I've been suffering from extreme anxiety, panick disorder/attacks,depression, and PTD for the last 4 years now..My symptoms seem to variey in intensity, but are always there..I was dianogosed with schitzophrenia the first time I ever went into the Dr's..( She said this wasn't her ''area of expertise'')but that the symtptoms I was exibiting sounded like it..I knew I had been suffering from depression for years, and looking back now in retrospect, axniety disorder since I was a child..( I Just turned 21)..Anyways, after that I saw several other Dr's/Physchiatrists who said it wasn't Schitzophrenia at all, but more the Depression and Anxiety disorder..It was such a relief to hear that..But I'm still obessed with the fact that I may have it..I'm always in a constant state of derealization, everything around me feels unreal and unfamiliar, even my own face..I feel like an alien trapped inside of my brain, that I cant escape..I feel as tho I should be talking/acting different..I dont hear voices in my head that are like satonic or anything, telling what to do, but I DO HEAR MY OWN THOUGHTS..kind of like their being narrated..Or I'll space out and imagine conversations inside my head..I know their not real, but I cant seem to get rid of them..I also feel like I have 2 voices inside of my head arguing back and forth..one being negative, the other debating with it..I sometimes look at someone who looks ''suspicous'' and avoid them, like if I'm at the store or something, but havent ever had thoughts of the Gov or whatever ''out to kill me''..I'm able to present myself in an intelligent manner while around people, and nobody would ever guess that there was something ''wrong'' with me..I'm wondering, that if I was schitz would I be able to do that? I also have an extremely good memory..My Boyfriend says he's amazed by it! lol..I'm not sure if people suffering from schitz have that? I feel paranoid alot..Mainly about NEVER coming out of this feeling, and that I'll be like this forever..To sum it up-The symptoms with anxiety disorder/panick disorder, and depression are so cloesly correlated with other mental disorders, such as schitzophrenia that its hard to differieniate..Can someone please give their advice as to whethere or not they think I am? Thanks ~Jenna~

Wow, I just re-read that and were so many spelling mistakes..this may be my OCD, but I feel the need to correct them..I'm just so out of it right now, and not thinking clearly..Vary*, diagnosed*, closely*..I'm sure theres more lol feel free to correct me!

I don't know if it's schizophrenia but I can totally relate to everything you've said in your post. Except for the memory thing, my memory is crap, but everything else I can relate to totally. I don't know what it is, but you're not alone.

Thanks for replying..its somewhat of a comfort to know I'm not alone..Are you schitzophrenic yourself or been diagnosed with anything? ~Jenna~

I haven't been diagnosed schizophrenic but I've been prescribed zyprexa which is a drug that is normally prescribed to schizophrenics.

by the way what is PTD?

PTD=Post Traumatic Disorder

I can also relate to this. I've been prescribed Seroquel (like Zyprexa, used primarily to treat Schizophrenia). But I am confused! I suffer major depression and anxiety. I've got all the classic negative symptoms of SZ, and, while I am currently not experiencing any of the positive symptoms, I have had 2 episodes (1998 & 2000, the latter lasting 8-10 months), where I saw a particular 'being' that followed me everywhere I went, and this being spoke to me frequently. In 2000, I became a recluse, lost interest in everything, and became paranoid that everyone hated me, and that I was a failure. In one incident, I slit my wrists believing that the being was telling me to do so. I am currently avoiding any contact with friends, and feel listless, unmotivated and agitated. I am not interested in things that used to appeal to me, and I lose my temper all the time. I sleep a lot. I think deep thoughts, mostly negative. I spend hours staring blankly into space, thinking about nothing in particular. I think I hear voices sometimes, and I am always looking over my back, believing someone to be following me. I was convinced, recently, that a police car driving behind me was purposefully following ME (although I realised - albeit the next day only that that was not the case). Please tell me if it is possible that I had a schizophrenic episode in 2000, and if it is possible that I am still. Oh, and I have never doubted that I saw this being and that he spoke to me. I could even draw a picture of him! (My wife, who was most times with me, saw and heard nothing)

Yeah im gonna have to say it sounds like it, the only reason why i know is cause it sounds like me. I can just space out and have conversations in my head with myself or who ever the **** it is. I used to think my school was some special program or some crazy **** filled with people just like me being programmed to be a better next generation. I did some research n realize im a little schizophrenic. But yeah it gives me a good photogrpahic memory, i think it can really help you improve ur intelligence if u can control it and realize what you are. I recommend you watch this movie called Fight Club uve prob heard of it and I can relate to it.