BWL
07-27-2003, 02:33 PM
Hello My Friends,
My apologies for my prolonged and continuing absence. I wanted to touch base and come clean a bit about the past months. I've been grappling with a fairly serious depression that began months before surgery, but was briefly in remission with my ACDF adrenaline rush.
Well, the depression came back with a vengeance and making it to and from work is about my limit and at this point I am considering a brief sabbatical to get things under control. I have had depressive and hypo-manic issues for over 25 years (although you wouldn't know it) and pretty much know the routine, but this one just caught me off guard. I recognized my 100 hour work weeks that kept me off line as manic epsiodes, but chose to not ackowledge them and just took advantage of the rush. Me smart, although I did get a great deal accomplished. :)
I miss all of you and the day doesn't go by when you aren't in my thoughts. Joanne, Sandra, Teri, Debbie, Mel, Keith, Catherine w/a C, Sher, Winged...I can go on, but fear leaving someone out. Umm, too late.
I hope all of you are doing well as I will soon be too. My neck is fine, although my arm is still weak. With this I can live.
My love to all....Be Well, :wave:
Bruce
PS Teri - I'm digging for some good vibes to send you. Be strong my fine tethered friend.
[This message has been edited by BWL (edited 07-27-2003).]
My apologies for my prolonged and continuing absence. I wanted to touch base and come clean a bit about the past months. I've been grappling with a fairly serious depression that began months before surgery, but was briefly in remission with my ACDF adrenaline rush.
Well, the depression came back with a vengeance and making it to and from work is about my limit and at this point I am considering a brief sabbatical to get things under control. I have had depressive and hypo-manic issues for over 25 years (although you wouldn't know it) and pretty much know the routine, but this one just caught me off guard. I recognized my 100 hour work weeks that kept me off line as manic epsiodes, but chose to not ackowledge them and just took advantage of the rush. Me smart, although I did get a great deal accomplished. :)
I miss all of you and the day doesn't go by when you aren't in my thoughts. Joanne, Sandra, Teri, Debbie, Mel, Keith, Catherine w/a C, Sher, Winged...I can go on, but fear leaving someone out. Umm, too late.
I hope all of you are doing well as I will soon be too. My neck is fine, although my arm is still weak. With this I can live.
My love to all....Be Well, :wave:
Bruce
PS Teri - I'm digging for some good vibes to send you. Be strong my fine tethered friend.
[This message has been edited by BWL (edited 07-27-2003).]
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Bellybuttonlover
07-27-2003, 05:01 PM
Bruce!!!
So sorry to hear about your struggles!
Know that you can always come here!
Glad you took the time to jot us!
You know you have been missed!!
Remember to touch your scar & smile!!
BBL
(BWOK!)
So sorry to hear about your struggles!
Know that you can always come here!
Glad you took the time to jot us!
You know you have been missed!!
Remember to touch your scar & smile!!
BBL
(BWOK!)
joprud
07-27-2003, 08:13 PM
Woo Hoo http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dance.gif :bouncing: http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dance.gif :bouncing:
BRUCE.....MY BUDDY....YOU”RE BACK....you better believe you weren’t forgotten...if ya searched you’re name you’d see how often you were asked about/remembered/worried about.
I’m so, so sorry you’ve been going through such a rough time...I’ve gone through a couple of serious depressions in my lifetime too...they can be a tough beast to battle...But I have NO DOUBT in my mind that you, my bud, are tougher...Trust me...If I can beat the beast...YOU CAN...and I know you will...Please try to let us help ya though...You know we live for helpin’ each other...Keeps our minds off our own worries...And you gotta know how much we love ya and WANNA help...Besides...if we get ya feelin’ better we benefit as well ‘cause we will then get to enjoy your awesome sense of humor...and your incredible spirit.
Tell ya what...why don’t you drop in and visit in the Back Room...We’ll grab some Timmy’s coffee (or your beverage of choice)...we can all have a good chat...We’ll see if the “Cervie People” can add you to their Tour Group { I’m sure they will} (our buddy Keith is a member, and we have Harvey, a firefighter, as well...amongst others) { Wow girls this tour is sounding better and better all the time eh? }
~~~~ DROOL~~~~~ ................................
Oh sorry ~~sigh~~ was off dreamin’ !! .... Anyhoo...I think you’d really love it in the Back Room...So why not pop in and give it a try...great people...great fun...great times...tons of laughs...just your cup o’ tea!!
