timetotransform
12-14-2002, 04:53 PM
I'm hoping to find people that have had depression or depressive episodes that have changed over the years. I've had three major episodes of depression (crying, can't get out of bed, thoughts of ending it) when I wasn 16, again at 21, and one more at age 23. Now I don't feel hardly anything. I call it zombie-depression. I can hold a job, a pretty stressful one actually, and do what is required to keep it, but outside of work I have no desire to do anything but go home. It's like social anxiety disorder has set in.
Funny thing is, I'm more alone now that I was at the times when I was serverely depressed, but now I don't feel anything really, except stress.
The one thing I do know is that when I had my last severe episode, I vowed never to feel that badly again. It's like my brain said OK, you won't feel this bad anymore, but you won't feel good, either. I'm not on any meds. Has this happened to anybody else? http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/confused.gif
Ellen
Funny thing is, I'm more alone now that I was at the times when I was serverely depressed, but now I don't feel anything really, except stress.
The one thing I do know is that when I had my last severe episode, I vowed never to feel that badly again. It's like my brain said OK, you won't feel this bad anymore, but you won't feel good, either. I'm not on any meds. Has this happened to anybody else? http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/confused.gif
Ellen

