typeing
03-09-2009, 04:45 PM
If all goes as planned i have my first appointment with a psychiatrist next friday. Here lately i have had some severe anger/depression issues, and it is making it hard for me to get along with my family and friends, the simplest things absolutely piss me off, and send me into a downward spiral, and i there have been other issues regarding the dogs in the house.... Because of all this i am not sleeping worth crap, and that is making things much worse. But, i decided that i need to go see a psych, because i am tired of feeling like shit every day, and not wanting to get out of bed. I know i should be concentrating on college, and bettering my education, but i have gotten to a point where i just don't give a crap. Any advice on the first psych visit? I am terrified, and kinda feel stupid. Thanks.
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dreams in neon
03-09-2009, 05:35 PM
Congrats on taking the first step to see a pdoc, typeing! I would suggest that you write down all of your symptoms and when they occur. This will help your pdoc identify patterns in your behavior in order to reach a diagnosis. I would also write out a list of questions that you have for the pdoc about any concerns you have, what your appointments would entail and what their thoughts are regarding meds. If you don't feel comfortable with your pdoc on the first visit, find another. It's important for you to have a good relationship with your pdoc so that he or she can help you feel better. Have you thought about seeing a therapist? A therapist could help you work on anger management techniques as well as coping mechanisms to deal with your depression. Good luck next week! I hope you'll report back and let us know how it goes!
typeing
03-09-2009, 05:39 PM
Thank you a ton for the advice, will do. For the past week i have been keeping a journal that i plan to show him. Only two things can stand in my way now. 1. huge deductible *fingers crossed on that one*. 2. me being afraid to tell someone like that... That is the reason i don't want to go to therapy, and is the reason i put off going to a psychiatrist for so long. I am exited about feeling better, but am oober nervous, especially since i'm not even sure i can pronounce the dr.s name.
dreams in neon
03-09-2009, 07:39 PM
Being nervous is understandable, but believe me, what you tell the pdoc won't be anything new that they haven't heard before. I think writing a journal was a great idea and think it would be very helpful if you showed it to him or her. This is what I do when I see my tdoc (therapist). He looks at my journal and tells me if he notices certain patterns in my rapid cycling as well as any triggers I may need to watch out for that may cause cycling.
typeing
03-09-2009, 09:02 PM
Thank you a ton. I really appreciate the advice and support!
typeing
03-09-2009, 11:35 PM
By the way, is being depressed a reasonable excuse to miss 3 college classes, and 2 tests? Because i'm seriously considering skipping tomorrow, and staying asleep.
dreams in neon
03-10-2009, 12:18 AM
By the way, is being depressed a reasonable excuse to miss 3 college classes, and 2 tests? Because i'm seriously considering skipping tomorrow, and staying asleep.
Well, this has happened to me before. Once your pdoc puts you on an anti-depressant (if they deem this necessary), you should start to feel better.
Well, this has happened to me before. Once your pdoc puts you on an anti-depressant (if they deem this necessary), you should start to feel better.
jsfai
03-10-2009, 05:46 AM
Hi typeing,
Congratulations on taking this step. It is so brave and positive, it shows that you are fighting your condition and trying to care for yourself.
I made the decision to seek help two years ago, my doctor sent my to a psychiatrist and I was terrified and felt like a complete looser. But as it has turned out it has been the toughest, challenging and the BEST thing that I have ever done for myself.
Dont expect instant results, give it time to build up a rapport with your psych and work through things slowely. It will be worth it. But the most important thing is that you must trust your psych and that means surrendering a little, go for it...
Good luck
J
Congratulations on taking this step. It is so brave and positive, it shows that you are fighting your condition and trying to care for yourself.
I made the decision to seek help two years ago, my doctor sent my to a psychiatrist and I was terrified and felt like a complete looser. But as it has turned out it has been the toughest, challenging and the BEST thing that I have ever done for myself.
Dont expect instant results, give it time to build up a rapport with your psych and work through things slowely. It will be worth it. But the most important thing is that you must trust your psych and that means surrendering a little, go for it...
Good luck
J
typeing
03-10-2009, 08:20 AM
Thanks yall for the support. My appointment is next friday, and i am still really nervous, but if he can make me feel better and maybe help me get more sleep, *eye roll* I'm going for it, I am still really nervous that he is going to laugh at me, the last time i went it was kind of against my will... but, i was told that certain feelings i had were *childish* ohh well.
dreams in neon
03-10-2009, 11:05 AM
typeing,
I can assure you that you won't be laughed at. Being depressed, angry and having trouble sleeping are typical signs of depression. Given how many people have depression, this isn't something pdocs haven't heard before. I wouldn't worry. Do you plan on going to school today?