OH Yeah....and how could I forget....LOTS of Bellybutton touching :D
Yahoo...your back..... ;) Sooner or later it’ll happen....ya know you’ll be sucked back into our little vortex....hopefully it’ll be sooner!!
You sure have brightened my day...I so wish I could do the same for you!!
You’ve REALLY been missed,
Joanne
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BRUCE.....MY BUDDY....YOU”RE BACK....you better believe you weren’t forgotten...if ya searched you’re name you’d see how often you were asked about/remembered/worried about.
I’m so, so sorry you’ve been going through such a rough time...I’ve gone through a couple of serious depressions in my lifetime too...they can be a tough beast to battle...But I have NO DOUBT in my mind that you, my bud, are tougher...Trust me...If I can beat the beast...YOU CAN...and I know you will...Please try to let us help ya though...You know we live for helpin’ each other...Keeps our minds off our own worries...And you gotta know how much we love ya and WANNA help...Besides...if we get ya feelin’ better we benefit as well ‘cause we will then get to enjoy your awesome sense of humor...and your incredible spirit.
Tell ya what...why don’t you drop in and visit in the Back Room...We’ll grab some Timmy’s coffee (or your beverage of choice)...we can all have a good chat...We’ll see if the “Cervie People” can add you to their Tour Group { I’m sure they will} (our buddy Keith is a member, and we have Harvey, a firefighter, as well...amongst others) { Wow girls this tour is sounding better and better all the time eh? }
~~~~ DROOL~~~~~ ................................
Oh sorry ~~sigh~~ was off dreamin’ !! .... Anyhoo...I think you’d really love it in the Back Room...So why not pop in and give it a try...great people...great fun...great times...tons of laughs...just your cup o’ tea!!
OH Yeah....and how could I forget....LOTS of Bellybutton touching :D
Yahoo...your back..... ;) Sooner or later it’ll happen....ya know you’ll be sucked back into our little vortex....hopefully it’ll be sooner!!
You sure have brightened my day...I so wish I could do the same for you!!
You’ve REALLY been missed,
Joanne
[This message has been edited by joprud (edited 07-28-2003).]
KeithEugeneW
07-27-2003, 09:50 PM
Bruce,
It's really great to hear from you, I've missed your humor and thoughts. I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through some tough times again, but rest assured like Joanne said, we're here for you always as you have been for us.
Hey, by the way, my sweet corn is going to be ready for picking in about another week to 10 days. Got green beens, along with zuccini, potatos and onions already, so it looks like I've lived up to my farmer Keith image while you were away. Cucumbers, wax beans, melon squash, summer squash and tomatoes will be coming along soon. If you get out of the city for a break and come up in the Watertown/Thousand Islands way, I'll send you home with some good fresh eats! Take care old pal. :D
Keith
It's really great to hear from you, I've missed your humor and thoughts. I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through some tough times again, but rest assured like Joanne said, we're here for you always as you have been for us.
Hey, by the way, my sweet corn is going to be ready for picking in about another week to 10 days. Got green beens, along with zuccini, potatos and onions already, so it looks like I've lived up to my farmer Keith image while you were away. Cucumbers, wax beans, melon squash, summer squash and tomatoes will be coming along soon. If you get out of the city for a break and come up in the Watertown/Thousand Islands way, I'll send you home with some good fresh eats! Take care old pal. :D
Keith
Debbie2
07-28-2003, 11:27 PM
Ah my long lost twin brother... gosh Bruce, it's just amazing seeing this post. Was on vacation and trying to catch up... it's not been easy. Going through Chemo (with a friend) for the second time. Yes, depression is an ugly creature. But you've got so much going for you... I know you will be just fine. You hear that!
Honest, I was just thinking about posting some smart little remark about an old friend ... "think his name was Bruce" and saw your post. Can't even begin to tell you how it made me smile... heck it made my day. Your humor is sorely missed friend!
Please know we, as always, are here for you. As you were for so many of us!
You're just a sweet heart Bruce, thanks for touching base.
:D
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Debbie2
ACDF fusion (c5c6) with titanium plate and screws using donor bone -
September 4, 2002.
Honest, I was just thinking about posting some smart little remark about an old friend ... "think his name was Bruce" and saw your post. Can't even begin to tell you how it made me smile... heck it made my day. Your humor is sorely missed friend!
