Hi all,I've been gone awhile.I tried to find my old post,but couldnt.To squirrel: I read the book by Sylvia Brown.It was very interesting but I had more questions after I read the book.If we write our own chart,I want an eraser FAST!!! I would recommend others reading it.Thankyou for suggesting it.I hope you as well as others here are doing good.You are all in my prayers! I had my last arms surgery and all went well(so far) Its only been 2 weeks.But the important thing is that I didnt lose my one arm.Now for the brighter news hahahaha,I have a huge mass in my belly.Im seeing a surgeon next week.Im a urostomy(no bladder)so it could be a stomal hernia.Lets pray that thats all it is.I cant go thru another cancer episode(been there twice done that twice dont want to go thru it all again)It will be a huge surgery being the hernia.On the drug front,Im still at 150 ES vico(which was 190 amonth)On 50 pers(which was 100 amonth)NO extra vico during the months and No dilaided shots.Im still very suicidal,but I have alittle hope in my heart. Be well,be happy and be at peace...hugs,sue

Hi Sue,
Glad to see you back here and hanging in there. I'm glad your op went well and you kept your arm. I hope the mass turns out to be ok, heres hoping for you. I will try and get that book myself.
For me, I am still addicted to sleeping pills(temazepam) and codeine for a neck injury. Your posts really did help me try alot harder, so thankyou. It helps to hear of someone with so much to bear doing so well despite this. Keep updating things here and take care,
Mel