flyfskm
03-24-2002, 12:14 AM
hi there! if there is anyone out there with ocd, i'd love to hear from you and swap stories. hope to hear from you! kim. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dance.gif
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cwesterman
03-30-2002, 08:29 AM
Hey!
So there is someone else, out there with ocd.
I have ocd in a very severe form. I am very
much interested in swapping stories!
I'am looking forward to hearing from you!!!!
you're not alone.
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So there is someone else, out there with ocd.
I have ocd in a very severe form. I am very
much interested in swapping stories!
I'am looking forward to hearing from you!!!!
you're not alone.
Posting of e-mail addresses isn't allowed on the boards. Thanks - Paddington Moderator :)
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flyfskm
03-30-2002, 01:29 PM
hi! glad to hear from you. what are some of your symptoms? are you on medication? i take paxil. i am basically a cleaning freak. sometimes it's a real pain, if you know what i mean! kim. :wave:
cwesterman
03-31-2002, 09:09 AM
Kim,
It would literally take me all day to list the things
that I do. Like I said, I have a severe form of ocd.
example: checking the stove over and over, turning
off light switches, counting rituals, I have this thing
about counting to the number 4, over and over!!!!
Everything I basically touch turns in to severe mind
boggling agitation, why can't I just stop? I've
suffered with this for at least 20 yrs. I'm 32.
I am on 40 mg of prozac daily, and 300 mg of wellbutrin
I've tried everything, except Luvox. Paxil was fine
for a short period, but when I became pregnant with
my last child, I had to come off. Boy, you talk about
withdrawals, they were bad!!!!!!
I also have chronic depression. It's also very bad.
Actually I think I may have been misdiagnosed, mine
sounds more like bipolar, (according to things I've
been reading}. The ocd affects every and I mean every
aspect of my life, and I honest to God hate it!!!!
How long have you had ocd? Do you remember when it
started? Do you handle it better around people because
of the shame? Have to go for now, can't wait to hear
from you!!! Finally a real person who can relate,
God knows my husband can't. He does not understand at
all. I gotta get ready for church, by the way, hope
you have a HAPPY EASTER!
Charmin
It would literally take me all day to list the things
that I do. Like I said, I have a severe form of ocd.
example: checking the stove over and over, turning
off light switches, counting rituals, I have this thing
about counting to the number 4, over and over!!!!
Everything I basically touch turns in to severe mind
boggling agitation, why can't I just stop? I've
suffered with this for at least 20 yrs. I'm 32.
I am on 40 mg of prozac daily, and 300 mg of wellbutrin
I've tried everything, except Luvox. Paxil was fine
for a short period, but when I became pregnant with
my last child, I had to come off. Boy, you talk about
withdrawals, they were bad!!!!!!
I also have chronic depression. It's also very bad.
Actually I think I may have been misdiagnosed, mine
sounds more like bipolar, (according to things I've
been reading}. The ocd affects every and I mean every
aspect of my life, and I honest to God hate it!!!!
How long have you had ocd? Do you remember when it
started? Do you handle it better around people because
of the shame? Have to go for now, can't wait to hear
from you!!! Finally a real person who can relate,
God knows my husband can't. He does not understand at
all. I gotta get ready for church, by the way, hope
you have a HAPPY EASTER!
Charmin
flyfskm
04-01-2002, 01:01 AM
hi! happy easter to you, too! my ocd started about 7 years ago. i was 17 and pregnant with my first daughter. for years i never understood what was wrong with me so i never told anyone. when i was in public i would do ANYTHING to hide it. i felt like i was going to explode and it drove me nuts, but i couldn't let anyone know. i came across an article about this time last year about ocd and i was stunned. it was like my life was on that paper! i still didn't know how well it was accepted in the world so i still kept silent. finally in july 2001, my husband told me to see a doctor or hit the road, because he couldn't deal with it. i kept chalking it up as stress due to 3 kids, military life, etc. so i went and was diagnosed and put on paxil. i have never been better, but very slowly i feel the urges coming back. i guess i'll have to talk with my doctor. i was switched to prozac for a short time around september but i had horrible nightmares and the weirdest suicidal thoughts. to make matters worse, my 6 year old daughter was also diagnosed with ocd last week! and while we were leaving the office, the doctor happened to get a glimpse of my 3 year old daughter and witness one of her episodes and advise me to make an appointment for her too because she has obvious signs of ocd. are we all crazy? what does your husband think of this? is he at least a little understanding? i am so glad i finally get to communicate with someone else who has this! i was beginning to think there was no one out there, then you popped up! talk to you soon! kim. :wave:
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cwesterman
04-02-2002, 08:37 AM
Hey Kim,
Sounds like your dealing with yours pretty good.
I've come to the conclusion, there is no cure all, you just have to change medication from time to time.
also another drug that works wonders for ocd is zanax,
it's for like anxiety and panic disorders when in
reality, ocd is like lots of anxiety built up inside
that make us do these crazy things. But of course
stress does trigger these episodes, and I speak from
experience: I have 4 boys. 2 of which are 15, one is
10, and the last is 2. I also have a husband I'd love
to kick to the curb on most days!! He is not under-
standing about any of my problems. And I must not
forget that my MOTHER-IN-LAW lives with me also.
Now that's trouble!!!!
I also have 2 ruptured discs, I am in constant pain,
from the time I awake until bedtime and would not know
what a GOOD nights sleep means. I'v had a unsuccessful
surgery on my back, been through a series of nerve
blocks, and now am currently seeing a pain management
doc, which means you either take the pain pills and
feel bad or suffer with the pain.
It's very hard for me to manage a house, 4 kids, a full
time job, all these problems and a very DEMANDING
HUSBAND. I left him a couple of months ago, [see i'm
back] but I'm ready to make a change for the better
for ME. My kids disrespect me, they call me CRAZY, they
tell that none of their friends have mothers like me.
I'm ready for a nuthouse!! I am so glad to have found
you too. Hope to hear from you soon!!!!!
p.s how do you do the smilies?
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Sounds like your dealing with yours pretty good.
I've come to the conclusion, there is no cure all, you just have to change medication from time to time.
also another drug that works wonders for ocd is zanax,
it's for like anxiety and panic disorders when in
reality, ocd is like lots of anxiety built up inside
that make us do these crazy things. But of course
stress does trigger these episodes, and I speak from
experience: I have 4 boys. 2 of which are 15, one is
10, and the last is 2. I also have a husband I'd love
to kick to the curb on most days!! He is not under-
standing about any of my problems. And I must not
forget that my MOTHER-IN-LAW lives with me also.
Now that's trouble!!!!
