.
Janalee, take one day at a time...I know this is so overwhelming, and I am truly on your side. I will grow the biggest, strongest, most beautiful sunflower, and name her Janalee. I will give her lots of cool water, warm sunshine and watch her grow toward the sun. I promise.
I wish I could just be there with you to hold your hand and whatever else I could do! I am overwhelmed at the thought of all that is on your shoulders. Is your mother on medication to help with the anxiety, I understand how devastating that can be...
I am so happy you have your loving and understanding man at your side, oh what a blessing!
I am learning things from you that I will be facing myself one day soon. My own father is 85 on the 22nd, and he appears to have luekemia...but insists on driving himself and my mother to Arkansas, to go fishing! I know there is nothing I can do to prepare, but I will remind myself of your strength and love towards your mother.
Janalee, take one day at a time...I know this is so overwhelming, and I am truly on your side. I will grow the biggest, strongest, most beautiful sunflower, and name her Janalee. I will give her lots of cool water, warm sunshine and watch her grow toward the sun. I promise.
sumptersam
03-18-2009, 10:34 AM
Hi there,
Just wanted to let you know I am still around.....I have had some coputer issues and I am unable to check my messages at work. I hope you are doing well.
I'm still around too...:wave: I love the sunflowers idea! And you know what I used to love doing? I used to go up to Balboa Park and sit at the rose garden and think, I also used to go to La Jolla Cliffs and talk with the sea lions-sounds corny, but it works! I used to grab a cup of java and head to the cliffs when I got done at the VA and it did wonders for me!
I'll keep you in my prayers! :angel:
Just wanted to let you know I am still around.....I have had some coputer issues and I am unable to check my messages at work. I hope you are doing well.
I'm still around too...:wave: I love the sunflowers idea! And you know what I used to love doing? I used to go up to Balboa Park and sit at the rose garden and think, I also used to go to La Jolla Cliffs and talk with the sea lions-sounds corny, but it works! I used to grab a cup of java and head to the cliffs when I got done at the VA and it did wonders for me!
I'll keep you in my prayers! :angel:
janalee
03-18-2009, 11:21 AM
I'm still around too...:wave: I love the sunflowers idea! And you know what I used to love doing? I used to go up to Balboa Park and sit at the rose garden and think, I also used to go to La Jolla Cliffs and talk with the sea lions-sounds corny, but it works! I used to grab a cup of java and head to the cliffs when I got done at the VA and it did wonders for me!
I'll keep you in my prayers! :angel:
Thank you so much sumptersam,
I know things will get better. It seems that there just isn't enough time in the day to have my own thoughts.....it is true, a person needs time to just sit and be with themselves. You have been a great inspiration to me.
I'll keep you in my prayers! :angel:
Thank you so much sumptersam,
I know things will get better. It seems that there just isn't enough time in the day to have my own thoughts.....it is true, a person needs time to just sit and be with themselves. You have been a great inspiration to me.
janalee
03-18-2009, 11:28 AM
Oh Janalee, it really hurts to feel your pain through your words. Are you getting any help with your family members...I remember you said your sister and you had disagreements about earlier issues- have you come together on things yet, or do you think you will?
I wish I could just be there with you to hold your hand and whatever else I could do! I am overwhelmed at the thought of all that is on your shoulders. Is your mother on medication to help with the anxiety, I understand how devastating that can be...
I am so happy you have your loving and understanding man at your side, oh what a blessing!
I am learning things from you that I will be facing myself one day soon. My own father is 85 on the 22nd, and he appears to have luekemia...but insists on driving himself and my mother to Arkansas, to go fishing! I know there is nothing I can do to prepare, but I will remind myself of your strength and love towards your mother.
Janalee, take one day at a time...I know this is so overwhelming, and I am truly on your side. I will grow the biggest, strongest, most beautiful sunflower, and name her Janalee. I will give her lots of cool water, warm sunshine and watch her grow toward the sun. I promise.
You are so sweet...really you are. Some days just seem to be impossible to get past, but low and behold it passes.
As far as my sis and I we did go for dinner one night and talk. We both understand where the other is coming from....doesn't mean we still don't get annoyed with one another.....:). That is okay....it is stressful to deal with.
