Llama
06-30-2009, 04:02 PM
You'll never believe what happened. I sat there and basically cried my whole way through the appointment. I am done with pdocs! It will be scary going off my meds, but...I am not going back there!!!!!
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
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strawberrysc
06-30-2009, 04:14 PM
Llama
I am so sorry to hear that your doctor's appointment did not go well. I can kind of understand about the addiction. I became very addicted to Xanax because I had built up such a tolerance for it and I ended up in the hospital where they made me see an addiction counselor because of it. Even though it wasn't a psychological addiction, it was more physical, they still were very picky about it. I got berated as well, which didn't make me feel a whole lot better. Can you find a new psychiatrist who will be kinder to you? Drinking once a week does not sound like you are an alcoholic. I hope your day gets better and that you can find a new doctor who will treat you with respect.
I am so sorry to hear that your doctor's appointment did not go well. I can kind of understand about the addiction. I became very addicted to Xanax because I had built up such a tolerance for it and I ended up in the hospital where they made me see an addiction counselor because of it. Even though it wasn't a psychological addiction, it was more physical, they still were very picky about it. I got berated as well, which didn't make me feel a whole lot better. Can you find a new psychiatrist who will be kinder to you? Drinking once a week does not sound like you are an alcoholic. I hope your day gets better and that you can find a new doctor who will treat you with respect.
Llama
06-30-2009, 04:35 PM
Thanks strawberry. I really miss my old pdoc. I cannot see her anymore though because I only have medicaid. She was always respectful towards me. I don't even want to associate with this human service center anymore, but that seems to be my only option!
I am sorry to hear about your story with the xanax. It's not right for them to treat us this way. :(
I am sorry to hear about your story with the xanax. It's not right for them to treat us this way. :(
CarenR
06-30-2009, 05:12 PM
Such a bad scene. I am sorry for you......
hugs, Caren
hugs, Caren
dreams in neon
06-30-2009, 06:27 PM
You'll never believe what happened. I sat there and basically cried my whole way through the appointment. I am done with pdocs! It will be scary going off my meds, but...I am not going back there!!!!!
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
(((Llama)))
I'm really sorry to hear that your appointment didn't go well.
I hope you'll forgive me for a lack of a longer response. I'm not thinking clearly today (I'm very tired), but I just wanted to send some hugs and let you know that I'm thinking of you.
I'll try to write a longer post later today or tomorrow because I do have some things I'd like to say in regards to what happened.
Again, I'm sorry your pdoc treated you the way he did. Pdocs like that are exactly the reason why I'm wary of them.
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
(((Llama)))
I'm really sorry to hear that your appointment didn't go well.
I hope you'll forgive me for a lack of a longer response. I'm not thinking clearly today (I'm very tired), but I just wanted to send some hugs and let you know that I'm thinking of you.
I'll try to write a longer post later today or tomorrow because I do have some things I'd like to say in regards to what happened.
Again, I'm sorry your pdoc treated you the way he did. Pdocs like that are exactly the reason why I'm wary of them.
Llama
06-30-2009, 06:33 PM
Thanks dreams and caren for the replies. And dreams, don't worry about posting today if you are not up to it. That is perfeclty fine. I'm sorry you are feeling so tired. (((dreams))) Get some good rest today!
dreams in neon
06-30-2009, 06:48 PM
Thanks dreams and caren for the replies. And dreams, don't worry about posting today if you are not up to it. That is perfeclty fine. I'm sorry you are feeling so tired. (((dreams))) Get some good rest today!
Thanks for the hugs Llama! I woke up between midnight and 2am for the past 2 nights, so tonight I'm going to take my higher PRN dose of Trazodone so I can sleep for a full 8 hours. I'll write again later because I have a few things to say about the way your pdoc treated you.
Thanks for the hugs Llama! I woke up between midnight and 2am for the past 2 nights, so tonight I'm going to take my higher PRN dose of Trazodone so I can sleep for a full 8 hours. I'll write again later because I have a few things to say about the way your pdoc treated you.
irishwriter
07-01-2009, 06:29 AM
You'll never believe what happened. I sat there and basically cried my whole way through the appointment. I am done with pdocs! It will be scary going off my meds, but...I am not going back there!!!!!
