BipolarPrincess
05-13-2009, 12:43 PM
Soo, I woke up at 9am. Which is so early for me since I've been sleeping like 16 hours. I felt pretty good. I get a little irritated at doing small tasks. I cleaned my room(not that well but it looks a lot better for now), got some other stuff done. I have to go for ANOTHER intake tomorrow, then should be starting therapy next Monday. I see my regular PC Doctor tomorrow, So I'm going to mention switching back on Klonopin, and seeing if she will start my Lamictal. If not I'll have to wait longer. I'll probably end up napping today.. I have to be up early tomorrow. At least I'm not feeling super depressed, which is nice. I still am too eh.. lazy you could say to go get my nails done and so forth. Maybe later tonight after I nap, but I doubt it. I need energy. I'm proud of what I did so far today though, that's a good thing. And I don't feel so depressed. I love bipolar.
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dreams in neon
05-13-2009, 02:14 PM
It sounds like you're doing better BipolarPrincess which is great.
I know how you feel. I'm hypomanic and irritable today and am going to give serious consideration to tweaking my meds or switching to a different mood stabilizer.
My moods were stable last month, but over the past 2 weeks I've been rapid cycling and something has got to give.
Anyways, sorry for venting. This is your thread -- not mine.
I know how you feel. I'm hypomanic and irritable today and am going to give serious consideration to tweaking my meds or switching to a different mood stabilizer.
My moods were stable last month, but over the past 2 weeks I've been rapid cycling and something has got to give.
Anyways, sorry for venting. This is your thread -- not mine.
BipolarPrincess
05-13-2009, 02:52 PM
It sounds like you're doing better BipolarPrincess which is great.
I know how you feel. I'm hypomanic and irritable today and am going to give serious consideration to tweaking my meds or switching to a different mood stabilizer.
My moods were stable last month, but over the past 2 weeks I've been rapid cycling and something has got to give.
Anyways, sorry for venting. This is your thread -- not mine.
yeah, just a random doing better. although i'm constantly tired no matter how much sleep I get. I can't take it!! I even take supplements (b12,fish oil) for energy and better mood, but nope can't seem to have energy ever.
And don't worry about venting on my posts, I do it all the time, lol. That sucks you are rapid cycling so much, that has got to be exhausting. Maybe a med change would do you good. I don't know as much about mood stabilizers as you do, but hopefully there's one out there that will work for you better!
I know how you feel. I'm hypomanic and irritable today and am going to give serious consideration to tweaking my meds or switching to a different mood stabilizer.
My moods were stable last month, but over the past 2 weeks I've been rapid cycling and something has got to give.
Anyways, sorry for venting. This is your thread -- not mine.
yeah, just a random doing better. although i'm constantly tired no matter how much sleep I get. I can't take it!! I even take supplements (b12,fish oil) for energy and better mood, but nope can't seem to have energy ever.
And don't worry about venting on my posts, I do it all the time, lol. That sucks you are rapid cycling so much, that has got to be exhausting. Maybe a med change would do you good. I don't know as much about mood stabilizers as you do, but hopefully there's one out there that will work for you better!
dreams in neon
05-13-2009, 03:01 PM
yeah, just a random doing better. although i'm constantly tired no matter how much sleep I get. I can't take it!! I even take supplements (b12,fish oil) for energy and better mood, but nope can't seem to have energy ever.
And don't worry about venting on my posts, I do it all the time, lol. That sucks you are rapid cycling so much, that has got to be exhausting. Maybe a med change would do you good. I don't know as much about mood stabilizers as you do, but hopefully there's one out there that will work for you better!
I know this sounds cliche, but try to take things one day, hour or minute at a time. This was advice given to me by my tdoc and it helps me out alot when I'm struggling.
As far as my rapid cycling is concerned, yes, it's very exhausting. Half the time I can't keep up with myself. It's tiring cycling from mania or hypomania to extreme irritability to severe depression and back to mania before it starts all over again, but in a different pattern.
I know Lamictal treats rapid cycling, so I may ask my pdoc about giving it a try.
On the one hand, I want to change mood stabilizers, but on the other, I'm afraid to because ever since I've been on Depakote, I haven't had a manic/psychotic episode.
The first (and only) manic/psychotic episode I had in 2006 was one of the most frightening experiences of my life and I don't want a repeat performance.
Then again, perhaps my pdoc can increase my Depakote since I still have room to raise my dose. I'm taking 1500mg and the maximum dose is 2500mg. I could try taking 2000mg and see if that helps.
I'll find out what his thoughts are when I see him on Tuesday. Based on the way he sounded during our conversation on Monday, it sounds like he wants to make some kind of a change.
And don't worry about venting on my posts, I do it all the time, lol. That sucks you are rapid cycling so much, that has got to be exhausting. Maybe a med change would do you good. I don't know as much about mood stabilizers as you do, but hopefully there's one out there that will work for you better!
I know this sounds cliche, but try to take things one day, hour or minute at a time. This was advice given to me by my tdoc and it helps me out alot when I'm struggling.
As far as my rapid cycling is concerned, yes, it's very exhausting. Half the time I can't keep up with myself. It's tiring cycling from mania or hypomania to extreme irritability to severe depression and back to mania before it starts all over again, but in a different pattern.