I can assure you that you won't be laughed at. Being depressed, angry and having trouble sleeping are typical signs of depression. Given how many people have depression, this isn't something pdocs haven't heard before. I wouldn't worry. Do you plan on going to school today?
typeing
03-10-2009, 04:43 PM
Thanks Dreams,
I really appreciate your help and support. I did go to school today, though, i will admit, it was hard, for some reason, during class, especially when one teacher is talking to me about my performance in acting i have this almost uncontrollable urge to tell her to shut up, sign something ugly at her, and walk out... but, this is happening at home as well here lately... The only thing really pulling me through is the knowledge that i have one more day of classes before spring break starts. Thank y
I really appreciate your help and support. I did go to school today, though, i will admit, it was hard, for some reason, during class, especially when one teacher is talking to me about my performance in acting i have this almost uncontrollable urge to tell her to shut up, sign something ugly at her, and walk out... but, this is happening at home as well here lately... The only thing really pulling me through is the knowledge that i have one more day of classes before spring break starts. Thank y
dreams in neon
03-10-2009, 07:41 PM
Thanks Dreams,
I really appreciate your help and support. I did go to school today, though, i will admit, it was hard, for some reason, during class, especially when one teacher is talking to me about my performance in acting i have this almost uncontrollable urge to tell her to shut up, sign something ugly at her, and walk out... but, this is happening at home as well here lately... The only thing really pulling me through is the knowledge that i have one more day of classes before spring break starts. Thank y
I know it's easier said than done, but try to hang in there. You can do it! I know how you feel though because last semester I really struggled to attend class on a regular basis due to auditory hallucinations, delusions, mania, depression and racing thoughts. Since I couldn't get my rapid cycling and mania under control, my social work advisor, pdoc and tdoc all recommended that I take the semester off so that I could address my bipolar. My pdoc recently added a new med to my cocktail (Clonazepam) to help my rapid cycling and so far, it's working very, very well. If things continue as well as they have been, I plan to resume classes in the fall. I only have 2 more courses to take before graduating with a Bachelor's in social work. Again, try to hang in there, typeing. I'm rooting for you and am always here whenever you need to talk. Hugs!
I really appreciate your help and support. I did go to school today, though, i will admit, it was hard, for some reason, during class, especially when one teacher is talking to me about my performance in acting i have this almost uncontrollable urge to tell her to shut up, sign something ugly at her, and walk out... but, this is happening at home as well here lately... The only thing really pulling me through is the knowledge that i have one more day of classes before spring break starts. Thank y
I know it's easier said than done, but try to hang in there. You can do it! I know how you feel though because last semester I really struggled to attend class on a regular basis due to auditory hallucinations, delusions, mania, depression and racing thoughts. Since I couldn't get my rapid cycling and mania under control, my social work advisor, pdoc and tdoc all recommended that I take the semester off so that I could address my bipolar. My pdoc recently added a new med to my cocktail (Clonazepam) to help my rapid cycling and so far, it's working very, very well. If things continue as well as they have been, I plan to resume classes in the fall. I only have 2 more courses to take before graduating with a Bachelor's in social work. Again, try to hang in there, typeing. I'm rooting for you and am always here whenever you need to talk. Hugs!
typeing
03-10-2009, 07:56 PM
Thanks Dreams,
I really appreciate your support more than you know, and i know that compared to you, and some of the other people on this board i have absolutely nothing to complain about, and i'm sorry about all my complaining... but, things are very overwhelming, Dreams, i don't know how you deal with all the stuff you deal with, and i give you major props, i wish that appointment was this friday, but ohh well, we can't have everything we want. Thank you for the support Dreams. I wish you lived down close to where i do! That would be awesome. If i didn't have a test thursday i would say screw it, and take an extra long spring break, because i am just too drained, i went and took a math test today, and got a 73, not because i didn't study, but because of some other things, and i kind of just don't care anymore. Thank you a ton Dreams.
I know it's easier said than done, but try to hang in there. You can do it! I know how you feel though because last semester I really struggled to attend class on a regular basis due to auditory hallucinations, delusions, mania, depression and racing thoughts. Since I couldn't get my rapid cycling and mania under control, my social work advisor, pdoc and tdoc all recommended that I take the semester off so that I could address my bipolar. My pdoc recently added a new med to my cocktail (Clonazepam) to help my rapid cycling and so far, it's working very, very well. If things continue as well as they have been, I plan to resume classes in the fall. I only have 2 more courses to take before graduating with a Bachelor's in social work. Again, try to hang in there, typeing. I'm rooting for you and am always here whenever you need to talk. Hugs!
I really appreciate your support more than you know, and i know that compared to you, and some of the other people on this board i have absolutely nothing to complain about, and i'm sorry about all my complaining... but, things are very overwhelming, Dreams, i don't know how you deal with all the stuff you deal with, and i give you major props, i wish that appointment was this friday, but ohh well, we can't have everything we want. Thank you for the support Dreams. I wish you lived down close to where i do! That would be awesome. If i didn't have a test thursday i would say screw it, and take an extra long spring break, because i am just too drained, i went and took a math test today, and got a 73, not because i didn't study, but because of some other things, and i kind of just don't care anymore. Thank you a ton Dreams.
I know it's easier said than done, but try to hang in there. You can do it! I know how you feel though because last semester I really struggled to attend class on a regular basis due to auditory hallucinations, delusions, mania, depression and racing thoughts. Since I couldn't get my rapid cycling and mania under control, my social work advisor, pdoc and tdoc all recommended that I take the semester off so that I could address my bipolar. My pdoc recently added a new med to my cocktail (Clonazepam) to help my rapid cycling and so far, it's working very, very well. If things continue as well as they have been, I plan to resume classes in the fall. I only have 2 more courses to take before graduating with a Bachelor's in social work. Again, try to hang in there, typeing. I'm rooting for you and am always here whenever you need to talk. Hugs!
jsfai
03-10-2009, 09:26 PM
Thanks yall for the support. My appointment is next friday, and i am still really nervous, but if he can make me feel better and maybe help me get more sleep, *eye roll* I'm going for it, I am still really nervous that he is going to laugh at me, the last time i went it was kind of against my will... but, i was told that certain feelings i had were *childish* ohh well.