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
llama, am so sorry to hear about such an awful experience with a person whose job it is to understand what you are dealing with. 3 -5 drinks once a week does not sound like a problem. can you do without it if you need to? i had alcohol twice last year at a wedding and a funeral and pdoc was fine with that. because of the smoking ban i generally don't go out much but i do have the odd glass of wine without any problem. can you change pdocs rather than give up on the whole thing? i know you are feeling awful at the moment but maybe a decent person and the right combo of meds would help you. let us know how things are going.
iw
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
llama, am so sorry to hear about such an awful experience with a person whose job it is to understand what you are dealing with. 3 -5 drinks once a week does not sound like a problem. can you do without it if you need to? i had alcohol twice last year at a wedding and a funeral and pdoc was fine with that. because of the smoking ban i generally don't go out much but i do have the odd glass of wine without any problem. can you change pdocs rather than give up on the whole thing? i know you are feeling awful at the moment but maybe a decent person and the right combo of meds would help you. let us know how things are going.
iw
electric blue
07-01-2009, 12:28 PM
You'll never believe what happened. I sat there and basically cried my whole way through the appointment. I am done with pdocs! It will be scary going off my meds, but...I am not going back there!!!!!
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
Hi Llama,
What the???? that's the most rediculous thing i've ever heard - and you know i've heard a lot of rediculus things from my doctors!! How dare he say he wants to send you to an addiction counselor??!! You know he's threatening to do that because he must consider you to be self medicating but threatening to take you off your meds is ourageous!! You should ask, if you see him again, does he want you to get better or not? coz if he takes your meds away, just because you have a few drinks, then tell him, you don't appreciate being bullied by the person who is supposed to be making you better. Make up his mind for heaven's sake! no meds? counselling, or more meds? What's it to be?? Just tell him you took his advice, that'll shut him up! you are anything BUT an alcoholic - trust me!
Don't cry over someone who doesn't deserve your tears. They sit up in their little ivory towers sipping their champagne and wonder what the poor people are doing today! So don't waste worry over him he obviously can't make up his mind about what he's supposed to do and admitted that to you.
It's not you, ok? You just thought you could trust him with that information. I get hassled too and it can put a real guilt trip on you, my advice is, for what it's worth, is enjoy yourself with your friends - or by yourself if it pleases you, because bp is hard enough to cope with so just chill out with or without your friends, listen to a bit of music and socialise and have a bit of fun - you deserve to feel human you know!!
Good luck my friend and happy vibes your way. In my thoughts.
Electric blue
He basically asked me how much I'd been drinking lately and I said the same (about once a week WITH FRIENDS and about 3-5 drinks - which I know is too much, etc. But I didn't think once a week was so bad). Then he proceeded to berate me for the rest of the appointment because I was still drinking. He threatened to take away my anxiety med. When I told him how depressed I'd been feeling, he said he was stuck. He needed some kind of commitment for me to stop drinking or he wouldn't do anything with my meds. He said he'd like to add another antidepressant. Then he asked me if my depression was bad enough to get me motivated to do things?!?! THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN DEPRESSION!!!!
He wants me to see an addiction counselor but I have already in the past and they do nothing. I AM SO UPSET!
Then as I was leaving I started crying harder, and he asked why. I said, "I just want to leave." He said, "OK." Earlier he also told me to make an appointment with him in a month. Fat chance!!!!
Hi Llama,
What the???? that's the most rediculous thing i've ever heard - and you know i've heard a lot of rediculus things from my doctors!! How dare he say he wants to send you to an addiction counselor??!! You know he's threatening to do that because he must consider you to be self medicating but threatening to take you off your meds is ourageous!! You should ask, if you see him again, does he want you to get better or not? coz if he takes your meds away, just because you have a few drinks, then tell him, you don't appreciate being bullied by the person who is supposed to be making you better. Make up his mind for heaven's sake! no meds? counselling, or more meds? What's it to be?? Just tell him you took his advice, that'll shut him up! you are anything BUT an alcoholic - trust me!
