Alright every 1 post the symptoms you expierience and how often

I have a constant tickle in my throat. The doctor can't find a cause and believes it is anxiety related. It seems as though it gets worse when I have a lot of stress in my life.
I also get dizzy a lot.

I worry about everything
My brain won't shut up, especially at night when I'm trying to sleep (and it's stupid stuff like, "What was that song?"
I'm nervous
I think I have OCD
I can't really relax
etc....
I just started Paxil CR 5 days ago...

I dunno.. but right now, at this very minuter. (It doesn't even feel real that I am typing right now).
I am experiencing VERY STRONG DEREALIZATION or something. I might as well be rotting on the floor right now. I'm scared! nothing seems real!

TENSION!!
In my back,neck,I worry about everything all the
time too! I have osteoporosis, anorexia,
ocd & my mother is dying of cancer!
Thank God for Paxil & Klonopin or I would
be in the rubber room or dead!!!
Nuzzler

Every Symptom??? The board isn't big enough! LOL

Difficulty breathing (the more I think about it the harder it becomes)
Light headness - dizzy
Pressure in my head ( as if I't going to explode at any minute)
Red Face
Tingling all over my body
Pains in my chest and back and everywhere else.
Lump in my throat
Itchy head (INSIDE)
Headaches
Fast Heartbeat
Hot feeling starts at my toes and works it's way up
You name it! WHY do you ask are you looking for something particualar?
Healy

Healingmylife - Ever had your thyroid checked?

Gregula - I experienced your symptoms.
* A zillion thoughts
* Loss of sleep
* A zillion more thoughts
* Irritability
* Worry
* Mountains out of molehills
* Always always doing something
* Can't relax - unless I have exercised to exhaustion
* People pleasing
* Rehearsing conversations before and after they occur

Originally posted by hangtenvetter:
Healingmylife - Ever had your thyroid checked?

Gregula - I experienced your symptoms.
* A zillion thoughts
* Loss of sleep
* A zillion more thoughts
* Irritability
* Worry
* Mountains out of molehills
* Always always doing something
* Can't relax - unless I have exercised to exhaustion
* People pleasing
* Rehearsing conversations before and after they occur


This is sooooo weird. I could have written that myself. And the weirdest is the conversation rehersal. Before and after. I do that too.!!! I can NEVER relax! And, I can hardly sit still for a tv show. I am constantly jumping up doing things. I am always doing something but never seem to be accomplishing anything. I keep telling myself once I get this one more thing done then I can relax and be happy, but I never ever get done. I am on Lexapro. It helps. What are you on Hangten?



[This message has been edited by Citykittie (edited 05-19-2003).]

yeah this would be a long list...

headaches,that shaky head feeling sometimes, constant worry that im dieing of SOMETHING, difficulty breathing, palpitations,my stomach muscles tighten on thier own.<like when you do a situp crunch>its been doing it for 3 months now, and i know this is wierd but does anyone else have to FEEL thier heart beating to feel ok??
i do even to the point of being completely still to be able to feel it sometimes..
when i have an attack its usually,, difficulty breathing, heart palpitations,sweating and chills at the same time, unreal feeling,tingling, pains,weakness,and of course the thought that im dieing
and of course searching the web for symptoms is a bad thing because it makes you think you have everything you run across haha

- shaking hands
- shaking head
- excessive sweating
- feeling anxious, inferior, awful

When? Only when I'm around other people.

Most severe symptoms:
Fear of losing control
Fear of passing out
Fear of having a heart attack
Fear of dying

Most commom symptoms:
nervousness
going over things in my head over and over again
difficulty swallowing or breathing
very difficult to relax (I go, go, go all day long without a problem and then BANG!... most of my attacks happen in the evening when I am finally trying to relax)

I also experience a fear of choking and often have a "nervous" cough ... very embarrasing because I get nervous that I can't stop it or control it which causes me to cough more. I hate when this happens!

Most of the time I am a strong, independent, good natured gal, other times I am a complete mess!

-racing thoughts
-before/after conversation rehersal/fantisizing (good way to put it, thanks)
-dwelling on past conversations
-fear of unknown concerning driving or social situations
-Cant concentrate on what im saying when i'm saying it
-cant think of the words i want to use
-check things (like the oven, garage door or my teeth/nose)
-day dream/low concentration
-somewhat of a bacteria phobia
-non-noticable, light panic attacks when speaking to strangers or in crowded areas.

Most of this stuff is daily except the panic attacks which is not real often. Do ya think i'm a candidate for Paxil? My doc gave it to me, but i'm too chicken to try it.

