I am not craving it, I am doing well. Although I have a migraine today I am feeling great about life. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif I guess it is really nice to have a decent outlook on life. When I was smoking pot as much as I was it seemed to alter my outlook on life. I am seeing this a lot with my husband. For example yesterday:

I had a really challenging day at work, then I went to school for another 3 hours. I was exhausted a the end of the day to get home and have to shovel the snow off the sidewalks and then have to leave to return the movie that was due back. The last things that I wanted to do, but they had to get done. Now 3 weeks ago I would have just left the sidewalks for my husband and left the movie for another day. But I did it all because I should have. My husband had to work overtime and he got home after me. So he returned home after a challenging day at work and was all grumpy. SO he had his 'smoke' to relax and then mellowed out. It didn't necessarily change his attitude, but it made him feel a little better. SO I am noticing that after a similarily hard day I have an attitude like "I feel rewarded that I got through the day and I will be a better person because of it", and his attitude is that "I had a crappy day and I just wanna crawl into a hole". It is nice to see this. Not his attitude, but to see what pot does to people. This makes me want ot stay away from it even more!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Thanks for listening

Dear Jes,

I'm so glad you're doing good! Isn't it funny to see someone else's perspective of all aspects of life when they are stoned?

We're doing better, too. I guess you read about our two "slip-ups", but it's over and done with, hopefully for good. My hubby told his "friend" not to call us with any more freebies, that our 20 year struggle has to come to an end. It's one aspect of guilt that I don't have to live with, and it's wonderful. Not that I don't crave it, I do, but I'm proud of myself for living my life without pot. SNOW? Ughhh. I hope to not see that for awhile! We're in Pennsylvania, eastern side......... Keep me posted, ok? I feel better knowing others are winning their battles. Take good care of yourself, and your husband, too. He'll see the light, someday.

Jes,

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Victoria,

Thanks for chatting with me about this. It is nice to see that I am not alone here. I am doing well. Remember I live in Canada so we have snow here more often than you guys in the States!:P Oh well, it is nice to have snow for Christmas shopping, puts me in the mood. Actually the Christmas spirit is a great diversion for me right now. I haven't even thought of smoking in the last week or so. It is funny, I am in school part-time evenings, and I am all of a sudden doing much better - coincidence? http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/confused.gif I think not!!!

So how are you doing? Yes I heard about your couple of slip ups. Don't hang yourself on them for too long. Look forward not backwards. I know you can do it. Just put your mind to it. I am glad that your husband is letting your "friend" know that you don't want the freebies, but it will be hard to get that guy off your back. He doesn't want to lose your business. You and him wil lhave to be strong. Best of luck. Keep me posted.

Jes

Originally posted by Jester:
Victoria,

Thanks for chatting with me about this. It is nice to see that I am not alone here. I am doing well. Remember I live in Canada so we have snow here more often than you guys in the States!:P Oh well, it is nice to have snow for Christmas shopping, puts me in the mood. Actually the Christmas spirit is a great diversion for me right now. I haven't even thought of smoking in the last week or so. It is funny, I am in school part-time evenings, and I am all of a sudden doing much better - coincidence? http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/confused.gif I think not!!!

So how are you doing? Yes I heard about your couple of slip ups. Don't hang yourself on them for too long. Look forward not backwards. I know you can do it. Just put your mind to it. I am glad that your husband is letting your "friend" know that you don't want the freebies, but it will be hard to get that guy off your back. He doesn't want to lose your business. You and him wil lhave to be strong. Best of luck. Keep me posted.

Jes

Hi Jes, and Victoria I'm new to message boards but it's good to contact other people who are stopping using pot. I havn't smoked now for 30 hours the longest I've gone for about a year when I last tried to quit. I'm a long term smoker 25 years + all day, every day but have decided that I owe it to myself to live the next half of my life in some form of reality. I'm doing ok but am alternating between feeling happy to have a clear head, and a big feeling of missing somthing. possibly the nicotine content that is always there. I work by myself at home and am pretty isolated without many friends. those friends that I do have are smokers. Most people I am in contact with don't know or couldn't guess that I have had this problem. So it is a relief to feel somehow honest with myself; I'm straight and at the moment that feels alright. I'm doing plenty of yoga and that really helps. I have my motivation right out there in front of me I would like a loving relationship and to fufill all my potential in this life Pot has isolated me and put a cap on my abilities. Hey Victoria I saw some of your previous messages about how you use pot to focus and get things done I know that one It does buzz me up especially with coffee last time I quit I was really tired for a couple of weeks. In the end I went back because I couldn't handle my emotions anger, fear, and sadness. I went to an MA meeting there is a small chapter here in London but Imediately afterward I went and scored I don't really like the twelve step program But I like the idea of the support from a board like this.
sorry to go on for a bit but it helps. looking forward to hearing from you guys and other ex pot heads who need support

All the best James

Hey -

Sorry - but I'm new to this board and I can't believe I'm here but I have the same issues as many of the people who have posted here today. So if anyone is out there who has a problem with killers - please reply. (not sure if this will even post)
Chris



I am not craving it, I am doing well. Although I have a migraine today I am feeling great about life. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif I guess it is really nice to have a decent outlook on life. When I was smoking pot as much as I was it seemed to alter my outlook on life. I am seeing this a lot with my husband. For example yesterday:

I had a really challenging day at work, then I went to school for another 3 hours. I was exhausted a the end of the day to get home and have to shovel the snow off the sidewalks and then have to leave to return the movie that was due back. The last things that I wanted to do, but they had to get done. Now 3 weeks ago I would have just left the sidewalks for my husband and left the movie for another day. But I did it all because I should have. My husband had to work overtime and he got home after me. So he returned home after a challenging day at work and was all grumpy. SO he had his 'smoke' to relax and then mellowed out. It didn't necessarily change his attitude, but it made him feel a little better. SO I am noticing that after a similarily hard day I have an attitude like "I feel rewarded that I got through the day and I will be a better person because of it", and his attitude is that "I had a crappy day and I just wanna crawl into a hole". It is nice to see this. Not his attitude, but to see what pot does to people. This makes me want ot stay away from it even more!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Thanks for listening

Hey All

Anyone out there who has a problem with PAINKILLER'S???

I'm new at this but I'm in the same boat as anyone who is struggling with this. REPLY NOW - if anyone wants to chat.

CHRIS

Chris,

There are LOADS of us out here, with Painkiller problems, read almost any post on this board...

welcome :wave: this is an awesome place to rant rave vent scream and beat you addictions as well as find some awesome friends...

Angel :angel:

Thanks - I know it. I can't believe that I'm on here. Not embarrased just surprised. But you are absolutely right about ranting and raving. I need to do a little of that with those who understands what its like to have the grip on them. They've got me on Subutex now and it helps a lot. I still drift off at times but nothing like before.

Chris