Nothing is childish and whoever told you that was out of line. All feelings are relevant and important. He wont laugh at you. If he does (and he wont) then he is unprofessional and the wrong doctor for you..
Good luck
J
Nothing is childish and whoever told you that was out of line. All feelings are relevant and important. He wont laugh at you. If he does (and he wont) then he is unprofessional and the wrong doctor for you..
Good luck
J
dreams in neon
03-10-2009, 10:07 PM
typeing,
You have every right to complain, so please do not apologize. We all have something to deal with. I may have alot to deal with in terms of my bipolar and other disabilities, but I try to take things one day at a time. If I can't do that, I take things hour by hour and if that isn't possible, minute by minute. Speaking of studying, I didn't have the motivation or attention span to study due to my bipolar which is very unlike me. Before I had bipolar, I was very studious and I always completed my assignments well in advance of their due date. I also love to write, but when I'm depressed or having racing thoughts, it's impossible. When you see the pdoc next Friday, be sure to let them know about everything you're dealing with emotionally in addition to your depression and anger. Perhaps they can give you something to take as needed for agitation. My pdoc gave me Clonazepam and it works quite well. I'd also like to remind you that if the pdoc does put you on meds, they may take some time to work. If you find that they don't help, let the pdoc know and be patient because it can take time before you find the right med combo that works.
You have every right to complain, so please do not apologize. We all have something to deal with. I may have alot to deal with in terms of my bipolar and other disabilities, but I try to take things one day at a time. If I can't do that, I take things hour by hour and if that isn't possible, minute by minute. Speaking of studying, I didn't have the motivation or attention span to study due to my bipolar which is very unlike me. Before I had bipolar, I was very studious and I always completed my assignments well in advance of their due date. I also love to write, but when I'm depressed or having racing thoughts, it's impossible. When you see the pdoc next Friday, be sure to let them know about everything you're dealing with emotionally in addition to your depression and anger. Perhaps they can give you something to take as needed for agitation. My pdoc gave me Clonazepam and it works quite well. I'd also like to remind you that if the pdoc does put you on meds, they may take some time to work. If you find that they don't help, let the pdoc know and be patient because it can take time before you find the right med combo that works.
typeing
03-11-2009, 10:00 AM
Nothing is childish and whoever told you that was out of line. All feelings are relevant and important. He wont laugh at you. If he does (and he wont) then he is unprofessional and the wrong doctor for you..
Good luck
J
Thanks, i think so too.
Good luck
J
Thanks, i think so too.
typeing
03-11-2009, 01:03 PM
typeing,
You have every right to complain, so please do not apologize. We all have something to deal with. I may have alot to deal with in terms of my bipolar and other disabilities, but I try to take things one day at a time. If I can't do that, I take things hour by hour and if that isn't possible, minute by minute. Speaking of studying, I didn't have the motivation or attention span to study due to my bipolar which is very unlike me. Before I had bipolar, I was very studious and I always completed my assignments well in advance of their due date. I also love to write, but when I'm depressed or having racing thoughts, it's impossible. When you see the pdoc next Friday, be sure to let them know about everything you're dealing with emotionally in addition to your depression and anger. Perhaps they can give you something to take as needed for agitation. My pdoc gave me Clonazepam and it works quite well. I'd also like to remind you that if the pdoc does put you on meds, they may take some time to work. If you find that they don't help, let the pdoc know and be patient because it can take time before you find the right med combo that works.
Sorry dreams for taking so long to respond, i woke up this morning, and felt like crap, emotionally and physically, but ohh well. I know what you mean about being studious before, last semester i studied really hard, i got a's and b's in my classes. I don't forsee it being the same this year, because i don't really care... I hope something happens next friday to turn all this around, but we shall see. Thank you very much for the support!
You have every right to complain, so please do not apologize. We all have something to deal with. I may have alot to deal with in terms of my bipolar and other disabilities, but I try to take things one day at a time. If I can't do that, I take things hour by hour and if that isn't possible, minute by minute. Speaking of studying, I didn't have the motivation or attention span to study due to my bipolar which is very unlike me. Before I had bipolar, I was very studious and I always completed my assignments well in advance of their due date. I also love to write, but when I'm depressed or having racing thoughts, it's impossible. When you see the pdoc next Friday, be sure to let them know about everything you're dealing with emotionally in addition to your depression and anger. Perhaps they can give you something to take as needed for agitation. My pdoc gave me Clonazepam and it works quite well. I'd also like to remind you that if the pdoc does put you on meds, they may take some time to work. If you find that they don't help, let the pdoc know and be patient because it can take time before you find the right med combo that works.
Sorry dreams for taking so long to respond, i woke up this morning, and felt like crap, emotionally and physically, but ohh well. I know what you mean about being studious before, last semester i studied really hard, i got a's and b's in my classes. I don't forsee it being the same this year, because i don't really care... I hope something happens next friday to turn all this around, but we shall see. Thank you very much for the support!
dreams in neon
03-11-2009, 01:10 PM
Sorry dreams for taking so long to respond, i woke up this morning, and felt like crap, emotionally and physically, but ohh well. I know what you mean about being studious before, last semester i studied really hard, i got a's and b's in my classes. I don't forsee it being the same this year, because i don't really care... I hope something happens next friday to turn all this around, but we shall see. Thank you very much for the support!
You're more than welcome! I would mention your difficulties with school to the pdoc as well. Perhaps they can share some techniques you can use to help maintain your focus. By the way, I'm sorry you're feeling depressed today. I know how you feel because I was depressed yesterday as well as over the weekend. Hang in there!