Don't cry over someone who doesn't deserve your tears. They sit up in their little ivory towers sipping their champagne and wonder what the poor people are doing today! So don't waste worry over him he obviously can't make up his mind about what he's supposed to do and admitted that to you.
It's not you, ok? You just thought you could trust him with that information. I get hassled too and it can put a real guilt trip on you, my advice is, for what it's worth, is enjoy yourself with your friends - or by yourself if it pleases you, because bp is hard enough to cope with so just chill out with or without your friends, listen to a bit of music and socialise and have a bit of fun - you deserve to feel human you know!!
Good luck my friend and happy vibes your way. In my thoughts.
Electric blue
dreams in neon
07-01-2009, 04:31 PM
My tdoc just called me and asked if I was okay. Apparently my appointment with him was for today at 2pm. (I thought it was for tomorrow) We're scheduled for next Wednesday at 11am. I think I got sidetracked and my memory has been quite poor until recently. I forgot to pay the rent for this month, so I went to the bank earlier to take care of that. While I was there, I decided to pay the rent for July as well so it's one less thing I have to worry about. It's so frustrating when the meds we take to feel halfway decent, level or whatever you want to call it cause us to gain weight, have poor memory, etc. Why can't drug manufacturers design meds that don't have so many side effects? By the way, my tdoc was very nice to me about the fact that I forgot my appointment, but I was embarrassed because it was only my fourth session with him and I don't want him to think that I don't take my therapy seriously.
electric blue
07-01-2009, 05:19 PM
My tdoc just called me and asked if I was okay. Apparently my appointment with him was for today at 2pm. (I thought it was for tomorrow) We're scheduled for next Wednesday at 11am. I think I got sidetracked and my memory has been quite poor until recently. I forgot to pay the rent for this month, so I went to the bank earlier to take care of that. While I was there, I decided to pay the rent for July as well so it's one less thing I have to worry about. It's so frustrating when the meds we take to feel halfway decent, level or whatever you want to call it cause us to gain weight, have poor memory, etc. Why can't drug manufacturers design meds that don't have so many side effects? By the way, my tdoc was very nice to me about the fact that I forgot my appointment, but I was embarrassed because it was only my fourth session with him and I don't want him to think that I don't take my therapy seriously.
Hi Dreams,
Don't worry, i'm sure he would understand and would know you take your therapy seriously. Good on you for getting your rent paid up! I think you're doing better than you think! :)
Hi Dreams,
Don't worry, i'm sure he would understand and would know you take your therapy seriously. Good on you for getting your rent paid up! I think you're doing better than you think! :)
Llama
07-01-2009, 06:11 PM
Thanks for the other replies guys! It really helps me more than you know. I can't talk to anyone I know about this, but I know I can always come here and talk to people who understand. So, thanks again for that!
You'll never believe what happened today though! Someone from the "admissions" unit called me on my phone (I didn't answer, because I knew it was someone from the human service center). She said she spoke to my pdoc about my appointment and wanted to ask me a few questions. She is from the "admissions" unit and works on the same team/area that this lady I had worked with after getting out of the hospital works. I don't want to go IP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here I am crying again. What a week! I don't want to be plucked away from friends and family again and go to the state hospital which is about 90 miles from friends and family. They are trying to ruin my life!!!
You'll never believe what happened today though! Someone from the "admissions" unit called me on my phone (I didn't answer, because I knew it was someone from the human service center). She said she spoke to my pdoc about my appointment and wanted to ask me a few questions. She is from the "admissions" unit and works on the same team/area that this lady I had worked with after getting out of the hospital works. I don't want to go IP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here I am crying again. What a week! I don't want to be plucked away from friends and family again and go to the state hospital which is about 90 miles from friends and family. They are trying to ruin my life!!!
strawberrysc
07-01-2009, 09:01 PM
Thanks for the other replies guys! It really helps me more than you know. I can't talk to anyone I know about this, but I know I can always come here and talk to people who understand. So, thanks again for that!