I know Lamictal treats rapid cycling, so I may ask my pdoc about giving it a try.
On the one hand, I want to change mood stabilizers, but on the other, I'm afraid to because ever since I've been on Depakote, I haven't had a manic/psychotic episode.
The first (and only) manic/psychotic episode I had in 2006 was one of the most frightening experiences of my life and I don't want a repeat performance.
Then again, perhaps my pdoc can increase my Depakote since I still have room to raise my dose. I'm taking 1500mg and the maximum dose is 2500mg. I could try taking 2000mg and see if that helps.
I'll find out what his thoughts are when I see him on Tuesday. Based on the way he sounded during our conversation on Monday, it sounds like he wants to make some kind of a change.
BipolarPrincess
05-13-2009, 03:08 PM
I know this sounds cliche, but try to take things one day, hour or minute at a time. This was advice given to me by my tdoc and it helps me out alot when I'm struggling.
As far as my rapid cycling is concerned, yes, it's very exhausting. Half the time I can't keep up with myself. It's tiring cycling from mania or hypomania to extreme irritability to severe depression and back to mania before it starts all over again, but in a different pattern.
I know Lamictal treats rapid cycling, so I may ask my pdoc about giving it a try.
On the one hand, I want to change mood stabilizers, but on the other, I'm afraid to because ever since I've been on Depakote, I haven't had a manic/psychotic episode.
The first (and only) manic/psychotic episode I had in 2006 was one of the most frightening experiences of my life and I don't want a repeat performance.
Then again, perhaps my pdoc can increase my Depakote since I still have room to raise my dose. I'm taking 1500mg and the maximum dose is 2500mg. I could try taking 2000mg and see if that helps.
I'll find out what his thoughts are when I see him on Tuesday. Based on the way he sounded during our conversation on Monday, it sounds like he wants to make some kind of a change.
Yeah sounds like you respond well to depakote then. Probably raising it would be a good first step since you have room to do that. And I know how scary those episodes are- sometimes I think back to it and can't believe that was me acting and thinking those things. I remember everything. Good luck:angel:
As far as my rapid cycling is concerned, yes, it's very exhausting. Half the time I can't keep up with myself. It's tiring cycling from mania or hypomania to extreme irritability to severe depression and back to mania before it starts all over again, but in a different pattern.
I know Lamictal treats rapid cycling, so I may ask my pdoc about giving it a try.
On the one hand, I want to change mood stabilizers, but on the other, I'm afraid to because ever since I've been on Depakote, I haven't had a manic/psychotic episode.
The first (and only) manic/psychotic episode I had in 2006 was one of the most frightening experiences of my life and I don't want a repeat performance.
Then again, perhaps my pdoc can increase my Depakote since I still have room to raise my dose. I'm taking 1500mg and the maximum dose is 2500mg. I could try taking 2000mg and see if that helps.
I'll find out what his thoughts are when I see him on Tuesday. Based on the way he sounded during our conversation on Monday, it sounds like he wants to make some kind of a change.
Yeah sounds like you respond well to depakote then. Probably raising it would be a good first step since you have room to do that. And I know how scary those episodes are- sometimes I think back to it and can't believe that was me acting and thinking those things. I remember everything. Good luck:angel:
dreams in neon
05-13-2009, 03:18 PM
Yeah sounds like you respond well to depakote then. Probably raising it would be a good first step since you have room to do that. And I know how scary those episodes are- sometimes I think back to it and can't believe that was me acting and thinking those things. I remember everything. Good luck:angel:
Thanks.
When I do talk to my pdoc, increasing Depakote will be the first step I take. If increasing it to 2000mg doesn't help, I'll try raising it to 2500mg. If that still doesn't help, I'll ask about Lamictal.
I have a feeling that one of those increases will make a difference. I'm not med-resistant and Depakote has worked well for me all these years, so perhaps it's just a matter of taking a little more than I am now.
As far as psychosis and delusions are concerned, I'm sorry you went through that experience especially under the influence of a med. My voices, delusions and paranoia were caused by the side effects of anesthesia (since it can cause mania in people with bipolar), the loss of my residual hearing following cochlear implant surgery, the stress of having surgery itself and my mother's death shortly before my manic/psychotic episode started.
Thanks.
When I do talk to my pdoc, increasing Depakote will be the first step I take. If increasing it to 2000mg doesn't help, I'll try raising it to 2500mg. If that still doesn't help, I'll ask about Lamictal.
I have a feeling that one of those increases will make a difference. I'm not med-resistant and Depakote has worked well for me all these years, so perhaps it's just a matter of taking a little more than I am now.
As far as psychosis and delusions are concerned, I'm sorry you went through that experience especially under the influence of a med. My voices, delusions and paranoia were caused by the side effects of anesthesia (since it can cause mania in people with bipolar), the loss of my residual hearing following cochlear implant surgery, the stress of having surgery itself and my mother's death shortly before my manic/psychotic episode started.
katlin09
05-14-2009, 02:46 PM
In your general PC doc willing to add drugs like Lamictal until your pscychiatrist gets his stuff together?
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