You're more than welcome! I would mention your difficulties with school to the pdoc as well. Perhaps they can share some techniques you can use to help maintain your focus. By the way, I'm sorry you're feeling depressed today. I know how you feel because I was depressed yesterday as well as over the weekend. Hang in there!
typeing
03-11-2009, 01:40 PM
You're more than welcome! I would mention your difficulties with school to the pdoc as well. Perhaps they can share some techniques you can use to help maintain your focus. By the way, I'm sorry you're feeling depressed today. I know how you feel because I was depressed yesterday as well as over the weekend. Hang in there!
Thanks Dreams, <<hugs>> I'm starting to get halfway exited about this appointment, I'm looking forward to feeling "good", at least tomorrow at 2 spring break starts, and i don't have to give a care about school.
Thanks Dreams, <<hugs>> I'm starting to get halfway exited about this appointment, I'm looking forward to feeling "good", at least tomorrow at 2 spring break starts, and i don't have to give a care about school.
dreams in neon
03-11-2009, 02:31 PM
Thanks Dreams, <<hugs>> I'm starting to get halfway exited about this appointment, I'm looking forward to feeling "good", at least tomorrow at 2 spring break starts, and i don't have to give a care about school.
<hugs> That's great! I always looked forward to spring break. How long are you off before classes resume? By the way, I would continue writing a journal for the pdoc between now and next Friday so they can get an idea of your mood swings as well as any triggers that may be responsible for them.
<hugs> That's great! I always looked forward to spring break. How long are you off before classes resume? By the way, I would continue writing a journal for the pdoc between now and next Friday so they can get an idea of your mood swings as well as any triggers that may be responsible for them.
typeing
03-11-2009, 02:42 PM
<hugs> That's great! I always looked forward to spring break. How long are you off before classes resume? By the way, I would continue writing a journal for the pdoc between now and next Friday so they can get an idea of your mood swings as well as any triggers that may be responsible for them.
I am off from tomorrow at 2, till Tuesday the 24th. I plan on writing a journal, i am so glad to have a week off. *sigh* because though this semester is only 9 credit hours, spring break is just a big sigh of relief.
I am off from tomorrow at 2, till Tuesday the 24th. I plan on writing a journal, i am so glad to have a week off. *sigh* because though this semester is only 9 credit hours, spring break is just a big sigh of relief.
typeing
03-13-2009, 11:21 AM
Dreams,
Thanks for your advice about the journal, i knew it would be good for the pdoc, but i never realized how much i would learn about myself as well. Thanks.
Thanks for your advice about the journal, i knew it would be good for the pdoc, but i never realized how much i would learn about myself as well. Thanks.
dreams in neon
03-13-2009, 11:38 AM
typeing,
What you've said is so true. Mood journals (or journals in general) can help us learn so much about ourselves and the way we react to certain events in our lives. I keep a mood journal as well even though I'm a rapid cycler and it's difficult to track my moods since they change every hour and sometimes every minute. However, I've devised a way to make note of my mood swings. I also make things easier on myself by writing all of this information down in Word and keeping my computer open all the time to that file so I can make notes at any time. It's also nice because I can print out a copy and give it to my pdoc and tdoc.
What you've said is so true. Mood journals (or journals in general) can help us learn so much about ourselves and the way we react to certain events in our lives. I keep a mood journal as well even though I'm a rapid cycler and it's difficult to track my moods since they change every hour and sometimes every minute. However, I've devised a way to make note of my mood swings. I also make things easier on myself by writing all of this information down in Word and keeping my computer open all the time to that file so I can make notes at any time. It's also nice because I can print out a copy and give it to my pdoc and tdoc.
typeing
03-13-2009, 11:57 AM
I should have done it on the computer, i don't know if they are going to be able to read my writing. *blush* ohh well, if she can't i will start recording on tape. 1 more week to the appointment. *starting to see the light... maybe*
dreams in neon
03-13-2009, 12:35 PM
Next time use a tape recorder or the computer. You don't have much longer to wait until next Friday. I can't wait to hear how your appointment goes!
typeing
03-13-2009, 12:45 PM
Thanks, me too. I'm ready to get things straightened out.
typeing
03-14-2009, 11:36 PM
Ok, i have another question, i was talking to my mother earlier, and she was like well, what if they give you several meds and you cant afford them all, and i said, well, heck, i would take the sleep ones... And she was like, Typeing, there are other things you need to get straightened out... what would you do?
dreams in neon
03-15-2009, 12:07 AM
Insurance covers most meds, so that shouldn't be a problem. As for your mother's comment, that's what therapy is for. Research has proven that a combination of therapy and meds are the best treatment protocol for depression and bipolar.
dreams in neon
03-15-2009, 12:09 AM
I also wanted to add that if you're specifically looking to address your depression, anger and sleep, you may not need to be put on more than one or two meds.
For example, if you're put on Wellbutrin (an anti-depressant), it may improve your mood enough so that you're able to get decent sleep at night. It may also calm you to the point where you no longer have angry outburts.