I also have 2 ruptured discs, I am in constant pain,
from the time I awake until bedtime and would not know
what a GOOD nights sleep means. I'v had a unsuccessful
surgery on my back, been through a series of nerve
blocks, and now am currently seeing a pain management
doc, which means you either take the pain pills and
feel bad or suffer with the pain.
It's very hard for me to manage a house, 4 kids, a full
time job, all these problems and a very DEMANDING
HUSBAND. I left him a couple of months ago, [see i'm
back] but I'm ready to make a change for the better
for ME. My kids disrespect me, they call me CRAZY, they
tell that none of their friends have mothers like me.
I'm ready for a nuthouse!! I am so glad to have found
you too. Hope to hear from you soon!!!!!
p.s how do you do the smilies?
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flyfskm
04-02-2002, 01:51 PM
hello again! first off, to get the smilies, when you reply look beside the box to the left and click on "smilies legend" and a whole list will pop up. some are really cute! i can't believe you have to deal with all that AND YOUR MOTHER-IN-LAW! good lord, i'd have admitted myself long ago just to get away from them all! how do you manage? what happened to your back? i feel awful that you are in soooo much pain, it's not fair sometimes that the people who already have a full plate just keep getting served over and over! figures though, doesn't it? how many meds are on? kim. :p
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cwesterman
04-02-2002, 08:20 PM
hello!
how are things going? fine here. well, to answer your
question, i'm not sure how i hurt my back, except
for the fact that with my last child, i've been the
sole caregiver and i do mean 99.9% of the time and
he will be 3 in july. my husband won't bathe him
he spends basically NO time with this child.
i do all the gro shopping each week, and with 7 people
in the house that's alot of gro. bags, that i tote
every week.
when i had my surgery, i wasn't able to heal properly
because my husband was worried about me getting back
to work, so i went back after 2 weeks. BIG MISTAKE
as far as meds: prozac, wellbutrin, zonegran, soma
lortab,nexium,and zyrtec. EXPENSIVE!!!!!
Talk to you soon!
how are things going? fine here. well, to answer your
question, i'm not sure how i hurt my back, except
for the fact that with my last child, i've been the
sole caregiver and i do mean 99.9% of the time and
he will be 3 in july. my husband won't bathe him
he spends basically NO time with this child.
i do all the gro shopping each week, and with 7 people
in the house that's alot of gro. bags, that i tote
every week.
when i had my surgery, i wasn't able to heal properly
because my husband was worried about me getting back
to work, so i went back after 2 weeks. BIG MISTAKE
as far as meds: prozac, wellbutrin, zonegran, soma
lortab,nexium,and zyrtec. EXPENSIVE!!!!!
Talk to you soon!
Tara A. Baldini
04-02-2002, 10:31 PM
Someone please tell me exactly what OCD is and the symptoms? I'm kind of a neat freak but I'm not sick or anything. How severe are the symptoms?
flyfskm
04-02-2002, 10:32 PM
why is your hubby such a jerk? i would get away from him. do you have any other family around that could help you? kim. :mad:
flyfskm
04-02-2002, 10:38 PM
hi tara! for me, ocd stemmed from being a neat freak. i started obsessing about everything being clean and compulsively cleaned for hours. i imagined how dirty everything must REALLY be. it was really weird, but i'm better now that i'm on paxil. kim. :wave:
topcash
04-02-2002, 10:47 PM
With a husbund like that, you need a lawyer, not a doctor Originally posted by cwesterman:
hello!
how are things going? fine here. well, to answer your
question, i'm not sure how i hurt my back, except
for the fact that with my last child, i've been the
sole caregiver and i do mean 99.9% of the time and
he will be 3 in july. my husband won't bathe him
he spends basically NO time with this child.
i do all the gro shopping each week, and with 7 people
in the house that's alot of gro. bags, that i tote
every week.
when i had my surgery, i wasn't able to heal properly
because my husband was worried about me getting back
to work, so i went back after 2 weeks. BIG MISTAKE
as far as meds: prozac, wellbutrin, zonegran, soma
lortab,nexium,and zyrtec. EXPENSIVE!!!!!
Talk to you soon!
hello!
how are things going? fine here. well, to answer your
question, i'm not sure how i hurt my back, except
for the fact that with my last child, i've been the
sole caregiver and i do mean 99.9% of the time and
he will be 3 in july. my husband won't bathe him
he spends basically NO time with this child.
i do all the gro shopping each week, and with 7 people
in the house that's alot of gro. bags, that i tote
every week.
when i had my surgery, i wasn't able to heal properly
because my husband was worried about me getting back
to work, so i went back after 2 weeks. BIG MISTAKE
as far as meds: prozac, wellbutrin, zonegran, soma
lortab,nexium,and zyrtec. EXPENSIVE!!!!!
Talk to you soon!
cwesterman
04-03-2002, 07:22 AM
hey kim,
i do have family out of state, but whenever I left a couple of months ago, my kids had a really HARD TIME
with it. So now I'm just giving it some time.
we are in the process of building a house, I figure
once we get moved in, that's when it will all hit the
fan. and that should be around july, so........
talk to you later.
i do have family out of state, but whenever I left a couple of months ago, my kids had a really HARD TIME
with it. So now I'm just giving it some time.
we are in the process of building a house, I figure
once we get moved in, that's when it will all hit the
fan. and that should be around july, so........
talk to you later.
Tara A. Baldini
04-03-2002, 02:30 PM
So is ocd something that can strike anyone or is it something you're born with?
flyfskm
04-03-2002, 09:23 PM
hi tara! i think a little of both. i know my biological mother had it, as do i and both of my daughters. i do know people that have no family history of it but have gotten it. i haven't really come across any info on that. but thanks, i'll chat with my doctor about it. kim. :wave:
Tara A. Baldini
04-03-2002, 11:22 PM
So if you're a total neat freak and like everything in your order does that mean you have ocd?
flyfskm
04-04-2002, 02:38 AM
not really. the only time i would worry is if it starts to control your life. if you constantly clean everything and then clean it again right after, or if you start obsessing about germs, etc. being on everything, then you might want to seek help. but just being an ordinary neat person is nothing to worry about. there's nothing wrong with liking to be neat and have stuff in order. kim. :D
rainbowlight
04-05-2002, 04:51 AM
I have OCD also, I am a clean freak too. My doctor is trying me on Paxil but I feel strange on it, so sedated and emotionless. Would these side effects pass in time? Will I feel happy again or just sedated/flat? Any advice would be great. I really want to get this under control, it is driving me nuts!