CityKittie - Yeah I can relate to the "if I get that done then everything will be together... then I can relax." Only once I finish one thing, then its off to the next. I do accomplish things but hardly get a sense of satisfaction. The conversation thing is particularly odd, huh? I can go through conversations that occured days and days ago. Usually I am trying to figure out if I could have unwittingly offended somebody. Or I think about another way I could have said what I said to be more clever or more clear. If I am going to approach somebody that I am a little uncomfortable with I may spend a couple days and nights going through what they might say and how I might respond. I also sometimes have fantasy conversations. I also go through these posts in my head at later times and wonder if I came off as I intended. I have a problem with gaining approval and get a sense of dread if I have possibly offended a stranger. This social anxiety keeps me away from groups. Although if I am in a group, everybody thinks I'm cool, well collected and funny. If they only knew! To answer your question, I am on Wellbutrin, Lexapro and Remeron. I call it the "Wellexeron Cocktail". It has been quite life changing for me.

Raynie - I can relate to the loss of concentration while I am speaking. My thoughts bounce about and I see a fork in the road in my logic. I stop, gather my decision on where to go in the conversation, then that brings another branch, then I diddle in my head, then suddenly I am thinking of something quite different, yet related in some inexplicable way, then I just stammer... and say, "What was I talking about?" This also occurs with the words I choose. I am always looking for the perfect word to describe a situation or object, and quite often it slips. I sit there and try to think of the word causing staggered choppy sentences. I have had stage fright feelings around people. For the longest time I couldn't even read outloud as it made me quite anxious. What is really strange is that I couldn't even read aloud alone. I get real anxious when I try to describe something to somebody smarter than me about a technical issue that I am a little unsure of. I end up speaking real fast and nervously.

[This message has been edited by hangtenvetter (edited 05-19-2003).]

Hang,
Yes, I have had my thyroid checked recently and it was normal. Why?
Healy

Healy - Your symptoms just seemed akin to a thyroid disorder. I just thought maybe. The doc had mine checked too. It was normal as well. I got a book from the library, tonight actually, called "The Thyroid Solution." I also got two others on obsession compulsion disorders (OCD). I am still trying to figure out what is wrong with myself.

Rainie - You might want to post on the Obsession Compulsion Disorder (OCD) group. They might be able to help you. I don't know about Paxil, sorry.

Hangten, well it feels good to know there is someone else like me. What a cocktail you are on.

I was wondering if someimes you forget simple words? My whole conversation will come to a standstill sometimes over a simple word. And I was also wondering do you find comfort in repeating things. Like watching the same movie over and over or eating a certain food over and over. I only ask because I am watching Dumb and Dumber for the 4th time in like 3 days.

Also about your meds. Did you start them all at once? Can you explain maybe what each one has done for you? If you can seperate what they do differently?



[This message has been edited by Citykittie (edited 05-20-2003).]

Raynie, I can relate.

I forget such simple words. I will be talking and my mind goes blank. I feel this panic as it seems my mind is almost searching for the word. Most of the time people say the word for me. And I just laugh it off outloud while inside I am wondering if I am going nuts.

Words forgotten recently: laundry basket, cole slaw, principle. As in "its the principle of it."

Yeah, city, i forget the simplest of words too when in conversation. Then right after words when i'm alone i remember them and then some. Sucks.

CityKittie- Yep. My conversation will come to a halt when trying to find a word. It happens all the time. I don't, however, find comfort in repeating things. I get stimulated by things that are new. This fact leads me to believe that I may not have OCD.
The meds. Yep. I started them all at once. I had never taken a med before, and there I was freaking out while taking my first few doses. I had no idea what was going to happen to me. Thankfully the meds are working pretty good for the most part. I can't really tell you what drug does what from my standpoint. I am guessing the Lexapro calms me, the Wellbutrin stimulates me and the Remeron makes sure I can sleep. But truthfully I do not know. It's a magical cocktail.

I am going to post this in another thread, but I had the weirdest side effect today. I sat down at my desk and the screen saver was up. It was one of those pattern thingies. I hit the mouse and the screensaver stopped, then suddenly it was if I had seen a sun flare or something. Like somebody had snapped a camera flash at me. I was blinded for a moment. Then there were spots in the pattern of the screensaver. I sat there for a second, then I realized that it was only -one- eye that had undergone this sun-flare effect. It was so bad that I figured something was just in my eye. So I went to the restroom and washed my eye. I could close the good eye and the room was all distorted in this screensaver-flare pattern. It lasted about 15 minutes and it was over. It didn't scare me. Actually it was kinda fun. Strange, no?

Raynie- It does suck, doesn't it. I end up mulling over the conversations and choose better words than I chose during the actual conversation.