For example, if you're put on Wellbutrin (an anti-depressant), it may improve your mood enough so that you're able to get decent sleep at night. It may also calm you to the point where you no longer have angry outburts.
typeing
03-15-2009, 12:15 AM
My insurance doesn't cover much... For the past few days my mother has been good about freaking me out about the appointment itself, and the price of everything. But i am kind of freaking out about the whole thing now. I just wish friday would get here, because i have spent the past two days practically in tears.
typeing
03-15-2009, 12:16 AM
Thanks dreams, i really appreciate the support.
dreams in neon
03-15-2009, 12:25 AM
Anytime! If you have more questions between now and Friday, feel free to ask.
dreams in neon
03-15-2009, 12:27 AM
First of all, try not to pay attention to what your mother says. It sounds like she's discouraging you from seeking help.
Second, if your insurance won't cover your meds, there are other ways to receive them. Some pdocs give free monthly samples. There are also prescription programs that pay for the cost of meds for those in financial need.
Second, if your insurance won't cover your meds, there are other ways to receive them. Some pdocs give free monthly samples. There are also prescription programs that pay for the cost of meds for those in financial need.
typeing
03-15-2009, 12:33 AM
Thanks Dreams, I think i'm out of questions, just sitting here biting my nails, and wishing that i could just move to louisianna, and pretend this is not happening... sorry about the drama... but it's what i feel...
typeing
03-15-2009, 12:37 AM
First of all, try not to pay attention to what your mother says. It sounds like she's discouraging you from seeking help.
Second, if your insurance won't cover your meds, there are other ways to receive them. Some pdocs give free monthly samples. There are also prescription programs that pay for the cost of meds for those in financial need.
Thanks Dreams,
Actually, after some things that happened she wants me to go, she just want's me to be prepared. I hope she gives me samples. *fingers crossed* because she asked me what i would do if she gave me a few, and couldn't pay for all of them, i said i would pick the sleeping one... then she said that "i needed to get things straightened out 'mentally'... But she is adament about me not telling anyone else... ohh well.
Second, if your insurance won't cover your meds, there are other ways to receive them. Some pdocs give free monthly samples. There are also prescription programs that pay for the cost of meds for those in financial need.
Thanks Dreams,
Actually, after some things that happened she wants me to go, she just want's me to be prepared. I hope she gives me samples. *fingers crossed* because she asked me what i would do if she gave me a few, and couldn't pay for all of them, i said i would pick the sleeping one... then she said that "i needed to get things straightened out 'mentally'... But she is adament about me not telling anyone else... ohh well.
dreams in neon
03-15-2009, 12:50 AM
Having a healthy and consistent sleep schedule is a part of treating depression. That can go a long way in helping you feel better. Has your mother been to a pdoc before? I know she's only trying to help, but telling you that you need to get other things straightened out mentally is what therapy is for. The meds will also help you feel better which is half the battle when it comes to living with depression. I can tell you all about that. If it weren't for my meds, I wouldn't be here.
typeing
03-15-2009, 12:59 AM
Yes, mom has been to a pdoc, and i can understand your statement about your meds, i would say something, but i don't think it is allowed here... if you want i will pm you.
dreams in neon
03-15-2009, 02:02 AM
Feel free to send me a PM.
typeing
03-15-2009, 02:11 AM
it's there.
typeing
03-19-2009, 02:24 PM
well, tomorrow is the day...
dreams in neon
03-19-2009, 03:12 PM
Good luck tomorrow, typeing. Please be sure to let us know how everything went. Are you still writing a journal?
typeing
03-19-2009, 03:15 PM
I will definitely dreams, and thanks. i am still keeping a journal, but i need to go through and edit one day, because i was really depressed... and wrote something i don't want her to see quite yet... <<hugs dreams>>
dreams in neon
03-19-2009, 03:23 PM
What did you write in your journal that you don't want her to see? You can send me a PM. I'm just curious because it's most likely something she's heard time and time again from other patients. I'm sure nothing phases pdocs given everything they hear from day to day.
typeing
03-19-2009, 03:30 PM
IT was thoughts of... not wanting to be here... I know she's heard it, but i don't want her to tell me i should go IP, or like the last person i went to see that those thoughts were "childish" because that's just bs...
dreams in neon
03-19-2009, 03:51 PM
She won't tell you it's childish. If she does, that's unprofessional. She won't tell you to go IP either unless you actually plan on following through with harming yourself.
typeing
03-19-2009, 04:03 PM
That depends on how i'm feeling, so i still can't tell her.
dreams in neon
03-19-2009, 04:26 PM
That's completely up to you.
typeing
03-19-2009, 04:30 PM
Thanks, it just depends on what she is like tomorrow.
dreams in neon
03-19-2009, 05:15 PM
If you feel you can trust her and are comfortable doing so, you can share that information. If you don't, you can always wait. You don't need to tell her everything tomorrow.
I've been seeing my tdoc for 1.5 years and only told him recently about the 4 kinds of abuse/trauma I suffered. Sometimes it takes time to talk about difficult issues not to mention the trust factor between client/tdoc/pdoc.
I've been seeing my tdoc for 1.5 years and only told him recently about the 4 kinds of abuse/trauma I suffered. Sometimes it takes time to talk about difficult issues not to mention the trust factor between client/tdoc/pdoc.
typeing
03-19-2009, 05:19 PM
Thanks Dreams. <hugs>
typeing
03-28-2009, 04:29 PM
Sorry i never updated yall, i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and put on zoloft and trazodone. thank yall a ton for the help.
dreams in neon
03-28-2009, 04:36 PM
I hope your meds work for you. How is Trazodone helping with your sleep and Zoloft with your depression so far?
typeing
03-28-2009, 04:39 PM
I hope your meds work for you. How is Trazodone helping with your sleep and Zoloft with your depression so far?
