fm5
10-08-2003, 01:40 PM
I think since this illness is so devastating for so many people, to laugh a little about it would be kind of different.
I was wondering what some others think this illness can be compared to or is similar to.
My analogy of ocd is that it feels like having an extortionist constantly warning me "if you don't do this, you will die"!!
I also feel since my ocd hit the "acute stage" a few years ago that I have been sort of thrown into a maze in the middle of the night. The maze is a couple miles long on all sides, and it has got all kinds of twists and turns and blockades in it, where I am trying to figure how to get out, and I am slowing getting out but by just inches each day.
Any of your thoughts of what it feels like to you?
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I was wondering what some others think this illness can be compared to or is similar to.
My analogy of ocd is that it feels like having an extortionist constantly warning me "if you don't do this, you will die"!!
I also feel since my ocd hit the "acute stage" a few years ago that I have been sort of thrown into a maze in the middle of the night. The maze is a couple miles long on all sides, and it has got all kinds of twists and turns and blockades in it, where I am trying to figure how to get out, and I am slowing getting out but by just inches each day.
Any of your thoughts of what it feels like to you?
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redbaron
10-08-2003, 07:31 PM
To me it feels like I have some sort of computer in my head whose job it is to say "What If", and then give me the worst possible outcome for any given situation!
spaniellove
10-08-2003, 08:26 PM
It's like looking into a pot of water and waiting for it to boil and thinking that somehow not looking at it will keep it from boiling.
hangtenvetter
10-08-2003, 08:46 PM
Like a conscience that always finds you guilty no matter what you do to appease it.
Sanguine
10-09-2003, 01:50 AM
1. Like Charlie Brown, certain that he'll finally get to kick the football, only to have Peppermint Patty pull it away at the last second every time.
2. Like a pair of chinese handcuffs (the harder you pull to get away, the tighter they get).
3. Like the carrot in front of the donkey.
2. Like a pair of chinese handcuffs (the harder you pull to get away, the tighter they get).
3. Like the carrot in front of the donkey.
sweetbelky
10-09-2003, 05:32 PM
lol Poor ol' Charlie Brown!!!!
PauloSRS
10-17-2003, 02:55 AM
It's a 21st century revolutionary drug type, tha more you try to fool it, the more she makes you to take it...what if we are part of an secret plan to create a new humanoid using neo-brain-windowsbug-agony hightech?
It also reminds me of Kenny from South Park, no matter how much we believe he won't die...i always does.
Also like having a dream with Pamela Anderson and waking up next to Cruella De *****...
Or like when you download a movie from kazaa thinking it is Terminator 3 and then it is some crappy porno...
I think that i have the mob after me and they screw every plan i make...the mob brain.
I think that we have the brain separeted in north and south regions and they are at war, in one side there is " God " and in the other side there is " ***** ", and ***** wins always cause God was a sufferer...
I think i'm going to bed now cause here in Portugal it's almost 7.00...good morning.The night is gone...
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Trust me it's paradise...
It also reminds me of Kenny from South Park, no matter how much we believe he won't die...i always does.
Also like having a dream with Pamela Anderson and waking up next to Cruella De *****...
Or like when you download a movie from kazaa thinking it is Terminator 3 and then it is some crappy porno...
I think that i have the mob after me and they screw every plan i make...the mob brain.
I think that we have the brain separeted in north and south regions and they are at war, in one side there is " God " and in the other side there is " ***** ", and ***** wins always cause God was a sufferer...
I think i'm going to bed now cause here in Portugal it's almost 7.00...good morning.The night is gone...
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Trust me it's paradise...
Oblio
10-17-2003, 11:55 PM
i often wonder if im schizophrenic b/c the nagging voices in my head that constantly analyze the world with inccessant babble. i can never tell them to go away nor can i control them.
i often feel as if i'm in a hole and everytime i try to get out someone/thing kicks me back in the hole. and everytime i fall back in, i get more and more tired so the climb back out gets more and more difficult.
p.s. "trust me, its paradise" ~~~> the beach, great movie, awesome quote. i prefer
"it's beautiful... not just..oh thats nice... its perfect"
i often feel as if i'm in a hole and everytime i try to get out someone/thing kicks me back in the hole. and everytime i fall back in, i get more and more tired so the climb back out gets more and more difficult.
p.s. "trust me, its paradise" ~~~> the beach, great movie, awesome quote. i prefer
"it's beautiful... not just..oh thats nice... its perfect"
fm5
10-18-2003, 12:44 PM
i often feel as if i'm in a hole and everytime i try to get out someone/thing kicks me back in the hole. and everytime i fall back in, i get more and more tired so the climb back out gets more and more difficult.
