Hi all! I don't have a lot to share tonight but it's been a few weeks since I last posted and just wanted to say howdy hi. It's been 3 1/2 months so far without the nicodemon and it's been good without it. There are moments when I pass a store or somewhere where a smoker has been and I still could reach out and eat one--at least this is what my eyes tell me but I don't have that gripping feeling like I used to have. There are moments when the stresses and pressures of life build up and believe me I think of that cigarette to take the edge off but I don't act on it. I will confess that I do take medication for bipolar depression and anxiety(not very large doses) and I think this has taken the edge off, too because when I began to explore all of my triggers for smoking, a lot of them were caused by my nervousness, lack of sleep and either being wired or in a low mood. Will this be forever? I can only do things a day at a time and sometimes it's a minute at a time. If it weren't for my friends on this board putting up with my habitual quits, relapses and requits and encouragement, I don't know what I would do. God bless you all and I will pray for all of you who have been there for me and ask God to help everyone who's getting to that first 24 hours. Be well--Hopeto