Zafu
04-05-2002, 07:30 AM
Hi Rainbow,
I'm on Paxil and have my full range of emotions available. I certainly smile and laugh a lot more than I did 5 months ago...... :)
Best wishes
Zafu http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/clown.gif
I'm on Paxil and have my full range of emotions available. I certainly smile and laugh a lot more than I did 5 months ago...... :)
Best wishes
Zafu http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/clown.gif
flyfskm
04-05-2002, 04:13 PM
hi rainbow! :wave: you should feel better soon! at first, paxil makes you feel weird but after the side effects subside, it's GREAT!!!! i'm with zafu, i haven't been this happy in a looong time. kim. :)
chrysanthemum
04-05-2002, 10:24 PM
Hi, all,
Those of you sho suffer from O.C.D. might care to read: "The Boy Who Couldn't Stop Washing" by Dr. Judith Rappaport.
It contains some very interesting stories about OCD.
Best wishes,
Chrys :)
Those of you sho suffer from O.C.D. might care to read: "The Boy Who Couldn't Stop Washing" by Dr. Judith Rappaport.
It contains some very interesting stories about OCD.
Best wishes,
Chrys :)
flyfskm
04-06-2002, 02:23 AM
i have read the book and i also recommend it! it's very insightful for those with this disorder. thanks for reminding me! :wave: kim.
Tara A. Baldini
04-07-2002, 06:03 PM
So ocd is constantly cleaning and worrying about germs. That it controls your life. Not just being a neat freak. How severe can this condition get?
flyfskm
04-08-2002, 02:21 AM
not necessarily just worrying about germs and cleaning. you can also have compulsions to count things and put them in certain orders over and over again. there's actually a pretty broad range when you're dealing with ocd. are you worried about yourself or someone you know? also, it can get extremely severe! there was a man a while back, i'm not sure if he's still alive, but it literally controlled his life. his name is on the tip of my tongue...if i remember i'll let you know. anyway, he always wore white gloves, everything had to be sterilized before he touched it(while wearing his white gloves), like silverware. he was wealthy and had servants so he never really had to do all this himself. he always stayed in this one specific room in his mansion and had a filter that the air from the outside had to pass through over 40 times before he felt it was clean enough for him to breathe. he had it bad. i will try to find his name tonight and post back. kim. :wave:
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flyfskm
04-08-2002, 05:23 PM
the man's name was howard hughes. if you find time, look him up. his story is fascinating. kim. :wave:
flyfskm
04-10-2002, 07:37 PM
charmin,
how are u doing?
how are u doing?
cwesterman
04-11-2002, 08:37 AM
hey kim!
i'm doing o.k., and you? i've had alot going on.
getting ready to start my epidural steroid injections
tomorrow, wish me luck...
as far as the ocd, i guess it will always be there.
but check this out, my doc put me on valium for
muscoskeletel?? muscle spasms of the spine, that
ought to help both, don't you think? the only problem
is i'm scared to take it, with all the other meds that
i'm on, so i don't know if it works or not.
i thought i had the most extreme case ever heard of
until i read your post about howard hughes, i can't
wait to check that out.
talk to you later!
i'm doing o.k., and you? i've had alot going on.
getting ready to start my epidural steroid injections
tomorrow, wish me luck...
as far as the ocd, i guess it will always be there.
but check this out, my doc put me on valium for
muscoskeletel?? muscle spasms of the spine, that
ought to help both, don't you think? the only problem
is i'm scared to take it, with all the other meds that
i'm on, so i don't know if it works or not.
i thought i had the most extreme case ever heard of
until i read your post about howard hughes, i can't
wait to check that out.
talk to you later!
cwesterman
04-11-2002, 07:24 PM
hey kim!
i'm o.k. how are you? i'm still obsessing not quite
as bad, i felt much better when i read your reply on
howard hughes, i didn't feel quite so nuts. i can't
wait to read more about him. talk to you later.
i'm o.k. how are you? i'm still obsessing not quite
as bad, i felt much better when i read your reply on
howard hughes, i didn't feel quite so nuts. i can't
wait to read more about him. talk to you later.
flyfskm
04-12-2002, 12:37 AM
i'm glad to hear from you! got worried for awhile. good luck with your injections, i couldn't do it. enjoy the valium! definately check out howard hughes! he was a very interesting man. how have your hubby and kids been treating you? better, i hope. they sounded so mean! talk to you later. let me know how those injections go. kim. :wave:
marlz
04-13-2002, 06:42 PM
After reading your posts you are describing me a little, which has me worried. I got on these message boards to help find out what's going on with me. I am almost to the point where I dont trust doctors. First of all let me tell you whats going on, maybe somebody can give me some advice.
I am a clean freak, but it's in a strange way. I always have to have things clean and if they aren't I feel uneasy and sad. The strange thing is that I hate to clean things. Infact since I was about 14, I stopped using other people's pillows, brushes, stop drinking after people...stuff like that. If something touches one of those things that I don't consider clean, I get freaked out. The same goes with sexual intercourse....it's almost dirty to me. On top of that, I have drastic mood swings, especially when something isn't going my way. I feel depressed when I go to work and make up excuses just to not have to go in. I like staying home sometimes and now going outside. I just feel so down all the time. I haven't seen a doctor because I know that I will just be put on medicine and I didn't want to have to do that. Does any of this sound familiar or can somebody advice me?
I am a clean freak, but it's in a strange way. I always have to have things clean and if they aren't I feel uneasy and sad. The strange thing is that I hate to clean things. Infact since I was about 14, I stopped using other people's pillows, brushes, stop drinking after people...stuff like that. If something touches one of those things that I don't consider clean, I get freaked out. The same goes with sexual intercourse....it's almost dirty to me. On top of that, I have drastic mood swings, especially when something isn't going my way. I feel depressed when I go to work and make up excuses just to not have to go in. I like staying home sometimes and now going outside. I just feel so down all the time. I haven't seen a doctor because I know that I will just be put on medicine and I didn't want to have to do that. Does any of this sound familiar or can somebody advice me?
flyfskm
04-13-2002, 09:45 PM
hi there! you sound like me a few years ago. i know going to a doctor about this kind of thing is scary, it took me years. finally, i realized that it's just not normal to be sad and unhappy ALL the time. i was like you with cleaning, too. it drove me up the wall! still does, sometimes. i can't stress to you how important it is to get some help for yourself. you don't HAVE to feel bad, and you're not alone. :D some of the doctors out there are really great, and there's no law saying you need to be medicated for you to feel better. :) but for me, that was the best route to take. my life has changed dramatically from taking paxil and now i can't wait for everyday to come so i can spend it with my kids and husband. i know the day will come for me to stop meds, but until it does, i'm gonna enjoy life! good luck, please let me know how you are! :wave: kim.