It's funny, that's exactly how I feel. Although sometimes it feels like I am locked up in a cage, and someone is rattling the cage too while I am in it.
It's funny, that's exactly how I feel. Although sometimes it feels like I am locked up in a cage, and someone is rattling the cage too while I am in it.
fm5
10-18-2003, 12:47 PM
Sorry, double post .
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StitchCarver
10-18-2003, 02:27 PM
I often feel like there's a bully inside my head, beating on me and playing tricks with my mind.
PauloSRS
10-21-2003, 05:41 AM
Oblio,
The Beach is one of my lifetime movies...few understand what the movie relates to...it's about perfection and what a human behing is capable of making or not making in order to keep it to himself, even murdering or making others suffer...
i also love this quote: " paradise is just a moment...and when you find that moment is lasts forever "...
Also i don't know if you have seen the movie " Trainspotting " by the same team of " The Beach ", it has great quotes too...as any other Danny B. movie...
For " Trainspotting " fans:
Choose life.
Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family,
Choose a ****ing big television
Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.
Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments.
Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends.
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of ****ing fabrics.
Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.
Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing ga me shows
Stuffing ****ing junk food into your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home
Nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, ****ed-up brats
You have spawned to replace yourself.
Choose your future. Choose life.
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Trust me it's paradise...
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The Beach is one of my lifetime movies...few understand what the movie relates to...it's about perfection and what a human behing is capable of making or not making in order to keep it to himself, even murdering or making others suffer...
i also love this quote: " paradise is just a moment...and when you find that moment is lasts forever "...
Also i don't know if you have seen the movie " Trainspotting " by the same team of " The Beach ", it has great quotes too...as any other Danny B. movie...
For " Trainspotting " fans:
Choose life.
Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family,
Choose a ****ing big television
Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.
Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.
Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments.
Choose a starter home.
Choose your friends.
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of ****ing fabrics.
Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.
Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing ga me shows
Stuffing ****ing junk food into your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home
Nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, ****ed-up brats
You have spawned to replace yourself.
Choose your future. Choose life.
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Trust me it's paradise...
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lynn45
10-22-2003, 05:22 PM
It's a really morbid, messed up way of our messed up minds making us put our priorities in order.
I think I already checked the stove, the locks...etc. But what is more important, me not getting up one more (or two, or three) time, or my house burning down with all of us trapped inside???
WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT? Of course...checking, checking, checking.
I think I already checked the stove, the locks...etc. But what is more important, me not getting up one more (or two, or three) time, or my house burning down with all of us trapped inside???
WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT? Of course...checking, checking, checking.
PauloSRS
10-23-2003, 09:48 AM
It's Batman without Bat...
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Trust me it's paradise...
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Trust me it's paradise...
ShannonKay
10-24-2003, 02:05 PM
It's a dark storm cloud, but only over MY head.
I'm aware that the sun is out there somewhere, that this cloud does'nt HAVE to constantly rain on me, but I don't know how to escape it. If I run, it'll just follow.
Better days and feelings of hope are like an umbrella, blocking out the storm, but only temporarily.
The umbrella disappears and the rain comes back full force.
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Shannon
I'm aware that the sun is out there somewhere, that this cloud does'nt HAVE to constantly rain on me, but I don't know how to escape it. If I run, it'll just follow.
Better days and feelings of hope are like an umbrella, blocking out the storm, but only temporarily.
The umbrella disappears and the rain comes back full force.
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Shannon
hangtenvetter
10-24-2003, 10:07 PM
This has been an insightful thread. The one thing that I keep seeing is the impossibility of escape. The never ending maze.
Tree Hugger
10-28-2003, 02:57 PM
Really...
its like drowning... excet there is no water to make you feel better about it.
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~~Eat an animal? I woud just as soon eat my own toe~~
its like drowning... excet there is no water to make you feel better about it.
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~~Eat an animal? I woud just as soon eat my own toe~~
hangtenvetter
10-29-2003, 07:14 PM
I once dreamed that I was hovering over fire. Above the fire there was a night sky and the moon was out. If I sang a song, I'd go up. As soon as I quit singing, I'd sink towards the flames. I sang and sang but would get tired. Once my voice stopped, I'd sink into the fire. When I sank I could feel the temperature rise, and all I could see was firy light that would grow deeper the further I sank. I'd see how long I could withstand the flames and then begin singing again. The dream seemed to go on for hours, me getting so tired of singing, the sinking, the singing.