You'll never believe what happened today though! Someone from the "admissions" unit called me on my phone (I didn't answer, because I knew it was someone from the human service center). She said she spoke to my pdoc about my appointment and wanted to ask me a few questions. She is from the "admissions" unit and works on the same team/area that this lady I had worked with after getting out of the hospital works. I don't want to go IP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here I am crying again. What a week! I don't want to be plucked away from friends and family again and go to the state hospital which is about 90 miles from friends and family. They are trying to ruin my life!!!
Llama, I am so sorry. That is terrible. I experienced being plucked from friends and family against my will last year. It was very difficult and scary, and something that I never want to do again. I don't think that they can do that to you unless they think you are a risk to yourself or someone else. I am thinking about you and wishing good things.
You'll never believe what happened today though! Someone from the "admissions" unit called me on my phone (I didn't answer, because I knew it was someone from the human service center). She said she spoke to my pdoc about my appointment and wanted to ask me a few questions. She is from the "admissions" unit and works on the same team/area that this lady I had worked with after getting out of the hospital works. I don't want to go IP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here I am crying again. What a week! I don't want to be plucked away from friends and family again and go to the state hospital which is about 90 miles from friends and family. They are trying to ruin my life!!!
Llama, I am so sorry. That is terrible. I experienced being plucked from friends and family against my will last year. It was very difficult and scary, and something that I never want to do again. I don't think that they can do that to you unless they think you are a risk to yourself or someone else. I am thinking about you and wishing good things.
Llama
07-01-2009, 11:05 PM
Thanks strawberry. I am so worried about this. I do think that they might believe I'm a threat to myself. I am not sure though. I am hoping that they don't think that way. I really didn't give them any indication in that manner.
I am not sure whether or not to call this person from the admissions unit back. I probably will tomorrow, but I sure don't want to. But if I don't call, they'll probably try to call my mom or try to track me down in person. Which I don't want.
I am not sure whether or not to call this person from the admissions unit back. I probably will tomorrow, but I sure don't want to. But if I don't call, they'll probably try to call my mom or try to track me down in person. Which I don't want.
strawberrysc
07-01-2009, 11:29 PM
Thanks strawberry. I am so worried about this. I do think that they might believe I'm a threat to myself. I am not sure though. I am hoping that they don't think that way. I really didn't give them any indication in that manner.
I am not sure whether or not to call this person from the admissions unit back. I probably will tomorrow, but I sure don't want to. But if I don't call, they'll probably try to call my mom or try to track me down in person. Which I don't want.
Llama
So sorry this is happening to you. Hang in there and give them a call back, it might be something totally different that they want....
I am not sure whether or not to call this person from the admissions unit back. I probably will tomorrow, but I sure don't want to. But if I don't call, they'll probably try to call my mom or try to track me down in person. Which I don't want.
Llama
So sorry this is happening to you. Hang in there and give them a call back, it might be something totally different that they want....
irishwriter
07-02-2009, 09:49 AM
My tdoc just called me and asked if I was okay. Apparently my appointment with him was for today at 2pm. (I thought it was for tomorrow) We're scheduled for next Wednesday at 11am. I think I got sidetracked and my memory has been quite poor until recently. I forgot to pay the rent for this month, so I went to the bank earlier to take care of that. While I was there, I decided to pay the rent for July as well so it's one less thing I have to worry about. It's so frustrating when the meds we take to feel halfway decent, level or whatever you want to call it cause us to gain weight, have poor memory, etc. Why can't drug manufacturers design meds that don't have so many side effects? By the way, my tdoc was very nice to me about the fact that I forgot my appointment, but I was embarrassed because it was only my fourth session with him and I don't want him to think that I don't take my therapy seriously.
dreams,
well done you for taking care of all these things. great that pdoc understood. yes it would be wonderful if one pill would work without horrendous side effects.
dreams,
well done you for taking care of all these things. great that pdoc understood. yes it would be wonderful if one pill would work without horrendous side effects.