I'm still not sleeping worth cr*p, but i have seen a decrease in night anxiety with trazodone, but i'm going to call on monday and see if i can go up to 100mg, or 75. I'm still struggling a lot with depression, but i'm not crying as much, and i'm hoping things get better. I am starting to experience some of the side effects *loss of appetite, and drowsy* Thanks dreams.
I'm still not sleeping worth cr*p, but i have seen a decrease in night anxiety with trazodone, but i'm going to call on monday and see if i can go up to 100mg, or 75. I'm still struggling a lot with depression, but i'm not crying as much, and i'm hoping things get better. I am starting to experience some of the side effects *loss of appetite, and drowsy* Thanks dreams.
dreams in neon
03-28-2009, 05:30 PM
You've only started taking your meds recently, so it will take a little while for them to work. You might want to increase your Trazodone dose to 75mg and then 100mg. If you jump from 50mg to 100mg, that may be too much medication for you, but of course, that's for you and your pdoc to decide.
typeing
03-28-2009, 08:13 PM
You've only started taking your meds recently, so it will take a little while for them to work. You might want to increase your Trazodone dose to 75mg and then 100mg. If you jump from 50mg to 100mg, that may be too much medication for you, but of course, that's for you and your pdoc to decide.
Thanks, i think i'm going to call on monday, because this taking like 4 hours to fall asleep thing is... annoying.
Thanks, i think i'm going to call on monday, because this taking like 4 hours to fall asleep thing is... annoying.
dreams in neon
03-28-2009, 08:25 PM
Let us know what your pdoc says.
typeing
03-28-2009, 08:59 PM
I will. *fingers crossed*
typeing
04-08-2009, 12:00 AM
Update: I had my second tdoc appointment today, it went pretty well, but i'm still feeling really depressed, my sh has increased a lot over the past few days, and it just isn't going well. I'm sorry... i feel so guilty for posting here, and for feeling this way in the first place... it's all just so much at this point.
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 12:30 AM
Update: I had my second tdoc appointment today, it went pretty well, but i'm still feeling really depressed, my sh has increased a lot over the past few days, and it just isn't going well. I'm sorry... i feel so guilty for posting here, and for feeling this way in the first place... it's all just so much at this point.
I thought you said you were feeling better and that the Zoloft was helping.
I'm confused. You're seeing a tdoc now -- or did you mean pdoc?
I thought you said you were feeling better and that the Zoloft was helping.
I'm confused. You're seeing a tdoc now -- or did you mean pdoc?
typeing
04-08-2009, 12:37 AM
I'm seeing both, today was my second tdoc appt. and next friday is my second pdoc appt. I was feeling much better, but today and yesterday have been horrible. It's like life is a roller coaster, and mine bottomed out the past few days. Sorry... don't mean to be confusing... Some days i do pretty well, and others.. not... sorry. I've also been dealing with the loss of a friend, and the seemingly loss of another one, but i don't know...
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 01:21 AM
I'm seeing both, today was my second tdoc appt. and next friday is my second pdoc appt. I was feeling much better, but today and yesterday have been horrible. It's like life is a roller coaster, and mine bottomed out the past few days. Sorry... don't mean to be confusing... Some days i do pretty well, and others.. not... sorry. I've also been dealing with the loss of a friend, and the seemingly loss of another one, but i don't know...
Thanks for the clarification. I wasn't sure what you meant because you said in another post that you were doing well, but because of my poor memory, I couldn't remember how long ago that was.
I'm really glad to hear that you're seeing a tdoc. How do you like him or her?
Good luck at your next pdoc appointment!
By the way, how often do you see your pdoc? I see my pdoc once every 3 months or sooner if I run into problems. I used to see my old pdoc every 2 weeks. I really liked this arrangement in the beginning, but now that I think about it, I'm glad I'm seeing my new pdoc every 3 months because it gives me more time to chart my moods and evaluate how well my meds are working.
Thanks for the clarification. I wasn't sure what you meant because you said in another post that you were doing well, but because of my poor memory, I couldn't remember how long ago that was.
I'm really glad to hear that you're seeing a tdoc. How do you like him or her?
Good luck at your next pdoc appointment!
By the way, how often do you see your pdoc? I see my pdoc once every 3 months or sooner if I run into problems. I used to see my old pdoc every 2 weeks. I really liked this arrangement in the beginning, but now that I think about it, I'm glad I'm seeing my new pdoc every 3 months because it gives me more time to chart my moods and evaluate how well my meds are working.
typeing
04-08-2009, 02:03 AM
Thanks Dreams, i see my pdoc every month, and tdoc weekly.
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 02:28 AM
typeing,
How do you like your tdoc so far?
How do you like your tdoc so far?
typeing
04-08-2009, 02:36 AM
She is really nice, and caring she seems sweet i look forward to seeing her weekly. Thank you a ton.
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 02:38 AM
That's great, typeing! See, I told you that you'd find a tdoc who listened and was compassionate. I'm really glad everything is working out for you.
typeing
04-08-2009, 02:46 AM
Thanks Dreams, i appreciate it. :) Yeah, i was scared to go, but it's all good, exept for the fact that i have lost a friend over all this... which is total bs... Thank you a ton. Btw, did you get any of my pm's???
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 02:51 AM
I'm sorry you ended up losing a friendship over this, but if that person was a real friend, they would have understood why you needed to see a tdoc and pdoc.