This post brought back the memory of that nightmare. I dreamed that when I was a kid. I know this sounds weird, but the dream was more real than a dream. I seem to remember seeing everything while awake and singing in bed.
This post brought back the memory of that nightmare. I dreamed that when I was a kid. I know this sounds weird, but the dream was more real than a dream. I seem to remember seeing everything while awake and singing in bed.
spaniellove
10-29-2003, 08:20 PM
It's the pool of crisp clear water in the middle of the desert which turns out to be quick sand.
hangtenvetter
10-29-2003, 11:22 PM
Flying on a plane where you have to switch flights, and the only way you can feel secure in the switch is by checking to make sure the ticket stub is in your pocket. As soon as you let go of the ticket, you wonder if it is still there. So you check it again, again and again.
TF1023
12-26-2003, 04:37 PM
To me, OCD is enjoying a wonderful summer day. The sun is shining and everything is clear and perfect and hopeful. Then, suddenly, without warning, you find you've been sunburnt - the kind that feels like it won't ever go away. It itches and you know you shouldn't scratch, but you give in and the more you scratch, the worse it gets - the worse it hurts and the worse you feel.
Kitchener
12-29-2003, 05:53 PM
To me it feels like I have some sort of computer in my head whose job it is to say "What If", and then give me the worst possible outcome for any given situation!
Red Barron is bang on !!!!
Red Barron is bang on !!!!
mike55
12-29-2003, 07:21 PM
I like Sanguine's anology of the "Chinese Handcuffs" That says it all!!!
Chrissi
12-31-2003, 10:36 PM
to me it feels like you have been buried alive with only seconds before you run out of air and the only thing you have to dig with is a spoon....
you want to dig but you know it's hopless because you dont have enough air to make it to the top :(
you want to dig but you know it's hopless because you dont have enough air to make it to the top :(
gogocrazy
01-01-2004, 03:43 AM
I was thinking about this the other day! I definitely agree with Sanguine's anology of the "Chinese Handcuffs" as well, but I have another anology also! You know in some movies/T.V. shows there's the angel and the devil sitting on a person's shoulder and they're bother telling the person different things, although they are both part of the person (the conscience)? I think it's like that. With me, when I'm in the middle of my compulsions I'm telling myself "You have to do this or you'll be at fault for a dreaded occurance," but I'm also telling myself "This is useless, it doesn't make any sense. Just stop." It confuses me just as much as it seems to confuse the people in the movies and T.V. shows!
Daniela :)
Daniela :)
hangtenvetter
01-01-2004, 06:46 PM
Gogocrazy. Excellent analogy. :)
Kid_J
01-09-2004, 03:19 PM
Purely Obsessional OCD is like being a happy little fish swimming around minding your own business and getting snagged on a fisherman's lure. The more you try and yank free, the deeper the fishhook sinks. So you get reeled in, and accept your fate. Will you get thrown back? Yes. The fisherman (OCD) is not interested in eating you, he just gets a kick out of seeing how many times a day he can snag the fish. The smart fish learns to live with all the fishing lines in the water, instead of trying so hard to escape their presence....
Kinda weird, I know, but hey it came to me while I was watching Finding Nemo :p
Kinda weird, I know, but hey it came to me while I was watching Finding Nemo :p
red16
01-09-2004, 04:08 PM
I sort of feel like im a marianette and my brain is a sick,twisted pupeteer that puts thoughts I don't want there and tries as hard as it possibly can to make me think it's true and I have to use all my energy to fight it and sometimes it's so hard you start to believe it even though you know it's not true and that's when the whole not being able to live with uncertainty thing comes in, it gives you thoughts and feelings which aren't real, all the ones you don't want there. And it will often make up excuses to make you believe it, anything to get you more and more under it's control. did that make sense?
WizardPhrog
02-04-2004, 06:33 PM
What about a record player?
The record player is happily playing along, but then it gets stuck. It plays the same thing over and over again (Obbsessive). To try to get rid of this awful noise, you skip the the next song (Compullsive). However, a few minutes later, the record player gets stuck again.
The record player is happily playing along, but then it gets stuck. It plays the same thing over and over again (Obbsessive). To try to get rid of this awful noise, you skip the the next song (Compullsive). However, a few minutes later, the record player gets stuck again.