Hello board I have been lurking here fro 6 months, I have been addicted to these blasted pills on & off for years, I have quit in the past and lasted for yars then returned. What is different this time?? I do not want to dwell on it nor do I want ot project forward,
for today Iam pill free, day 9. Was it tough yes it was I felt empty like nothing else in my life resltess legs no sleep for a few days.
I heard on this board that Opiates are the best anti depressent known to man and if i could maintain the high and feeling of welling being that i firs got i would take them the rest of my life. I CAN NOT i have tried everything, i do have pain but can deal with it and others can not. Not my business but for me i had to be honest with myself i was addicted, also to alcohol, although I have been free from alcohol for 14 years now. I took my daughters brthday money and bought pills this was it for me I pictured her standing in front of her class on what does your daddy do and sayimng MY DADDY IS AN ADDICT, this tore me up
I am doing this for myself first, it was a wake up call. But I know these pills and they know me i have to get support be honest anad on guard. I wish anyone doing this the best of luck and do not give up it gets better, I had to go cold turkey for me it workd so far I am a single father of a 6 y/o work to much and just wanted relive. ok I have rambled enough good luck god bless and thankl you for being here.

Popeye

Popeye...allow me to congratulate you for your new-found resolve to quit. I am working to do the same and it is such a tuff step to take...just thinking about it is scary.
I admire your will to save your daughter from what could be some horrific times in her growing up years; but be sure you are doing it for you or you could find yourself subconsciously resenting her presence in your life if your struggle becomes too much for you.
Stay with us; I need you and your thoughts just as much as I need my own sobriety. It's hard to reach out and pour out your heart and soul to strangers... anonymous or not. Please keep in touch.


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Gina

Absolutely fantastic! I know, those pills are just something else, aren't they? And it is soooo easy to fall. Your story reminds me of a friend of mine. He, too, was addicted, and his 10 year old daughter and her class took a promise to not get involved with drugs. The class did it in front of all the parents and my friend said he just felt aweful about himself. So he just went cold turkey and hasn't looked back. God bless.

Thnaks and all is ok here day 11 or so , I see people at work nodding from Herion, and people ask me if i want tabs,, it is tough but to hell with it, I have scheduled to sail to cuba next week from florida, this are some of the little rewards i seem to get when i do good things for myself like quit this stuff.

If I can do it all can do it i do know the desperation, the hoplessness, the lack of any vision for the future,,, thanks all

Popeye

No No No... Thank You.

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Gina