I am sorry to hear about your Dad's illness but at the same time....what a strong and amazing man. To still want to carry on with life.....fishing with your Mom is really something. I know it does not take away the worry for you but I hear that story and think WOW!!
This has really been a stroke of luck for me....to find two amazing people such as yourself and sumptersam. For me.....I needed the both of you.
I am honored that you would name a sunflower after me.....that put a huge smile on my face this morning.....I wish you a wonderful day.
Cheers
:angel:
I wish I could just be there with you to hold your hand and whatever else I could do! I am overwhelmed at the thought of all that is on your shoulders. Is your mother on medication to help with the anxiety, I understand how devastating that can be...
I am so happy you have your loving and understanding man at your side, oh what a blessing!
I am learning things from you that I will be facing myself one day soon. My own father is 85 on the 22nd, and he appears to have luekemia...but insists on driving himself and my mother to Arkansas, to go fishing! I know there is nothing I can do to prepare, but I will remind myself of your strength and love towards your mother.
Janalee, take one day at a time...I know this is so overwhelming, and I am truly on your side. I will grow the biggest, strongest, most beautiful sunflower, and name her Janalee. I will give her lots of cool water, warm sunshine and watch her grow toward the sun. I promise.
You are so sweet...really you are. Some days just seem to be impossible to get past, but low and behold it passes.
As far as my sis and I we did go for dinner one night and talk. We both understand where the other is coming from....doesn't mean we still don't get annoyed with one another.....:). That is okay....it is stressful to deal with.
I am sorry to hear about your Dad's illness but at the same time....what a strong and amazing man. To still want to carry on with life.....fishing with your Mom is really something. I know it does not take away the worry for you but I hear that story and think WOW!!
This has really been a stroke of luck for me....to find two amazing people such as yourself and sumptersam. For me.....I needed the both of you.
I am honored that you would name a sunflower after me.....that put a huge smile on my face this morning.....I wish you a wonderful day.
Cheers
:angel:
writeleft
03-19-2009, 10:39 AM
Excellant...just my intention!
janalee
03-19-2009, 11:14 AM
Excellant...just my intention!
:D....Well let me give you an update on my Mom. Yesterday my sister took my Mom to the dentist. This a person my Mom has been going to for some time and really likes. The office in which he practices out of has no elevator. Since my Mom's stroke she does not walk on her own she has a walker. My Mom also has scoleosis, a problem with her hip and anxiety beyond. Well my Mom walked up 22 stairs to see her dentist and when she got to the top she cried. Her dentist then came out to her and picked her up and carried her to the dental chair. I am so proud of my Mom and amazed by this man who is her dentist....I do believe there are angles walking among us......
Have a beautiful day!!
:D....Well let me give you an update on my Mom. Yesterday my sister took my Mom to the dentist. This a person my Mom has been going to for some time and really likes. The office in which he practices out of has no elevator. Since my Mom's stroke she does not walk on her own she has a walker. My Mom also has scoleosis, a problem with her hip and anxiety beyond. Well my Mom walked up 22 stairs to see her dentist and when she got to the top she cried. Her dentist then came out to her and picked her up and carried her to the dental chair. I am so proud of my Mom and amazed by this man who is her dentist....I do believe there are angles walking among us......
Have a beautiful day!!
writeleft
03-19-2009, 11:46 PM
Wow...another of those little moments we have spoken about before. The dentist is a prince, and your mother is a brave, strong woman in spirit. You are the angel.
sumptersam
03-20-2009, 11:11 AM
:D....Well let me give you an update on my Mom. Yesterday my sister took my Mom to the dentist. This a person my Mom has been going to for some time and really likes. The office in which he practices out of has no elevator. Since my Mom's stroke she does not walk on her own she has a walker. My Mom also has scoleosis, a problem with her hip and anxiety beyond. Well my Mom walked up 22 stairs to see her dentist and when she got to the top she cried. Her dentist then came out to her and picked her up and carried her to the dental chair. I am so proud of my Mom and amazed by this man who is her dentist....I do believe there are angles walking among us......