cadis31
04-15-2002, 08:05 AM
Hi all, this is Kims hubby, Charmin I feel so bad for you. I've been sitting here reading ya'lls posts for the last few min, your situation just breaks my heart,
exuse my language, but your husband needs a good HARD swift kick in the backside , if he can't stand beside you when you are trying to help yourself, then maybe he needs to hit the road. Thats the kind of crap you don't need, and should not have to deal with. Kim new for a little while from self diagnosis (enternet) that she might have ocd, and it was getting worse. She was to the point that when I would come home she would jump all over me for putting my arm on the counter, that was the least of it. One day I had enough and told her that if she didn't get help she could find the dore and I would help her. She did and then about 4 months ago we figured something may be wrong with me as well and I too was diagnosed with ocd. I do have an understanding of what the disease is, your husband does not. Ignorance is still no excuse for the way he is treating you(in sickness and in health, till death do you part). Maybe he needs to review his vows to you
with a dictionary so he can get a better understanding of what the hell he said that day. If he can't take the time to do that, then truly does not deserve you.
The only thing he is doing right now is making things
worse for you, you probably wouldn't have to be on some of the meds you are taking if he would help, and offered a little support to you. I'm sorry, but I had to get that out. I know myself and there is nothing I would ever let Kim go through by herself, if I can help it. She is my everything and without her I'm nothing. I really do hope things start looking up for you soon, people just are not built to deel with this much stress. Kim I apologize for jumping in on your post, but I felt the need to put my feelings in on this. . Take care, and we'll all talk soon I hope. A.W.
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exuse my language, but your husband needs a good HARD swift kick in the backside , if he can't stand beside you when you are trying to help yourself, then maybe he needs to hit the road. Thats the kind of crap you don't need, and should not have to deal with. Kim new for a little while from self diagnosis (enternet) that she might have ocd, and it was getting worse. She was to the point that when I would come home she would jump all over me for putting my arm on the counter, that was the least of it. One day I had enough and told her that if she didn't get help she could find the dore and I would help her. She did and then about 4 months ago we figured something may be wrong with me as well and I too was diagnosed with ocd. I do have an understanding of what the disease is, your husband does not. Ignorance is still no excuse for the way he is treating you(in sickness and in health, till death do you part). Maybe he needs to review his vows to you
with a dictionary so he can get a better understanding of what the hell he said that day. If he can't take the time to do that, then truly does not deserve you.
The only thing he is doing right now is making things
worse for you, you probably wouldn't have to be on some of the meds you are taking if he would help, and offered a little support to you. I'm sorry, but I had to get that out. I know myself and there is nothing I would ever let Kim go through by herself, if I can help it. She is my everything and without her I'm nothing. I really do hope things start looking up for you soon, people just are not built to deel with this much stress. Kim I apologize for jumping in on your post, but I felt the need to put my feelings in on this. . Take care, and we'll all talk soon I hope. A.W.
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cwesterman
04-15-2002, 07:40 PM
to cadis 31,
coming from a man's point of view, it made me feel very
good, to hear that. THANK YOU ALOT!!!!!
talk to you soon. :wave:
charmin
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coming from a man's point of view, it made me feel very
good, to hear that. THANK YOU ALOT!!!!!
talk to you soon. :wave:
charmin
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cadis31
04-16-2002, 08:28 AM
Hi Charmin, good to hear from you. I'm glad to see I made you feel better, I just wish there was more Kim and I could do to help. I hate to see someone in the situation you are in. Hang in there though, you seem like a stong smart lady. Just remember God will never put more on your shoulders than you can handle. Kim and I are pulling for you, just keep in touch. :D
flyfskm
04-16-2002, 04:00 PM
yeah, what he said!!! :D kim.
Nicci57
04-17-2002, 09:40 PM
Hey!! Just thought Id add myself to the list of OCDers. Im ALMOST 16, (in two days:P:P) and I have had it for as long as I can remember. Ive had almost all of the symptoms somewhere in my life. Right now its a LOT of counting and rituals related to that, and I have a lot of just plain weird rituals too........ e.g. cant wear or eat anything red just weird stuff like that. I was wondering does anybody else have a ritual for almost EVERYTHING thing that u do?? I mean like I have to brush my teeth a certain way, can only throw my gum going from 7th hour in a certain trash can, can only use four pieces of toilet paper, and I mean like for almost EVERY basic normal thing u would do have a ritual for. Just wondering if im the only one that does all this weird crap.
-Nicci
-Nicci
flyfskm
04-17-2002, 10:15 PM
hi nicci! have you ever taken any meds for this or have you dealt with it on your own? i have a few rituals that i go through everyday. it drives me up the wall! in case we don't hear from you in 2 days, http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/birthday.gif! kim.
OCDemon
04-19-2002, 02:10 AM
Hey Nicci? Yeah, im a VERY severe case of OCD and i have rituals for pretty much every aspect of my life. Anything that can be counted or divided in ANY conceivable way MUST be done in fours or sevens. That pretty much includes...everything ^^ so while those arent my only symptoms by a long shot, i know where youre coming from. ^_^
cwesterman
04-19-2002, 06:07 AM
Hey, Nicci!
First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
I know exactly where you are coming from, I have a severe case of ocd, myself. Let me tell you my daily
weird crazy things that I do and the rituals, they are
nuts so here goes, this might not make you feel
so bad.
First of all, when I get up and go to the restroom, I
can't just tear off a normal amount of tissue, it has
has to to be alot, and this is just to tee-tee.
then when i brush my teeth, its a certain way a certain
number of times, usually my counting ritual is the number 4, i have to wash my hands constantly over and
over, there is NOTHING that I can touch that does not
turn in to these painstaking, mind boggling, drive
me up the wall kind of things. I can't stand to look
in my closet, because I will take things off the hanger
and put it back on, ??? why? i don't know! just because
it doesn't look like its hanging right. whenever i wash
rinse and dry dishes, i do it, over and over at least
4 times. crazy stuff, i know!!! when i bathe, i have
to wash over and over and my hair my has to be done
at least 4 times, the same with combing it. this is
just some of MANY things i do, and i am on medication,
but nicci, i also have alot of other problems going
on in my life which will have a DIRECT impact on the
severity of symptoms of OCD. :wave:
talk to you soon!
charmin
First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
I know exactly where you are coming from, I have a severe case of ocd, myself. Let me tell you my daily
weird crazy things that I do and the rituals, they are
nuts so here goes, this might not make you feel
so bad.
