They are upping my risperdol. That makes me sad. I have been seeing stuff alot lately. We drove by an old orphanige where people died and I saw little tiny shadows in the windows and up at the gate. It was sad cus they looked like they wanted to escape. It made me cry alot. And now there is a bad shadow in my apartment. My boyfriend tells me not to be scared but I am scared of it because its big and has red in the eyes. I dont know how he got in here. We didnt use to have the bad shadows. I think it followed me from somewhere else. Sometimes I think they are ghosts. I think that its an evil spirit. Im depressed.

Rainy,

Don't give in hon just talk to your doctor. And next time you have the urge to hurt yourself please come talk to me.. yes I saw your post on the forum. I am here for you. and we all love you here..

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Koko

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I hope the risperdal does the trick and you start feeling better soon. I have to take risperdal too. I always feel a little like a failure when my meds need adjusting, like it's my fault. But I know that it isn't, and I'm doing the responsible thing by taking care of myself and my problems. And you are too.

I know some people may not agree, but when you see the shadows, pray the Lord's Blood to cover them. Bless them, and bind them, and they must flee. Take strength that the Lord will not let them hurt you. My husband sees them too, and we do not agree with the meds, too many side effects. God Bless you!!

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hang on rainy day girl, what you just need is to take the correct dose of medication and that should get you started; I personally think that all this paranoia should not get you scared, you should be used to it already (no medication: no treatment); I sometimes think I'm going to get bad myself, but my wife supports me and my parents too and they are there when I need them, hope yours are too. And dont worry about a thing, I know that by the time you read this you will be feeling better, or else give it time.

Rainydaygirl, God bless you. I wanted to let you know several years ago when I had a very deep,severe depression, I also had hallucinations, and got to the point where I felt I couldn't trust my sensations, but the dr. thought it was from my deep depression and medication plus counseling got me through the worst. I have had problems of this sort off and on all my life, but not until I gave it to God and leaned on Him was I able to have joy in my life. I wanted to let you know this- I will pray for you to find peace.

Hi every one i just joined i was digenose with schizo depression adhd add and a hole lot of things....and im only 13 i dont like being put into hospitals or wat me and my friends call them Land of the spongey walls...is u have eny advise for me id greatly appetioted it<<<<i cant spell>>>>>

Andi

hello Andi. this is Mr.X. how are you doing? i have some questions for you. since you are only 13 i need to get a little feed back before i can give my best advice. how long did it take for you to be diagnosed?
what medications do they have you on? are you getting out of touch of reality here and there?if you are on medication have you had any added symptoms?

right now my advice to you is to co-operate with your doctors, and it takes time and patience to see any good signs of recovery. schizophrenia is no joke, if you aren't closely examined by the proper medical staff and you dont co-operate with them, the worst can happen. heres somethign that will help you understand a little more.

1 person out of every 100 people have schizophrenia.
1 person out of every 10 who have schizophrenia kill themselves! ............................reasons:

-refusing to take medication
-hiding their symptoms
-not detecting it in the early stages
-lives independantly...by themselves all the time
-schizophrenia mixed with depression

so you can only imagine what can happen by just simply not taking meds or not listening to your docs.as young as you are,which is rare,these battles with the meds and docs are more common than lets say an adult. so please, if your doc gives you meds, take them. that is all.
Respectfully,
Mr.X.

Rainydaygirl, how ya doing? I feel for you, as I experienced exactly the same as you a while ago - your description of the shadow is identical to mine! Except for the colour of the eyes (mine was all dark). He also wore an ankle-length cloak, that covered his head (like Little Red Riding Hood). How wierd is that? For many, many months I felt strong evil around this being, and it told me to do all sorts of very strange things - I found myself being drawn to explore and indulge in stuff I normally wouldn't read or take seriously, and I actually became someone I wouldn't fully recognise today (although there are times recently when I just don't know anymore?). The worst was when I came out of a stupor and found I'd cut my wrists with a breadknife - believing the voices told me to do so. That was when I saw my first shrink, and he dismissed it all as merely depression, and didn't suggest I go any further with it? 5 Months ago I saw a psych, who prescribed seroquel, but never told me my diagnosis. I'm not sure if I'm sz. The voices etc went for a while, but in the past month I'm hearing things again, and just the other day was convinced for a while that my lampshade had become a human being?? I never took up the prescription - is it possible that the previous experience was sz, and if so that the symtoms could go without medication. I remained severely depressed, and suspicious of most people. In the past month I've pretty much isolated myself, want to see none of my old friends, lost interest in everything, and am paranoid about anyone and everyone. I believe they're all out to get me (I mean, I see lampshades as humans??). And I quite like the voices - they're somewhat entertaining (although I don't hear them all the time). AM I SZ?? Or just depressed? Or just very wierd?? The psych did say I was clinically depressed, but left it at that - but seroquel would surely not be prescribed just for clinical depression? And what of Little Red Riding Hood?

You all are very understanding....please read my post brother hearing God's voice....Please help me to understand this and to be a supportive family member that all of you seem to have.....I know i sound harsh and hysterical...I'm just very confused...

Rainydaygirl- I believe if you call on God..He will protect you also...or if you give anything the satisfaction of fear that will only make it stronger...Stay strong in the fact that you are a very loving peaceful person...this is your strength...This is only my two cents, I am new at this and I don't understand alot, but I am open minded and willing to learn.

Some shadows are angels in disquise. Just like a soldier infiltrating among enemies... the soldier will try to "blend" in to the surroundings. I would NOT take EVERYTHING that looked evil as being evil. Just conclude that the shadow is there watching over you; afterall, it hasn't done anything to harm you. Once it thinks you're alright, it'll move on to the next needing soul!

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