-thoughts always racing
-can't concentrate on conversations i'm having with other people
-can't think of the words i want to say when they need to b said
-very short attention span
-always look at watch when wearing one
-biting nails
-swinging legs
-twirling hair
-scratching head
-drawing/doodling all the time
-always thinking about my past and what i should've done to make it different
-always thinking about how i threw so much to the wind......regretting my past.....hope that goes away with time
-envy other people for how happy and beautiful they are(gets in the way of my own happiness)
-worry about if peopl e are looking at me or what i look like
-always trying to correct posture, feel like i'm slouching down to the floor
-always apologizing for stupid stuff
-cynical-ish ( i don't even know if that's the right word)
most of these just happen when i'm around other people.......when i'm by myself i seem to be just fine........i'm probably going to be the crazy lady with 100 cats when i get older.. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wink.gif....

do i have a disorder?

wow....reading my own post over again made me feel uncomfortable......i'm sorry if it made anyone else feel that way....i don't know how to delete it now that it's up there.....

http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif HAHAHAHAHAH.........i just realized what i just did!
(make sense??)

lol don't worry about it im sure people will not open this topic if they dont wana read about others symptoms

What about physical symptoms guys like headaches,abdominal pain or stuff like that...

Gregula - I experienced your symptoms.
* A zillion thoughts
* Loss of sleep
* A zillion more thoughts
* Irritability
* Worry
* Mountains out of molehills
* Always always doing something
* Can't relax - unless I have exercised to exhaustion
* People pleasing
* Rehearsing conversations before and after they occur

YEP all of these!!
I'm on Paxil, seems to maybe be wrking, but I'm not sure.. I have been sleeping better.. I go back to doc tomorrow.. wonder If I'll be put on somethin else..

i get headaches when i think too much, sometimes it makes me feel nauseous.......my back hurts a lot, but i think i have scoliosis (did i mention i'm a hypochondriac? http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wink.gif)

How exactly do you find out if you are hypochondriac?
and you guys still havnt wrote much about physical symptoms only emotional symptoms....

Gregula - Good luck. I'm glad the paxil is working some.

Windtrooper - I don't have many physiological symptoms unless you count loss of sleep and constant motion. I don't have headaches, stomach problems, heart trouble or anything like that. Well I suppose I have some type of skin rash that I can feel brewing while under stress. The next day, the rash will break. I quickly put this hydrocortisone stuff on it, and then it disappears fairly quick.

Lovebug - Your post didn't in any offend me. I was trying to figure out what could have been offensive about it. Feel free to be yourself here. You are in company with some people who are as worried about offending you as you are about offending us. Examples: I hope that I didn't offend anyone by making a general statement on how you might feel when I don't know how you really feel. I hope I didn't offend anybody that I wrote to Lovebug, Windtrooper and Gregula and not you personally. I meant it for all, just trying to respond individually. Don't mean to be exclusionary... Oh my! Forgive me Healthboards.com! Oh, in case you are not worried about offending us, I am sorry that I took liberty in assuming that you would be worried about being offended. Are you now offended? Should I post this? Oh what the heck...

http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

wow isn't it weird how alot of us are experiencing the forgetting a word. I mean who else does that? How often are you listening to someone and they just stop mid sentence and you have to tell them the word they are struggeling with. It never happens to me. I am always the one looking like an idiot. And you know I don't seem to ever forget them when I am typing. Just talking. I am going to mention this to my counselor.

Okay now who after reading this list has developed "new" symptoms http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

I don't like to read to many other symptoms as I've been known to go and then develop those very ones....but actually mine are pretty classic like:

irritability
lact of concentration
skin sensations
light-headedness
tight chest
muscle weakness
nervousness

What does this tight chest feel like

All of these sound so familiar, but do any of you ever stress over having schizo or something. That's what I'm going through lately. Half the time I don't feel like I'm having a panic attack, but most of my symptoms are there all the time. Now they seem to be getting worse. I question what is real and what's not. Is this normal or should I look into something else?

ok the Rehearsing conversations before and after they occur FREAKS ME OUT! i thought i am the nly one that did this! OH MY GOD! just today i had to study and could not get this conversation out of my thoughts....over and over i thought of it..i even dreamed about it( i think i did anyway) the min. i woke up i thought about it again.........WOW! did anyone ever ask a Dr. about this? what did they say? please tell me. I would LOVE to know........I DO THIS ALL THE TIME!
i also get
tight chest
thoughts in my head like five at a time. i often feel my mind can not rest.....i am always thinking, thinking and dont now how to stop thinking about "things" the future, the past, even maked up things.like a "what if"

I also FEAR going to a dr because i have a fear of people knowing i am "messed up" but i get panic attack and cant sleep.....so i went to a dr and he put me on paxil..i went back( scared to death i had to go back) and told him i once was on xanix (sp?)and paxil at the same time...so he gave me a few...but he never sat with me and talked to me about this issue.
i am also CRANKY! CRANKY and MOODY! my husband has told me i have changed and always fussy. once he went a WEEK with out talking to me because he was so mad at me for fussing my kids...( i do admit they did not deserve it this hard..but they needed to clean their room dam it! i had told them all day! ha ha)
i just go off!
i can focus, my attention span is like five min. LOL

what will a dr say if i tell him what i told you?

