I don't know if I have a mental problem or not and I am almost imbarassed to say that I might have, because of my husbands family. They are all very bright...got it all together in every way kind of family and I feel like because of my problems, I will be an imbarassment to them. I have this problem of thinking and feeling like people think I am stupid or not as good as they are and I think my husband has a thing for his sister-in-law, and we fight about it all the time, well only when she is around. I have dreams...bad dreams about them being together in a way that if I caught them in real life...let's just say casteration!!! Anyway, my husband say's all the time that he thinks I need to get help, he thinks I have a mental problem, because of my mood swings. I don't know what do all of you think? I do feel depressed all the time, and I really thinks he has a thing for her even though he denighs it every time. I don't know any more what is wrong with me, all I know is I need help and I don't know who to turn to and how I am supossed to feel...is it a mental thing or not :(

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~Tamrock~

Hi Tamrock,

:wave:

[This message has been edited by chrysanthemum (edited 01-03-2003).]

Tam, If it were me, I'd go to my family doctor and explain these feelings you're having. Life is too short to be miserable. Also, i wish that your husband and his/your family were more understanding. "If" your husband is doing what you suspect, then your in a terrible situation with him and his unsupporting family. I believe i would give some serious thought to starting my life anew with a better man(more supportive of you& doesn't cheat on you). That's my opinion, hope it helps,good luck and don,t be afraid to write back. buck.

Hey buck,

Thank you for your support! I appreciate it very much. I wish I had someone around here so understanding to talk to. Like maybe my husband, we have been maried for 12 years and have been in a realationship with him for 18 years. I am really scared to leave, we have been together a long time and I wouldn't know the first thing about dating anymore. And even if I did leave, I have two kids to think about, and I guess pass the low self esteem down to them :(

I already lie to the doctor about having bad headaches everyday (I have them, BAD, but not everyday) So he will give me darvacet to make me relax enough to make me not care about what's going on around me. Kinda BITES...but it works, most of the time.

Man that helps...just to vent out some feelings, the only problem is, I could go on and on, and we don't want that, so take care of yourself Buck and thank you so much for your time.

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~Tamrock~

Tamrock, I too feel embarrassed about my mental illness but my husband has to remind me that is it an illness that I cannot control..kinda like cancer or diabetes. He says it just hand I was dealt. If you do have some concerns, please see a doc and try to remind yourself that its not your fault.
GL, Dawn

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~Dawn~