Have a beautiful day!!
kudos to your mom and your dentist...what a guy! Sometimes, we can do a whole lot more than we think we can...I have been learning that. You should be very proud of your mom....! :wave:
Have a beautiful day!!
kudos to your mom and your dentist...what a guy! Sometimes, we can do a whole lot more than we think we can...I have been learning that. You should be very proud of your mom....! :wave:
writeleft
03-24-2009, 07:16 PM
Hello Friends,
My own dear mother has had a few bouts with "head pain", the latest one started Friday, and she just came from her neurologist. He feels that these pains in her head (originally diagnosed as "small vessel disease"), could actually be warnings of a stroke!.
I am just sick with anxiety, and fear for my mother. When my mother told me, she tried to candy coat it for me, and make it sound like no big deal. My father called me later to make sure I knew the real story, as my mother always feels she must protect us from any bad news, particularly about her.
Oh, I am glad to have you two here right now. I am terrified of the possibilities. My mother is almost 80, my father just turned 84. I love them both so much.
My own dear mother has had a few bouts with "head pain", the latest one started Friday, and she just came from her neurologist. He feels that these pains in her head (originally diagnosed as "small vessel disease"), could actually be warnings of a stroke!.
I am just sick with anxiety, and fear for my mother. When my mother told me, she tried to candy coat it for me, and make it sound like no big deal. My father called me later to make sure I knew the real story, as my mother always feels she must protect us from any bad news, particularly about her.
Oh, I am glad to have you two here right now. I am terrified of the possibilities. My mother is almost 80, my father just turned 84. I love them both so much.
sumptersam
03-25-2009, 10:57 AM
Hello Friends,
My own dear mother has had a few bouts with "head pain", the latest one started Friday, and she just came from her neurologist. He feels that these pains in her head (originally diagnosed as "small vessel disease"), could actually be warnings of a stroke!.
I am just sick with anxiety, and fear for my mother. When my mother told me, she tried to candy coat it for me, and make it sound like no big deal. My father called me later to make sure I knew the real story, as my mother always feels she must protect us from any bad news, particularly about her.
Oh, I am glad to have you two here right now. I am terrified of the possibilities. My mother is almost 80, my father just turned 84. I love them both so much.
I feel for you but you have to give up to God...what will happen will....I'm not saying that you should ignore your mother's pain....but don't give into fear or worry or anxiety....just do what you can do....and thats all you can do! I will pray for your mother.....:wave:
My own dear mother has had a few bouts with "head pain", the latest one started Friday, and she just came from her neurologist. He feels that these pains in her head (originally diagnosed as "small vessel disease"), could actually be warnings of a stroke!.
I am just sick with anxiety, and fear for my mother. When my mother told me, she tried to candy coat it for me, and make it sound like no big deal. My father called me later to make sure I knew the real story, as my mother always feels she must protect us from any bad news, particularly about her.
Oh, I am glad to have you two here right now. I am terrified of the possibilities. My mother is almost 80, my father just turned 84. I love them both so much.
I feel for you but you have to give up to God...what will happen will....I'm not saying that you should ignore your mother's pain....but don't give into fear or worry or anxiety....just do what you can do....and thats all you can do! I will pray for your mother.....:wave:
janalee
03-25-2009, 03:19 PM
I feel for you but you have to give up to God...what will happen will....I'm not saying that you should ignore your mother's pain....but don't give into fear or worry or anxiety....just do what you can do....and thats all you can do! I will pray for your mother.....:wave:
I agree with sumptersam.......You are amazing and strong and you will make it through....you have given me so much strength through these boards.....I will also keep you and your mother in my thoughts.......:angel:
I agree with sumptersam.......You are amazing and strong and you will make it through....you have given me so much strength through these boards.....I will also keep you and your mother in my thoughts.......:angel:
sumptersam
03-26-2009, 11:49 AM
Hello Friends,
My own dear mother has had a few bouts with "head pain", the latest one started Friday, and she just came from her neurologist. He feels that these pains in her head (originally diagnosed as "small vessel disease"), could actually be warnings of a stroke!.
I am just sick with anxiety, and fear for my mother. When my mother told me, she tried to candy coat it for me, and make it sound like no big deal. My father called me later to make sure I knew the real story, as my mother always feels she must protect us from any bad news, particularly about her.
Oh, I am glad to have you two here right now. I am terrified of the possibilities. My mother is almost 80, my father just turned 84. I love them both so much.
