Hi Brynndawn,

I know what you are talking about. I just had a baby 2 months ago and I think I am suffering from PPD. My dx said that I should watch out for it b/c I already have panic and anxiety as it is. This really sucks! A rough 9 months of prego and then I almost bleed to death after a C-section and now this depression. Whatever it is. Lately I just feel hopelessly and just sad out of the blue. I was having a rough time with my baby b/c being a new mom and no one to really help me I was going mad. I had to go to the dx to see if I had asthma b/c I was constantly short on breath. Well what gets me is that for the past couple of days my nieces have stayed with me and I had them take care of her alot and I was soo happy. I could spend some time with my husband and even go visit a friend. All of the sudden I got this panicky feeling just come over me like " now what?" Everything is fine but I felt like this rush of nausea come over me?! I felt like I didn't know what to do next. Do you know what I mean? Being calm and happy put me in a state of panic and anxiety and this scares me. Its like my mind always has to be on alert and doing something for me to feel normal even though I am stressed. I know for us women its a double whammy b/c of our hormones. It really can mess us up.

Anyway, I know I have OCD b/c I am so compulsive about cleaning and putting things back whre theycame from or I get really mad. Everything ties in together.

Do you think you may have a bit of PPD?

Serena

I don't know much about your situation, but i do have panick and anxiety. All I can say is that i hope everything goes well for you.
Sorry I could not help more.
are you on any meds for anxiety?

I'm from Tx too! Do I ever know what you mean! I get those panic attacks at times too, it's mainly when the house is not in order. and what is so strange is to someone else, it might not be "spotless", but to me, as long as things are where I want them to be, then that is all that matters. Today, I had 4 hours to myself so I went to the mall- 1st time in FOREVER, and I had a babysitter for the girls, well let me just tell you, I was almost in an attack while there because I felt like I needed to be with my girls- I could not wait to get home to be with them! Don't feel guilty about your nieces watching them(just as long as they are old enough!), you need your time too. Just realize that babies are only babies once and then they grow up and before you know it, they aren't wanting you around much anymore. I think that I just stress out too easy and I need to chill out! I don't really think I need to be on an anti-depressant, I just think that every now and then I need something to calm me down! I don't yell or anythink like that- it's all inside- like that panicky feeling. But just like today, my housecleaner came and right now everything is in its place and I feel great. Good luck to you and everything will be o.k.