SuperPanda
04-07-2009, 12:46 AM
Hi it seems like i keep having these intrusive thoughts. I have schizo-effective and it seems like i can't even control my brain sometimes. Since i'm a christian and focus on the bible the intrusive thoughts try to get me to think blashphemous evil thoughts that make me cry they are so bad. It's so distressing thinking bad thoughts about the one you love the most. And then i feel like God is going to condemn me for every bad thought i think which makes me more scared. I don't even wanna think anymore if i could turn off my brain i think i would.
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Van Drake
04-07-2009, 06:48 AM
I know exactly what you mean...i started a thread along these lines as well. (its called mental self sabotage) its difficult to try and stop. what i found is that the more you try and stop them...the louder they speak and the more of these thoughts you get. perhaps you should try let the thoughts run until they reach a conclusion. then say "well...thats not who i am. thats not what i believe in. and so. those thoughts wont happen" dont try fight them and prevent them from happening. but let them finish and then decide that you simply wont do what the thoughts want.
its difficult to try and be "good" all the time. in order to keep your sanity you do have to try and relax. let the thought start. let it finish. then let it go.
Im not deeply religious but i am spiritual in some ways. perhaps this might help your faith become stronger. i dont know. but i know where you have been because im still there. try not to be so hard on yourself. you are human. and what you're doing is being human.
give yourself time...
its difficult to try and be "good" all the time. in order to keep your sanity you do have to try and relax. let the thought start. let it finish. then let it go.
Im not deeply religious but i am spiritual in some ways. perhaps this might help your faith become stronger. i dont know. but i know where you have been because im still there. try not to be so hard on yourself. you are human. and what you're doing is being human.
give yourself time...
SuperPanda
04-08-2009, 01:58 AM
Thanks drake i think your right. These bad thoughts I am having are not me if they were i wouldn't cry and feel awful when i think them. I hate the bad thoughts and want no part in them maybe if i just ignore them they will go away. I am very hard on myself and want to get better and stable as quick as i can my family is suffering cause of this terrible disease i have and it needs to stop.
dreams in neon
04-08-2009, 03:40 AM
Hi it seems like i keep having these intrusive thoughts. I have schizo-effective and it seems like i can't even control my brain sometimes. Since i'm a christian and focus on the bible the intrusive thoughts try to get me to think blashphemous evil thoughts that make me cry they are so bad. It's so distressing thinking bad thoughts about the one you love the most. And then i feel like God is going to condemn me for every bad thought i think which makes me more scared. I don't even wanna think anymore if i could turn off my brain i think i would.
I have the same problem only I have bipolar disorder. My intrusive thoughts center around comments about what an awful person I am and how I shouldn't be on this Earth.
Some of the things I've found helpful in dealing with them is to distract myself by reading, writing or working on the computer. I never respond to them because it only makes them more intense and powerful.
When my thoughts are really bad, I take Clonazepam to help calm them down.
I wish I had something more to suggest.
Have you discussed this with a tdoc (therapist) if you have one? He or she may be able to give you more techiques for dealing with these thoughts.
I have the same problem only I have bipolar disorder. My intrusive thoughts center around comments about what an awful person I am and how I shouldn't be on this Earth.
Some of the things I've found helpful in dealing with them is to distract myself by reading, writing or working on the computer. I never respond to them because it only makes them more intense and powerful.
When my thoughts are really bad, I take Clonazepam to help calm them down.
I wish I had something more to suggest.
Have you discussed this with a tdoc (therapist) if you have one? He or she may be able to give you more techiques for dealing with these thoughts.
dragonfly57
04-26-2009, 06:23 PM
Try using positive music (like good Christian music that is uplifting) and have it on when you are having the problems or tendency to. It will give your mind someplace else to focus and it could lift your spirits. The other thing is reading positive affirmations out loud, it will help build you up and will also distract your mind from the negative.