God has blessed your mother with a good daughter in you! Remember that when you things are difficult for you.....:wave:
My own dear mother has had a few bouts with "head pain", the latest one started Friday, and she just came from her neurologist. He feels that these pains in her head (originally diagnosed as "small vessel disease"), could actually be warnings of a stroke!.
I am just sick with anxiety, and fear for my mother. When my mother told me, she tried to candy coat it for me, and make it sound like no big deal. My father called me later to make sure I knew the real story, as my mother always feels she must protect us from any bad news, particularly about her.
Oh, I am glad to have you two here right now. I am terrified of the possibilities. My mother is almost 80, my father just turned 84. I love them both so much.
God has blessed your mother with a good daughter in you! Remember that when you things are difficult for you.....:wave:
writeleft
03-27-2009, 01:47 AM
Thank you so much....I have to admit, it seems much easier to dole out suggestions and advice, than to imagine seeking them, in a moment of fear and panic.
We will simply give her all the more care, and attention. Her doctor's are top notched, and she has my dad there. I am a minute away...so you are right!
We will simply give her all the more care, and attention. Her doctor's are top notched, and she has my dad there. I am a minute away...so you are right!
janalee
03-30-2009, 11:24 AM
Thank you so much....I have to admit, it seems much easier to dole out suggestions and advice, than to imagine seeking them, in a moment of fear and panic.
We will simply give her all the more care, and attention. Her doctor's are top notched, and she has my dad there. I am a minute away...so you are right!
Hi there, I feel like I have not conected with you for so long. In your last post you sounded like things were a bit better in the sense of your Mom's care. I am hoping that is still the case.
I had forgottend my password and have been somewhat consumed with my Mom as well right now. We are hoping to have her moved...hopefully that can happen. She still has so much confusion and I am not to sure if she will ever have a clear mind again. I am trying to start to focus on myself....I have been running like a mad women and I need to take a bit of time for myself.
Anyhow I hope all is well and look forward to hearing from you soon.
We will simply give her all the more care, and attention. Her doctor's are top notched, and she has my dad there. I am a minute away...so you are right!
Hi there, I feel like I have not conected with you for so long. In your last post you sounded like things were a bit better in the sense of your Mom's care. I am hoping that is still the case.
I had forgottend my password and have been somewhat consumed with my Mom as well right now. We are hoping to have her moved...hopefully that can happen. She still has so much confusion and I am not to sure if she will ever have a clear mind again. I am trying to start to focus on myself....I have been running like a mad women and I need to take a bit of time for myself.
Anyhow I hope all is well and look forward to hearing from you soon.
writeleft
03-30-2009, 05:43 PM
Janalee,
Hi. I got to get out for a few days myself, went camping in the desert. Today we are starting a remodel of my son's bathroom-the demo phase.
My mom is hanging in there, and my dad is watching her like a hawk.
I am so sorry to hear that your mother is so confused, and I hope you can find the right place for her...I can't imagine what must be going through your mind, as you have been struggling so hard with this...24/7 for months and months now. I have seen many posts to and from caregivers, that all stress the need to be able to step back, and breathe...and focus time on yourself. That must be much easier said, than done.
If you are ever too busy to post...by all means, take a break! I will be here, (with the exception of lucky weekends, when we love to get out and ride our quads).
You and your mother are always in my prayers, oh...the sunflowers have popped through!
Hi. I got to get out for a few days myself, went camping in the desert. Today we are starting a remodel of my son's bathroom-the demo phase.
My mom is hanging in there, and my dad is watching her like a hawk.
I am so sorry to hear that your mother is so confused, and I hope you can find the right place for her...I can't imagine what must be going through your mind, as you have been struggling so hard with this...24/7 for months and months now. I have seen many posts to and from caregivers, that all stress the need to be able to step back, and breathe...and focus time on yourself. That must be much easier said, than done.
If you are ever too busy to post...by all means, take a break! I will be here, (with the exception of lucky weekends, when we love to get out and ride our quads).
You and your mother are always in my prayers, oh...the sunflowers have popped through!
janalee
04-02-2009, 04:13 PM
Janalee,
Hi there,
Just checking in with you.......I hope you are doing well and getting ready to ride your quad for the weekend......
Hi. I got to get out for a few days myself, went camping in the desert. Today we are starting a remodel of my son's bathroom-the demo phase.
My mom is hanging in there, and my dad is watching her like a hawk.
