CHSGuardCuttie7
06-27-2003, 12:12 PM
I was formally diagnosed a couple of months ago with this life torturing disease. The hardest thing for me to do was tell my parents. To this day I wish I hadn't told them. I wish that I was still sitting in my room crying in the middle of the night because no one understands. But wait I do that more now than I did before. My parents don't understand at all, they think I am making all of this up. WHY WOULD I DO THAT?!?!?! WHAT IF I AM MAKING IT UP!?!?!?!?!?! I have been trying to deal with everything and it isn't working. The other day my mom called me a worthless piece of **** because I ran out of gas and was unable to pick my sister up from school. IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!!!! Everyday is getting harder and harder. I have been looking for a job but no one will hire me. Except for one place, but it goes against my morals. Unfortunatly it pays $19 an hour. I need to get out of this house and in order to do that I may need to take a job that goes against everything I stand for. Does that make me a hypocryte? GRRR!!! Sometimes I just don't think I can deal with all the stuff going on! And if it wasn't for my supportive boyfriend I honestly don't know if I would be here to type this horribly irritating but desperate plea for HELP!!! Someone please post back. Right now I need any kind of support!! Should I take the job, am I making this horrible thing up, WHAT SHOULD I DO!?!?!?! I can't make a disicion and it is driving me mad!!!! HELP HELP HELP!!!
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hangtenvetter
06-28-2003, 01:09 AM
I would talk to your boyfriend and see if there is any way he could help you. The money might be tight now, but if you take a job that demeans you or goes against what you believe to be right, you might regret it for a long time. Sounds as if your life is in quite a whirlwind. I wish you peace.
darktimes
07-10-2003, 01:28 PM
CHS,
Sounds like you are in a difficult situation right now. You sound very frustrated and scared. First understand, you are not alone. There are many,many people suffering from the ocd monster, and there are many people who are feeling the same emotions as you right now.
It's hard enought to battle the ocd monster when you are well supported, and it sounds like in your case, you're not getting much support. Have you tried educating your parents on ocd and how it works? Maybe even leave an article laying around for them to read. Knowledge in this case is power.
About the job...don't do it...if it goes against everything you stand for no amount of $ in the world is worth it. Just by posting on this site you are showing strong character and worth, and no one can take that from you...the only way it will leave is if you give it up...don't do it. Something will come up...I'll say a prayer for you.
Keep the faith,
Eric
Sounds like you are in a difficult situation right now. You sound very frustrated and scared. First understand, you are not alone. There are many,many people suffering from the ocd monster, and there are many people who are feeling the same emotions as you right now.
It's hard enought to battle the ocd monster when you are well supported, and it sounds like in your case, you're not getting much support. Have you tried educating your parents on ocd and how it works? Maybe even leave an article laying around for them to read. Knowledge in this case is power.
About the job...don't do it...if it goes against everything you stand for no amount of $ in the world is worth it. Just by posting on this site you are showing strong character and worth, and no one can take that from you...the only way it will leave is if you give it up...don't do it. Something will come up...I'll say a prayer for you.
Keep the faith,
Eric
Delphi373
07-10-2003, 02:59 PM
They estimate 1 in 50 have OCD...you're not alone. What type do you have if you want to mention it? :) You don't have to...but nothing is shocking, or weird, so don't worry about it.
I'm glad to hear your BF is supportive! Do you have health insurance? Could you perhaps find a therapist to visit on occassion...at least to have that extra support??
In regards to your parents, well, what can you do. Some people are ignorant, or fearful, whatever...you can try to educate them if you want, or put your energy elswhere...I guess it depends if you think that you can inform them and that they're open to it...otherwise look to building a support network.
Good luck with the job-hunt. I know the economy stinks right now and jobs are tight...but keep looking, and don't give up hope...things will turn around! :)
I'm glad to hear your BF is supportive! Do you have health insurance? Could you perhaps find a therapist to visit on occassion...at least to have that extra support??
In regards to your parents, well, what can you do. Some people are ignorant, or fearful, whatever...you can try to educate them if you want, or put your energy elswhere...I guess it depends if you think that you can inform them and that they're open to it...otherwise look to building a support network.
Good luck with the job-hunt. I know the economy stinks right now and jobs are tight...but keep looking, and don't give up hope...things will turn around! :)
Kathrin74
07-11-2003, 12:29 AM
Hello,
on thing I can tell you it rally doesn't sound like you are making it up! As you say yourself, why would you be making something like this up?? For attention?? There are easier ways... OCD is no fun to have!
It sounds like maybe the "am I making it up" question itself is turning into an obsessive question?
Gosh I am so sorry to hear that your parntes are treating you like that!
Don't know what to say about the job thing. I have high morals myself so I see where you'r coming from. (Sometimes you gotta be careful though to make sure it is really your morals and not the OCD talking!!!)
Peace,
Kathrin
on thing I can tell you it rally doesn't sound like you are making it up! As you say yourself, why would you be making something like this up?? For attention?? There are easier ways... OCD is no fun to have!
It sounds like maybe the "am I making it up" question itself is turning into an obsessive question?
Gosh I am so sorry to hear that your parntes are treating you like that!
Don't know what to say about the job thing. I have high morals myself so I see where you'r coming from. (Sometimes you gotta be careful though to make sure it is really your morals and not the OCD talking!!!)
Peace,
Kathrin