notsowelladjusted
09-23-2001, 02:50 AM
I am new to this, so bear with me!, (like a grizzly, can't spell either).
But anywho, this is my deal; I am the poster child for ADHD (DSM-IV, 12 out of 12), I can live with that, and I can live with the fact that I check the doors twice (or three times), that all the can lables in my pantry face the same way, My shrink asks me if i hear voices? I wouldn't call it that. more like echos in my head, they don't tell me what to do and seldom even talk to me, just Conversations back there, I know I could be a part of if I wanted to, because i am the other person in the conversation... and the paranoia really sucks... you know looking out the windows, stairing at the air vents, cracks in the wall,, I asked my best friend last friday if he were trying to kill me, thats embearasing, (still can't spell). I have no concept of time, and I've binked out a few times (lost 4hr or even 2wks of my life before coming to...) the worst one, we were at red lobster and I thought my family was trying to kill me, and the only way I would live was to eat mt food in a serton order, thats rediculous. but why do I have these spells?
My doc currently has me on 450mg of wellbutrin SR, & some concerta sr, yeah, whatever, it's like I stepped a yr back in time. my prev doc had me on 80mg of adderall & 600mg of provigil /day we were starting to get somewhere as far as the ADHD & Depression goes, but lets fix one thing at a time. sleep used to be good,, yeah, my 2-4hr/night, but now that sucks even worse than life... I'm tired any suggestions? I know it's all in my head! Let me say that again ... `IT`S ALL IN MY HEAD... what gives???
...thanx
But anywho, this is my deal; I am the poster child for ADHD (DSM-IV, 12 out of 12), I can live with that, and I can live with the fact that I check the doors twice (or three times), that all the can lables in my pantry face the same way, My shrink asks me if i hear voices? I wouldn't call it that. more like echos in my head, they don't tell me what to do and seldom even talk to me, just Conversations back there, I know I could be a part of if I wanted to, because i am the other person in the conversation... and the paranoia really sucks... you know looking out the windows, stairing at the air vents, cracks in the wall,, I asked my best friend last friday if he were trying to kill me, thats embearasing, (still can't spell). I have no concept of time, and I've binked out a few times (lost 4hr or even 2wks of my life before coming to...) the worst one, we were at red lobster and I thought my family was trying to kill me, and the only way I would live was to eat mt food in a serton order, thats rediculous. but why do I have these spells?
My doc currently has me on 450mg of wellbutrin SR, & some concerta sr, yeah, whatever, it's like I stepped a yr back in time. my prev doc had me on 80mg of adderall & 600mg of provigil /day we were starting to get somewhere as far as the ADHD & Depression goes, but lets fix one thing at a time. sleep used to be good,, yeah, my 2-4hr/night, but now that sucks even worse than life... I'm tired any suggestions? I know it's all in my head! Let me say that again ... `IT`S ALL IN MY HEAD... what gives???
...thanx
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FREDO
09-25-2001, 11:18 PM
Not a clue. Hopefully docs will keep trying med cocktails working with you to try an figure it all out.
Wish ya luck, some of that stuff your doing is no worse than living a paranoid lifestyle, some of it sounds liked whacked free association thought carried to the n'th degree. Are you and the docs depending on meds to bring "within normal limits"?
Write another time when you feel like yacking, I probably can't help (I'm just a Chef), but I'm interested in your experiences, and what you and the docs plan on for future treatment.
Take care bud..
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FREDO
Wish ya luck, some of that stuff your doing is no worse than living a paranoid lifestyle, some of it sounds liked whacked free association thought carried to the n'th degree. Are you and the docs depending on meds to bring "within normal limits"?
Write another time when you feel like yacking, I probably can't help (I'm just a Chef), but I'm interested in your experiences, and what you and the docs plan on for future treatment.
Take care bud..
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FREDO