I didn't receive PMs from anyone because I accidentally deleted all of the messages in my mailbox after I had problems with Road Runner yesterday. It was running extremely slow and because of that, I couldn't tell what my computer was doing. Somehow I ended up deleting everything in my mailbox. Don't ask me how. LOL!
I didn't receive PMs from anyone because I accidentally deleted all of the messages in my mailbox after I had problems with Road Runner yesterday. It was running extremely slow and because of that, I couldn't tell what my computer was doing. Somehow I ended up deleting everything in my mailbox. Don't ask me how. LOL!
typeing
04-08-2009, 02:54 AM
lol, thanks. That works, i was afraid you were mad at me... I agree about the friend, problem is i will have to see him this summer. :( Ohh, i'm going to send you a pm. i got a summer job. :D
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 03:30 AM
Congrats on your summer job!
As for your friend, I would try and ignore them (as difficult as this is).
As for your friend, I would try and ignore them (as difficult as this is).
typeing
04-17-2009, 03:18 PM
update: Second pdoc appointment today, she put me on ambien and upped the zoloft. But i'm not feeling so great today so we shall see how it works.
dreams in neon
04-17-2009, 08:01 PM
How much did your pdoc increase your Zoloft? What is your dosage?
I hope the Ambien works for you. It always worked great for me, but my insurance would not cover it which is why I take Trazodone instead.
I hope the Ambien works for you. It always worked great for me, but my insurance would not cover it which is why I take Trazodone instead.
typeing
04-17-2009, 09:31 PM
i'm supposed to increase it to 75mg from 50 for two weeks, then to 100 mg. I hope ambien works too. *smile*
dreams in neon
04-17-2009, 10:16 PM
I'll keep my fingers crossed that it does! <hugs>
typeing
04-17-2009, 10:20 PM
I'll keep my fingers crossed that it does! <hugs>
Thanks, i appreciate it. <<hugs>>
Thanks, i appreciate it. <<hugs>>
dreams in neon
04-17-2009, 10:24 PM
You're welcome!
By the way, when do you see your tdoc and pdoc next?
My next tdoc appointment is on May 5th due to a full schedule next week.
As far as my pdoc is concerned, I see him on June 8th. Since my moods are starting to stabilize, he wanted to see me 2 months from now instead of every 2 weeks.
By the way, when do you see your tdoc and pdoc next?
My next tdoc appointment is on May 5th due to a full schedule next week.
As far as my pdoc is concerned, I see him on June 8th. Since my moods are starting to stabilize, he wanted to see me 2 months from now instead of every 2 weeks.
typeing
04-17-2009, 10:31 PM
my next tdoc is the tuesday or thursday after next... i forgot wich... whoopsie, i would have one next week but her daughter is having surgery and wants to be there. and my next pdoc appointment is may 29th.
typeing
04-18-2009, 01:48 PM
maybe... i just don't need sleep... lol. *smile*
dreams in neon
04-18-2009, 01:54 PM
maybe... i just don't need sleep... lol. *smile*
How many milligrams of Ambien did your pdoc prescribe? Remember that it can take awhile before it starts to work.
When I took Ambien, the only dose that helped me was 12.5mg.
How many milligrams of Ambien did your pdoc prescribe? Remember that it can take awhile before it starts to work.
When I took Ambien, the only dose that helped me was 12.5mg.
typeing
04-18-2009, 05:13 PM
she said i could have 1-2 pills, each pill is 5mg.
dreams in neon
04-18-2009, 06:04 PM
I'd wait a another week before talking to your pdoc. If you are still unable to sleep by then, I'd ask about having your dosage raised.
typeing
04-18-2009, 06:05 PM
Thank you a ton. i will.
dreams in neon
04-23-2009, 08:03 AM
typeing,
How are you doing? Are you noticing a positive change in your depression and ability to sleep?
How are you doing? Are you noticing a positive change in your depression and ability to sleep?
typeing
04-23-2009, 04:40 PM
typeing,
How are you doing? Are you noticing a positive change in your depression and ability to sleep?
yes, finally. the ambien is starting to work nicely, i'm finally getting 8 hours of sleep. and i'm already noticing a difference in the upped dose of zoloft. I took the last part of the act today, and normally if i knew i was going to be doing that i would have been up all night last night freaking out... *i really mean all night* But last night was great. how are you dreams?
How are you doing? Are you noticing a positive change in your depression and ability to sleep?
yes, finally. the ambien is starting to work nicely, i'm finally getting 8 hours of sleep. and i'm already noticing a difference in the upped dose of zoloft. I took the last part of the act today, and normally if i knew i was going to be doing that i would have been up all night last night freaking out... *i really mean all night* But last night was great. how are you dreams?
dreams in neon
04-23-2009, 04:47 PM
yes, finally. the ambien is starting to work nicely, i'm finally getting 8 hours of sleep. and i'm already noticing a difference in the upped dose of zoloft. I took the last part of the act today, and normally if i knew i was going to be doing that i would have been up all night last night freaking out... *i really mean all night* But last night was great. how are you dreams?
That's great, typeing! I'm so happy for you! <hugs>
I'm continuing to do really, really well. I'm now on my 8th day without rapid cycling. I'm hoping I can make it 10 days straight since my old record was 9 days. I have a feeling that won't be a problem since the Clonazepam is doing a wonderful job of controlling my rapid cycling. I've noticed that as long as I take it once/day, I don't rapid cycle even once throughout a 24 hour period. My pdoc's treatment plan was to cut down my cycling to twice/day, but ever since my moods have stabilized on my new med regimen, it's now down to once/day. If this continues, I can't wait to see him in June to share my mood chart. I know he'll be delighted. I remember how happy he was when I saw him last month and told him how well Fluoxetine was working for me, so I know he'll be even happier when he is told that I haven't rapid cycled, been manic, depressed or psychotic since my appointment this month.