I am so sorry to hear that your mother is so confused, and I hope you can find the right place for her...I can't imagine what must be going through your mind, as you have been struggling so hard with this...24/7 for months and months now. I have seen many posts to and from caregivers, that all stress the need to be able to step back, and breathe...and focus time on yourself. That must be much easier said, than done.
If you are ever too busy to post...by all means, take a break! I will be here, (with the exception of lucky weekends, when we love to get out and ride our quads).
You and your mother are always in my prayers, oh...the sunflowers have popped through!
Hi there,
Just checking in with you.......I hope you are doing well and getting ready to ride your quad for the weekend......
Hi. I got to get out for a few days myself, went camping in the desert. Today we are starting a remodel of my son's bathroom-the demo phase.
My mom is hanging in there, and my dad is watching her like a hawk.
I am so sorry to hear that your mother is so confused, and I hope you can find the right place for her...I can't imagine what must be going through your mind, as you have been struggling so hard with this...24/7 for months and months now. I have seen many posts to and from caregivers, that all stress the need to be able to step back, and breathe...and focus time on yourself. That must be much easier said, than done.
If you are ever too busy to post...by all means, take a break! I will be here, (with the exception of lucky weekends, when we love to get out and ride our quads).
You and your mother are always in my prayers, oh...the sunflowers have popped through!
writeleft
04-08-2009, 08:42 PM
Report on sunflowers...sprouted successfully...33 giant sunflowers surrounding two palm trees-coming soon!
I hope you are well, and love to your mother
Janet
I hope you are well, and love to your mother
Janet
janalee
04-09-2009, 11:17 AM
Report on sunflowers...sprouted successfully...33 giant sunflowers surrounding two palm trees-coming soon!
I hope you are well, and love to your mother
Janet
Ohhh I bet they are absolutely stunning. I am doing okay, it has been a bumpy couple of weeks. I still go to see my Mom ever day and we now have her name on list for another facility. The Health Care for seniors here is disgusting to be honest with you. The government is cutting back on staffing and so forth. I just don't get it......the facilities do not have enough staff.
Anyhow I was most happy to see a message from you today. I wish you a wonderful day:wave:
I hope you are well, and love to your mother
Janet
Ohhh I bet they are absolutely stunning. I am doing okay, it has been a bumpy couple of weeks. I still go to see my Mom ever day and we now have her name on list for another facility. The Health Care for seniors here is disgusting to be honest with you. The government is cutting back on staffing and so forth. I just don't get it......the facilities do not have enough staff.
Anyhow I was most happy to see a message from you today. I wish you a wonderful day:wave:
writeleft
04-11-2009, 11:04 PM
Janalee,
I have been having some medical issues that have kept me off the computer. I amstill thinking about you though...See ya later!
I have been having some medical issues that have kept me off the computer. I amstill thinking about you though...See ya later!
sumptersam
04-12-2009, 11:10 AM
Happy Easter! Have a great day! Jesus is alive!
writeleft
04-12-2009, 05:36 PM
Happy Easter right back, Sumptersam! I wish all the best for everyone, as we jump into Spring...a period of growth, and new life.
janalee
04-13-2009, 01:24 PM
Janalee,
I have been having some medical issues that have kept me off the computer. I amstill thinking about you though...See ya later!
I hope you are feeling better. I have a question for you.....
My Mom is laying down all the time. She is always saying she is very tired and needing to lay down. I am wondering if you experienced the same thing after your stroke. There is a part of me that believes that is part of recovery from a stroke....and then the other part is "concern". I am not sure if I should be pushing her to move more or not.
Did you read the book "My stroke of insight"? My understanding it is a very good book. I guess I could get some answers there.
I have been having some medical issues that have kept me off the computer. I amstill thinking about you though...See ya later!
I hope you are feeling better. I have a question for you.....
My Mom is laying down all the time. She is always saying she is very tired and needing to lay down. I am wondering if you experienced the same thing after your stroke. There is a part of me that believes that is part of recovery from a stroke....and then the other part is "concern". I am not sure if I should be pushing her to move more or not.
Did you read the book "My stroke of insight"? My understanding it is a very good book. I guess I could get some answers there.
sumptersam
04-13-2009, 02:46 PM
Happy Easter right back, Sumptersam! I wish all the best for everyone, as we jump into Spring...a period of growth, and new life.