First of all, when I get up and go to the restroom, I
can't just tear off a normal amount of tissue, it has
has to to be alot, and this is just to tee-tee.
then when i brush my teeth, its a certain way a certain
number of times, usually my counting ritual is the number 4, i have to wash my hands constantly over and
over, there is NOTHING that I can touch that does not
turn in to these painstaking, mind boggling, drive
me up the wall kind of things. I can't stand to look
in my closet, because I will take things off the hanger
and put it back on, ??? why? i don't know! just because
it doesn't look like its hanging right. whenever i wash
rinse and dry dishes, i do it, over and over at least
4 times. crazy stuff, i know!!! when i bathe, i have
to wash over and over and my hair my has to be done
at least 4 times, the same with combing it. this is
just some of MANY things i do, and i am on medication,
but nicci, i also have alot of other problems going
on in my life which will have a DIRECT impact on the
severity of symptoms of OCD. :wave:
talk to you soon!
charmin
cwesterman
04-19-2002, 06:16 AM
hey kim,
i have not heard from you! you okay?
hope so.
charmin :wave:
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i have not heard from you! you okay?
hope so.
charmin :wave:
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flyfskm
04-19-2002, 07:24 PM
yeah, i'm still here! doing good. getting ready for the hubby to depart. :(
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aniboo
04-19-2002, 08:58 PM
Yes understand your ocd..I was dx about 7 years ago..
I too had the counting thing...and the cleaning..and rearraning an item that might be out of place..such as a ashtray on a table..i would sit for hours trying to make it right...arranging things was my big problem...i now take 40 mgs of Paxil...iI on occasion will have a break through..and start the process again.I also am manic depressive..and at this time in a very bad depression...only want to sleep..but the Paxil makes me very jittery at night...
I too had the counting thing...and the cleaning..and rearraning an item that might be out of place..such as a ashtray on a table..i would sit for hours trying to make it right...arranging things was my big problem...i now take 40 mgs of Paxil...iI on occasion will have a break through..and start the process again.I also am manic depressive..and at this time in a very bad depression...only want to sleep..but the Paxil makes me very jittery at night...
Nicci57
04-20-2002, 12:12 AM
Hey Charmin, OCDemon, kim, and aniboo. Thanks for writing me back!! I am really sorry that u guys have to go through this too!! Most of you all have the counting thing in common with me. Except everything I do has to be evened out in increments of 8. Just wondering, but r u guys able to hide your ocd for the most part or is it just totally obvious?? This is what bugs me the most is that this stuff is constantly going through my mind but no one knows about it. I do the same thing as u Charmin in the bathroom kind of. I can only use four pieces of toilet paper no matter what. And if I accidentally get too much I have to tear of 8 more pieces. Does anyone else have a problem like when you go by a mirror or u c something and u have to look at it and count to even it out. Its kind of embarrassing when Im walking down the hall and I c something on the ceiling and I have to practically stop and turn around in the middle of the hallway to stare up at it to count and even it out. Everytime I do that whoever Im standing by always looks up to c what im looking at LOL. I havent been to a doc about this or taken medicine or anything. I have a question for u guys. What finally convinced u guys to go and get help?? Welp thanks and thanks for wishing me happy b-day too!!:P:P
-Nicci
-Nicci
flyfskm
04-20-2002, 01:56 PM
hi nicci! hope your b-day went well! all of my friends know i have ocd, so it's not a problem there. out in public, i don't try to hide it. i think people just think i'm weird. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/rolleyes.gif but i could care less what they think, the ones that matter are already behind me. :D my hubby was the one who finally convinced me to seek help. we have 3 kids and it got so bad that he finally told me to get help or get out. boy, that woke my butt up! :round: now i'm loving life again. :wave: kim.
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cwesterman
04-21-2002, 09:53 AM
hey aniboo!
how are you? fine here. please help me, i have some
unanswered questions about bipolar, maybe you can help.
first of all, i know i have SEVERE depression, and of course OCD, also diagosed as PSTD. but i think mine goes deeper, than JUST depression. I have HORRIBLE
mood swings, there are days when if i didn't have to get out of bed [2yr.old] i simply wouldn't.
there are days when i REFUSE to look in a mirror, because of the way i feel/look.
but usually its worse when, i'm not taking my medicine
right. my husband is not supportive, in fact he was complaining about the drug bill and told me that i need
to cut out any thing that's not necessary, so i thought
well, i really have not been on wellbutrin but for 3 or
4 months, unlike prozac [i've been on 40mg a day for years], so i will slowly take myself off. WRONG!!!!!
big mistake. i literally almost shut down. my hygeine
habits changed, AND THIS IS NOT ME AT ALL!!!
but then i have days that i"FIX UP" and feel like a million bucks, and it seems that i am just WONDERFUL.
complete different person, then the cycle starts all
over. its not nearly as bad, when i take all my correct
medicine, but it still happens. now you tell me does
this sound like just a case of ordinary SEVERE DEPRESSION, or not? sorry for being so long winded, but
if you would, please reply!!! THANKS SO MUCH.
HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON! :wave:
CHARMIN
how are you? fine here. please help me, i have some
unanswered questions about bipolar, maybe you can help.
first of all, i know i have SEVERE depression, and of course OCD, also diagosed as PSTD. but i think mine goes deeper, than JUST depression. I have HORRIBLE
mood swings, there are days when if i didn't have to get out of bed [2yr.old] i simply wouldn't.
there are days when i REFUSE to look in a mirror, because of the way i feel/look.
but usually its worse when, i'm not taking my medicine
right. my husband is not supportive, in fact he was complaining about the drug bill and told me that i need
to cut out any thing that's not necessary, so i thought
well, i really have not been on wellbutrin but for 3 or
4 months, unlike prozac [i've been on 40mg a day for years], so i will slowly take myself off. WRONG!!!!!
big mistake. i literally almost shut down. my hygeine
habits changed, AND THIS IS NOT ME AT ALL!!!
but then i have days that i"FIX UP" and feel like a million bucks, and it seems that i am just WONDERFUL.
complete different person, then the cycle starts all
over. its not nearly as bad, when i take all my correct
medicine, but it still happens. now you tell me does
this sound like just a case of ordinary SEVERE DEPRESSION, or not? sorry for being so long winded, but
if you would, please reply!!! THANKS SO MUCH.
HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON! :wave:
CHARMIN
OCDemon
04-21-2002, 03:43 PM
Hey Nicci!
Well, big questions... as far as hiding my OCD went, i dont do that anymore. I "came out" about my OCD about a year ago (im 17 now). BEFORE that, however, you should have SEEN how i tried to hide it! I was only six when i became obsessive compulsive, and at six you have no idea that everyone else is not like you. So you carry on like nothing is wrong, and that life is just this damn hard, for years. Later on, i admitted to myself that something was wrong as i started to realise that others werent like me... but i still wanted to hide it, because i now felt like a total freak. What i would do to hide it is "stall" the compulsions as long as possible. If i was handed something dirty in the course of a conversation, id hold it and cringe and beat myself up and SCREAM internally, and then as soon as it was polite to leave id dash for the bathroom and wash and wash and wash...
