so 2 weeks ago (april 30) i had a really hard time going to the bathroom (bowel movement, obviously, as this is the bowel disorders board:) ). I stayed too long, strained too much, finally went, but then my entire anus was swollen and painful, like someone had shoved a golf ball inside it. BUT, that was gone by the next day. well, this past saturday (the 9th), i discovered that i had a blueberry sized lump on my anus, i assume this is a hemorrhoid, right? well, with home treatment, it's shrinking down, but it's made me scared to go to the bathroom since then, as it hurts even when i pee. but today i couldn't put it off, so i went and it actually didn't really hurt, but when i was done, i felt this weird feeling in my vagina, and took a mirror and saw that my vagina actually looks kind of swollen inside. what the heck???

so it's been about 20 minutes since then, and the weird feeling is gone away, but i am afraid to look again because i am afraid it's still there.... but if it is still there, is this a rectocele???

please help me! my husband is deploying tomorrow morning, i am having all these issues, i have 3 kids, no family where i'm at, and i'm kind of freaking out!!! any advice is welcome.....