8 years ago my boyfriend and I were at the market, and I decided to ask him whether or not he wanted ice cream. He replied "yes" and my second question to him was "what flavor do you want?" He almost barked back the answer "whatever" From that moment on I was almost traumatized you might say. I felt really numb and had no emotions/feelings for him whatsoever for that day. Ever since then I had started doubting whether or not I love him. Well, it's been three years since we've been married and I still have those doubts. I ask myself all the time whether or not I love him, and my answer is always a resounding yes. But these obssessive thoughts about leaving him and not wanting to be with him is always with me. I took Paxil for a couple of months and it worked nicely, then I decided to get off becuase I thought I was too weak of a person to not be able to handle my problems without drugs. Now I am obssessing again. My obssessions come in spurts. When I'm down, I can be really down for a long strectch of time, perhaps months at a time. It always comes back. If anyone out there can relate to my problem, please post or email me at vdu@lausd.k12.ca.us