So yeah, its really embaressing, but theres nothing you can really do about that... thats why ive come out about it... when you tell your friends, it gets a lot easier (assuming they understand... i ruined a few friends telling them this, they thought i was a freak. but people like that arent really your friends anyway). I mean... i dont have to hide it anymore when im with them, and they no longer try to shake my hand when theyve been taking out the garbage etc. ^^ it really lightens my compulsion load.
As far as what made me go seek therapy? It happened twice. The first time, i had an episode where i was forced to buy some water and soap and take a shower behind a convenience store in the middle of nowhere in the dead of night. THAT wasnt fun. The second time, my girlfriend left me because it was too hard to deal with my compulsions. THAT really got me going cause she was the first girl i ever really loved. I went to therapy the next week and im on Effexor now as well as in behavioral therapy and cognitive therapy. And yknow? Im getting a bit better ^^ I hope this helps, Nicci, its kind of a life story ^^ lol
Good luck!
OCDemon
Well, big questions... as far as hiding my OCD went, i dont do that anymore. I "came out" about my OCD about a year ago (im 17 now). BEFORE that, however, you should have SEEN how i tried to hide it! I was only six when i became obsessive compulsive, and at six you have no idea that everyone else is not like you. So you carry on like nothing is wrong, and that life is just this damn hard, for years. Later on, i admitted to myself that something was wrong as i started to realise that others werent like me... but i still wanted to hide it, because i now felt like a total freak. What i would do to hide it is "stall" the compulsions as long as possible. If i was handed something dirty in the course of a conversation, id hold it and cringe and beat myself up and SCREAM internally, and then as soon as it was polite to leave id dash for the bathroom and wash and wash and wash...
So yeah, its really embaressing, but theres nothing you can really do about that... thats why ive come out about it... when you tell your friends, it gets a lot easier (assuming they understand... i ruined a few friends telling them this, they thought i was a freak. but people like that arent really your friends anyway). I mean... i dont have to hide it anymore when im with them, and they no longer try to shake my hand when theyve been taking out the garbage etc. ^^ it really lightens my compulsion load.
As far as what made me go seek therapy? It happened twice. The first time, i had an episode where i was forced to buy some water and soap and take a shower behind a convenience store in the middle of nowhere in the dead of night. THAT wasnt fun. The second time, my girlfriend left me because it was too hard to deal with my compulsions. THAT really got me going cause she was the first girl i ever really loved. I went to therapy the next week and im on Effexor now as well as in behavioral therapy and cognitive therapy. And yknow? Im getting a bit better ^^ I hope this helps, Nicci, its kind of a life story ^^ lol
Good luck!
OCDemon
rainbowlight
04-22-2002, 06:38 PM
The Paxil didn't work out for me. Now I am on week 3 of Zoloft. It was working wonderfully at 25 mgs, and then at 37.5 mgs. but my pdoc just bumped it up to 50 and I feel horrible. My emotions are flattened, the anxiety is back and so is the compulsion to clean. Has anyone experienced worsening of symptoms once the dose is too high on a med. I can't figure it out. I was wondering if you guys new what might cause this. Hope everyone is doing well.
flyfskm
04-22-2002, 10:19 PM
that happened to me, too. my doctor upped my paxil and it was horrible! i had to go back to my previous dose and now i'm fine again. good luck! :wave: kim.
Nicci57
04-23-2002, 11:43 PM
OCDemon-
Hey!! Sounds like we kind of have a lot in common. Im 16 and Ive had it ever since I was a really little kid too. I dont remember not having it. I was like you I really had no idea that you weren't supposed to think that way at all. I have kind of told my friends about it a little bit. I just basically told them I have OCD and Im okay with doing a few compulsions in front of them but I still try and hide most of them. Did your friends ever try to "fix" you?? When I first told them about it they thought I could just stop because they didnt understand. So they would constantly make me touch red things (one of my weird things) and they would touch me 6 times (bad number) or just stuff like that. I know they didnt usually do it to be mean, but man that really sux, u prolly know what i mean. Welp just wondering, but was your OCD always that bad or did it just get really bad as u got older?? Mine was always there everyday, but in like 8th grade I found out what it was and from there it just basically exploded. Welp thats it for now lol :) :)
-Nicci
Hey!! Sounds like we kind of have a lot in common. Im 16 and Ive had it ever since I was a really little kid too. I dont remember not having it. I was like you I really had no idea that you weren't supposed to think that way at all. I have kind of told my friends about it a little bit. I just basically told them I have OCD and Im okay with doing a few compulsions in front of them but I still try and hide most of them. Did your friends ever try to "fix" you?? When I first told them about it they thought I could just stop because they didnt understand. So they would constantly make me touch red things (one of my weird things) and they would touch me 6 times (bad number) or just stuff like that. I know they didnt usually do it to be mean, but man that really sux, u prolly know what i mean. Welp just wondering, but was your OCD always that bad or did it just get really bad as u got older?? Mine was always there everyday, but in like 8th grade I found out what it was and from there it just basically exploded. Welp thats it for now lol :) :)
-Nicci
OCDemon
04-24-2002, 01:08 AM
Nicci,
Yeah, i have a couple of friends who tried to "fix" me but once they saw the result they stopped trying that... One of my best friends, in trying to "make me face it" as he said, actually caused me to go catatonic. After that, he was VERY understanding.
As far as it getting worse as i get older, it was BAD at six, got really bad up until 10 or so. At twelve, when i started to hear about what OCD was, it was intolerable, and just a few months ago i was up to six hours of compulsions a day. On the effexor now im down from five showers a day to one or two, and i can actually ignore some compulsions, but until now it just got worse and worse ^^
I hope that my experience can help in some way. OCD is tough, especially childhood onset. (oh, and six is a bad number for me too...and multiples of six ^^...and red was a bad colour for me for four years or so ^^ luckily it was one of the transient obsessions, as i really LIKE red ^^)
OCDemon
Yeah, i have a couple of friends who tried to "fix" me but once they saw the result they stopped trying that... One of my best friends, in trying to "make me face it" as he said, actually caused me to go catatonic. After that, he was VERY understanding.
