ShannonKay
07-16-2003, 12:16 AM
As if my obsessions, derealisation, panic, depression and anxiety were'nt enough, something else had to pop in my mind today, giving me more justification that I'm going insane.
I was subconsiously fooling with my two front teeth, just tapping them with my fingers and whatnot, when I had the urge to put pressure on them with my bottom teeth as hard as I could. I pushed them so hard that now they're sore and I even heard a popping noise when I did it.
What the hell is wrong with me? Why would I do this? Now I can't stop fooling with them and I'm scared to death that I'll push them so hard that I'll knock them out... I know it's extremely odd but I've always had a weird thing with teeth... I find the prospect of this happening so frightening.
And if it DID happen, if I DID actually push them too hard, I would be so ashamed to go to the dentist and explain that I did this to myself... plus, that scares me, because what if I act on other obsessions? The fact that I am capable of doing something like this in a matter of seconds horrifies me.
So much for my medicine! It's not working at all.
Anyway, I know that none of you have gone through this specifically, but maybe you can relate to me somewhat... I'm such a freak; this OCD is a nightmare and I'm a basketcase because of it.
I need to hear SOME kind of reassurance; any words would help... thankyou for your time. :(
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Shannon
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I was subconsiously fooling with my two front teeth, just tapping them with my fingers and whatnot, when I had the urge to put pressure on them with my bottom teeth as hard as I could. I pushed them so hard that now they're sore and I even heard a popping noise when I did it.
What the hell is wrong with me? Why would I do this? Now I can't stop fooling with them and I'm scared to death that I'll push them so hard that I'll knock them out... I know it's extremely odd but I've always had a weird thing with teeth... I find the prospect of this happening so frightening.
And if it DID happen, if I DID actually push them too hard, I would be so ashamed to go to the dentist and explain that I did this to myself... plus, that scares me, because what if I act on other obsessions? The fact that I am capable of doing something like this in a matter of seconds horrifies me.
So much for my medicine! It's not working at all.
Anyway, I know that none of you have gone through this specifically, but maybe you can relate to me somewhat... I'm such a freak; this OCD is a nightmare and I'm a basketcase because of it.
I need to hear SOME kind of reassurance; any words would help... thankyou for your time. :(
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Shannon
[This message has been edited by ShannonKay (edited 07-15-2003).]
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darktimes
07-16-2003, 01:05 PM
Life can get pretty messed up sometimes, huh. I can relate to all of the things you are experiencing, except for the teeth....yet anyway. email me...i would like to talk with you...
f_r_e_e_d_o_m2000@yahoo.com
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hangtenvetter
07-16-2003, 11:58 PM
Hang in there Shannon. I think that if you were really going insane you wouldn't know it. You are well aware that you are suffering from a mental illness. It's just that, an illness. You aren't psychotic. The twisted thoughts aren't your own. They are coming from your illness. I really believe that what you have can be overcome. I don't have a magic bullet to give you at this point, but I believe you'll make it. Hang in there.
Kathrin74
07-17-2003, 12:32 AM
Hello there,
stuff like that really isn't that uncommon.... reminds me a little of trichotillomania, where people rip out their own hairs, just because it's an urge they can't resist.
As for other "impulsive" actions... People with OCD who fear they will use violence or whatever sually DON'T act on their impulses, it is an entirely different kind of obsession.
The tooth thing is more like a tic, right... Gosh I can even relate to it somewhat, in minor ways I have done things like that... there was a time when I had to blink my eyes all the time, really hard, it was such an urge... really just went away again though. :-)
Kathrin
stuff like that really isn't that uncommon.... reminds me a little of trichotillomania, where people rip out their own hairs, just because it's an urge they can't resist.
As for other "impulsive" actions... People with OCD who fear they will use violence or whatever sually DON'T act on their impulses, it is an entirely different kind of obsession.
The tooth thing is more like a tic, right... Gosh I can even relate to it somewhat, in minor ways I have done things like that... there was a time when I had to blink my eyes all the time, really hard, it was such an urge... really just went away again though. :-)
Kathrin