midnightsun
06-17-2009, 10:31 PM
It is discouraging to have failed the 1st ICSI. I mean ICSI is like the last resort of IVF. :confused:
According to the embryologist, our egg didn't divided as expected, possibly due to the egg quality and the sperm.
Me: 31 PCOS
DH: 31 low sperm,morph,mobility
Acupuncture for infertility as well
Retrieved 9 eggs only 2 fertilized.
Had to transfer on day 3:cells only divided to 4 (which is not good)
Kept positive thoughts!
Negative pregnancy test: June 3, 2009
It is a waiting game and I hate waiting. Everyone around me is getting pregnant and people are asking "are you pregnant yet?". I wanted to scream STFU :mad: but I can't. I just hate going to work now. I don't want people to know my husband and I am undergoing ICSI. Make me feel useless. The only moral support I could get if we failed again is "oh, I'm sorry". I know they may meant well but it's worse than saying nothing at all.. :(
We'll be meeting RE on 6/22/09 with some test on my DH : cystic fibrosis, Y chromosome deletion. Hopefully test result will not interfere with our 2nd attempt for ICSI. I don't know what we would do without not being able to have children. Both my DH and I love kids and we are sick of borrowing nieces and nephews from our brothers and sisters. grrrrrrrrr!:p
I don't think God ever punishes us like this for our past wrong doing but my DH curses him for this. I'm afraid God might punish us now. haha...not funny, I know...:(
Barely sane:dizzy::confused:
Anyways, I just needed to let this out...thx. for reading...
According to the embryologist, our egg didn't divided as expected, possibly due to the egg quality and the sperm.
Me: 31 PCOS
DH: 31 low sperm,morph,mobility
Acupuncture for infertility as well
Retrieved 9 eggs only 2 fertilized.
Had to transfer on day 3:cells only divided to 4 (which is not good)
Kept positive thoughts!
Negative pregnancy test: June 3, 2009
It is a waiting game and I hate waiting. Everyone around me is getting pregnant and people are asking "are you pregnant yet?". I wanted to scream STFU :mad: but I can't. I just hate going to work now. I don't want people to know my husband and I am undergoing ICSI. Make me feel useless. The only moral support I could get if we failed again is "oh, I'm sorry". I know they may meant well but it's worse than saying nothing at all.. :(
We'll be meeting RE on 6/22/09 with some test on my DH : cystic fibrosis, Y chromosome deletion. Hopefully test result will not interfere with our 2nd attempt for ICSI. I don't know what we would do without not being able to have children. Both my DH and I love kids and we are sick of borrowing nieces and nephews from our brothers and sisters. grrrrrrrrr!:p
I don't think God ever punishes us like this for our past wrong doing but my DH curses him for this. I'm afraid God might punish us now. haha...not funny, I know...:(
Barely sane:dizzy::confused:
Anyways, I just needed to let this out...thx. for reading...
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km7503
06-19-2009, 10:33 AM
Hello! You sound just as discouraged as I was when I failed my first IVF (with ICSI) back in April '06.
Don't lose hope. The 2nd cycle is usually much more successful than the 1st
Don't lose hope. The 2nd cycle is usually much more successful than the 1st
midnightsun
06-20-2009, 01:52 AM
Hello! You sound just as discouraged as I was when I failed my first IVF (with ICSI) back in April '06.
Don't lose hope. The 2nd cycle is usually much more successful than the 1st
Thank you :)
Don't lose hope. The 2nd cycle is usually much more successful than the 1st
Thank you :)
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06-20-2009, 04:06 AM
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sgard1234
06-24-2009, 03:09 AM
hi there be positive your time will come dont give up hope Sounds like you would be a teriffic mother goodluck maybe it just may take a little longer you will get there
Worrybucket
06-28-2009, 06:44 PM
I had three attempts at icsi with ivf, and on the 4th i got pregnant and have a beautiful child. It was all well worth the disappointments believe me. :)
Kristyann
07-08-2009, 10:41 PM
This is my first post. Would like to join the thread. Midnightsun, so sorry to hear your first ICSI was BFN. Are you doing it again? Baby dust to you! I am right there with you.
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