Please know we, as always, are here for you. As you were for so many of us!
You're just a sweet heart Bruce, thanks for touching base.
:D
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Debbie2
ACDF fusion (c5c6) with titanium plate and screws using donor bone -
September 4, 2002.
jbell95
07-29-2003, 02:46 AM
Hello Bruce,
I was stopping by to check on things and I see that you've posted. I'm sorry to hear about your latest struggles. I have bipolar disorder as well and know how things get. Wishing you a quick rebound. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/jester.gif
I was stopping by to check on things and I see that you've posted. I'm sorry to hear about your latest struggles. I have bipolar disorder as well and know how things get. Wishing you a quick rebound. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/jester.gif
TropicalFox
07-29-2003, 07:25 PM
hello sweetie,
soooooooooooooo great to "see" you again D
soooooooooooooo sad to see that you're having such a hard time...
depression is something i am all too familiar with... until i saw an oprah show about 10 years ago i had no idea that what i had lived for over 25 years was a life filled to the brim with depression!
then (in 1992) i decided to deal with it and started going to meetings of a very good support group that dealt with codependence... it's a great 12 step program and i "raduated" with flying colors... to the point where i created a satellite group and chaired it for almost 2 years... little did i know how important it was for me to have started to take care of myself in 1992... those simple meetings and dealing with creating my own in december of 1993 played an important role in helping me deal with the death of my husband in january of 1994...
i believe that there is a reason for every little thing that happens to us, every person we meet, every decision we make...
you are here posting on this healthboard, helping people to deal with pain and uncertainty, giving of your heart and precious time to help others...
believe me hon, there is a purpose for this and until it is revealed to you, please take this humongous hug and a big smooch on your cheek as a token of my eternal gratitude for your kindness in taking me under your wing when i was most desperate...
you will have your reward, in God's time...
hugs http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/love2.gif
sandra
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" In the middle of every ocean of difficulty is an island of opportunity."
Author Unknown
soooooooooooooo great to "see" you again D
soooooooooooooo sad to see that you're having such a hard time...
depression is something i am all too familiar with... until i saw an oprah show about 10 years ago i had no idea that what i had lived for over 25 years was a life filled to the brim with depression!
then (in 1992) i decided to deal with it and started going to meetings of a very good support group that dealt with codependence... it's a great 12 step program and i "raduated" with flying colors... to the point where i created a satellite group and chaired it for almost 2 years... little did i know how important it was for me to have started to take care of myself in 1992... those simple meetings and dealing with creating my own in december of 1993 played an important role in helping me deal with the death of my husband in january of 1994...
i believe that there is a reason for every little thing that happens to us, every person we meet, every decision we make...
you are here posting on this healthboard, helping people to deal with pain and uncertainty, giving of your heart and precious time to help others...
believe me hon, there is a purpose for this and until it is revealed to you, please take this humongous hug and a big smooch on your cheek as a token of my eternal gratitude for your kindness in taking me under your wing when i was most desperate...
you will have your reward, in God's time...
hugs http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/love2.gif
sandra
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" In the middle of every ocean of difficulty is an island of opportunity."
Author Unknown
Mellie888
07-30-2003, 09:21 AM
Hi Bruce,
I don't know if you remember me, but we had our surgeries very close together. I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through. I didn't correspond as much on this board, but I read a lot and you helped me tremendously with your support and encouragement. Hang in there!!
I don't know if you remember me, but we had our surgeries very close together. I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through. I didn't correspond as much on this board, but I read a lot and you helped me tremendously with your support and encouragement. Hang in there!!
Debbie2
07-30-2003, 09:19 PM
Hey Bruce,
Still have you in my thoughts and prayers! :)
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Debbie2
ACDF fusion (c5c6) with titanium plate and screws using donor bone -
September 4, 2002.
Still have you in my thoughts and prayers! :)
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Debbie2
ACDF fusion (c5c6) with titanium plate and screws using donor bone -
September 4, 2002.
magtize
07-31-2003, 01:16 AM
Bruce
Wanted to let you know that you are not alone.The best thing you can do is stay in touch.We are here for you Let it out and we will listen.
You will be added to my prayer list
Wanted to let you know that you are not alone.The best thing you can do is stay in touch.We are here for you Let it out and we will listen.
You will be added to my prayer list