I have a headache today that I've had for the past 24 hours. I don't have any Excedrin in the house and don't feel well enough to walk to the drugstore, so I will have to wait it out or see how I feel tomorrow. I can't take my Imitrex since it isn't designed for "regular" headaches.
By the way, speaking of which, my GP increased my Topamax dosage to 100mg. I'm hoping that will help cut down on the number of migraines I have/week. <fingers crossed>
That's great, typeing! I'm so happy for you! <hugs>
I'm continuing to do really, really well. I'm now on my 8th day without rapid cycling. I'm hoping I can make it 10 days straight since my old record was 9 days. I have a feeling that won't be a problem since the Clonazepam is doing a wonderful job of controlling my rapid cycling. I've noticed that as long as I take it once/day, I don't rapid cycle even once throughout a 24 hour period. My pdoc's treatment plan was to cut down my cycling to twice/day, but ever since my moods have stabilized on my new med regimen, it's now down to once/day. If this continues, I can't wait to see him in June to share my mood chart. I know he'll be delighted. I remember how happy he was when I saw him last month and told him how well Fluoxetine was working for me, so I know he'll be even happier when he is told that I haven't rapid cycled, been manic, depressed or psychotic since my appointment this month.
I have a headache today that I've had for the past 24 hours. I don't have any Excedrin in the house and don't feel well enough to walk to the drugstore, so I will have to wait it out or see how I feel tomorrow. I can't take my Imitrex since it isn't designed for "regular" headaches.
By the way, speaking of which, my GP increased my Topamax dosage to 100mg. I'm hoping that will help cut down on the number of migraines I have/week. <fingers crossed>
typeing
04-23-2009, 04:54 PM
That's great, typeing! I'm so happy for you! <hugs>
I'm continuing to do really, really well. I'm now on my 8th day without rapid cycling. I'm hoping I can make it 10 days straight since my old record was 9 days. I have a feeling that won't be a problem since the Clonazepam is doing a wonderful job of controlling my rapid cycling. I've noticed that as long as I take it once/day, I don't rapid cycle even once throughout a 24 hour period. My pdoc's treatment plan was to cut down my cycling to twice/day, but ever since my moods have stabilized on my new med regimen, it's now down to once/day. If this continues, I can't wait to see him in June to share my mood chart. I know he'll be delighted. I remember how happy he was when I saw him last month and told him how well Fluoxetine was working for me, so I know he'll be even happier when he is told that I haven't rapid cycled, been manic, depressed or psychotic since my appointment this month.
I have a headache today that I've had for the past 24 hours. I don't have any Excedrin in the house and don't feel well enough to walk to the drugstore, so I will have to wait it out or see how I feel tomorrow. I can't take my Imitrex since it isn't designed for "regular" headaches.
By the way, speaking of which, my GP increased my Topamax dosage to 100mg. I'm hoping that will help cut down on the number of migraines I have/week. <fingers crossed>
I'm sorry about your headache, but i'm glad you have gone without rapid cycling for so long. Hope it lasts. If i lived there i would bring you some excedrin. <hugs> Hope the upped topamax works. *smile*
I'm continuing to do really, really well. I'm now on my 8th day without rapid cycling. I'm hoping I can make it 10 days straight since my old record was 9 days. I have a feeling that won't be a problem since the Clonazepam is doing a wonderful job of controlling my rapid cycling. I've noticed that as long as I take it once/day, I don't rapid cycle even once throughout a 24 hour period. My pdoc's treatment plan was to cut down my cycling to twice/day, but ever since my moods have stabilized on my new med regimen, it's now down to once/day. If this continues, I can't wait to see him in June to share my mood chart. I know he'll be delighted. I remember how happy he was when I saw him last month and told him how well Fluoxetine was working for me, so I know he'll be even happier when he is told that I haven't rapid cycled, been manic, depressed or psychotic since my appointment this month.
I have a headache today that I've had for the past 24 hours. I don't have any Excedrin in the house and don't feel well enough to walk to the drugstore, so I will have to wait it out or see how I feel tomorrow. I can't take my Imitrex since it isn't designed for "regular" headaches.
By the way, speaking of which, my GP increased my Topamax dosage to 100mg. I'm hoping that will help cut down on the number of migraines I have/week. <fingers crossed>
I'm sorry about your headache, but i'm glad you have gone without rapid cycling for so long. Hope it lasts. If i lived there i would bring you some excedrin. <hugs> Hope the upped topamax works. *smile*
dreams in neon
04-23-2009, 04:57 PM
I'm sorry about your headache, but i'm glad you have gone without rapid cycling for so long. Hope it lasts. If i lived there i would bring you some excedrin. <hugs> Hope the upped topamax works. *smile*
Thanks, typeing.
I'm not wearing my cochlear implants right now, so that has improved my headache a little.
I will let you know if the increased dosage of Topamax works. My GP said I should start to see results in 3-4 weeks.
Thanks, typeing.
I'm not wearing my cochlear implants right now, so that has improved my headache a little.
I will let you know if the increased dosage of Topamax works. My GP said I should start to see results in 3-4 weeks.
typeing
04-23-2009, 04:59 PM
coolness. *fingers crossed*