Muslimlady - Pretty freaky, huh. The doctor just told me I had a chemical imbalance and he gave me some medications. I don't have a diagnosis, but think it might be called Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). It is very treatable and people who have it can actually overcome it.

I also feared going to the doctor, mostly because I thought it might hurt my chance of getting a job that required a background check. It is also admitting that I am not altogether. But I am getting better now, and I am very happy I went.

My attention span is fairly long, but my thoughts wonder and I have to constantly refocuse them.

If you are like me, you might be surprised what you'll learn about yourself once you realize how much worry rules your life. Some of my edgy personality was due to lack of sleep, and it is hard to not be cranky when it is so loud in your head. When I started taking the meds, it was like somebody turned down the volume. You could say that there had been this background of noise in my thoughts that had slowly and slowly gotten intrusive. It had been going for so long, I hardly realized it was there until it started taking my sleep away.

Anyways, good luck. Take care! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

i don't know if anybody reads this low on the post but..
my symptoms have changed over the course of time with my experience with anxiety
first they were
headaches
panic attacks
trouble sleeping
ringing in my ears - it seems nobody has this one.
feeling like there is a lump in my throat
-now its basically
a jumpy or electrical like shiver sensation when i hear sudden sounds
trouble sleeping
eyes water a little more
i sometimes avoid social situations a little more.
even a small amount of alcohol gives me headaches and increases my anxiety almost 10 fold, really wierd.



[This message has been edited by krispie (edited 05-28-2003).]

MuslimLady: The conversation thing. I find it comes and goes for me. A couple months ago I found myself going over a conversation I had in 1998 with a customer over the phone. I don't even work there anymore. And I was going into my doctor today and I must have rehearsed the conversation in my head 5 times. It wasn't like I was going into the boss for a raise. This was just a normal conversation that I kept rehearsing.

My own diffiniton of anxiety is "fear of what might happen." so i guess thats why I rehearse things. And going over past conversations - I figure I do because I am a little obsessive.

A doctor will not think bad of you if you tell him this. Depending on how much this and other things effect your life he will probally want to put you on meds. You might research the meds before you go in so you have an understanding of what he is prescribing and can ask questions before you leave.

Here is a question: How many of you have been told by someone close to you "You think too much."?

I was told this by my ex husband and by my new room mate. This was how I began to realize something was wrong with me.

I've been told that "You think to much" by more people than I care to count.
I also have one family memeber that tells me all the time "It's all in your head" and "You could go over this if you wanted to".
As if I want to be this way!!
Needless to say I don't spend to much time with her and if I do, I don't pay an attention to what she says!

Citykittie - Yep, they tell me I think too much. I think they are right. Quantity isn't quality either http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wink.gif It has improved tremendously on the meds.

Usually when I go over a conversation, I try to figure out if what I said could have been offensive. I am convinced that I have offended people on this board too, but I keep writing anyway.

I'll tell you what I thought when I wrote the top paragraph. I'll put my thoughts in <>, angle brackets.

Citykittie -
< Here I think I may have left others out. That I might be seen as trying to form some sort of click. I have used the name with the dash after it many times. I wonder if people find that strange. Some people use a comma, some are more informal, they say "Hi,". Do I come off pretentious? >

Yep, they tell me I think too much. I think they are right.
< Here's where I try to search my self to find out how really true this is. How many people think I think too much? Am I just trying to fit in with the people on the board by identifying with them? They haven't said 'explicitly' that I think too much. They have called me a thinker. Does this mean the same thing? Can I really say that in all honesty? >

Quantity isn't quality either
< Here is where I wonder if you think I talking about myself or talking about you. I meant that for me, but I can see how you might think I am giving you advice. Would giving advice be assuming an authoritarian role.>

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< I was hoping the wink would make it a little lighter. >

It has improved tremendously on the meds.
< Now I worry that I have offended those who choose to take the natural route rather than unnatural meds. >

---> Of course, I could now go through the thoughts. And have thoughts about thoughts... They would go in double angle brackets << thoughts of thoughts >>. This could just go and go and go and go.

Oh well. I gotta sleep. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

PS: I was eating fruit loops the other morning, and the thought came to my head, "You are what you eat." I thought it was a funny thought. Then I said, "Okay, cheerios for breakfast tomorrow."

[This message has been edited by hangtenvetter (edited 05-29-2003).]

Hangten, wow you do think alot. And don't think too much about that! :-)

You know what finally got me over worrying about people thinking about me? One day I thought, "Well, who really gives a flying rats *** about me? Who has time to think that much about me? Who even cares? People have such crazy lives. They are not thinking about me."

And that cured me.

[This message has been edited by Citykittie (edited 05-30-2003).]