I am so excited I can hardly wait until I can take walks through the State Park, work out in the yard, etc. I am determined to be smart while not letting this stroke get the best of me. I think I want to go out almost as bad as our cats do! :wave:
I am so excited I can hardly wait until I can take walks through the State Park, work out in the yard, etc. I am determined to be smart while not letting this stroke get the best of me. I think I want to go out almost as bad as our cats do! :wave:
sumptersam
04-13-2009, 02:51 PM
I hope you are feeling better. I have a question for you.....
My Mom is laying down all the time. She is always saying she is very tired and needing to lay down. I am wondering if you experienced the same thing after your stroke. There is a part of me that believes that is part of recovery from a stroke....and then the other part is "concern". I am not sure if I should be pushing her to move more or not.
Did you read the book "My stroke of insight"? My understanding it is a very good book. I guess I could get some answers there.
I still have to fight the urge to sleep a lot....I sleep 8 hrs a night which I never did before the stroke and I have to keep myself busy because as soon as I sit down to read or watch a movie, I fall asleep-if I didn't snore, I could get away with it more! Dr told me it's natural for my body to want to sleep while I am healing-something she says will take up to a year....so I just take a nap when I can't help the sleepy urge...Dr says it's not good to fight the urge...and I try not to wake up by the alarm either....:wave:
My Mom is laying down all the time. She is always saying she is very tired and needing to lay down. I am wondering if you experienced the same thing after your stroke. There is a part of me that believes that is part of recovery from a stroke....and then the other part is "concern". I am not sure if I should be pushing her to move more or not.
Did you read the book "My stroke of insight"? My understanding it is a very good book. I guess I could get some answers there.
I still have to fight the urge to sleep a lot....I sleep 8 hrs a night which I never did before the stroke and I have to keep myself busy because as soon as I sit down to read or watch a movie, I fall asleep-if I didn't snore, I could get away with it more! Dr told me it's natural for my body to want to sleep while I am healing-something she says will take up to a year....so I just take a nap when I can't help the sleepy urge...Dr says it's not good to fight the urge...and I try not to wake up by the alarm either....:wave:
writeleft
04-14-2009, 01:55 AM
My sleeping habits have changed dramatically since my stroke. I attribute a part of it to the medications, but more to the need to heal your brain, which never turns off, but is much less drained when not having to think consciously, perform physical activities, talk, interact with stimuli of all sorts, etc.
I honestly sleep from about 10pm till 10am every night, and don't really get out into the world till early afternoon many times. On the weekdays, I rise at 6:30 am to get my son to school, but then go right home and go back to sleep a few hours more. I can only take about 6 hours of straight activity on any given day.
Nightlife is out for me. When the sun starts going down, I want to be home, in my jammies. It has been a weird transition, and I wish I could have more vitality, but I have what I have, and fighting it is futile.
I am so sorry you are so concerned Janalee, I really feel for you...but from my experience, when your body needs to sleep, it should sleep. For the first few years I slept, and I as I awakened, healing had been accomplished.
You are in my prayers, and in my heart.
I honestly sleep from about 10pm till 10am every night, and don't really get out into the world till early afternoon many times. On the weekdays, I rise at 6:30 am to get my son to school, but then go right home and go back to sleep a few hours more. I can only take about 6 hours of straight activity on any given day.
Nightlife is out for me. When the sun starts going down, I want to be home, in my jammies. It has been a weird transition, and I wish I could have more vitality, but I have what I have, and fighting it is futile.
I am so sorry you are so concerned Janalee, I really feel for you...but from my experience, when your body needs to sleep, it should sleep. For the first few years I slept, and I as I awakened, healing had been accomplished.
You are in my prayers, and in my heart.
janalee
04-14-2009, 11:26 AM
I still have to fight the urge to sleep a lot....I sleep 8 hrs a night which I never did before the stroke and I have to keep myself busy because as soon as I sit down to read or watch a movie, I fall asleep-if I didn't snore, I could get away with it more! Dr told me it's natural for my body to want to sleep while I am healing-something she says will take up to a year....so I just take a nap when I can't help the sleepy urge...Dr says it's not good to fight the urge...and I try not to wake up by the alarm either....:wave: