i had written a post earlier called "8 days" for the days since I'd made a decision to stop this madness. I am not sure what day I am at now. I know I failed night 6 and night 9 this is probally night 14 or so.

I just went digging for a pill. I have so many prescriptions i have to handwrite on the bottle what they are for. I found a bottle marked "for neck injury" and I popped one. For allI know it is to reduce swelling. Isn't that sad - I get so compulsive I don't care what its for. I hope it is a pain pill. Its called Ultracet.

I pray for all of us just trying to make it through the night (or day).

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I have been there done that and I think many of us have, do not beat your self up, it gets better it gets better and you will weather this storm JUST DO it.

I can say that because I have 11 days now and it sucks at times but much better then day one or two or three. I was and am so emotional, but leveling off with that. Just remember how far you have come and stay in the now,

Bless ya

Popeye

yes, Ultracet is a pain pill. It's a "non-narcotic" one, Ultram, and either aspirin or Tylenol, forget which one mixed in. Anyway, non narcotic is in quotes because they say it's non-narcotic, but if you take enough, it can be.

For anyone reading this, I discourage you from trying it (taking too much). I have taken too many Ultram and wound up in the hospital with a seizure.

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Miss Kittie, I pray for all of us too. Right now I am so mad that I could take a head or two off... of course I won't tho. I've already drank ? beers and it's weird how my anger is making me feel the alcohol much more than I would normally. If I had been attempting sobriety; I have to wonder if what has caused my anger would tempt me back to drinking again.
Honey, at least you have been trying to make an honest attempt to letting go of the drugs. God knows I understand the "need" you have; please try with all you have to make it work... don't give up. Please don't give up.

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Gina