hey , I am also a pure obsessor. I have been obsessing for about a month now. Obsesing over Tourettes syndrome and Ocd. I often obsess on every little behavior I go through. It is so tiring I know. I think we need to accept what we have and try to move on even if it hurts us. No matter how bad the anxiety gets try not to give in to your compulsion. When I am working I find myself concentrating more, of course I still want to obsess over my problems. I jsut drown myself into my work or hobbies(basketball) and usually it works. Just got to try to keep busy. I know it stinks, since when should relaxing and enjoying life be so tough. But once you get through this thinking rutt you are in right now, you will be able to focus better. I feel for you because I am also a pure OCDer. About the terminal illness I often think that way too, but you know what then we would obsess over that illness. It just doesn't stop but there is help to stop it significanly. Are you on meds? They help a lot. I am on Prozac 40 mgs, it helps a little. Well keep on fighting ok, because one day I really believe we will be free from these diseases, the future looks bright.