my name is stacey. your post wasnt where alot of people will see it. try clicking on new topic and posting.
try calling your local mental health center. most of them go on a sliding fee scale. sometimes you have to shop arond for a dr that you are comfortable with. they can help. give you ideas to change behavior. things you might have never have thought of . some may work for you some may not. but all are worth a try. nothing hurt. they will listen with out being judgement. the first step is you wanting to stop. i wish you lots of luck.
my prayers go with you, stacey