As far as it getting worse as i get older, it was BAD at six, got really bad up until 10 or so. At twelve, when i started to hear about what OCD was, it was intolerable, and just a few months ago i was up to six hours of compulsions a day. On the effexor now im down from five showers a day to one or two, and i can actually ignore some compulsions, but until now it just got worse and worse ^^
I hope that my experience can help in some way. OCD is tough, especially childhood onset. (oh, and six is a bad number for me too...and multiples of six ^^...and red was a bad colour for me for four years or so ^^ luckily it was one of the transient obsessions, as i really LIKE red ^^)
OCDemon
juniper2068
04-24-2002, 09:22 PM
Kim and Cwesteman,
I had OCD bad in Jr.High and Highschool. I just thought I was crazy. I had been to shrinks all through childhood for "not really getting along with my mother". Do you think any of them caught on to it? No way.
As you, I discovered it when I grew up and came across a book about it. I was stunned. I finally knew I wasn't crazy. It was a real thing. And it is genetic, related to depression, alcoholism, tourette's,etc.
I worry about my kids. At least I know what to look for (I think) and there is probable treatment. Which is more anyone knew for me. My life would have been so different if I would have known of medication in the "olden days"
I'm sorry, I am really distracted for this post. My girls are all over me.
Hopefully talk to you soon,
Junebug
I had OCD bad in Jr.High and Highschool. I just thought I was crazy. I had been to shrinks all through childhood for "not really getting along with my mother". Do you think any of them caught on to it? No way.
As you, I discovered it when I grew up and came across a book about it. I was stunned. I finally knew I wasn't crazy. It was a real thing. And it is genetic, related to depression, alcoholism, tourette's,etc.
I worry about my kids. At least I know what to look for (I think) and there is probable treatment. Which is more anyone knew for me. My life would have been so different if I would have known of medication in the "olden days"
I'm sorry, I am really distracted for this post. My girls are all over me.
Hopefully talk to you soon,
Junebug
juniper2068
04-24-2002, 09:27 PM
Sorry, I didn't see the second page. :( I'm talking to all of you :round:
Wow, Kim, you really opened up a can of worms here! How nice for everyone!!
Wow, Kim, you really opened up a can of worms here! How nice for everyone!!
Kathrin
04-25-2002, 12:22 AM
Hello... just wanted to say hi. Getting help for OCD feels wonderful... sudden freedom! I am on 40 mgs of Prozac now and it really helps me.
Kathrin
Kathrin
flyfskm
04-27-2002, 01:55 PM
hey junebug! i did open up a can of worms, didn't i! it's so great to hear from all of you. i have pneumonia right now so i can't talk long. :( my 6 year old daughter was recently diagnosed with ocd, and my 3 year old daughter has a SEVERE case of it. my son is ok for now, but he's only 1! there's still plenty of time for him. :D
charmin,
what's up with you? how have you been? let me know! :wave:
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charmin,
what's up with you? how have you been? let me know! :wave:
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junebug2068
05-01-2002, 05:30 PM
Hi Kim,
We lost your post over in depression. How are you doing? Is your pneumonia over with? How are the kids and you dealing this week without cadis? Hopefully it is getting a little better. I know he is thinking of you every minute!! It's hard when you can't contact him when you want. (phone,email, whatever) I know it makes him seem even further away.
I had OCD when I was in Jr. High and High school. I didn't know what it was. I just thought I was crazy. If only I'd have known (or the stupid shrinks figured it out) I would have had a different life. I'm glad to know now that I am not the only one. It's pretty much cleared up on it's own now. However, I am on Zoloft, and with that the tiny things that were left are pretty much gone. Paxil worked real well a few years ago, but getting pregnant I went off of it. Didn't go back on.
Has anyone heard from Nicci57?
Nicci, I feel for you. 16 is hard enough as it is without OCD on top of it!!! I hope to hear from you! Have you tried Paxil or any medication? If not, please do, it could change your life!
junebug :round:
We lost your post over in depression. How are you doing? Is your pneumonia over with? How are the kids and you dealing this week without cadis? Hopefully it is getting a little better. I know he is thinking of you every minute!! It's hard when you can't contact him when you want. (phone,email, whatever) I know it makes him seem even further away.
I had OCD when I was in Jr. High and High school. I didn't know what it was. I just thought I was crazy. If only I'd have known (or the stupid shrinks figured it out) I would have had a different life. I'm glad to know now that I am not the only one. It's pretty much cleared up on it's own now. However, I am on Zoloft, and with that the tiny things that were left are pretty much gone. Paxil worked real well a few years ago, but getting pregnant I went off of it. Didn't go back on.
Has anyone heard from Nicci57?
Nicci, I feel for you. 16 is hard enough as it is without OCD on top of it!!! I hope to hear from you! Have you tried Paxil or any medication? If not, please do, it could change your life!
junebug :round:
junebug2068
05-01-2002, 05:37 PM
I'M SUCH AN IDIOT!!! I DID IT AGAIN http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bang.gif
I didn't see the second page again. And I forgot I already posted here, duh! Then double posted the 2nd message because I didn't see it on the first page.
I promise I won't do that again.
junebug :(
I didn't see the second page again. And I forgot I already posted here, duh! Then double posted the 2nd message because I didn't see it on the first page.
I promise I won't do that again.
junebug :(
flyfskm
05-01-2002, 06:22 PM
hi junebug! you're not an idiot! :nono: don't talk like that. i'm here, that's all i have to say. it is SO hard without him. i know my post in depression took a hike. figures, huh? my ocd is flaring up nicely with all this damn stress. the paxil isn't working worth a crap, maybe i need a tranquilizer! :D how are you doing on zoloft? :wave:
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flyfskm
05-02-2002, 08:11 PM
charmin,
where are you? are you ok?
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where are you? are you ok?
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Nicci57
05-02-2002, 11:03 PM
OCDemon, Junebug, and everyone else-
Hey!! Sorry I haven't written in a while.
OCDemon-
Hey Im really glad for u that your ocd is getting better :) :) What kind of symptoms do u have right now that u r working on??
Junebug-
Nope I haven't been on any medications for it. I'm actually scared to go on medicine. Lots of reasons for that too. Welp I have tried telling my parents and a few other people too, but nobody really understands at all. I have found out that my dad had it too, but his wasn't nearly as severe as mine has gotten. So I just basically deal with it the best that I can on my own. It helps a lot to talk on here to people who can actually understand!! What kind of ocd do you/ have you had?? Welp thanks for writing me:P:P
-Nicci
Hey!! Sorry I haven't written in a while.
OCDemon-
Hey Im really glad for u that your ocd is getting better :) :) What kind of symptoms do u have right now that u r working on??
Junebug-
Nope I haven't been on any medications for it. I'm actually scared to go on medicine. Lots of reasons for that too. Welp I have tried telling my parents and a few other people too, but nobody really understands at all. I have found out that my dad had it too, but his wasn't nearly as severe as mine has gotten. So I just basically deal with it the best that I can on my own. It helps a lot to talk on here to people who can actually understand!! What kind of ocd do you/ have you had?? Welp thanks for writing me:P:P
-Nicci
cwesterman
05-05-2002, 01:29 AM
hey kim,
i'm still here, although i feel like i've been thru
hell, first of all, my husband has informed me that i
can't have any more pain medication, or muscle relaxers
for this degenerative disc problem and herniation.
if i don't agree to this, then he says its grounds
for divorce, because he says i'm an addict!!!!!
can you believe? he was gonna try and force me into
rehab, a couple of weeks ago. he told me there
was NOTHING WRONG WITH ME, IT WAS ALL IN MY HEAD!!!! that my irrational behavior and severe depressive mood swings because of the DRUGS, and i
told him that my behavior was because he made me sick,
and i could no longer stand him.
so i contacted my dr.,he said under no circumstances
are you to go thru any type of detox, because of the
epidural treatments that i'm taking..... they've
helped for a few days but my doctor said that after this 3rd on i'm going to have done, he's gonna refer
me to a neurologist, because most likely would need
surgery. my husband says YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GET ANY
BETTER, that's all he ever does anymore.and stuff
like ...there is a million other people in this world that hurt alot worse than you and they don't
have to take a pill....so of course this great big
ole house that i never wanted to begin with $250,000
range is almost ready and he told me yesterday he wanted a divorce!!!!! I COULDN'T HAVE BEEN HAPPIER!
although this morning he was trying to crawfish on
me and i just told him like it was,, i am not happy,
and as long as i'm with him, no i probably won't get
better. one thing i left out earlier on our kids
when i married him he had a 3 yr old and a 7 yr old
and i had a 7 yr old at that time, their mother left them, literally picked her stuff and moved on, i met
him a few months later and played MOMMY for everyone
and this is the thanks i get. and then we have one
that will be 3 in july. sorry to be so long winded
but i told you, that you would flip.
now how about you? are you feeling better? hope so.
what about cadis, i see he's gone, tell him hi and i
will pray for him and wish you both well .
thanks for listening kim, i promise this is not a plea for sympathy, its for real and i have to get out.
:wave: talk to you soon
charmin
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i'm still here, although i feel like i've been thru
hell, first of all, my husband has informed me that i
can't have any more pain medication, or muscle relaxers
for this degenerative disc problem and herniation.
if i don't agree to this, then he says its grounds
for divorce, because he says i'm an addict!!!!!
can you believe? he was gonna try and force me into
rehab, a couple of weeks ago. he told me there
was NOTHING WRONG WITH ME, IT WAS ALL IN MY HEAD!!!! that my irrational behavior and severe depressive mood swings because of the DRUGS, and i
told him that my behavior was because he made me sick,
and i could no longer stand him.
so i contacted my dr.,he said under no circumstances
are you to go thru any type of detox, because of the
epidural treatments that i'm taking..... they've
helped for a few days but my doctor said that after this 3rd on i'm going to have done, he's gonna refer
me to a neurologist, because most likely would need
surgery. my husband says YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GET ANY
BETTER, that's all he ever does anymore.and stuff
like ...there is a million other people in this world that hurt alot worse than you and they don't
have to take a pill....so of course this great big
ole house that i never wanted to begin with $250,000
range is almost ready and he told me yesterday he wanted a divorce!!!!! I COULDN'T HAVE BEEN HAPPIER!
although this morning he was trying to crawfish on
me and i just told him like it was,, i am not happy,
and as long as i'm with him, no i probably won't get
better. one thing i left out earlier on our kids
when i married him he had a 3 yr old and a 7 yr old
and i had a 7 yr old at that time, their mother left them, literally picked her stuff and moved on, i met
him a few months later and played MOMMY for everyone
and this is the thanks i get. and then we have one
that will be 3 in july. sorry to be so long winded
but i told you, that you would flip.
now how about you? are you feeling better? hope so.
what about cadis, i see he's gone, tell him hi and i
will pray for him and wish you both well .
thanks for listening kim, i promise this is not a plea for sympathy, its for real and i have to get out.
:wave: talk to you soon
charmin
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[This message has been edited by paddington (edited 05-05-2002).]
flyfskm
05-05-2002, 08:15 PM
charmin,
good lord,girl! what a mess you have! :eek: your hubby is a first class JERK. :mad: how long have you been married? are y'all gonna get divorced? how are you feeling health wise? i see emotionally you're a wreck. i can't believe he wanted to admit you! i had started to wonder if you were ok, glad to hear from you! :wave:
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good lord,girl! what a mess you have! :eek: your hubby is a first class JERK. :mad: how long have you been married? are y'all gonna get divorced? how are you feeling health wise? i see emotionally you're a wreck. i can't believe he wanted to admit you! i had started to wonder if you were ok, glad to hear from you! :wave:
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flyfskm
05-20-2002, 08:28 PM
hey charmin, are you hiding again? hope you're alright! :wave:
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cadis31
05-23-2002, 07:31 PM
Christ charmin, I'm sorry you have to put up with someone like that. If he's going to act like that, then he doesn't deserve you. I hope you do get away from him. You probably will do a lot better without him giving you a bunch of crap all the time. It's easier for me to stand by Kim though. She gave me the same choice I gave her, get help, or get out. After she got help, we realized that I was not as normal as I or she thought. I also have OCD, and just yesterday my DR. over here in the desert upped me to 40mg of Paxil a day to help me deal with being away from my family. The 30mg I was on was keeping me just on the edge, and they wanted to make sure that I would not go over the edge I guess. Like Kim said, her Paxil may help a little with her OCD, but her anxiety level has shot through the roof. Right now I am trying to get them to send me home to relieve her of some of the stress, and bull that she is haveing to go through by her self. Her going through this also puts a ton of it on me, I just wish for every bit of stress and anxiety I have over here, would remove that same amount away from her, sort of like a transfer from her to me. I would go nuts, but at least she would feel better. Charmin please let us know how you and your situation are going, I hope all goes well with you, Take care. :D
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I love you dearly Kim, A/F.
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I love you dearly Kim, A/F.
memehegan
05-23-2002, 08:45 PM
Hey, if ya spend hours and hours in the garden all summer up rooting the flowers because they came up the wrong color- ie.. each section of my huge heart shaped garden has a color theme and the wind carries the seeds - especially the pansies to the wrong sections- so up they come root and all- I am constantly replanting them in their proper places, my friends think I'm crazy, , and god help the plant store if there is a stray color that hasn't quite bloomed yet in the box. See I keep telling them its just the artist in me keeping my 'palate' neat!